Yesterday was a day of frustration whether it was on the court or on the field. Actually it was funny first, for our football game because the head official was looking for all the teams. He kept asking different people if they are on U.R.A.P.K. All of us on the team busted out laughing because the ref kept shouting it out loud. Back to the game though, you would think leading in offensive yards that a team would win? But nope, we're the OU version of the Lions. I established myself as one of the best recievers in the league now with a 100 yard game and 2 TD's. The game was fun for me because as the game got closer to the end, I had triple coverage on me, with the CB taking the outside route away, the LB taking the inside route, and the safety taking anything deep. I just had to do a Randy Moss flexing TD dance with my 2nd one because it was just a 40 yard bomb by Stan, and I just outran the CB, and jumped over the safety for it. Our defense was pretty stellar too, with Ray now among the league leaders in sacks, after having a 6 sack day. I did what I said I would do and shut down my half of the field, where the QB didn't even bother throwing my way. So with all that, said you would think we won?

However that wasn't the case, because again we shot ourselves in the head with stupid penalties and turnovers. Down 13-12 with 2 minutes to go. I run a quick slant for a 10 yard gain only to get it wiped out for an offsides penalty which moves us back. Repeat down, Stan throws another bomb to me where I got us down to their 10 yard line for a gain of 50 yards. Nope, got that wiped out too with another penalty but this time for illegal blocking. Next couple of plays incomplete pass, and 4th and what seemed like eternity for me, interception of course to end the game.

Throughout the game I kept giving my own little version of T.O. in the huddles. I kept challenging my players to be more pumped and to step it up especially when their's 3 guys covering me. I'm glad that Ray responded to my speech with his Jevon Kearse performance. So if it weren't for the stupid penalties I could of had 150 yard day with 2 possibly 3rd TD. Don't know what else I have to do, to get a W. However, gotta take the good from this game, such as Ray's pass rushing ability, the new offensive scheme, and Stan and I's new Peyton/Marvin chemistry.

I rushed off to Boulan, for the season opener for Spiked Punch. We lost the first game and as we huddled, all eyes turned to me, and Rob and Melissa let me have the keys to the team to turn it around. So we won the next game, but dropped the 3rd. I crushed Mark and Bill's ego on our team when they kept asking me why I want to drop the 6-2 offense and told them straight up that "our passing sucks." However, the Ski Niks did a good job of taking me out of the game as well. With the stupid rule of 1 female has to touch the ball, and with Rob setting, they kept serving to me the 3rd game, so my passes actually get to Rob but he would have to set to Melissa who isn't a strong hitter. That was frustrating right there because it was a smart move by them and their was no way I could take myself out of passing.

So off to a 1-2 start, Rob and I already believe it will be a long season. We both agreed we also don't like playing with Bill either because not to offend anyone but what a cock he is. Erin noticed he didn't bother shaking the other team's hand after each game. Also I feel bad for Melissa for dating such a jerk. Watching him during warm ups he kept belittling her as if he was that much superior than her in v-ball. Gosh I just wanted to play against him and shut him up.

During the game too, Melissa thought I was upset and seemed a little more pissed to play. Which I was because I don't like playing against with cheaters which this one guy did. As I kept arguing back, the ref could card me, eject me for all I care, but Melissa had to restrain me from talking back with the ref too. So it felt no better when I killed one straight down on that guy's face and did a little dance in front of him. Then roofed him and stared him down, because like the ref said, I don't like dishonest players.

I keep wondering what else do I have to do to help these teams win? Which leads me to this too, I have lost 2 bottles of my Motrin because I'm letting people take some for their pain. So since this stuff isn't cheap, my new rule is on that is get your own.

The Moment

What a Monday night football game, I feel bad for Simion Rice for a stupid penalty called on him. Anyways, it's late of course and the past few days, I've been struggling with many different types of sin. Then everything just like revealed itself on Sunday as GP B spoke during worship. Bali spoke to me the day before as well and both of them mentioned the same thing. Satan knows us too and will use anything he can do doubt God or break us up from the church. Man that really got me thinking and reflecting a lot. Well now I feel or at least hope that I am back on right track.

What else has happened to me lately? Well in the sporting news, URAPK lost our season opener. I was disappointed because it was my fault that we lost. I got too greedy when balls were thrown to me, and lost concentration by looking up field before catching the ball. When I did, it gave the defense a chance to intercept the ball which they did. Granted a lot of the catches I had to make were either in the air or I was squatting trying to grab another, my rule of thumb is, if I touch it, then I should catch it. I still lead the team in receptions and yards but wasn't good enough to get a W. I'm really glad Peter's on our team because he's been doing most of the coaching part. I hate doing that because I'd rather focus on my own game vs. the whole team. Stan, Peter, and I were talking making the offense easier for the QB's by going with a base offense vs. a spread offense. Now Peter's got me playing CB to shut down one half of the field. I'm excited because now I can go back to my motto "Water covers 75% of the earth, I cover the rest." I gotta shorten my routes too, now that teams are playing a cloud defense over me, with a corner taking the inside away and the free safety over top of me. I want to say thanks to Kim for coming out to support us! Sorry for not getting the TD that I promised you, then again like Stan said, it's hard to win a game when we had 4 turnovers and the other team had none.

Tonight I played my first game with Powerspike. It was wierd watching my old team playing on the other court. I congratulated them after their game as they are now 5-0 in first in the league. One thing I've been thinking about lately, is that I have done a lot of talking on the court and field lately. However, it's like I felt like I haven't been backing it up to my expectations. So today I kept my mouth shut, and encouraged my new teammates instead. We lost our first game, and it irritated me, then it happened. Everyone in the huddle looked towards me for leadership, Larry told me to postion everyone. Chris and Dave after each game supported my moves and went along with everything I said. By the time we finished our games, some of the other people watching the games believe that it might be Larry's team on paper, but also believe that I am the heart and soul of the team. I'm the new kid on this team, and it's wierd to have the keys to the team already, but I do need to do a better job in terms of leadership on this team. I'm excited though we're off to a 4-1 start now.

Another thing that has happened to me, was that I ran into an old friend at OU. 2 weeks ago this girl was waving hi to me at the OC, but I blew her off because I didn't think it was to me. Last week she stopped me and asked if I went to SHS. Just as I thought, it was Lindsey who looked as beautiful as ever. I remember when I first met her my junior year at SHS and she was a sophmore, I had a huge crush on her. I was the assistant coach for the JV tennis team at the time, and she thought of me as her personal coach. Yeah I liked coaching her, sometimes it was flirting, but she really improved as a tennis player. We were talking on Thursday, and I was happy to hear that she finished in the top 15 in the Miss Michigan pageant. Anyways, I'm glad she's a GG now and I look forward to hanging out with her in the future now.

Now what really pissed me off today was when I walked out of the ED building. I could see it from a mile away, some fat person I'm assuming had to open the door so fricking wide that it took a piece of paint off my car. Errrr, now I am trying to think of what is the best way to take care of this. I tell you though fricking fat people and cars, slow drivers on the road, it all adds up. I have 2 words for these people "public transportation." If anyone knows of a good body shop guy, please give me a call because this thing is frustrating me.

Which brings about another subject, this is for you Shawn. Dang it for our EED group project, Carl and I should of kept it to an Asian only group. Now you had to ask the one guy that I totally disapprove in the class, the Britany loving (not in that way either), cheerleading Big Red, gay guy of the class. Well what's done is done, and I guess this is a good chance for Carl, Shawn, and I to truly figure out if this guy is really gay. Which the rest of the class seems to agree with me.

Plans for tomorrow, one goal only now, concentrate on the game and let it come to me.

Dilema

Terrell Owens, in my view is one of the best WR in the NFL. I've been listening to ESPN and hearing what others think of his tirades as of late. I am for one who is all for it and supports his actions. Their is a guy who wants to win a game and play his heart out. He even chewed out his offensive coordinator! Like Michael Irvin said their are players who come in to collect the money or don't care about the wins or losses, but T.O. plays for the love of the game.

So with that in mind, now that I've been settled and got to be acquainted with my new teammates on Monday and Tuesday nights. After a few practices and exhibition games, I'm glad I signed on with PowerSpike and Spiked Punch. At least they have players who give it their all and if they don't then I'll be on their cases. Here's a short convo of another team trying to recruit me to play, from team Shield's.

C: Hey do you wanna have some fun and play on our team this year?
K: Hmmm, well fun for me is winning and being/staying competitive.
C: Oh then, I guess you don't want to play on our team.
K: Yeah I guess not.

What's amazing is how people think they are good just cause they play an X amount of years? My new friend Jason, who is just an amazing v-ball player, were talking last night as Melissa (my new team capt.) wanted to see if we should recruit Tammy as a player. Jay and I kept telling Rob that she can not be the setter in a 6-2 offense because she has her own probs setting when we are doing hitting drills.

Oh yay to this too, looks like I'll be playing opposite of Melissa on this team. Yup, I'm the setter in the 6-2 offense, gotta admit my hands have gotten better. But not nearly as good as where I want them to be. It also looks like I have underestimated the talent of this Co-Ed league too. TJ's team has made some major upgrades last night. They were pissed because Chris ditched them the night before, although I knew ahead of time. But they picked up Jason, and the new stud on the court Blake.

Jason like I said is a great player, his size reminds of Connie's friend Ray but Jason is a more solid all around. I thought though I would be the cockiest kid in this league, but I believe Blake has me beat on this one. At age 18, this kid was just barking out orders to his team. Even Jason was getting annoyed and making faces. Blake reminds of Den Den, but a lot taller and longer arms, with the same windup and kill approach. I'll admit this kid can fly above the new and I like the our stare downs yesterday to see who will be the best in this league. I wonder if he was jump serving because I kept doing it? It felt good though to roof him and shut his mouth up for at least one play. It was fun last night, playing against TJ's team to go up against both Jason and Blake. Considering we're the 3 youngest and best in the league, now it's time to see who'll emerge to be the best. It's time for me to finally go S.S. in this league and see where that gets me, enough playing around now that the season starts next week.

We had our first football practice yesterday too! Team U.R.A.P.K. had some pretty good battles in terms of who will be the starting QB, Stan or Phil. Peter has the playbook for us as I've already memorized my routes on each formation. It was nice to see my Asian brotha, Eddie from our Titans days. It also helps for me that Peter played football at Troy High, so I can call the coverages and he'll know what I'm talking about. We watched as a team the exhibition opener last night too. Gosh if those teams are in our conference then we should be ok. With Ali's team in the MW Conference, then it should be a wide open race for first in our's. Tomorrow's our season opener, Coach Bye always made us write down 3 goals on our playbooks before each game so we have something to shoot for. So here are mine:

1) Lead the team to our first win.
2) Get 100 yards recieving and a TD.
3) Return a kickoff for a TD or get an INT.

I also had a nice long talk with GP B, it was nice because he made me realize a key aspect that I've forgotten lately. I should worry only about how God wants me to be. I'm glad he was there today to give me some spiritual guidance as well.

Hmmm, I am having neck spasms, a pulled shoulder, a thigh bruise, a bone bruise on my elbow, and a juicy knee. Yeah baby, pracitices and games, this is what you live for to be a soldier on the field/court.

Double Blade

Well I got done talking to Carl and Melissa since they were waiting for the next class and I'm here for just chilling for now. All 3 of us have the same MTD class but I have it at a different time then they do. I told them that I don't really like the people in my class because they're all too dang clique-y. They thought it was funny how even the married peeps have their own crew. But just when Carl brought it up about the clique part of it, it got me thinking of where else I see this. After hearing it from someone else who feels this way, it made me think how sad it happens at CBC a lot too. This person had mention how they see a particular group of peeps who are new believers and could use some guidance from other believers. But it doesn't happen because we all stay in a little norm shell.

Which got me thinking about Darwinism, although I believe in creation, I see the aspect of Darwin's theory alive today. Natural selection, how often do we pick someone to talk to vs. anotheer? I know I do it myself, by why do we pick that person over another? Is it because of interests, past experiences, etc....? Survival of the fittest, some people notice how other people do they think they are stronger than others, and can't talk or relate type of thing. I'm starting to get that deja vu feeling again from 4 years ago. It often makes me wonder if the same result will happen? I mean I have God this time, but what will He do in this situation?

I feel almost stupid sometimes too now because I remember talking to Kathleen about this. We were talking about what's the definition of a friend. Her and Kristen used to have somethings going at their place, but wouldn't invite her closest friends to it because of distance. I told her that friends don't care about distance as long as they are together. Now, I realize their was another element I was missing to that. As far as they lived though, I do often wonder now how much they enjoyed driving over to Erica's or Dan's place to hangout? Well it was easier for them though because they were sisters and could rotate. But it's just that element now I feel peeps overlook.

And let's see exactly what my weekend action was? The only good part was actually getting off of work early on both days. Other than that I want to start mine on Sunday as it was fun in terms of doing my project which was observing Jonathan and Benji do their Zoom Club. It was nice to spend time with my discipler and mommy Moy. It was nice because of the genunine care I got from them, which I needed. I look at Jon Jon and just see how mature he is already for a 7 year old. He was always concerned for everyone at the table and even the waitresses. Most of all, I'm thankful for the amount of time that they took after putting the kids to bed, to just talk to me, give advice through the trials I've been dealt with, and to listen to some of my struggles. The funny part was when Kel called me and I let Christopher answer my phone. Kel kept asking "Who is this" and Christopher kept replying back "It's me". Hahah that was funny, and Benji was so cute being the "judge" during Zoom Club. I love them all so much and yes I miss Anna too.

It was fun playing football yesterday, but it pissed me off that I didn't lay out on that one pass, and also that I couldn't pull off that 1 hand grab all the way, or my mental mistake of not being aware of where the sideline markers were. It got to me where I ALMOST took a return to the house but couldn't because I was a half sec slow to cut a little quicker. I didn't realize we lost to them either, oh well their were a lot of things that I did wrong in that game. I should of gave Benito better reads of what I saw in the coverage. Man I wish we played tackle though, their would of been some good hits out there.

Now I stare at the clock to only see I have only an hour left before the football meeting starts then v-ball practice at Boulan. What I love about v-ball lately is that I can take out my frustrations out on the court by killing the ball. Some people (the opponents) were upset last week with me because they felt I took each exhibtion game too seriously. To me it's like if you don't like it or my sometimes stare down then hey stop me. I'm just frustrated lately, and this is the best way for me to get it out. I wonder if I should pull a sharpie taunt on the other team tonight?

I also wanted to give a shout out to you, for praying for me. As you can tell I still need a lot as in we all need prayer too. Thanks though for listening and your continous prayers.

Breathe

K One Three season has returned
It's been a long time
It's been a long time coming
It's life or death for me
But you know
There is no turning back now
This is what makes me
This is what I am

It's been a while since I did this, and looking at my schedule, it looks like I won't be doing this again for a while. What I'm still hung up on is this driving issue. I'm still amazed by the stupidity that we have on the road. This past weekend, I had 2 separate incidents where I am really getting irritated. First was Thursday, when I was cruising down 17 Mile on my way to my Grandma's. At Van Dyke there are 3 lanes at the intersection, 2 right turn lanes and an eastbound lane. So I in the eastbound lane, and this BMW which I was observing before the intersection zip in out of each lane. He decides to try to speed up after the intersection and get in the eastbound lane. Since I didn't like how he was driving, I did not my best for a little bit to not let him in and he was driving on the shoulder till he forced his was in between me and this SAAB. So that pissed me off, so I decided to make this out into a race on 17 Mile since it is only one lane. Obviously he is in front of me, however, I decided to drive on the Center lane and pass him and then the SAAB and squeezed back into traffic before oncoming traffic tried to use the Center lane to turn. So then he decides to attempt the same thing, and he got on the Center but by then I'm down 17 Mile going 70 mph, and no way can he catch up to me. Next red light, I just looked over at him and gave him a smirk.

Saturday morning going to b-ball, the same thing. Well actually this was more because I can't believe idiots go down 10 Mile at the speed of 35 mph. So I decided to pass this guy in the Center lane, using the Beech Rd. intersection as my passing lane. Boy this passing on Center lane stuff speeds up the driving length and it's kind of fun, but I don't recommend anyone try this on their own.

Lately I've been playing a lot of v-ball just because I want a challenge, I want to be a better play than I was yesterday. So I went to Boulan to see what offers I get to see if I can hook onto a different team instead of playing with Altair, the team I helped win a championship with last year. Yesterday was Men's Middle Division v-ball, and tonight I got a chance to play at Larson to check out the Upper Flight Co-ed league and see if anyone wanted to pick me up as a free agent. So after listening to all the offers I broke them down to this:

Mens Division-

Team name: I don't really know, but I'll just say hey they need to go in the D Division or something. The good thing about this team, is uhhh I don't know their team name. That shows how fast I went into talking to them about it.

Altair - They looked pretty good in a few exhibition games so far. Phil is already trying to restructure his team to fit me back in after seeing the talent around. They have a good chance in getting back into the finals.

7-11 & Dunkin Donuts - Eh I don't know what their team names are but, yeah Rob and I just looked over and we saw literally 14 of Saddam's cousins or something. The 7-11 team does have this one big Dhalsim looking dude who is 6'4. Man I would like to fly up over him to see what it would take to kill it against him.

Team PowerSpike: Now this team intrigued me as Larry talked to me tonight about their team. I remember talking to who I thought was their best play last year, Chris. I talked to Chris after they got bounced out of the playoffs because I felt sorry for how his team was using him. You gotta go to your bread and butter baby.

Co-ed

Team Skeenic - Gary and his whole team were very friendly in trying to recruit me for his team. I was actually kind of interested and I offered what I call my incentive package to play for his team. The incentive was, I call the shots in terms of who play's what position. Gary was cool with it, but I need to still about it.

TJ's team - TJ seemed really cool, and she was friendly as well. But the only way that I would play with them is if Chris stayed on that team. More about Chris later.

Rob's team - He talked to me afterwards saying that he would like me to play for his team and take his place once he has surgery. I'd be honored to play in his spot but if he's gone, the next best set of hands is me. Ooooo pretty scary.

So yeah, the Upper Flight is weak because I think my OU team could win first in this division. The best thing today was when Chris walked in because the last time I played with him was at the Korean Tournament. I'm glad Howard's bro came in because after that it was an Asian Invaision of jump serves and kills from us. However, I don't blame him for leaving this league to play in the Ford league with his bro. Dang it, I need to work for Ford!

So now my dilema is, to play in both these v-ball leagues or not? Hmm it's not very challenging to me in terms of talent, it's a challenge in terms of trying to make both teams a winner. Then there's U.R.A.P.K. our team name for Flag Football. Gosh before any of this, I couldn't even keep up with simple homework, what are the odds of me managing my time better with a few more activities? Exams, homework, projects, yup this is the part of school you're glad that you're missing.

Hate Me Now