Mile High City - Thanks P Dogg, I took that advice this morning and said no. I don't know if there is a nicer way or tone to say no? Anyways when I did, the person looked at me like disappointment as if I let this person down. Then the person tells me he/she will not be there for it too, which makes me ask so it is ok for this person not to be there but not ok for me?
The All-Star Weekend was for sure better than last year's in my opinion. I called it that Josh Smith was gonna win it this year. The 3 Point contest has gotten weaker these days, I mean whatever happened to the classics of like Hodges vs. Bird going at it with the average scores of 23. I wanted to go to the Rec Center and practice today because OU is having a Sports and Fitness Day Competition. I will be competiting in the Health Trivia, Sit-Ups, Obstacle course, 15 Min Cycle, Slapshot, Free Throws, 3 Pt. Shootout, and QB Throw.
The Slapshot I am kind of worried about because I am not sure if it is measuring hardest or accuracy. I am more of a wristshot person when I am shooting. I am hoping that it is accuracy because 1 year I was in the Red Wings Skills Competition, and I was in the Accuracy Contest. Out of 12 plates that I had to hit, I was able to connect on 11, if only I had 1 more puck! 3 Pt. Shootout is what I am gearing up for, because I had the jitters last year. I must get a rhythm quicker and score higher than Joe Johnson did.
However, I can not practice today because of my hand. I was carrying a pot of gravy over to the steam table. As I was putting it away, I did not see this pot handle sticking out of the table. So it caused me to knock the gravy all over my hand. My hand is super sensitive right now to whatever it touches, and I got some blistering on the palms of my hand too. Thank goodness for the cold weather because it actually is helping my hand stop having that inside burning sensation.
Blaze of Glory
Monday, February 21, 2005
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Rolex - I've been watching some of the Ambassador's Retreat video as of late. I am really struggling with the thought of suffering. Do struggling and suffering go together? Have I really honestly suffered or experienced true joy described by Scott? After today, I can tell you this much that I am struggling with one key thing, time. Time is really frustrating me right now, yet His time is perfect. Yet, I am struggling with it greatly to see the big picture.
My timing has been way off for example b-ball and v-ball. Ever since coming back from IL, I have been very inconsistent. B-ball I am falling into a lot of traps and forcing way too many turnovers upon myself. V-ball, Howard was telling me how I am hitting the short ones good yet my timing is way off on the long ball. My passing and setting is off to, it's like I forgot how to play. I'm just in a rut in this area.
Then there's timing on all these service ministries I've been called into and mixing that with projects being combined with it. I am frustrated with this because I am not purposely procrastinating yet I am forced to do everything on the day it is due.
It also looks like the time has come for my sis too. This Sunday it looks like she is moving out to Charlotte to further her opportunities. I don't know how I could keep the house the way it is without lately with everything I am doing. Taking care of the house will just be another added thing for me to spend time on.
Am I seeking Him hard enough? One thing for sure is that I cannot say I am full of joy right now. I noticed another thing is just a couple of reminders that hit me today is DTA. Well it is almost Friday, and I just want to be alone. I just want to let go and go crazy or something where I don't have to worry bout responsibilities. Selfish? Immature? Maybe I'll be able to do some of that at Jonathan's party on Friday nite and Kristyn's party on Saturday nite. Where do I go......
Beautiful Life
My timing has been way off for example b-ball and v-ball. Ever since coming back from IL, I have been very inconsistent. B-ball I am falling into a lot of traps and forcing way too many turnovers upon myself. V-ball, Howard was telling me how I am hitting the short ones good yet my timing is way off on the long ball. My passing and setting is off to, it's like I forgot how to play. I'm just in a rut in this area.
Then there's timing on all these service ministries I've been called into and mixing that with projects being combined with it. I am frustrated with this because I am not purposely procrastinating yet I am forced to do everything on the day it is due.
It also looks like the time has come for my sis too. This Sunday it looks like she is moving out to Charlotte to further her opportunities. I don't know how I could keep the house the way it is without lately with everything I am doing. Taking care of the house will just be another added thing for me to spend time on.
Am I seeking Him hard enough? One thing for sure is that I cannot say I am full of joy right now. I noticed another thing is just a couple of reminders that hit me today is DTA. Well it is almost Friday, and I just want to be alone. I just want to let go and go crazy or something where I don't have to worry bout responsibilities. Selfish? Immature? Maybe I'll be able to do some of that at Jonathan's party on Friday nite and Kristyn's party on Saturday nite. Where do I go......
Beautiful Life
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
HeartBreakers - Tonight, I watched the crowning of the new champs for IM B-ball. Then again I'm glad Lance and John won because I got much respect for their game. As for us, Darko's team we got upsetted last night in the 2nd round. It was frustrating because most of my teammates bickered more with the refs than play the game. Man, I hate that feeling of losing but that will only push me harder for next season.
Another moment, tonight was this one girl I'll call E. She works in the Rec too, and she kept asking me bout her V-Day's gift. Do people not know that everyday is V-day or what? I mean last week, she was all over me and now with this gift thing. Anyways, I think she mad at me because of 2 things. First, I gave her a V-Day's gift, a shaver that all Rec Staff are suppose to pass out :) Yes I'm bad like that. 2nd, I think she was jealous because Katie and I walked out together back to her place. Man the drama at the Rec ya know, I just come to do my thing in the gym/weight room.
Tonight, I got a chance to see the v-ball teams for this semester's season. I've seen how M and J been acting so cocky around the Rec because they are good. They keep picking on the defenseless, well now the season starts and I want to see if they can do that to me. They upgraded their team to a new level. They forget that I can do the same as 6-Pack has made our own free agent signee, Andi. She used to run with Joey's team back in the days, but now she has no team left. At the time, Andi was among the top 3 girls in the league. Kristyn and I are excited that Andi has joined us because out of 9 Finals, we have 5 and Andi has the other 4. It shows we're winners and will push ourselves to the limit. She is one of the most athletic girls I know too, because Andi can walk around doing handstands.
In addition, in the girl's league I noticed my OU Staff girls did not want to defend the title. Personally, I do not want to see the Big Bad Booty Mama's winning it this semester because I believe they are a disgrace to the game of v-ball just how they act and treat others. So I took it upon myself to form my own girl's team, as we look at the roster of V, Kristyn, KareBear, SpongeBob, Andi, Katie, Katie, and Mandy Mac. V, Kristyn, KareBear, and Mandy Mac are the defending champs and now I get to be the coach for them in 6's. They keep wanting me to come up with a creative name, so with these 8 ladies, they will be called Bump N Grind.
The all guys league has been cancelled because no one wants to challenge our team, Pass This! Anyways, time for bed as I gotta wake up early to pick up Monica for Cranbrook and classes.
Trip Around The Sun
Another moment, tonight was this one girl I'll call E. She works in the Rec too, and she kept asking me bout her V-Day's gift. Do people not know that everyday is V-day or what? I mean last week, she was all over me and now with this gift thing. Anyways, I think she mad at me because of 2 things. First, I gave her a V-Day's gift, a shaver that all Rec Staff are suppose to pass out :) Yes I'm bad like that. 2nd, I think she was jealous because Katie and I walked out together back to her place. Man the drama at the Rec ya know, I just come to do my thing in the gym/weight room.
Tonight, I got a chance to see the v-ball teams for this semester's season. I've seen how M and J been acting so cocky around the Rec because they are good. They keep picking on the defenseless, well now the season starts and I want to see if they can do that to me. They upgraded their team to a new level. They forget that I can do the same as 6-Pack has made our own free agent signee, Andi. She used to run with Joey's team back in the days, but now she has no team left. At the time, Andi was among the top 3 girls in the league. Kristyn and I are excited that Andi has joined us because out of 9 Finals, we have 5 and Andi has the other 4. It shows we're winners and will push ourselves to the limit. She is one of the most athletic girls I know too, because Andi can walk around doing handstands.
In addition, in the girl's league I noticed my OU Staff girls did not want to defend the title. Personally, I do not want to see the Big Bad Booty Mama's winning it this semester because I believe they are a disgrace to the game of v-ball just how they act and treat others. So I took it upon myself to form my own girl's team, as we look at the roster of V, Kristyn, KareBear, SpongeBob, Andi, Katie, Katie, and Mandy Mac. V, Kristyn, KareBear, and Mandy Mac are the defending champs and now I get to be the coach for them in 6's. They keep wanting me to come up with a creative name, so with these 8 ladies, they will be called Bump N Grind.
The all guys league has been cancelled because no one wants to challenge our team, Pass This! Anyways, time for bed as I gotta wake up early to pick up Monica for Cranbrook and classes.
Trip Around The Sun
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
The Butler Part 2 - It's amazing who He uses to encourage me, and thanks for the prayer support. Another day of breakin down everything I had more on my mind bout what was said to me yesterday by various peeps. First off, now some can think all I am doing is complainin and not doing anything about it. Well if you are one of those peeps, then you're dead wrong because I've been spending time with GP B trying to let's say rock the boat. It was said that 10% of the peeps is doing 90% of the work, hmm I wonder if that is true? I've been seeking others as well to get their opinion on possible changes @ CBC. I just could not believe one person was telling me bout not wanting to rockin the boat cuz she wanted to keep the peace among 2 peeps. I challenged her with the thought that we're here to make peace and not keep it.
Back to the question I last posed as well, one reason why things are the way they are is because of personal pride/stubborness @ CBC. I figured with all this going on with me, I tried my hardest to ask some peeps for help in terms of service, very lil things. Nope, every where I turned to I got the door slammed in my face full of rejection. Oooh ok then, more treasures for me up there then I guess ;) This is why I go at things alone for always teaching myself not to depend on anyone. It's all good, going alone on these things well I wouldn't have it any other way. I do feel much better after venting and repenting lately, seeking every fruit possible for myself.
I am up for the challenge now.
I Want To Live
Back to the question I last posed as well, one reason why things are the way they are is because of personal pride/stubborness @ CBC. I figured with all this going on with me, I tried my hardest to ask some peeps for help in terms of service, very lil things. Nope, every where I turned to I got the door slammed in my face full of rejection. Oooh ok then, more treasures for me up there then I guess ;) This is why I go at things alone for always teaching myself not to depend on anyone. It's all good, going alone on these things well I wouldn't have it any other way. I do feel much better after venting and repenting lately, seeking every fruit possible for myself.
I am up for the challenge now.
I Want To Live
Monday, February 14, 2005
The Butler - Hmmm a lot of verses came to me in my head yesterday, serve one another, serve Him with joy, do not complain, pray continuously, etc...... I'm glad I took the night to woosah before posting this, but I still may get a little fired up as I post this. I may even come off with a bigger plank in my eye too.
Yesterday, I walk into worship hoping to turn down that Sunday School teaching ministry so that I can focus on my own worship. I guess when I say no in a loving way, it does not mean much because not only am I kind of stuck with that ministry, I gained a new ministry to serve on top of that. I'll do my best to leave out names in this one. Yesterday, as I was observing the Sunday School lesson a lot of the kids were asking me if I could be their new teacher. I always like to know why, and they said it is because I make the lessons exciting and fun to learn plus it helps when they say I am a funny guy. Another person was supposedly contacted to help out in this ministry, but it seems like they backed out so it's on me now.
What irks me even more is talking to various people yesterday. I mean you had others bashing others about what they are not doing in the church. You had people kind of bashing other's ministries as well. Is worship not the place where we give back to God and is CBC the house of love? Now this next part, I know I've been guilty many times about it which is the whole attending Sunday School ordeal. Granted it is not by law or anything that we attend but man that gym posse is just growing. A lot of people see it and complain, to some it is like half of those people could be serving in Jr. Church. While other's see it as a new nursey we got in the gym, but it is just getting a lil ridiculous in there. It kind of hurts me to hear others comments about the gym posse, and at the same time it's all hypocritical.
Just when I thought I could rest during lunch, the Mandarin Fellowship leaders came and seeked me. My name was on their list as "someone" suggested that I would be interested in helpin out their ministry. Is my name like Jobseek, and it just floats around or something? I was pulled into yet another meeting, and I kept saying a gentle no about my current situation. However, I guess my words mean nothing so I think from now on I will just hold a sign that reads "Will Serve for Food." They thought that I would "be better fit to witness" in this new ministry. The worst is, stunting my own growth through this all. I keep thinking that He does not give us too much to handle, who knows maybe I can do it. Pssh I see some other things that I am serving in being not as effective. What can I do now, just ask for help and strength because even the Jr. Church schedule is frustrating me.
At least I had a good talk with GP B yesterday, the question remains why do we have so many different ministries that are the same and stretches our manpower? May next week's worship be better for myself.
The Call
Yesterday, I walk into worship hoping to turn down that Sunday School teaching ministry so that I can focus on my own worship. I guess when I say no in a loving way, it does not mean much because not only am I kind of stuck with that ministry, I gained a new ministry to serve on top of that. I'll do my best to leave out names in this one. Yesterday, as I was observing the Sunday School lesson a lot of the kids were asking me if I could be their new teacher. I always like to know why, and they said it is because I make the lessons exciting and fun to learn plus it helps when they say I am a funny guy. Another person was supposedly contacted to help out in this ministry, but it seems like they backed out so it's on me now.
What irks me even more is talking to various people yesterday. I mean you had others bashing others about what they are not doing in the church. You had people kind of bashing other's ministries as well. Is worship not the place where we give back to God and is CBC the house of love? Now this next part, I know I've been guilty many times about it which is the whole attending Sunday School ordeal. Granted it is not by law or anything that we attend but man that gym posse is just growing. A lot of people see it and complain, to some it is like half of those people could be serving in Jr. Church. While other's see it as a new nursey we got in the gym, but it is just getting a lil ridiculous in there. It kind of hurts me to hear others comments about the gym posse, and at the same time it's all hypocritical.
Just when I thought I could rest during lunch, the Mandarin Fellowship leaders came and seeked me. My name was on their list as "someone" suggested that I would be interested in helpin out their ministry. Is my name like Jobseek, and it just floats around or something? I was pulled into yet another meeting, and I kept saying a gentle no about my current situation. However, I guess my words mean nothing so I think from now on I will just hold a sign that reads "Will Serve for Food." They thought that I would "be better fit to witness" in this new ministry. The worst is, stunting my own growth through this all. I keep thinking that He does not give us too much to handle, who knows maybe I can do it. Pssh I see some other things that I am serving in being not as effective. What can I do now, just ask for help and strength because even the Jr. Church schedule is frustrating me.
At least I had a good talk with GP B yesterday, the question remains why do we have so many different ministries that are the same and stretches our manpower? May next week's worship be better for myself.
The Call