Well what a rough first day home already, I got home from NJ at 4:30 a.m. today. Did some cleaning and then took a nap for an hour and a half then bam wake up for work. By the time I get to work, I find out that we have a field trip today, and that it is all the way by Ann Arbor. Dang it more driving!!! The sad part is that I only got like an hour worth of sleep, yet the other counselors are yawning and just look drained. Ya know I warned them during our first meeting to always get rest, and that is what I learned from last year. Yet they don't listen to me, sheesh.

It was wierd actually driving to work today, after a weekend's worth of riding trains and subways. Yeah, we did a lot of fine dining over there but I know for a fact that we lost a lot of weight since we walked like at least 10 miles a day when we were in NYC. And now I'm looking more forward to CCUC as we both will probably be sporting some new kicks at this year's tournament. Maybe I'll give everyone a sneak peek at v-ball tomorrow as I unveil the Jordan 17's, his most recent shoe. What a deal too, I got them for only $150 and it came with little footie protectors. Thank You Lord for a fun filled, yet draining and nonetheless unforgettable 4th of July weekend. I'll probably say a little more about NYC in little tidbits this week as now I need to hit to what I have to come home to.

Ya know, I sign online to just check some mail, do my blog, and now I need to put up with someone from the Board to give me a 3rd degree about something in which I asked for authorization to do. Everyone excuse me for my language, but ya know one board member will tell me this and yet the other tells me something else on how to handle a situation. Like who do I listen to, and like these peeps make up our CBC leadership and yet they aren't even on the same page. Like they need to get there shit together because as usual it looks like I take the blame because one of them is so fricking old and can't recall what he said to me. It's either a cop out so he don't get blamed or he just too old to remember. Everyone keeps talking to me about there complaints of how CBC is like a democracy or how legalistic they are. And I defend the leaders of CBC, but totally sometimes I just gotta go with the otherside as much as I try to stay neutral. Sometimes they just go a little too far with there power of authority and it just makes me wanna serve and worship elsewhere. Like right now, again I say I wanna sign online and just relax, yet instead I get the 20/20 show to a whole another level. Well now I get this nice little report that's gonna go to the rest of the leadership, in which after reviewing it, of course it seems like I get the blame or that I am the scape goat. Gosh CBC politics gotta love it right? Yeah right I'm sick of this bullshit, but what can I do, maintain my bad boy image, heheh? Like if I made a mistake or that I'm wrong, yeah I can own up to it, because that is how we learn, through our mistakes. But dude some members have like expectations on us that we are all fricking perfect. I still wonder which fricking book we go by, The Bible or CBC's Red Handbook.

One last thing, I'm reading this thing and this person is from HK ya know. And so this person says they are proud of there FOB heritage, yet they can not stand FOB's. So I'm left to scratching my head, does that mean you can not stand yourself? It's like saying that I'm proud to be born here yet I hate the USA. And then it goes on to say, this person wished they spoke english in Canada. Uh yeah, the preferred language in Canada is not english nor chinese, it is french. Now doesn't that make this person a true FOB for not knowing that and can't stand themself? It's wierd how this person wants to speak english and yet contradicts themselves in there little I can't stand FOB campaign. Man peeps just need to correct there grammar.

I Stand Alone
Live For The Moment

Last night as dead tired as I was......sitting in my hotel room, I had some time to reflect upon the past couple of days. And of course, God's power is so awesome that the message I heard today really helped complete my train of thought. The message was about Who will deliver us from Judges 2:6-18. My last few minutes here are counting down as we speak. Yeah I'm kind of bummed about leaving because it just seemed like I got here not to long ago. And I kept staring at this picture of a mermaid that a student of mine, Crystal drew for me. I kept thinking about this is what I'll be going back home to. Work, practice, and driving day in and day out, is that what I really want? The past few days have been like a fantasy to me just chilling like a villain, relaxing, enjoying the sights and sounds, and eating good food! Well the message this morning hit home to me, and it's not about what I want, which is yeah kind of stay out here a little more. It's about what God wants from me and the message was about who will reach out to the next generation of kids who do not know who God is or what He has done. So I keep thinking about all the kids that I teach and all the kids at CBC, and I really miss them. I love them all so much that it's getting me a little teary eyed right now. Do I want to stay out here for a little bit and ride subways and trains? Yeah I do, but it's selfish of me to think that way. I love the kids too much to leave them hanging. So I guess I'm gonna take off now, see y'all reading this back on the flipside.

I'm coming home
Recharged physically, mentally, and spiritually
And it's time to get down and dirty
Why?
Because I live for the moment

I just had an interesting thought after watching this movie. Yeah call me a loser for blogging after I thought it would be awhile from now. The movie was about this chef who is a mute. He is a great cook but more importantly he has the passion to help people out of there probs. The sad part is that he has this condition where he has an air bubble in his brain and that it might burst. And if it bursts then boom his life is over. He believes that he has an expiration date on his life now. So he chooses to live out his remaining days to helping everyone to the best of his abilities. Towards the end of the movie, it looked like he was about to die but little do you know he survives. And all the people he helped now had a different look on life. The people all had some sort of risk they were afraid to take and seemed complacent (sp?) at where they were at. All of a sudden they all changed and took each other's own risk all because of one man.

I love helping people, there is nothing better than to see the joy of others being happy. I always wondered what if I knew my expiration date of my life. Who would I change how I live or how I did things? What if everyone knew they there were gonna pass away? How would we all live then? Death comes to us all, well physically at least. What if like my expiration date was to be tomorrow or now? Did I ever leave some sort of legacy here for others to follow? Did I help people overcome there fears or maybe change how someone lives there lives now? Ultimately, no one knows when they will die, only God knows. if everyone knew when they would die, would they take on more challenges? Would I do the same thing? I guess I've been thinking about this for the past 24 hours after listening to this wanna be Cher singing "If I Could Turn Back time" and being asked if I could do things differently, would I change how I did things? I wish I knew that answer, parts of me wanna say yes because of what You have taught me now Lord. Then again parts of me wanna say no because I am a bit ignorant and stubborn as well.

Like I said before, live for the moment
Team Xtreme

Well this will probably be my last entry for the weekend as I head on out that lonely road of faith. 4th of July is tomorrow and it's usually a great time for me because I love blowing stuff up. But dude I'll be pissed if some crazy bomber is like running loose around NYC or some other place since the U.S. is on a heighten alert for the weekend. The past couple of days, the weather has been great upper 90's. Oh man I wonder if Michigan can push past 100 this year? Working out in this weather now and not really turning on the AC at home or in the car, I am so used to this sunshine and heat index.

And speaking of the heat, yesterday I took my kids to a field trip around Detroit. Yeah lot's to see right? But I feel so bad for Aoxue because she got sun burnt and we weren't even outside for that long and she had sun screen on. And her skin has a very nice golden tone so I don't know what happened. And I learned that little Jessie gets motion sickness when we were riding the people mover. And I was playing Monopoly with Elaine, Jimmy, Nancy, and Wei, and I learned one thing, I really miss this game. Dude they blew me out of the game as well, the only freaking property that I owned was the cheap little purple properties. At one point I only had a $500 bill left lucklily Nancy loves me so much that she kept hooking me up with cash to stay in the game. Well it's almost time to go to work, then off to Rucker Park baby! I wonder if they will let me play ball with them?

And speaking of ball, people have been throwing there last minute pitches of v-ball or b-ball this year. So many questions to answer, it will all come down to the final conclusion soon enough. I guess I really should hold a press conference at CBC this year. Oh well, yay Wings we got Cujo baby!

Oh and one last thing, I don't know if this is a knock on me but just checking out someone's xanga site. And yeah this person used the same lines as me, and I can't tell if it is some rip on me. But anyways, I'll be better and not say anything and here's a clue for everyone else. Always remember I am an originator, never a duplicator. Aight peace, I'm out this joint!

Today I live for the moment
Not to live and let die

God bless everyone else who are leaving for vacation, may He protect everyone of us from the evil one.

Praise the Lord most high as something incredible happened at Day Camp again. Last year, I remembered as Joyce and I were leaving work, the secretary Tracy asked us about our faith. She was curious about our church and we invited her to come, but at the time she pointed to something else that she believes in. However today after work, I stayed again and put in some overtime, and we talked about church. She was talking to me that lately she's been feeling like going to a church but she doesn't know why she is getting that feeling. Lord, I know it's gotta be You who is knocking on her heart. I just wanna pray that You can use me as a vessel to do Your Will. I love Tracy, she is only like 26 but funny and she always treats me the best. She always warns the other counselors about me because of how I can get all the kids to turn against them and all that. Anyways, I pray that she will come check out CBC and that I can be there to make her feel welcomed.

Another incredible thing today was during lunch, I got the usual Crystal and Wei praying. However, Nancy and Jessie prayed today too. And the funny thing is, I know Nancy goes to church but I don't think Jessie does and she just followed the rest of the girls. Today I built a closer relationship with Nancy as well, I'm trying to teach her about when and how to rebuke people. Yeah of all people me teaching that, but I think she gets the idea now. I'm glad that Crystal and Wei were happy too now that I am there counselor. Just seeing them happy and excited to learn and be with me is just an unbelievable experience. Ya know I use to call it work now at Day Camp, but from now I think I'm gonna start calling this a ministry to me. My mission is to just reach out to these kids even more without crossing that boundary of preaching and teaching.

Can You Feel It