Gosh this blows because I had a whole new entry too but got erased. Anyways, last night was just a hiliarious time at the 5-1-4 and the fact that God has continued to bless this group is just sooo amazing. Anyways I can't even remember what I was gonna say from that deleted entry. So I've been chilling here at school for quite some time just wasting the time away. Soon enough I will get off my lazy bum and do mad work, and get this I will actually try to get ahead of my work or at least get all caught up. Then later tonight I can treat myself to going to the Rec. Center to continue to work out and hopefully the OU girls v-ball team will be there so we can play around. Ya know one thing I don't like about MTE today was that we have this project to do and it's due in about 3 weeks from now. However I don't like the fact that we have to get into groups. I don't mind working in groups as long as it is people that I know and who have the same goal which is doing a good job on this thing. But since I don't have a clue who these peeps are, I'd rather work alone because I don't want some bums working with me and then I'm carrying the load. However if I choose to work alone then I will get penalized of 10% for choosing to go this route. What's up wit dat? Oh well it is almost time for me to do some work, yes I will do my homework if it is the last thing I do today.
How Soon Is Now?
Thursday, January 30, 2003
Monday, January 27, 2003
Swwweeeeet, I haven't been online in over a week and yet a lot has gone by, as it amazes me how God continues to use me. So forget about looking back at how my past week or so went, let's move forward. First off what's wierd is I never realized how much homework I get in all my Ed classes, I thought it would be easy once I start taking these classes but it's only getting harder. And not going online for soooo long I never realized I missed that much of what people write in their blogs. I'm really glad that I fasted from online last semester because I don't even have that urge to go on anymore, even though sometimes I wish I could to check up on b-ball. Then their is tonight, a brand new start on OU v-ball, is it our destiny to 3-peat? Our team is loaded I must say that I have full confidence that we can still win even if Stan and I are sitting out. However, Daneille and the staff have decided to add a new rule this semester, which is each team is allowed to have a guest player from outside play for them. So I'm excited because hopefully people will bring in better players to up the competition in this league. Then after the game, time to eat midnight snack (su yeah? I dunno how to spell it in chinese) with the boyz. I'm so happy that daddy can come and play with his boyz. Here's one thing why I'm glad that I'm single is because all the boyz had to ask their wives if they can come out and play. One of the good gifts of singleness that God has blessed us with.
Superman
Superman
Tuesday, January 14, 2003
Wow so I never knew being a teacher was gonna be this hard or have this much work. I mean I start student teaching tomorrow in Ferndale and I gotta be there from 7:45 a.m. till 4:00 p.m. Ok so now I better not hear people complaining about their fricking work times because I gotta get up at like 5:30 a.m. just to be ready. It amazes me to that some of the people taking these education classes with me scare the crap out of me. Like yesterday, we were doing a simple assignment of the metric system and how to measure and convert things from cm., to m., back to mm. So this one girl, Andrea turns to Melissa and I and said, umm I'm kind of dumb can you help me out here? I was like uhhh are you sure you want to be a teacher, actually I didn't say that out loud but Melissa helped her out while I finished our homework. And then their was this other girl freaking out because the homework was a little overwhelming and I agree that it was but if you can't handle the pressure then what makes you think you can handle the kids? I need to start taking names of these people in my class and start finding out which school they will teach at so I can advise my friends who have kids or those who will have kids not to go to them.
Anyways, I just got out of MTE and yes we had a sub today, her name was Prof. Benken. Jaime told me last semester to try to get a class with her because she is a good prof. And I just asked her in front of the whole class if some of us can add to her class because we don't like Prof. Grossman. I mean now Prof. Benken actually makes math fun, and she's kind of nutty but cute too. Gosh if she was only my prof for MTE, oh frick I gotta jet to class before I'm again.
Biker Boyz
Anyways, I just got out of MTE and yes we had a sub today, her name was Prof. Benken. Jaime told me last semester to try to get a class with her because she is a good prof. And I just asked her in front of the whole class if some of us can add to her class because we don't like Prof. Grossman. I mean now Prof. Benken actually makes math fun, and she's kind of nutty but cute too. Gosh if she was only my prof for MTE, oh frick I gotta jet to class before I'm again.
Biker Boyz
Monday, January 13, 2003
This past weekend, was just a weekend of reflection/revelations in my life and to see where I'm at in life. First came the much anticipated CSC B-ball tournament at MSU. I knew from the past that we would be one of the favored teams along with J.R.'s team, and KSU's team. However right from the beginning I knew we weren't gonna go far, I hate to say it but just looking at how our team responded. I mean by the time everyone got to the gym, our first game was about to start. And yeah we lost to J.R's team and some could say it was because we didn't get a chance to warm up. Well if some of us got to the gym a little earlier maybe we could of shot together as a team. The 2nd game we played was against Ruff Ballerz, and we won that game. But that game was fun in a way because it had intensity and we played hard because if we lost that means we would be going home. I gave the team a little speech before the game started saying no more dicking around and it's time to get down to business. A couple of us got into some trash talking wars, Bobby vs. Cash Money because Bob's kept shouting out, give me the ball look who's guarding me, which was hilarious. Because Bobby didn't mean to disrespect the guy as in that he was a bad player but just the fact that Bobby had the physical advantage. Then during Stan's free throws, this African-American guy and I got into face to face. He tried to get me to punch him or shove him so that I would be ejected from the game. However instead I gave him a hug for love just to taunt him back and that I am the king of mind games. And then came our 3rd game, it was against Ray's team and yeah everyone was laughing because his team sucked. But I kept telling everyone not to under-estimate them and that this ain't CBC b-ball, so what happens? People let their fricking pride get the better of them and Ray's team came back from a 16 point deficit to eliminate us from the playoffs.
Here are somethings that I got out of this tournament. First off I gotta admit that the competition has gotten a lot better, I believe we've gone from playoff contenders to playoff pretenders. Why because in every game we had the lead going into the 2nd half but we usually lose during it in the middle of the second half. That just shows our team isn't mentally tough because often times we gotta pushed around. It's as simple as this, if someone shoved me, then I pushed them back letting them no I ain't taking any of that crap, I even wrote Psalm 23 on my arm showing no fear to any man on the court with me. What still frustrates me is that people think CBC b-ball is equivalent to this type of tournament. I mean you could be an all star at CBC but out here you ain't shit if you don't know how to run with the african-americans. Here's another telling tale, Stan lead the team in minutes played out of a possible 90, he played about 86 minutes. I was 2nd with 84 minutes, however if anyone bothered to notice, everytime I was taken out for someone else so he could get more playing time, we had the lead while I was in but lost it once I was subbed out. How did we win that 2nd game? Because I played every minute unlike the first and the third. So another key to success for us next time, don't fricking take me out of the game. And that's another thing are we entering the tournament so that we can all have a little playing time or are we here to fricking win the thing, no matter who plays? It pisses me off that I helped build the lead that our team had only to come in and now we are down by x amount of points. So people can say what they want about why we lost? But this is what I believe, we lost before the tournamet started due to lateness, and we never had the correct lineups out on the court at the given situations. Simple as that, and if that's not good enough then it's on me because people felt I should of taken more shots or attacked the rim more. I hesitated because I wanted to get others involved in the offense first but maybe they were right, I should of shot the ball more.
Afterwards, their was this frat/sorority party held at this club. When I first heard about it, I really wanted to go because everyone from CSC wanted me to go with them. However after the tournament I was able to do some more reflecting and praying, like is this where God wants me to be. I learned that a good portion of the CCF people were going as well, and it made me feel like not going anymore. Why? That verse in Eph. 4:23 kept ringing in my head and I saw it on Sewa's door from her roomie, so I knew God had to be speaking to me there. If this was before I accepted Christ I probably would of been to that party for sure, however it's not me anymore. Some people were gonna go there to check out the Asian hunnies but ya know that's not me either. I remember one of them were talking about that they ain't ashamed of how they act at a club. And it got me thinking to what Dan shared about last Tuesday, is that it's just the very thought already not the action but the thought is what counts. I mean I figured if I went, since their would be sooo much booty flying around then I would be falling into temptation or just not being mindful of my thoughts. Maybe I'm just weaker than others when it comes to having thoughts, but God will never lead us into temptation so I hoped my actions that night glorified God by not going. And yesterday at worship, it still bothered me when I walked into God's house. I was literally crying inside of me before P. Ho even went up to the pulpit because I was just soooo concerned for my brothers and sisters who went Saturday night. And it just bothered me that I didn't step up to say anything to them when they were about to go because I didn't want anyone to look at me the wrong way or thinking that I'm a dork now for not wanting to go. But Jesus was bold when he came to make statements and that's just something I need to work on. What really got to me is seeing how much time, some people spent on getting ready for this party, yet it makes me think do you spend this amount of time getting ready to worship our God? And an old friend called me up that night too asking if I would go with her (non-Christian) to the party and she said that I owe her a dance. I told that I couldn't due to personal reasons. But it's integrity that I've been working on ever since this year started and the fact that God is using me to teach children at this point in my life. And I'm thankful that I will be student teaching this Wednesday at some school in Ferndale, gosh I wish it was closer but I'm thankful that I do have a place to be teaching.
5-1-4
Here are somethings that I got out of this tournament. First off I gotta admit that the competition has gotten a lot better, I believe we've gone from playoff contenders to playoff pretenders. Why because in every game we had the lead going into the 2nd half but we usually lose during it in the middle of the second half. That just shows our team isn't mentally tough because often times we gotta pushed around. It's as simple as this, if someone shoved me, then I pushed them back letting them no I ain't taking any of that crap, I even wrote Psalm 23 on my arm showing no fear to any man on the court with me. What still frustrates me is that people think CBC b-ball is equivalent to this type of tournament. I mean you could be an all star at CBC but out here you ain't shit if you don't know how to run with the african-americans. Here's another telling tale, Stan lead the team in minutes played out of a possible 90, he played about 86 minutes. I was 2nd with 84 minutes, however if anyone bothered to notice, everytime I was taken out for someone else so he could get more playing time, we had the lead while I was in but lost it once I was subbed out. How did we win that 2nd game? Because I played every minute unlike the first and the third. So another key to success for us next time, don't fricking take me out of the game. And that's another thing are we entering the tournament so that we can all have a little playing time or are we here to fricking win the thing, no matter who plays? It pisses me off that I helped build the lead that our team had only to come in and now we are down by x amount of points. So people can say what they want about why we lost? But this is what I believe, we lost before the tournamet started due to lateness, and we never had the correct lineups out on the court at the given situations. Simple as that, and if that's not good enough then it's on me because people felt I should of taken more shots or attacked the rim more. I hesitated because I wanted to get others involved in the offense first but maybe they were right, I should of shot the ball more.
Afterwards, their was this frat/sorority party held at this club. When I first heard about it, I really wanted to go because everyone from CSC wanted me to go with them. However after the tournament I was able to do some more reflecting and praying, like is this where God wants me to be. I learned that a good portion of the CCF people were going as well, and it made me feel like not going anymore. Why? That verse in Eph. 4:23 kept ringing in my head and I saw it on Sewa's door from her roomie, so I knew God had to be speaking to me there. If this was before I accepted Christ I probably would of been to that party for sure, however it's not me anymore. Some people were gonna go there to check out the Asian hunnies but ya know that's not me either. I remember one of them were talking about that they ain't ashamed of how they act at a club. And it got me thinking to what Dan shared about last Tuesday, is that it's just the very thought already not the action but the thought is what counts. I mean I figured if I went, since their would be sooo much booty flying around then I would be falling into temptation or just not being mindful of my thoughts. Maybe I'm just weaker than others when it comes to having thoughts, but God will never lead us into temptation so I hoped my actions that night glorified God by not going. And yesterday at worship, it still bothered me when I walked into God's house. I was literally crying inside of me before P. Ho even went up to the pulpit because I was just soooo concerned for my brothers and sisters who went Saturday night. And it just bothered me that I didn't step up to say anything to them when they were about to go because I didn't want anyone to look at me the wrong way or thinking that I'm a dork now for not wanting to go. But Jesus was bold when he came to make statements and that's just something I need to work on. What really got to me is seeing how much time, some people spent on getting ready for this party, yet it makes me think do you spend this amount of time getting ready to worship our God? And an old friend called me up that night too asking if I would go with her (non-Christian) to the party and she said that I owe her a dance. I told that I couldn't due to personal reasons. But it's integrity that I've been working on ever since this year started and the fact that God is using me to teach children at this point in my life. And I'm thankful that I will be student teaching this Wednesday at some school in Ferndale, gosh I wish it was closer but I'm thankful that I do have a place to be teaching.
5-1-4
Thursday, January 09, 2003
You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
Ya know what I can't stand sometimes is the fact that I let things eat at me sooooo much. It's like during my dreaded MTE class today, all I kept thinking about or doing was talking back to Prof. Grossman because I still honestly believe he is gay as in gay and not gay as in stupid. I got soooo pissed at him because after getting our first quiz back he kept talking to everyone in a condescending manner or treating us like we're dumb. He might be soooo good at math but his english sucks due to his little stuttering action he's got going on. I got soooo bored that I wrote down all the words that he fumbled upon, successful, strategy, focus, class, situation (3 times), suggestion, staple, sequences, supervisor, examples. I even felt soooo proud of myself to just shout out loud "YOU'RE WRONG" when he was trying to do a math problem on the board, just to show how he likes it when others look down upon him. However, I am ashamed of my actions/thoughts as well because obviously they aren't holy. And just reflecting on that list of muttered words, I kept thinking about how God must have a list of me and all my wrong doings then my list would go on forever. And this class is just such a trial to leave with a smile on your face because I leave pissed off everytime. Why? Because it goes back at how he talks to the class or treats some of us, so one of us gotta stand up to it so it might as well be me. Last night Erin saw the homework I was doing already since she took that class last semester and her words were "Kenny, get up and run for your life out of that class". Normally I would but today even at his discouraging words, I've decided to stay for the semester. Why? Because I don't like to quit or drop, and the fact that I wanna show him that we're not all idiots in the class. Plus now another thing to add to my list would be a higher tolerance/patience level.
And last night it's amazing how God is using the peeps in the 5-1-4, and I really pray that this fellowship will continue to grow. And when we do have those times where we're on a little downfall, may we lift each other up and rely on God's strength to get us out of it. Also I think starting today I will start a new fast and that fast will be from PS2, let's see if I can keep this fast till let's say the end of the month because by then I should know where I'll be student teaching at and my schedule will have been adjusted. Boy this education stuff is a lot more work than I thought it would ever will be. And only 2 more days till the tournament and now that I know it is hosted by CSC, gosh I hope the guys can stay focus on the tournament and not on all the asian cuties surrounding the court. Gosh I better get myself to the gym for one last hard workout and then tomorrow will be the cool down day before the tournament.
Not Gonna Get Us
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
Ya know what I can't stand sometimes is the fact that I let things eat at me sooooo much. It's like during my dreaded MTE class today, all I kept thinking about or doing was talking back to Prof. Grossman because I still honestly believe he is gay as in gay and not gay as in stupid. I got soooo pissed at him because after getting our first quiz back he kept talking to everyone in a condescending manner or treating us like we're dumb. He might be soooo good at math but his english sucks due to his little stuttering action he's got going on. I got soooo bored that I wrote down all the words that he fumbled upon, successful, strategy, focus, class, situation (3 times), suggestion, staple, sequences, supervisor, examples. I even felt soooo proud of myself to just shout out loud "YOU'RE WRONG" when he was trying to do a math problem on the board, just to show how he likes it when others look down upon him. However, I am ashamed of my actions/thoughts as well because obviously they aren't holy. And just reflecting on that list of muttered words, I kept thinking about how God must have a list of me and all my wrong doings then my list would go on forever. And this class is just such a trial to leave with a smile on your face because I leave pissed off everytime. Why? Because it goes back at how he talks to the class or treats some of us, so one of us gotta stand up to it so it might as well be me. Last night Erin saw the homework I was doing already since she took that class last semester and her words were "Kenny, get up and run for your life out of that class". Normally I would but today even at his discouraging words, I've decided to stay for the semester. Why? Because I don't like to quit or drop, and the fact that I wanna show him that we're not all idiots in the class. Plus now another thing to add to my list would be a higher tolerance/patience level.
And last night it's amazing how God is using the peeps in the 5-1-4, and I really pray that this fellowship will continue to grow. And when we do have those times where we're on a little downfall, may we lift each other up and rely on God's strength to get us out of it. Also I think starting today I will start a new fast and that fast will be from PS2, let's see if I can keep this fast till let's say the end of the month because by then I should know where I'll be student teaching at and my schedule will have been adjusted. Boy this education stuff is a lot more work than I thought it would ever will be. And only 2 more days till the tournament and now that I know it is hosted by CSC, gosh I hope the guys can stay focus on the tournament and not on all the asian cuties surrounding the court. Gosh I better get myself to the gym for one last hard workout and then tomorrow will be the cool down day before the tournament.
Not Gonna Get Us
Tuesday, January 07, 2003
Ok so I got out of my 8:00 a.m. class already which of course I was late for. And of course I was mad late for this class, why it is not because I overslept. I sat in the classroom just chilling by myself for 5 minutes and then figured out that something is not right here. So I ran to the ERL to look up my schedule of where my classes meet and it seems that they have moved the class to the other side of campus. So I just booked all the way down just to see that once again I am one of 3 guys in this class with a class about 70 as I was scanning for a seat. I can tell I already hate this class because the dumb prof already gave us a quiz and then after we finished we have a take home quiz to be done by next class. What the GG, can't you be a regular prof and just go over the syllabus on the first day like any normal person. Oh and speaking of normal prof's, I don't think this guy is a normal prof because I think he is a "special" prof. The thought in my mind that kept running was "Gosh I wonder if Prof. Grossman is gay?" He moves his hand like in a very girly like way, and he's got some sort of speech impedment going on or something. Anyways this class should be interesting as I get to review my math skillz.
Someone was talking to me about being bored at school since their isn't much to do in th first week. I don't know what has gotten into me lately but my response was, how can you be bored with nothing to do? Reach out to someone, share Christ, or read God's Word were my answers. Gosh maybe's been all these books I've been reading lately, boy it sure feels wierd to give answers like those out. Anyways time to hit the gym to work out and do my 104 push-ups that I owe Joyce and Sewa. Sorry JW for being a rookie in Big 2, vengence will be ours!!!!
Race Against Time
Someone was talking to me about being bored at school since their isn't much to do in th first week. I don't know what has gotten into me lately but my response was, how can you be bored with nothing to do? Reach out to someone, share Christ, or read God's Word were my answers. Gosh maybe's been all these books I've been reading lately, boy it sure feels wierd to give answers like those out. Anyways time to hit the gym to work out and do my 104 push-ups that I owe Joyce and Sewa. Sorry JW for being a rookie in Big 2, vengence will be ours!!!!
Race Against Time
Monday, January 06, 2003
Wow it's been like a month now since I've used this thing. It's amazing how during the whole break time I had once checked my email. I barely had time do go on the internet at all, and when I did, how did I squeeze it into my time table. Easy, I went online whenever I had to shop at the mall and I just went to the IMAC store to use their computers. Anyways so what did I do this break? I was able to spend some quality time with people that came home from school, I made some quick cash at b-ball, then I lost some at the casino, went to a karoke bar (wow I can't believe we have one here), stimulated my mind with Christian books, and got a lot of nice gifts for Christmas. It seemed like everyone's theme was to get me a dress shirt and tie. I averaged about a whopping 3 hours of sleep each night since I always had peeps over. I got to spend time with peeps from out of state, Emoy, Viv, and G.
So today was the first day of classes and of course I had one long one. And this class seems like it is a lot of fun because finally I am in one building this whoe semester because I am taking all Ed classes. What's freaky is that I am one of 3 guys in this class, and the prof said that she wants us all to be very organized in her class otherwise we will have pop quizzes. Dude organization is not my strong point but let's like that is what God wants me to work on this semester since I need to be organized in teaching Sunday School too. And I need to work on organization as my grades dropped last semester, then again I hated each class so my enthusiasm wasn't as big as this one I have for this class. Then their is my New Year's resolution in which I am falling behind already, which is Bible in a year. Gosh that is sad not even a week into the new year and I am already behind. I hope Chrissy and V are doing better on it than I am.
God's blessed me with a new cell phone, but dang it I hate this thing because number one everyone has this one and two I hate flips. And wow Craig Krenzel actually led the Buckeyes to the promise land. It was only 4 years ago that I was playing against him in high school football. He was the leader for Ford and I still remember what he said to some of us during the game as we were blowing out his team. He said that most of the plays were being drawn up on the fly since it was a blowout and all of Ford's offense was passing. It was one of the longest games in history because all they did was pass except for like 3 plays.
Anyways, the countdown is on already for MSU B-ball tournament. Come support us because that's what gets me going is hearing people's voices and it's time to get that music going and get this party started.
Happy New Year
So today was the first day of classes and of course I had one long one. And this class seems like it is a lot of fun because finally I am in one building this whoe semester because I am taking all Ed classes. What's freaky is that I am one of 3 guys in this class, and the prof said that she wants us all to be very organized in her class otherwise we will have pop quizzes. Dude organization is not my strong point but let's like that is what God wants me to work on this semester since I need to be organized in teaching Sunday School too. And I need to work on organization as my grades dropped last semester, then again I hated each class so my enthusiasm wasn't as big as this one I have for this class. Then their is my New Year's resolution in which I am falling behind already, which is Bible in a year. Gosh that is sad not even a week into the new year and I am already behind. I hope Chrissy and V are doing better on it than I am.
God's blessed me with a new cell phone, but dang it I hate this thing because number one everyone has this one and two I hate flips. And wow Craig Krenzel actually led the Buckeyes to the promise land. It was only 4 years ago that I was playing against him in high school football. He was the leader for Ford and I still remember what he said to some of us during the game as we were blowing out his team. He said that most of the plays were being drawn up on the fly since it was a blowout and all of Ford's offense was passing. It was one of the longest games in history because all they did was pass except for like 3 plays.
Anyways, the countdown is on already for MSU B-ball tournament. Come support us because that's what gets me going is hearing people's voices and it's time to get that music going and get this party started.
Happy New Year