Today, was I don't know if you want to call it a non-fruit producing day but that's what it seemed like since I overslept for worship. It didn't help that I came home at 7:00 this morning from playing Madden with my cuz and Frank Morningweg ;)
I've been doing a lot of thinking about Margret's letters lately. She is asking for prayers in terms of being a good witness with her money with the blessing of a new home. I'm starting to understand where she is coming from in terms of the wear and tear on her body and car of why she would move. I think that's what got to me at time when I went to SVSU, because I love to drive and all, but the scenery got too much of the same no matter all the different ways I took to get there.
Last night when I was driving to my cuz's house, it got me thinking of the good ol' days in the past. When Titans football season wasn't going on, my schedule after school would be pretty predictable for the most part. After school, go to my cuz's house to meet up with my friends and his friends to play b-ball till it got dark. We'd play at his house because his driveway was so big, with up to 18 people at his house, we would have 3 on 3 tournaments. When it got dark, we would all come in and play video games together, then the next day same thing over. Or we'd go to Dekyser to play full court and eventually went to Warrner Park. Winter time, it would be after school then we'd play football. Friday nites in the winter would be our day of going to Basketball City, Metro Hoops, Joe Dumars, Stadler Park or Roseville Gardens.
Those were the days in Sterling Whites, where I could come home and everything was within a 10 minute radius of me. We could go to Showcase and catch friday nite flicks or Blockbuster to get games. Flash forward to the present now, it would be amazing to find something within a 10 mile radius to hang with peeps. Even this morning, I woke up at 8 so I got a good one hour nap before doing that snooze thing. For the first time ever this morning, I did not have the passion to even drive to worship. I know that was or is the wrong mentality too so I need to continue to repent.
As I was even driving to and from CBC, it just seemed like the neverending drive. I did so many different things to speed up the drive such as just weaving in and out of 696. This driving thing has affected my attitude as of late, it's even got to the point where I am heavily considering going through those pretty orange cones to get around those who don't know how to merge. I was playing around with my engine oil when I got home and it's amazing that closing in on 4 weeks that I'm gonna need to change it again.
I wish I could go back to that day in my senior year where I wrote this one email to them about driving. They talked to me about it and now that I look back at it, it's kind of funny now. I was talking to V yesterday and I'm glad that she feels me on another dang issue that I never thought of. Come to think of it, she mentioned a couple of good things that I need to think about too. I'm thinking that I'm this particular cartoon character, but in a more sarcastic sense. James wrote in chapter 1 about find joy in our trials, I'm trying to think where is the joy in all this? So far the good note is, I gotta try to be thankful for being blessed with a car because not many do even have one in means of transportation.
The days of The Heights, and now instead of when I race someone, I don't or can't even call it 2 Fast 2 Furious. The new title for myself is 2 Pissed 2 Frustrated, why is it we have so many morons on the road? I'm sorry to everyone too for those who tried calling today. It was selfish of me for not picking up the phone because I just didn't want to talk to anyone. So I pray that those who called, that it was not in an emergency and that things are ok.
Throwback '96
Friday, September 12, 2003
So it's been about 25 minutes past 9-11 now. I've been just watching a movie about 9-11 then going to the news then watching all these short films about it. Yup I can still remember everything like it was yesterday, but that was then. I was walking around campus since I had time to kill before my workout. It was just a glorious day with the sun shining, and I could see the Cross Country team running, the baseball team doing stretches, students going to their classes, everything was happening as if I was stuck in the middle. Then the thought of the scene from T2 comes into play. When Linda Hamilton was standing at the fence and then boom, judgement day. Everything on campus seemed too good to be like that and I just kept looking at the sun.
I walked to Fireside Lounge, to find that they were passing out free food. At first, I was gonna grab some stuff to eat, but then I realized what it was for. It was a remembrance if you can even call it that of 9-11. They had a wall full of names of people, then a giant card for people to sign. Then I saw a big cake for this, and besides myself, some people thought OU was like doing a celebration of 9-11. Because of that feeling within me, I opted not to grab any free stuff.
Then watching the news, they were talking about rebuilding, and naming it Freedom Tower. Sounds cool, but a lot of people were upset by this. Hmmm I wonder how I would feel if I lost someone close to me, in terms of rebuild or leave Ground Zero the way it is? Nothing beats experiencing Ground Zero in person though, it just gives you a different feeling.
On the other side of my sad life at school, I was like the laughing stock of Varner Hall. Since we had to do skits today, to boost my group's spirit up, I really got into character today by using markers to paint my face. I was a Native American, with my own little tomahawk that I made, and went around killing trolls as part of our skit. Prof. Lucas said after our skit "I need to send you to a Politically Correct class because you've just killed every single type of stereotype there was today." Yeah, I love to make the class exciting, I just hate it when we work in small groups because peeps always nominate me to be the leader/director. Boy it was tough getting this marker stuff all off my face.
I went to ECN, and finally I figure her name out. It has been at the tip of my tongue, but yeah I formed my own what I call "The Retard ECN Student Section." I'm the President it seems since I talk the most, and now I have Courtney chilling with me along the wall. Plus I knew I remembered her face from MTE last year, actually Danielle remembered me before I recognized her. I'm glad she took the initiative to ask me if it was me rather than me being 8 Chi again. I got a few other peeps sitting with me, in my little student section, so ECN is quite fun for me now.
Yes! Time for another wonderful day of ABC. Actually, we hired this new girl about 3 months ago. Last week was the first time I actually talked to her because she asked me why I am always cold and anti-social to her. So I finally talked to Andrea, one thing I didn't know but I can see it now, is that she is a model and taking modeling classes. I kept thinking in my mind, how often does that happen, a model working at a chinese restaurant. Oh well, I just flat out told her that I'm there to work and not socialize, plus I told her that I like to work alone up front. In addition this helps me focus on not looking at her in any other way too.
Tonight, I Feel Close To You
I walked to Fireside Lounge, to find that they were passing out free food. At first, I was gonna grab some stuff to eat, but then I realized what it was for. It was a remembrance if you can even call it that of 9-11. They had a wall full of names of people, then a giant card for people to sign. Then I saw a big cake for this, and besides myself, some people thought OU was like doing a celebration of 9-11. Because of that feeling within me, I opted not to grab any free stuff.
Then watching the news, they were talking about rebuilding, and naming it Freedom Tower. Sounds cool, but a lot of people were upset by this. Hmmm I wonder how I would feel if I lost someone close to me, in terms of rebuild or leave Ground Zero the way it is? Nothing beats experiencing Ground Zero in person though, it just gives you a different feeling.
On the other side of my sad life at school, I was like the laughing stock of Varner Hall. Since we had to do skits today, to boost my group's spirit up, I really got into character today by using markers to paint my face. I was a Native American, with my own little tomahawk that I made, and went around killing trolls as part of our skit. Prof. Lucas said after our skit "I need to send you to a Politically Correct class because you've just killed every single type of stereotype there was today." Yeah, I love to make the class exciting, I just hate it when we work in small groups because peeps always nominate me to be the leader/director. Boy it was tough getting this marker stuff all off my face.
I went to ECN, and finally I figure her name out. It has been at the tip of my tongue, but yeah I formed my own what I call "The Retard ECN Student Section." I'm the President it seems since I talk the most, and now I have Courtney chilling with me along the wall. Plus I knew I remembered her face from MTE last year, actually Danielle remembered me before I recognized her. I'm glad she took the initiative to ask me if it was me rather than me being 8 Chi again. I got a few other peeps sitting with me, in my little student section, so ECN is quite fun for me now.
Yes! Time for another wonderful day of ABC. Actually, we hired this new girl about 3 months ago. Last week was the first time I actually talked to her because she asked me why I am always cold and anti-social to her. So I finally talked to Andrea, one thing I didn't know but I can see it now, is that she is a model and taking modeling classes. I kept thinking in my mind, how often does that happen, a model working at a chinese restaurant. Oh well, I just flat out told her that I'm there to work and not socialize, plus I told her that I like to work alone up front. In addition this helps me focus on not looking at her in any other way too.
Tonight, I Feel Close To You
Thursday, September 11, 2003
You are Wolverine!
A loner by nature, you feel uncomfortable when
around those you don't know and even those you
do. You are awkward when it comes to
relationships, but fiercely loyal to those you
love.
Which X-Men character are you most like?
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Wow it's been almost a week since I've used this thing. That's what I get for not having a good computer anymore. It's only the 2nd week of class and I have already decided to skip HST. I was already 20 minutes late and for some strange reason people actually show up to this class on time. So rather than trying to find a seat and having the stares, I just decided to do this and surf the web. Hopefully I can be a good student this week and do my reading and note taking on my own.
So I got about 45 minutes to kill till MTD starts, so I'll make this entry a long one. Well Friday nite, I finally have one allergy or that I am allergic to something. Dang it, it has to be cats! I remember back in high school when I was at Dan's house that I had the same reaction. I'll never forget that night because I wanted to rip Omega Red's head off when he told me he was using my friends to get to me. Anyways, dumb cats well actually just Kasibreeze's because I'm actually ok with GG Dune's cats.
Other than that, the whole weekend was a blank to me. Monday I went to EED 316, I think I'll like this class because I can actually goof off with the prof. This is an Arts class for elementary teachers, and the first assignment was to draw our hand. So I lifted my hand, and she told us to do some sort of gesture because it would make it easier to draw. So I did the only gesture that I know how to and that was Coug-e's favorite game. Prof. Tyson saw me and asked me to demonstrate and how my sketch to everyone. Boy, I can just imagine all the boyz, coming up to my drawing and poking holes through my paper.
Tuesday, I have come to realize I should of dropped HST. I know why Jamie told me not to take Shelly. ECN was even worst because Alex made me late for class. Although I'm started to like MTD because after the first day of that class, I called it RTD (Retard 101) because this class makes me feel that way with all the type of dancing and acting we have to do along with singing. However, I learned a lot from this class already and I can't wait to apply it to CBC when I teach Jr. Church. Yeah we definitely need to re-evaluate Tuesday nite v-ball too.
Last nite we had a pretty good Bible Study lead by Fungster. There's a lot more that I just realized we could of dove into, but couldn't due to time restraint. As it hs almost been a year since we've become a fellowship, I pray that we all can acquire the fire for this group.
So where I am at now, well only a half hour left till my next class. I need to figure out how to get to HST on time, this 8:00 class is a killer because I hate it already compared to my other past 8:00 classes. Why do we have to read so much? I wonder if I do have to read or if I will even bother? Dang it, why I can't I come up with all 12 minor prophets now either? I can only name 9 off the top of my head, this is very frustrating! Speaking of woosah too, I need to do a lot of that before I round kick this person's head off. I like my scrapbooking station I set up for myself at home too, although I actually need to do something before I get to it. When does Survivor and DBGT start? Why is it, that this thing I used to not give a crap anymore now bothering me too, it's like I just want to work on it myself to be the best at this thing to shut people up?
What will my ranking be next week as I have decided not to re-sign with Team Kosarek? This team I helped win a championship, but now I look for something more (selfish ambition?). Rob told me that I can come in and play in the pick-up games while the team captain's check out each player to see who they want to draft. I'm excited to see where I stand with a bunch of other Troy boys. I'm excited to see what the Upper Flight has to offer this year too, and more or less if a team wants me, then they just need to make sure that I'm the number 1 player and it's all good. Woohoo finally some league action starting around because I'm bored out of my mind.
Well 15 minutes left it looks like it's time for me to make my trek to MTD. Oh yeah and Yan Zi is a great singer too. Happy b-day to Jarret too, I wonder if he does feel old? So many questions so little time, ugh only 2 classes left to go before I get to work out.
The Moment
Friday, September 05, 2003
Well I just burned a whole bag of popcorn, I guess that's what I get for nuking them. Now there is this like ozone layer of smoke moving around in my house and I feel like I'm bout to pass out.
So continuing on about my last part of the day. I walked into ECON and I heard someone kept whispering my name. I looked over at the front seat and it was this one chick. I stopped and looked back over at her to see if I was hearing things because I did not recognize her. Instead, I looked back over at her, and just gave her the peace sign because I already made a fool of myself for just standing and staring at her already. As class was about to start, next thing you know Alex is in my class too. During class I kept staring at that girl, kept wondering if I knew her or not. Then it hit me, she was in my IST class, because she was the one who wanted me to go with her to go help and be an assistant coach with her for her Jr. High team. After class, I apologized to her, and she told me that she had made it on to Club at OU. Of course I was happy for her because she worked hard and is a great player. I congratulated her before we went our way, however this thought kept running through my mind, "What was her name again?"
I went to the weight room today to begin what it seemed like a long workout because I didn't like how we finished at CCUC. As I was working out, I kept thinking about Kasibreeze's comment about competition and I would say it would apply to me. She said "I am out there only to compete against myself." As I finished working out, it was nice to look over to see our team name, Titans in the intramural books for being the champs. That's another thing that got to me today though, why was it like Temptation Island in the Weight Room today. Anyways, I walked up the stairs to bump into Julie, man I missed seeing her smile around on campus. Next time I gotta talk to her longer because it looked like she packed on a few pounds, I can only guess 2 things that made her look a little um heavier (sorry J). I gotta talk to her about the whole alcohol thing. Plus this year she quit the OU Dance Team, so maybe a lack of exercise. Don't worry J, I still love ya, and you still a hottie on campus ;)
One final note after viewing the CCUC b-ball tape. I just wanted to say thank you to those who watched our games and cheered for us. Thank you to those who supported us, and I hope all of our teammates were supportive of your team too. From the bottom of my heart to everyone though that support was great because I've been thinking about how we as a body can be better supporters for each other since July. It's just something that's been on my mind, and this is just a small step in which we need to build on, in terms of being supportive for each other physically, spiritually, emotionally etc... I'm also glad this past weekend that I got to know Jarter even better as a brother, again hats off to his team.
Final thought, gotta lay down because this 2nd hand smoke is getting to me. Woohoo I'm excited though, the birth of the 5-1-4 Titans looks promising with Benito at the helm, with his Torry Holt and Issac Bruce (Gamebreaker and Da Playmaka) receivers spreading the field, and Shock-ey or I mean Coug-e playing TE, and a backfield to fear with our own Priest (Kasibreeze) and Bus (JW) we'll be rocking and a rolling as this team continues to add players. I look forward to shutting someone down, oh I'm excited if things may work itself out through God's Will.
Smokey says "Forest fires are bad" I dunno if that's what he said but dude I'm suffering from lung cancer over here so I'm gonna end it with that.
So continuing on about my last part of the day. I walked into ECON and I heard someone kept whispering my name. I looked over at the front seat and it was this one chick. I stopped and looked back over at her to see if I was hearing things because I did not recognize her. Instead, I looked back over at her, and just gave her the peace sign because I already made a fool of myself for just standing and staring at her already. As class was about to start, next thing you know Alex is in my class too. During class I kept staring at that girl, kept wondering if I knew her or not. Then it hit me, she was in my IST class, because she was the one who wanted me to go with her to go help and be an assistant coach with her for her Jr. High team. After class, I apologized to her, and she told me that she had made it on to Club at OU. Of course I was happy for her because she worked hard and is a great player. I congratulated her before we went our way, however this thought kept running through my mind, "What was her name again?"
I went to the weight room today to begin what it seemed like a long workout because I didn't like how we finished at CCUC. As I was working out, I kept thinking about Kasibreeze's comment about competition and I would say it would apply to me. She said "I am out there only to compete against myself." As I finished working out, it was nice to look over to see our team name, Titans in the intramural books for being the champs. That's another thing that got to me today though, why was it like Temptation Island in the Weight Room today. Anyways, I walked up the stairs to bump into Julie, man I missed seeing her smile around on campus. Next time I gotta talk to her longer because it looked like she packed on a few pounds, I can only guess 2 things that made her look a little um heavier (sorry J). I gotta talk to her about the whole alcohol thing. Plus this year she quit the OU Dance Team, so maybe a lack of exercise. Don't worry J, I still love ya, and you still a hottie on campus ;)
One final note after viewing the CCUC b-ball tape. I just wanted to say thank you to those who watched our games and cheered for us. Thank you to those who supported us, and I hope all of our teammates were supportive of your team too. From the bottom of my heart to everyone though that support was great because I've been thinking about how we as a body can be better supporters for each other since July. It's just something that's been on my mind, and this is just a small step in which we need to build on, in terms of being supportive for each other physically, spiritually, emotionally etc... I'm also glad this past weekend that I got to know Jarter even better as a brother, again hats off to his team.
Final thought, gotta lay down because this 2nd hand smoke is getting to me. Woohoo I'm excited though, the birth of the 5-1-4 Titans looks promising with Benito at the helm, with his Torry Holt and Issac Bruce (Gamebreaker and Da Playmaka) receivers spreading the field, and Shock-ey or I mean Coug-e playing TE, and a backfield to fear with our own Priest (Kasibreeze) and Bus (JW) we'll be rocking and a rolling as this team continues to add players. I look forward to shutting someone down, oh I'm excited if things may work itself out through God's Will.
Smokey says "Forest fires are bad" I dunno if that's what he said but dude I'm suffering from lung cancer over here so I'm gonna end it with that.
Thursday, September 04, 2003
Ok so today I finally started my first day of class. Already this sucks, I went to HST 114 at 8:00 am. to sit there and figure out if my prof was a lady or a guy. Next thing I noticed is how she looks like a giraffe with a horses face speaking in a monotone voice. Gee I can see myself being really awake for this class. After that I ran across campus to go to MTD 201, the class that dropped me out and the only way to get into this special one is for the advisor to let you in. So out of 31 peeps, other than myself there is only 1 other guy in this class. This class had a lot of drama in it today because it was too full and it actually took one of the head peeps of the department to come on down to boot people out who were added in through the WEB. So now you had like 29 females in this class PMSing about why they should stay in and not be booted out. As this wasted already 40 minutes of my life away in this class, I finally just told those who were complaining "to get the steppin". Yeah it was mean, but dude we got class here for those who got in through our advisor, and yeah I am sorry because it is not their fault either.
Now all I have left is ECON 201, does this sound familiar? Yeah this semester I decided to stop doing student teaching, and go back to re-do some of my other courses again. Yeah I love school that much (sarcasim). However HST and ECON were not up to par in terms of GPA so I had to retake them, and I just tag it along with to Major ED courses. Yup it's gonna take me an eternity to graduate but I ain't complaining, kind of still like not having to go to work on a regular basis.
Anyways, I'm surprised that I haven't nodded off in class so far because we're not giving any breaks in either class! So I guess I'm gonna bust on out of here to go check out the new OC and grab a bite to eat before dreaded ECON. Afterwards, it's off to the Rec to workout and see what's going on this year for v-ball. Although I am considering going back to IM football, but I don't have my OU crew to play with, or maybe I'll try hockey. Haven't played organized hockey since like 9th grade I think it was?
The Remedy
Now all I have left is ECON 201, does this sound familiar? Yeah this semester I decided to stop doing student teaching, and go back to re-do some of my other courses again. Yeah I love school that much (sarcasim). However HST and ECON were not up to par in terms of GPA so I had to retake them, and I just tag it along with to Major ED courses. Yup it's gonna take me an eternity to graduate but I ain't complaining, kind of still like not having to go to work on a regular basis.
Anyways, I'm surprised that I haven't nodded off in class so far because we're not giving any breaks in either class! So I guess I'm gonna bust on out of here to go check out the new OC and grab a bite to eat before dreaded ECON. Afterwards, it's off to the Rec to workout and see what's going on this year for v-ball. Although I am considering going back to IM football, but I don't have my OU crew to play with, or maybe I'll try hockey. Haven't played organized hockey since like 9th grade I think it was?
The Remedy