Discouraged - Man I just got done watching the Pistons double OT victory over the Clippers. I was having these thoughts during worship this past Sunday as Pastor B was challenging the question. I will have to expand on it eventually but more or less, how much love can you give to others? And how do you keep it up when they just spit back and throw it in your face?

Is it me, or does confrontations just surround me? Today @ the Rec Center as I was watching the games before our's, I was holding onto the other game ball. I was entrusted with it since I am tight with most of the staff there. Then this Marko Jaric look alike comes up to me, trying to start something because he wanted the ball for his team to practice. He kept trying to rip it from my hand, until we were in each other's faces. I finally gave it to him, because my mind was hey I'll give you that ball all you want when I see you in the playoffs ;)

Speakin of playoffs, you had the scene Mike, Joey, and I all talking on the court. We were all discouraged by the schedule this year. Joey's team is in but his team cannot make it to most of their games. Mike & Joel do not like the new schedule either, and they took it out on Krystin which I took offense to. But keep it cool with her, because we'll see them in the playoffs too. However, it was cool for our games now because now we have our own crowd, the OU V-ball Girls Team. They also like our team name too, 4-Getta Bout it, guess who came up with that one. I figure I wanna send a message to the rest of the teams out there, bout there chances of winning.

Lastly, I was discourage @ Troy's v-ball game because I helped the refs call a lot of stuff against our own team. Then when there were some calls that were iffy, I suggested replay for a couple of them to be fair. MJ Chisholm's team fires back at me and tells me "to go screw yourself" and they used some inappropriate language to some of my other teammates. It is one thing they direct things at me, but it is another when they try to imtimdate our team. There big, round fella kept doing most of the talkin, so I stated reasons why it should be replay, then I ended it with "are you following me Tiny Tim?" Of course, the rest of there team takes offense to me calling there teammate a name, and I am wondering did y'all just not to the same to my team? A big surprise that some of us had to get separated, but man being honest to help them with calls, I thought it would be respectful, a sense of goodsportsmanship. It didn't go that way, which again raises my early question from above.

I guess, I need a refill on His love.

Realest

DarkSide - So this weekend was quite an eventful one, I guess. I kept thinking back bout what JW shared about, in terms of thanksgiving. Well on that day at least, I am still thankful for being alive. With the injury bug going around now, I'm glad the cut over my eye and my bone bruise from the People's Elbow is healing up. I'm thankful for JW's kind gift of trying to lure be back to the DarkSide :) MTG, new series! I'm also thankful for today's message as it was a challenging one for each of us. Thankful for God giving offering us the gift of salvation as I was reminded today, with my bread and juice! What else is there? Thankful for the amazing things that happened at the Youth Retreat. I'm thankful for the time I fellowshipped with B-12 and Carmen (gotta give her a nickname now) today. Thankful also for Krystin playing with us this year for OU V-ball, her attitude has been like a breath of fresh air for me. I'm thankful for the 3 on 3 I got to play against the OU Women's V-ball team :) and I look forward for the next time, because we swapped digits. Finally, I'm thankful for being able to get the classes that I wanted for next semester. 2 of the 4 I'm in there with Monica! Plus I am thankful for having at least 1 class with Erin, and I cannot wait till tommorrow to see everyone else's schedule. Thankful for the chance to go to sleep now!

Open The Eyes Of My Heart

Bush Ramifications - Today in FE 210, we were discussing bout a book we are suppose to be reading and how it relates to the world. As discussions continued, it started getting political hot & heavy too. After the first 5 minutes, you can tell who voted for who a battle line was drawn out between Bush vs. Kerry. The discussion turned into bickering amongst each other and the 4 silents ones (Monica, Sarah, Nicole, and myself). I only kept my mouth shut because I haven't been to class in a week now. Anyways, we started talking bout homesexuality and are people born gay or is it by choice. Prof. Pipan said that it is fact that people are born gay, and to me that was a bold statement to make. Granted that I do not have all the facts either, while the motherlover Michelle was arguing that it is by choice. Many people slammed Michelle hard because she was trying to bring in her beliefs and at the same time she is recognized as ignorant too. In the end, my prof shut her up so bad that Michelle got up and just stormed out of class. Michelle is a sister in Christ, and I know as the crew knows it is up to me to figure out how to restore peace in the classroom. If only I had more facts to back up Michelle at that time.

In other news, Howard may be done for the year :( We won 4 out of 5 games tonight in the Warren league, man I'm glad that I finally get to run a quicker offense. All I got to do was hit shooters the whole night. This league is great because of some of the Open v-ball players playing here. It sucks though to possibly think that Howie is done for the year, I feel as if through this league together he can still teach me so much more. I put the pressure on myself to pick it up with our top passer/setter gone.

Hmmm time to watch Survivor!

Tic Toc

Good morning, so I figured to do a morning entry since I don't feel like going to Bio that early in the morning. At Iroquois Middle School yesterday, I learned that next week I'll have half days, yay for that. However, it would only be a yay if I was a student :( It's a boo because I have to stay for parent-teacher conferences all the way till the evening. I do look forward to meeting some of my students' parents though. I had another interesting convo with Cidney again, as she was telling me how she's gonna get braces. However, she'll never smile because it will ruin her rep. Gotta love this girl because of the fact that she thinks she is so much older than everyone else.

Finally, I can say I went to GG's (Ajishin) to eat with my small group. It's a blessing to have this small group and share a meal together. But man, I must of had food poisoning or something because my stomach was not feeling right that whole night. Going to Larry's, man I felt really queasy or something like that. Then off to my game, as each game passed my stomach was like in knots. I was just thankful to get through the night and now the Z Team is in first place. 420's continue to scout me to prepare for next week's game. Hmmm I guess it is time to go to class now. I do look forward to going to the Rec with Ashley after class. We're gonna put ourselves in what I call the chamber at OU. We're gonna see who the real deal is, boy I hope she is as good as she advertises herself.

My Prog's

Hopeful One -Man, my parents are coming back from NYC right now. So bummed that I could not go, but I did attend my first IEP meeting today! It looks like my girl J.B. will still be in Special Ed for another year and I got a chance to learn more about her weaknesses. I still believe that she will get out of Special Ed eventually. Harvest Night was a great blessing because it was a nice change of pace. It was encouraging to see some of my YTF girls serving in different capacities. Whoa, the moonwalk was cool too, BooBoo (Christine) and I definetely had fun in there together. Tex and Mex, was quite interesting as well but in the end for the glory of God. Finally, something else has been on my mind. The idea and thought as some would say quite insane, but I must try to do something. As each day passes now, I learn a lot more in terms of which avenue to go and how to deal with it. As someone close to me once said, "you can't save the world." My reply "you're right but at the same time I rather die trying then not do anything at all."

I got back from the OU V-ball Capt Meeting tonight, a lil disappointed because I did not see Joey's team. Has our battle for OU V-ball supremacy finally ended? If it has, then a new chapter was written tonight as peeps peg Mike's team to challenge us in the Finals. V was talking to me about how she's gonna be calling sportsmanlike conduct this year too. See you have T.O.'s touchdown dances, then in v-ball I have my Kill Celebrations. My poses/dances after a kill is to entertain the game, some are still annoyed by it. But as T.O. from Shannon Sharpe said "if you don't like it, then stop me." If 6 v-ball leagues aren't enough, T-Yee has asked me to run with him in the new all men's league at OU. Let's tally that one up for 7 leagues now during this semester, yup I'm thankful that I am still The Kid and haven't hit that Senior mode yet. It is all bout training and making my body a slave in this area. Mental, physical, and spiritual as 1 on the court ;)

Voting Prediction: Bush Repeats as Prez, like father like son.

Speak N Spell