So today was the official start of my winter break, but again I ask it is really a break for me? Break from school, yes but from God's Will never. I had a great time of fellowship of lunch with David D. It was just amazing that we could just spend time and pray together over CBC's needs. It's funny how the Spirit is giving me the same thoughts along with other CBC leaders as well. I pretty much spent the rest of the day shopping for the first time, better late than never right. As I was walking through Somerset, I still can't get over the fact that it's been about 3 years now since my incidents with some of my supposed closest high school friends. As I kept walking around, I just decided to leave because of some of the painful memories there. Honestly, I felt kind of alone today and these incidents made me in the past unable to trust people. I bought some things for myself to kind of cheer me up so to say, but ya know it's just material things that come and go. I finally bought this book at FCS, and it talks about how to deal with contemporary issues using the Bible. So I can't wait to dive in that, purchasing that lifted my spirit up a little.
And I came home in time to watch the Survivor finale, which I predicted right that Brian was gonna win. But it is something that Ken said about integrity. And I still remember the lesson about integrity I learned last year in BSF. And a couple of things that hit me of what Maragret taught this past Sunday. One of them was how she had a particular weakness and she kept working on it so that it doesn't appear as much. Now I know I have my weaknesses but I continue to do my best to work on them. What really bothered me today is how some people have certain weaknesses but it's like they use it as an excuse sometimes now because it's been their habit or it's like you gotta expect that from them. I dunno where I'm going with this, but as for integrity, I just hope like Ken said, all I can hope for is when I leave is to have my integrity.
I guess I've been letting my frustrations get the better of me. I think a nice read, would be to dive into Hosea because it's just amazing what he does. Anyways, I guess I just need to focus on this Saturday's tournament as the 5-1-4 will be looking to rocking the house. if only I knew where we are playing still? And now, I've been put back on the grill for b-ball from my cousin. As he's got me in some sort of 3 on 3 game for $$$$, just another day in the office I guess.
Take Me Back To Heaven
Friday, December 20, 2002
Tuesday, December 17, 2002
Finally this semester has come to an end and where the GG is Melissa she was suppose to meet me at the KL as soon as she finished. I had a nice time of finishing the 97 question exam in less than 45 minutes. I woke up early to study as well but gosh it was like soooo boring that I just layed on the couch. Now I can relax over my break right? Wrong, their is still soooo much of God's ministries to be done and I can't believe to even imagine that He is using me in all these ways. What the chicken, now Melissa finally gets here. Wow it took her 2 hours to finish that exam compared to my world record time. Anyways going back to what I was saying, I mean it's like the sports ministries are pretty much up to me to be the one who keeps things going while the outreach committee is gone on vaction/work. Then their's trying to lead the 5-1-4, along with serving at the Chrismas Eve Service. These are just to name a few things but man may I be remind of 2 Cor. 4:5? I think it was about relying on God's power and not of my own. It's too bad that I didn't get the vacation that everyone else is getting, but hey I get to serve, learn, and grow in Him even more.
Last night I finally figured out which team I was playing for, the team name was Altair. The first thing I walked and noticed at Boulan was wow I'm the shortest and youngest player in this league now, the net is at men's height, and is that Rob D standing over there? This league is pretty fun, I like the fact that we play 5 games up to 25 points rally scoring. So how did I do, well my first thought about this team was, wow these guys stink but how in the world are they in first. So the first game I played like crap because it's been a while since I had to hit on a men's net, I kept hitting it into the net. As the game progressed, I played at my usual level but I didn't have to play any higher than just being normal as in my opinion I didn't need to go S.S. It was funny because one of my teammates Charlie kept getting pissed at me for running a couple of quicks. Why was he mad, because he said the team is not use to my flashiness on offense and let's stick to the game plan of running a simple 4-2. Later, the captain Phil came up to me and apologized to me for them not being world class players. Later Charlie got even madder at me when I called a timeout because we were up by 12 and our lead was cut to 3. He was mad and told the team not to get into the huddle with me, but hahah even his own teammates didn't want to listen to him and they listened to what I had to say in the huddle while Charlie just isolated himself on the court. Then Charlie got mad again at me when I didn't take the 2nd ball, and I was like uhh hey stupid am I the setter? However I decided to yell at the setter for not calling help and that it's not my fault that he is slow and unable to get the pass, plus it wasn't even me who shanked that pass. Phil and Kevin had to pull me back as I just chewed out Charlie. Gosh I wish I was playing against him, so I can go S.S. and make him eat my Air Force Ones. Anyways so after the 5 games, Rob asked me in a sarcastic way of how were my setters? Kevin thought when I did set, that I was the best setter on the team, wow imagine that? But it's too bad that I was the best hitter on the team as well. The team we were playing against, had this one guy I'd called greenie because he had all green on was getting pissed at his own teammates for their mistakes like he was Mr. Perfect or something. So you had to love this, when he tried to kill it over me and I just stuffed him and the ball came straight down on his side. My reaction, stare down baby as he should shut his mouth too and that he isn't the best player on his team, plus I thought it was mean especially when he was kept yelling at their oldest player on the team, that was uncalled for, hence my stare down block was for them.
Well that's it for today, if you're reading this please take a minute to pray that the Holy Spirit will work within me tonight during v-ball sharing. I need to jet because I got this thing called a hair cut, so I look slick this Saturday for the v-ball tournament, and then lunch with Lindsay! Yay I haven't hung out with her in sooooo long it seems like.
California Dreamin'
Last night I finally figured out which team I was playing for, the team name was Altair. The first thing I walked and noticed at Boulan was wow I'm the shortest and youngest player in this league now, the net is at men's height, and is that Rob D standing over there? This league is pretty fun, I like the fact that we play 5 games up to 25 points rally scoring. So how did I do, well my first thought about this team was, wow these guys stink but how in the world are they in first. So the first game I played like crap because it's been a while since I had to hit on a men's net, I kept hitting it into the net. As the game progressed, I played at my usual level but I didn't have to play any higher than just being normal as in my opinion I didn't need to go S.S. It was funny because one of my teammates Charlie kept getting pissed at me for running a couple of quicks. Why was he mad, because he said the team is not use to my flashiness on offense and let's stick to the game plan of running a simple 4-2. Later, the captain Phil came up to me and apologized to me for them not being world class players. Later Charlie got even madder at me when I called a timeout because we were up by 12 and our lead was cut to 3. He was mad and told the team not to get into the huddle with me, but hahah even his own teammates didn't want to listen to him and they listened to what I had to say in the huddle while Charlie just isolated himself on the court. Then Charlie got mad again at me when I didn't take the 2nd ball, and I was like uhh hey stupid am I the setter? However I decided to yell at the setter for not calling help and that it's not my fault that he is slow and unable to get the pass, plus it wasn't even me who shanked that pass. Phil and Kevin had to pull me back as I just chewed out Charlie. Gosh I wish I was playing against him, so I can go S.S. and make him eat my Air Force Ones. Anyways so after the 5 games, Rob asked me in a sarcastic way of how were my setters? Kevin thought when I did set, that I was the best setter on the team, wow imagine that? But it's too bad that I was the best hitter on the team as well. The team we were playing against, had this one guy I'd called greenie because he had all green on was getting pissed at his own teammates for their mistakes like he was Mr. Perfect or something. So you had to love this, when he tried to kill it over me and I just stuffed him and the ball came straight down on his side. My reaction, stare down baby as he should shut his mouth too and that he isn't the best player on his team, plus I thought it was mean especially when he was kept yelling at their oldest player on the team, that was uncalled for, hence my stare down block was for them.
Well that's it for today, if you're reading this please take a minute to pray that the Holy Spirit will work within me tonight during v-ball sharing. I need to jet because I got this thing called a hair cut, so I look slick this Saturday for the v-ball tournament, and then lunch with Lindsay! Yay I haven't hung out with her in sooooo long it seems like.
California Dreamin'
Monday, December 16, 2002
Ya know considering I still have 1 exam left tomorrow morning, I've been treating this past weekend like I was out of school already. This weekend was draining as I woke up butt early to go see Ting play at her high school tournament for v-ball. Last night, I had fellowship over at Fred and Kim's because Margaret was sharing about how God's been working in her life lately or over the year. I remember last summer I attended Maragaret's sharing as well, but I didn't get to stay as long. I think it was because I had to go to the D-Ship/College Dinner last summer after it. But this time I'm just sooo thankful that I stayed and really got to know her more. Her words of wisdom was just an encouragement to me to continue to serve in the 5-1-4. It's just too bad that she's always bouncing around but hey that's how God is using her so I can't complain. Hopefully I get to spend more time to talk to Margaret before she leaves, but she's just so funny telling us stories about her and Freddy :)
Finally there's tonight, where I'll be playing in this new v-ball league I guess you can call it that. Honestly I'm quite nervous because I have no idea who I am playing with, never met them in my life before. Gosh what if my level isn't as high as these guys? I'm starting to get that feeling of yup the lone CBC person type of thing, oh God be with me tonight. And afterwards I gotta make yet another trip to CBC for music practice for tomorrow night. I just can't explain the feelings I got when Fred was talking to me about how this sharing is the first time ever in the sanctuary and that this could be the springboard for something bigger for God's glory. If only Charles was here to see how much sharing has changed since his days when he first started it.
The Boys Of Summer
Finally there's tonight, where I'll be playing in this new v-ball league I guess you can call it that. Honestly I'm quite nervous because I have no idea who I am playing with, never met them in my life before. Gosh what if my level isn't as high as these guys? I'm starting to get that feeling of yup the lone CBC person type of thing, oh God be with me tonight. And afterwards I gotta make yet another trip to CBC for music practice for tomorrow night. I just can't explain the feelings I got when Fred was talking to me about how this sharing is the first time ever in the sanctuary and that this could be the springboard for something bigger for God's glory. If only Charles was here to see how much sharing has changed since his days when he first started it.
The Boys Of Summer
Thursday, December 12, 2002
Woooooo I have surpassed the 1 day of hell tonight with back to back exams, took care of the term paper, and going strong on my all nighter. What really got me going last night was just a great time of sharing from the 5-1-4 crew. I came home and pretty much just hit the books all night long. My diet last night consisted of that ice coffee with 2 hots expresso and over 20 packets of sugar, a large ice cappucino, and a couple cans of coke. I think that messed up my eating habit because my stomach kept growling, so I tried eating pizza but as I put it in my mouth I just wanted to spit it out. So yup I'm pretty much going on no food today either except for a couple of Flipz I had earlier. I finished my review sheets earlier than expected so I treated myself to a nap at around 10 and woke back up and hour later. It wasn't too much of a nap as I had trouble trying to sleep. I got up and it felt like I had a caffine hangover or a buzz, whatever that feels like, but I'm sure that's what I got. All that sugar just rushed to my head so I just kept drinking water all day to clean out my system now.
So I showered and went to go to the KL to study with Jenny for PS 241. Dude we studied for a little bit but like with an hour to spare we started talking about random things. Well actually she thought the caffine I had in my system started taking over as this what I randomly did as everyone was trying to study in our PS classroom.
1) I started singing Britney Spear songs, any song, name it and I sang it
2) Oh then I started rapping to Nelly, and moved down to J. Lo
3) Then I started giving a lecture about how big J. Lo's booty is
4) Then I started to tell the class how A Walk To The Remember was the best movie I've seen and that I cried as well
5) I started busting out some Mandy Moore songs
6) Then I moved on to Charles In Charge and Saved By The Bell and how I've been watching that recently, and 5 minutes later I started singing the theme song to that
7) Then I started doing my Chuey (sp?) imitation in front of the class
8) Then I told peeps how played out the Power Rangers are now these days
9) Then I got into a debate with Jenny in front of the class about how Pokemon can take out Harry Potter anyday
10) Finally I started hitting up Harry Potter hard by bringing in Goku, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, and X-Men
Yup I got all that in, in a one hour time span, well with the class either laughing at/with me and the rest of the class must of been annoyed by my obnoxiousness. Man that was a sugar rush or what?
After my PS exam, I quickly went to the KL again, this time to study for HST 115 with Paula, Beth, and Monica. Man I was about to pass out in the KL but dang it I gotta know this crap as I was disappointed in my grade on my paper I just recieved from Zellers. I got a 2.7, dude I worked on that thing like no other with the help of Beth. I spent like only 2 hours doing my PS paper and I got a 3.4, there's gotta be something wrong here. Oh well what can I do now but study for my last crackhead exam in ENV 306. I can sense freedom will be upon me soon enough. It's amazing how I ain't even tired yet either, I might as well bounce around campus because I'm in the OU paper for winning the IM V-ball championships.
Bad Guy
So I showered and went to go to the KL to study with Jenny for PS 241. Dude we studied for a little bit but like with an hour to spare we started talking about random things. Well actually she thought the caffine I had in my system started taking over as this what I randomly did as everyone was trying to study in our PS classroom.
1) I started singing Britney Spear songs, any song, name it and I sang it
2) Oh then I started rapping to Nelly, and moved down to J. Lo
3) Then I started giving a lecture about how big J. Lo's booty is
4) Then I started to tell the class how A Walk To The Remember was the best movie I've seen and that I cried as well
5) I started busting out some Mandy Moore songs
6) Then I moved on to Charles In Charge and Saved By The Bell and how I've been watching that recently, and 5 minutes later I started singing the theme song to that
7) Then I started doing my Chuey (sp?) imitation in front of the class
8) Then I told peeps how played out the Power Rangers are now these days
9) Then I got into a debate with Jenny in front of the class about how Pokemon can take out Harry Potter anyday
10) Finally I started hitting up Harry Potter hard by bringing in Goku, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, and X-Men
Yup I got all that in, in a one hour time span, well with the class either laughing at/with me and the rest of the class must of been annoyed by my obnoxiousness. Man that was a sugar rush or what?
After my PS exam, I quickly went to the KL again, this time to study for HST 115 with Paula, Beth, and Monica. Man I was about to pass out in the KL but dang it I gotta know this crap as I was disappointed in my grade on my paper I just recieved from Zellers. I got a 2.7, dude I worked on that thing like no other with the help of Beth. I spent like only 2 hours doing my PS paper and I got a 3.4, there's gotta be something wrong here. Oh well what can I do now but study for my last crackhead exam in ENV 306. I can sense freedom will be upon me soon enough. It's amazing how I ain't even tired yet either, I might as well bounce around campus because I'm in the OU paper for winning the IM V-ball championships.
Bad Guy
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
I said, yeah we need troopers
Cause I need troopers
So I can get da stomping
In my
Air Force Ones
Man I'm so pumped to play in this v-ball league this Monday night. I have an exam the day after, my last one then it's freedom! Well last night I was disappointed that the challenge from that one guy was merely a challenge. Sometimes when they're talking, I wonder if they're trashing talking to me in mandarin? Oh well that's why I felt the urge to show them my Air Force Ones after one kill. What really sucked was on one play, I followed through my hit so hard that swung and hit myself in the chicken. Man that killed, but worst of all that was embarassing oh well Phil did it to himself too. Man I can't wait to make my return back to Boulan.
Ya know one thing that's been really encouraging me lately is seeing the females of CBC just really striving for spiritual growth. I remember I had this conversation with Lindsay a couple of years ago about the females at CBC. I just feel bad that they're aren't any ladies that have the burden or maybe the time to disciple someone like Lindsay. But now it's frustrating to see that they're are girls like Chrissy, Connie, and Cecilia who are growing or have that desire to serve The Lord, but no women around to lead these group of women to another level of accountability and discipleship. I mean you look at discipleship with the women and how easily it could work on it's way down. If you start with the adult women, and then they move down to the 5-1-4 ladies, then they pass it on to the eLLe generation of girls, and they pass it down to like Grace and Stephie's gang of girls so forth. This is one of those times I wish I was a female to take on this ministry. May The Lord send someone who will help the ladies of CBC continue to grow in Him. I guess it's time for me to stop procrastinating and get my butt down to Barnes or was it Borders to hit the books? Oh well I'm gonna go be a nerd.
Work It
Cause I need troopers
So I can get da stomping
In my
Air Force Ones
Man I'm so pumped to play in this v-ball league this Monday night. I have an exam the day after, my last one then it's freedom! Well last night I was disappointed that the challenge from that one guy was merely a challenge. Sometimes when they're talking, I wonder if they're trashing talking to me in mandarin? Oh well that's why I felt the urge to show them my Air Force Ones after one kill. What really sucked was on one play, I followed through my hit so hard that swung and hit myself in the chicken. Man that killed, but worst of all that was embarassing oh well Phil did it to himself too. Man I can't wait to make my return back to Boulan.
Ya know one thing that's been really encouraging me lately is seeing the females of CBC just really striving for spiritual growth. I remember I had this conversation with Lindsay a couple of years ago about the females at CBC. I just feel bad that they're aren't any ladies that have the burden or maybe the time to disciple someone like Lindsay. But now it's frustrating to see that they're are girls like Chrissy, Connie, and Cecilia who are growing or have that desire to serve The Lord, but no women around to lead these group of women to another level of accountability and discipleship. I mean you look at discipleship with the women and how easily it could work on it's way down. If you start with the adult women, and then they move down to the 5-1-4 ladies, then they pass it on to the eLLe generation of girls, and they pass it down to like Grace and Stephie's gang of girls so forth. This is one of those times I wish I was a female to take on this ministry. May The Lord send someone who will help the ladies of CBC continue to grow in Him. I guess it's time for me to stop procrastinating and get my butt down to Barnes or was it Borders to hit the books? Oh well I'm gonna go be a nerd.
Work It