This weekend has been a week of frustrations and a time of growing as well. Saturday morning b-ball was our last time to practice as a team before Stan leaves for Hong Kong. I'm starting to understand how Rick Carlise feels now, how the team keeps winning but yet their are still soooo many mistakes. It's like when you win the mistakes are overshadowed because of the victory but when you lose the mistakes become very evident. I'm glad that Rich was there for me Saturday night to just listen to me because it's just frustrating to see that we as a team don't even have the fundamentals down yet. It was only like a month ago that we were all geared up to practice as a team and win this tournament. And now it's like yeah we're blowing every single team at Saturday morning so we'll be ok at the tournament. I mean do people not realize that the talent is totally different from that of the MSU tournament. It pisses me off when I'm getting blind sided by picks because it shows my teammates don't even talk. The last tournament I kept getting blind sided and one time I was knocked to the floor, I remember after the game, Sam was nice enough to wrap my ribs with a bag of ice. We need a coach to mold us together, and I wouldn't mind if someone got in my face to push me harder. Because I made a lot of stupid mistakes by going to fancy and again I'm glad that Rich and Rich (that sounds funny) always pull me aside to talk to me if they thought I could of done something different to run the offense.

Then there was yesterday, another great day of worship. Ya know one thing that sucks about us as in human kind, is that we all carry that sense of pride or that sense of we know it all type of mentality. One thing that trully humbles me, is being in Chris's Sunday School because it talks about discipline. Now you would figure this would be a class full of teenagers because the younger you are majority of the time you are more immature. However this class is full of middle aged adults and it's just amazing how even at that age, they all want to grow and develop a stronger committment to Christ, it's just trully amazing. I had to pray hard the week before the new Sunday School quarter started because I didn't know where to go. I wanted to go to Fred's class because I love how he teaches and I love the book of Phil. However then there's dicipline taught by Chris, and I could just feel the Holy Spirit speaking to me saying that I've lost control of my spiritual walk and I need to regain it. I've been faced with many types of temptations especially at OU and it's tough, and sometimes I've let those temptations get the better of me while the other time I get the better of it. So hopefully with this new Sunday School, I can develop a stronger walk with God again to go up against those temptations. Gosh I can't remember where it is in Paul's letters, but I want people to follow Christ like I do.

Also I'm thankful for the time I spent with Cecilia yesterday. Actually as I was pulling into her place, I had flashbacks of when I first came to CBC, and she helped me out around this time of year by helping me going Christmas shopping. And she was there for me my freshman year at SVSU to help me with my paper, and just like last night she was there for me again helping me with my B.S. paper I mean P.S. paper :) I'm glad that God has called her back to CBC and to serve Him once again.

Gosh it's amazing how many great songs are on this Ekin cd.

Live For The Moment

Ok so the last 24 hours I have been sooo unproductive, let's see everything that I did yesterday? Eat, play PS2, watched tv, and went to the Pistons game. Hmm not exactly producing any fruit here. And I got finals next week and on Dec. 12th, I have officially named it, The Day of Hell as I have 2 exams and a term paper all due. Worst of all the exams are back to back so I have no time to cram in between. I have the option of doing another paper for extra credit which I am considering but do I really have enough time to put in a good amount of effort to do this paper? I've been such a slug lately that I have decided to stay on campus till 10 p.m. tonight, just studying and working out a little if I even get a chance to do that. What's funny is that I know my grades are down a little bit this semester but yet I don't seem to care as much around. I agree with Breadstick on this because I know last year I was studying (not hardcore as others) but hardcore for my poor habits.

Woohoo Melissa's gonna go out to lunch with me after our next class. Dang it she wants chop suey and asked if I wanted any, I was like are you on crack sister? And last night at the Pistons game, we lost, but I got to see Jordan play live one last time. It was amazing to see all the flashing bulbs going off as he was just shooting a free throw. A free throw!!!! Nothing spectacular just a simple free throw, that's shows you how much people respect his game if they can take a picture of you when you're shooting a free throw. Anyways I'm bout to bust on outta here because Melissa keeps making fun of my aroma therapy hi-liter. Plus, she's got integrity, why? She sent this email to her prof complaining about her grade and so I'm thinking yeah it must be to low for her standards since she's one of those peeps who's gotta study like 24-7. However as I'm reading it, the complaint was about her getting a grade higher than what she should of gotten due to a calculation error by the prof. So she went down from a 3.9 to a 3.8 after it was recorrected. Dude what's wrong with that girl, I would of took the higher grade and kept my mouth shut. Since I have this prof next semester, I'm trying to get that extra .1 added to my grade for next year.

Magic

Last night as I came home from v-ball I spent some time of reflection/prayer of just staring outside my window and looking at the snow. One memory I had back at my old house was the days of the Ice Wars, that the neighbors and I had, where all of us on the street all had our own snow forts loaded with snowballs and some of us who were smart made pure iceballs. There would be a certain time of day we would all just go out and launch an attack on each other. And even when it wasn't time to attack, you had to guard your forts even when you're inside the house. Because some of us went around sabotaging each other's base or stealing ammo. See the dumb ones were the ones who did in broad daylight, while I did my sneak attacks at night and robbed people of their ammo. I remember one time I was caught going outside my house to grab the mail without my shirt. Boy that was a bad idea, because the neighborhood kids saw that and chased me up and down the street as I looked like an idiot running around with just my b-ball shorts on. I remember that to dodge the attack all at once, I just jumped into a big pile of snow, boy was that dumb as I came out with redness all over my chest and arms. Man those were the days.

Woohoo get to go to the Pistons game tonight, and see Jordan make on of his last apperances at The Palace. And finally last night we played some meaningful games of v-ball, ya know it's gonna be a great time of v-ball when you leave CBC at midnight. It's too bad we couldn't keep going because I know I was getting an adrenaline rush. Gosh I wish the v-ball tournament was now so the 5-1-4 can take it to the house!

Eye Of The Hurricane

I know why you wanna hate me
Cause hate is what the world sees lately

There's just something around this time of year that I love. I woke up super late this morning and missed class but Melissa's got my back. However I saw the snow and then I noticed that my house is the only one who hasn't shoveled a lick yet. I love snow, it's the whole point of winter, while some people hate it but I just love looking at the snow covering the trees up. Or how bout as I'm driving to different places, I love looking at people's houses who really go out of their way to decorate. Then their's Christmas, and it's like I can remember every single childhood memory I had with my sister. My favorite thing to do back then was always putting all my Transformers underneath the tree and build a base with all the presents underneath. Then there was this one year that my sister and I were wrestling and I accidently body slammed her into the tree and the tree collasped. Gosh I really want to put up my tree this week, but it's not the same because my mommy and sister aren't there to help me. Then there was the first time I build a snowman with my Aunt Nora from Seattle. The only bad part about snow is just driving on it, but the great part back then was when school was cancelled :) I'll probably reflect more as the days count down to Christmas.

So last night was the OU Finals, and it was a pretty grueling game. However, the Titans came out victorious once again as we are now back to back champs. Brandon kept calling us the Lakers and if I was gonna keep the team around for a 3-peat. We took the series last night 2-1, and my goal the whole night was just to keep putting the ball to the Rump Shaker or Big Momma's House because the Rump Shaker just got a lot of booty and thinks that this is Soul Train or something and Big Momma was just slow but dang she can hit. I gotta say I love this team's unity coming from Cindy and Maegan as they wanna do a team dinner plus they even promised me that they would come up to MSU to cheer for Stan and I at our b-ball tournament. We got our championship t-shirts and they were so big on Melissa, Jane, and Maegan that it seemed like they weren't wearing any shorts. I tried to get a pic of Melissa because I kept lifting up her shirt as if i was looking at her legs. Then Jane and Maegan started showing some, then came the team picture that will be in the OU Paper, dang it Steve took a pic of me when I was goofing off because I put my finger in my nose. Stupid digital cameras don't have flashes so how am I suppose to know when it is taking a pic or not. Then after that, Maegan showed us her tattoo and I have a lot of respect for it because it has the intials of a close friend who passed away last year in a car accident. The tattoo was right in the middle and right above her butt crack, it was funny because I kept telling her to pull her shorts lower because I couldn't see it then I took a quick picture of it, then she chased me around the court trying to beat me up :Þ I look forward to next semester for yet another title defense.

Chocolate Starfish & The Hotdog Flavored Water

Well it's been a while since I got on this thing, hmm I wonder if I gained any weight? I don't think I did because I was very controlled in what I ate well except for the all guys hot pot. So what happened these past 5 days that made things memorable? Well last Wednesday was the CBC Dinner, but a lot of us skipped it because it's just hard to tell these days what kind of program it really is. I'm glad that I made it back in time from shopping with JW and V to see and hear eLLe praise God. And afterwards, I got to hang out with Jason and it was just great to see him because the last time I saw him was at CCUC. Also it was great to hang out with Gary, and Jimmy along with some other peeps from A2 on Wednesday night. It was cool that Cassie and Laura came along to the Eastside for this. We all went to see Die Another Day, and for Cassie it was her 2nd time. Ya know I have to agree with Jason, Gary and Jimmy that this had to be one of the worst Bond movies. I don't know what Joyce was thinking when she told me that she thought it was the best one. Anyways, I wish I just got a chance to hang out with Jason a little bit longer.

So then came Thanksgiving Day, and the big Turkey Bowl. I can't believe we lost. I had a rare case of the drops because of the cold air that made my fingers freeze and couldn't hold on to the ball. Man I really need one of those hand warmers to keep my fingers warm. Also I give a lot of credit to Dan because he played some great coverage on me. Afterwards, I came home to see the Lions lose yet another game. Then finally the whole family came over for turkey. And I was sooooo excited to see that my Aunt Lisa made kalbi, however I never even got to touch it as it was all taken by the rest of family in the matter of minutes! I'm like what the freak, how is it possible that I asked for it but yet I didn't even get a chance to touch a bone.

Then came Friday, JW's Prime Rib party, I thank God that I was very self-controlled there as I didn't eat anything due to the overload of turkey and dim sum the previous days. And dang it I was too stupid and too cocky as I had the chance to win in Settlers but I chose to let it go to make the game more interesting and I got greedy. So I ended up losing to V. And Saturday we had our all guys night hot pot and it was great to hang out with Emoy. All I gotta say is that we were like T-Rexes all over the meat. Then it was time to lay the smackdown when we were playing Smackdown. All I gotta say to the fellas is go Stacy, Torrie, and Trish go and dance for Triple H.

And that leaves us to tonight, and what a snowy day has it been already. The OU v-ball finals are tonight as it will the Titans vs. Haters R Us. We'll be playing without Lisa (flu) tonight probably our best girl, and so I'm hoping that Maegan, Jane, Cindy, and Melissa really pick up their games. I think I should start off as a S.S. because it looks like this year's MVP winner is Mike from their team which totally gives them a more powerful offense. Well less than 2 hours to go so it's time to get down.

Need A Little Time