Gosh I feel like a loser, getting to the ERL right when it opens, what is it and my prob with procrastination? Anyways, yesterday I had to speak in front of the whole congregation. I spent like the whole week praying and I didn't even say half of the stuff that I wrote down. So what happened, well pretty much I froze. It is so nerve racking standing up and speaking now I see why GP B gets paid the big bucks. It was probably the 4th time ever since I've been at CBC speaking in front of everyone. I mean I've done skits in front of the whole congregation but that's because I can mess up and improvise while just standing there and speaking is like soooo freaky. Hopefully I reached out and touched someone, actually I did I think because someone did talk to me afterwards about it, so go God, and thanks for being with me.
Also yesterday, I made my sorry looking portfolio. However, watching sister Cathy, Connie, Chrissy, and Queenie do their little stamp thing, I honestly think it is actually kind of cool. What made it cool to me was when Chrissy did some sort of U of M card and it made me think of all sort of cool creative sport cards that I could do. But uhhh guys and stamping does that even go together? Man, I have an image to protect here. I would probably get no love from the guys anymore especially, Brother Steve. Maybe it's all those stamp fumes that got in my head last night, yeah that's it. Or actually I think it was probably Audrey's poop fumes that got into my head.
Also I'm glad to have gotten out of bed when the sun rose this morning. Yes I got up butt early this morning for the reason of procrastination. What ran through this morning as I was driving around? Well I'm thankful to see all my peeps getting engaged, what a rock Jenny had on. On the flip side of that though, it just made me wanna go running and work out today. Their is nothing better than pushing yourself to the hardest to get the ol' heart pumping.
Fighter
Monday, April 14, 2003
Thursday, April 10, 2003
Why is that we always complain about petty stuff or things that benefit us? I know I do that a lot at least, and I gotta agree with Big Nasty about what our ancestors went through just for us to be where we are today. The past few days, God has put in my mind a bigger role of outreach. I talk to a lot of people on campus about salvation and who Jesus is, because I do it alot to help prolong my attempts of doing homework. However, Kelly's Bible Study really spoke to me about missed opportunities or that I don't want to be that rich guy either. I've been praying about this a lot for the past few days to see what it is that God wants me to share this Sunday in front of the whole congregation. Also I want my heart to be pure in doing this because if I did this and it made me feel good that is totally the wrong reason. Often times people think serving is all about making them feel good or even worst look good, this is where I want to make sure that I am no where near that. God has used me in a lot of ways these past few months and I feel like I haven't been giving him enough praise for all the things He has done for me, gosh I'm such a sinner! And last night I had a long talk with a man who God placed in my life before I even accepted Christ to really be thankful in how much he has done for me as well.
Yet today, I kept getting frustrated because of the no love policy I get from some peeps. It's like I put in a lot of effort to helping everyone out in my classes but none of it comes back to me when I need help. That's why integrity is one of the most important things to me as a teacher and as a Christian. And I keep thinking back about what Chrissy shared from James even though gosh dang it, I thought part of that passage was in Proverbs, but I need to make sure that I keep my emotions in check. On the bright side of things though, I'm happy that I got my student teaching evaluations back yesterday. My teacher, gave me the highest scores you could get on these things so I was excited because I felt like I didn't do a good enough job when I was student teaching. Anyways, it's time to get some work done again.
Over-protected
Yet today, I kept getting frustrated because of the no love policy I get from some peeps. It's like I put in a lot of effort to helping everyone out in my classes but none of it comes back to me when I need help. That's why integrity is one of the most important things to me as a teacher and as a Christian. And I keep thinking back about what Chrissy shared from James even though gosh dang it, I thought part of that passage was in Proverbs, but I need to make sure that I keep my emotions in check. On the bright side of things though, I'm happy that I got my student teaching evaluations back yesterday. My teacher, gave me the highest scores you could get on these things so I was excited because I felt like I didn't do a good enough job when I was student teaching. Anyways, it's time to get some work done again.
Over-protected
Tuesday, April 08, 2003
Hey is this thing on?
Nobody is telling me just what I wanna do
I'm just so fed up with people telling me to be
Someone else but me
Call me crazy but you gotta love this weather we are having of late. What's been wierd as of this past weekend was that it took me an abnormal hour and a half to get home from work. As I was driving home at night everything was pitch dark due to power outages. Also the restaurant has been getting crazily busy with everyone in Lapeer losing power that it the weight for a lot of people's food had to be within a good hour to an hour and a half wait. Of course some people were getting pissed with the amount of time it took but it's like dude keep complaining and I just want to ask them, uhh let's see you do better when you are out of cooked rice, egg rolls, sweet and sour chicken, and as usual ABC. It got to the point where my mommy didn't even bother taking calls anymore. What is worst for my parents is that they still don't have power at their house. So without heat, and electricity what have they been doing? Well they have been sleeping at the restaurant and will keep doing so till they get power back at their place which is not till Wednesday supposedly.
What sucked yesterday was that OU decided to close school after I get out of my class. Although I was only in class for about an hour since their was only like 10 ten of us there. Also I saw Crossroads last night for first time and I gotta admit it was a fairly decent movie. However Melanie is saying that it was a horrible movie. The movie made me think of when I got my diploma and asked the same question Britney did, which was where do I go from here? I love to drive around to new places because it helps me reflect upon my life and what lies ahead of it. Also I had thought of how the trip to Chicago was this year, and seeing how the 3 girls bonded made me think of just seeing us guys of CBC drawing a closer bond with one another. If you haven't seen Crossroads then you should see it.
Anticipating
Nobody is telling me just what I wanna do
I'm just so fed up with people telling me to be
Someone else but me
Call me crazy but you gotta love this weather we are having of late. What's been wierd as of this past weekend was that it took me an abnormal hour and a half to get home from work. As I was driving home at night everything was pitch dark due to power outages. Also the restaurant has been getting crazily busy with everyone in Lapeer losing power that it the weight for a lot of people's food had to be within a good hour to an hour and a half wait. Of course some people were getting pissed with the amount of time it took but it's like dude keep complaining and I just want to ask them, uhh let's see you do better when you are out of cooked rice, egg rolls, sweet and sour chicken, and as usual ABC. It got to the point where my mommy didn't even bother taking calls anymore. What is worst for my parents is that they still don't have power at their house. So without heat, and electricity what have they been doing? Well they have been sleeping at the restaurant and will keep doing so till they get power back at their place which is not till Wednesday supposedly.
What sucked yesterday was that OU decided to close school after I get out of my class. Although I was only in class for about an hour since their was only like 10 ten of us there. Also I saw Crossroads last night for first time and I gotta admit it was a fairly decent movie. However Melanie is saying that it was a horrible movie. The movie made me think of when I got my diploma and asked the same question Britney did, which was where do I go from here? I love to drive around to new places because it helps me reflect upon my life and what lies ahead of it. Also I had thought of how the trip to Chicago was this year, and seeing how the 3 girls bonded made me think of just seeing us guys of CBC drawing a closer bond with one another. If you haven't seen Crossroads then you should see it.
Anticipating
Thursday, April 03, 2003
Hmmm a few thoughts here, well first off I want to say what a great team dinner we had the other night. It was a nice time to get away from the game and relax and to get to know each other better. Sorry Sponger that you couldn't make it. Also good bye to ya Cindy, I'll be sure to visit ya when you are an official Spartan. However, it is nice to see that Lisa wants the team to play together over the summer too, so I guess we'll see where God takes this team.
Which moves me to talk about CCUC since finally the ice has been broken at both outreaches. I've narrowed my choices down to All Men's A v-ball, A b-ball, or C b-ball. Before I even get to my own situation, I would have to say that I hope the all-women's team forms. I know some people have their gripes, but first thing is that God will provide. Also, I believe that other people see them as like the only setters or something at CBC. But has everyone forgotten that their are still some good guy setters and at the very least you would only need a girl who can pass atleast average to still have a very effective team. Also maybe this will cap our teams a little bit, but for something like this I would like to see the more the merrier. I love seeing people's faces, like Mike last year who went and I'll never forget the smile on his face as he enjoyed the tournament and the fellowship also.
So where do I go from here? Well if CCUC was today I would be leaning to A b-ball just because I'm tired of seeing CCUC winning it. Plus for the love of the game what makes it fun is the competition and the trash talking to all the other teams.
All Men's v-ball is nice too but I don't want to bring in people from outside. I want it to be homegrown right here in the heart of CBC. I would like to play here because the fun part in this is, it is a challenge to see how far I can push myself.
C b-ball - Now this would be straight up fun with all my boyz. Plus I would think we would be a favorite to win the C division, but I just like the fact that I think it would be a great bonding time as well. However, I think other people would like to play on this team and I would feel bad if I exclude people from it, so that is the only downer on this one.
Boom!
Which moves me to talk about CCUC since finally the ice has been broken at both outreaches. I've narrowed my choices down to All Men's A v-ball, A b-ball, or C b-ball. Before I even get to my own situation, I would have to say that I hope the all-women's team forms. I know some people have their gripes, but first thing is that God will provide. Also, I believe that other people see them as like the only setters or something at CBC. But has everyone forgotten that their are still some good guy setters and at the very least you would only need a girl who can pass atleast average to still have a very effective team. Also maybe this will cap our teams a little bit, but for something like this I would like to see the more the merrier. I love seeing people's faces, like Mike last year who went and I'll never forget the smile on his face as he enjoyed the tournament and the fellowship also.
So where do I go from here? Well if CCUC was today I would be leaning to A b-ball just because I'm tired of seeing CCUC winning it. Plus for the love of the game what makes it fun is the competition and the trash talking to all the other teams.
All Men's v-ball is nice too but I don't want to bring in people from outside. I want it to be homegrown right here in the heart of CBC. I would like to play here because the fun part in this is, it is a challenge to see how far I can push myself.
C b-ball - Now this would be straight up fun with all my boyz. Plus I would think we would be a favorite to win the C division, but I just like the fact that I think it would be a great bonding time as well. However, I think other people would like to play on this team and I would feel bad if I exclude people from it, so that is the only downer on this one.
Boom!
Tuesday, April 01, 2003
You know what sucks is that I tried getting into one of the hardest classes to be able to get into last night and it was full. I guess it is God's way in telling me that maybe I should only take one class this spring. But ooooooh that means a longer time to graduate.
Well I am also on a good streak of not sleeping since Sunday night which was only for a good couple of hours. I pulled an incredible all nighter last night where I wrote my term paper, did my group project which was more like a solo project, and I had to watch Dangerous Minds for this project. Actually I watched it 3 times straight this morning. And for the first time ever this semester, I skipped a class, which was MTE, thanks Kelly for covering for me. Well I'm thankful that these Double Hell combo days are over now as in Monday and Tuesday. Plus I don't have to go in early for student teaching tomorrow so I can get a little sleep in tonight after v-ball. If only I had a free day now these days.
Who's Next?
Well I am also on a good streak of not sleeping since Sunday night which was only for a good couple of hours. I pulled an incredible all nighter last night where I wrote my term paper, did my group project which was more like a solo project, and I had to watch Dangerous Minds for this project. Actually I watched it 3 times straight this morning. And for the first time ever this semester, I skipped a class, which was MTE, thanks Kelly for covering for me. Well I'm thankful that these Double Hell combo days are over now as in Monday and Tuesday. Plus I don't have to go in early for student teaching tomorrow so I can get a little sleep in tonight after v-ball. If only I had a free day now these days.
Who's Next?