Ok, I wasn't gonna blog today but I need to continue to be unproductive. I had a nice lunch today with Carl, as we sat and chatted about classes and b-ball. Other than that, I am starting to realize that taking 17 credits, which is 5 classes, for 5 days, and on top of that 1 student teaching all for this semester. You do the math and it's called gotta get my act together before I drown in my own sorrow of school. I've had about 5 hours now to collect my things and actually do work. However, people including myself are freaking out with this Friday's meeting at school. Now that I'm cool, calm, and collected I feel as if I got everything together now. I start my 2nd student assignment for tomorrow at Edmonsun Elementary School teaching 4th graders. The good part is that it is closer to home, and close to Pho for lunch. The bad part is I still have to go to classes afterwards and I gotta wake up butt early. Man I'm hungry now, and when are Shawn and Sarah getting out of their night classes? Oh one cool part about one of my projects is that I get to follow and study Boo Boo for the rest of the school year. She's so funny and cute, if I was some what intelligent then I would post a pic of the 2 of us together celebrating the Feb b-days. Ok, time to get to work now. Plus I've noticed Carmen has decided to stop harassing me online too. Man I need some sort of AIM body guard from the YTF PowderPuff Girl Gang.

Show Me Love

Well my sis is back at school now. It kind of sucks because I miss her already. I miss having her around the house, and making dumb comments. What was great having her home too, was this was the first break in a while where we didn't bicker about anything. I just didn't want to see that go.

Also tonight, I had a long talk with a great friend that God has blessed me with. He is my boy E.Kou and I'm glad that we have now started to keep each other in check with our daily/spiritual lives. Over the past 2 years where I've gotten to know him, he's been one of those guys who is really open and sincere. It sucks because he ain't at school this semester but instead at the Blue Grass State. On the other hand I'm thankful that God has blessed him with an internship, so it's all good.

We talked about b-ball, and it sucks he won't be there at this year's tournament. I made a promise that I will play my hardest and try to win this bad boy for him. I feel more confident then ever with this year's team by adding P. Wong, Cougie and if Big Nasty and JW will be joining us to the old school A team. It feels like the playing for the Lakers, Wes (can't think of who he plays like), Andy (K. Malone), Bobs (Shaq), Stan (T-Mac), and myself (Kobe). Yup T-Mac on the Lakers, well he hates Kobe so it's all good. I'm gonna try to rock the rows, and have E. Kou tatted on my arm.

However, we need fans, I think some of our players play better with fan support. I personally like getting the boos, I like being that public enemy # 1. Thank you to Snoozer, Breadstick, and Erin, last year for lunch and your support. Less than 2 weeks now, and the last time we won this thing was 2 years ago. It sucks having tendonitis, or jumper's knee, I believe Vince Carter had this a year ago. Hopefully I can overcome this thing by the 24th.

Sunchild

There's nothing better than doing grocery shopping after midnight. I mean I always get a good parking spot, and the lines are shorter. However, today I just don't know what was wrong with my stomach system. So I'm in line right, and I just let this silent fart out. I mean it was quiet but boy was this gas deadly. So I look back and I'm like good no one is behind me to bare this smell. Next thing you know, as I move up in line, this lady comes behind me. I listened and I could hear her sniffing something stankin in the air. Now on the outside, I'm trying to make it look like this big dude in front of me let it rip. But on the inside, I'm like cracking up because she's probably like what the G times 2 is this smell. Next thing you know, I heard her say excuse me. I pretended not to hear it because I would feel rather embarassed if she asked me, if I was the culprit. Then she tapped me and said excuse me again. So I looked at her, and she asked me about a PS2 controller that she was considering on purchasing. After I explained to her, she got out of line, and I'm like dude the smell is gone now.

So with my gas attack tonight, I decided to use it to my advantage. My sis decided to watch all her stupid tv shows so I couldn't watch the b-ball games. So I decided to sit on her and just let one rip. Yeah it was silent and my sis thought I was just sitting on her. 10 seconds later, she could smell what The Great One was cooking, and she just booked upstairs to her room. As for me, yeah it was nice to finish watching the Rockets game.

Dare To Be Stupid

I carry the weight of the world as the past is unfurled, but I won't stop to wonder
Going through life on my own made me as cold as a stone
I'm a ship going under
And I'd tell You this, but I don't know how
I'm caving in and I'm falling out and I can't resist
And I can't rebound with the weight of the world as the world falls down

This was how I felt for a good portion of 2K3, I look forward to turning that around by going to God even more. It's true that you can not do things on your own strength but only through God's.

I decided to turn off all the lights in the house, but only this candle that I have lit to remind me that as long as I can keep that flame going for God then I can see through the darkness of my own sin.

I thank You for putting Alex and Michael's Grandma at Golden Harvest this past Monday.

I thank You for bringing my sista's home safely from T-O.

I thank You for teaching me the equation of Hope + Faith = Love.

I thank You for helping me close a part of my life, but look for the best in what's to come.

I thank You for being You most of all.

Man I really like these aroma candles, it really just soothes my mind to continue to just focus on God while listening to some tunes. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger, as the clock winds down to the MSU tournament. I look for direction to God, because I wonder where other parts of my life is going to and how do I become a better leader?

My parents were talking about going out to Vegas this summer, Sin City baby. My sis is going if they go, as tempted as I am to go I plan on turning this trip down too. I believe just right now it is just too much temptation for me to go. I really want to drive to Minnesota on my own and visit my family there, I miss them much. I miss my little cousin Bridget, I wonder if she has grown up now too. Anyone interested in going to see Mall of America with me?

Back Into Your System

Ok, this sucks my first blog of the new year and it just got wiped off the face of the earth. So again what I was trying to say is what a short break it was, although I spent some quality time with my cousins. Christmas Eve night, I went to my Uncle Simon and Aunt Lisa's annual Christmas party. I was glad to spend more time with my baby cuz, Wendy. I saw some of my Korean relatives although I can't remember anything my Aunt Lisa taught me back in the days of how to speak it. Here's a sound byte of the party from a friend of the family:

Friend: Hey K, my son is taller than you now and he is only 16 years old.
Wendy: He's not taller than him!
K (staring him down): It ain't the size of the man, it's the size of the heart is what I measure. Your son doesn't measure up to me on that one, partna.

Actually, I was thrilled that here is my baby cuz trying to defend me showing that she still cares. She reminded me that night of how when we were little we used to fight over our grandma's bed because she smelled better than our grandpa. I was thrilled that she came to worship with me a couple of Sunday's ago. Now I need to pray and follow up on her. She always listened to me when were little, and I never made her do anything stupid because frankly that was what her brother Alan was for.

Christmas I was blessed to be invited to the Leong/Liu/Ng Christmas gathering. I passed it up, to spend some time with my cousins for dim sum and dinner. I went over to my Aunt Aso's house, and I was flipping through old pictures. I'm thankful that she is still alive because I remember growing up in the streets of Memphis, when she took that bullet to you don't even want to know. I had an engaging convo about Christianity with my Aunt Lisa because she is the only other believer in the family. I made a promise to her that I will attend at least one worship service at KBC this year.

I don't make a lot of resolutions, but I do feel refocused, refreshed and determined to be a better leader where ever God puts me in. It starts tonight as game time is coming closer and I'm able to see if I got better or worst over break. It's almost time for me to leave the Twp.'s library so I can do some running in this lovely weather.

Tomorrow I start school, and I'm taking 17 credits with the possible addition of just one more adding on there. My grades for last semester were 3.9, 3.9, 3.0, and 2.1, yeah take a guess where the last one came from. I also bought Karoke Revolution the other day because I failed Crawling in the Dark at Ro's place. Yeah, I don't take failure to kindly, plus my sis wants to play it too. Finally, that Hey Ya song is actually growing on me, and I don't know why I actually like it now.

We've Got It Going On