Ford Field - Woohoo, Camp D got to see how cars were made at the Ford Rouge Plant. Some were bored, but I must say it was an interesting field trip. Actually, the movies we watched made me have the urge to buy a Ford product car! Actually, my first care was a Ford. Yes, a 92 Ford Tempo, man I use to get the needle stuck in the speedometer.
However, the fun ended there for some or most of Camp D. We arrived at Camp Canton for the closing ceremony. The truth was revealed to T-Lin and she believed everything that I said to her this week bout how Camp D is the welfare camp. The Peeps of Camp Canton welcomed me, and noticed my arm. Yeah, I gave props to T-onda by tatting her name on my arm. Everyone asked, and I spoke the truth, she deserves to be here and is the best counselor here, and she does not need a piece of plastic to let everyone know that.
The ceremony did have some good performances, but as I shared with others. Since when did The Macerena and dancing to Yeah be considered as Chinese Culture. I kept crackin jokes on the bus bout it to Rex, that he almost crashed the bus due to too much laughter. T-Lin kept tryin to reason with me as she was holdin the Chinese newspaper in her hands. I told her, when are you gonna see that on the front page of the paper?
T-Lin was done tryin to calm me down, and she kept remindin me that all I can give to Camp D is my love, which she believes is infinite after this week. After she left to move her seat on the bus, I looked to my right. Esther, My Court Jester kept wantin to ride with me on the bus everywhere today, fell asleep on my arms. I kept lookin at her face as she slept, so cute, sweet, and innocent. It represented all my kids from Camp D, the innonence of not knowin they got shafted. It only burned me up inside more, and made me realize that I gotta do something.
T-Lin called me at 11 tonight and checked up on me to see how my emotions were runnin. She's worried that I am gonna get into trouble if my emotions continue to be high. Despite our past differences, I know T-Lin cares bout Camp D as much as I do. She kept sayin there is nothin I can do bout it, so just drop it. I reminded her that if I don't do anything then what's gonna happen next summer, etc.
I also spoke with The Boss tonight to ask bout the Camp D CD's that I was suppose to make this year. Which has been why I've been takin so many pics everday. However, she told me there will no CD this year this evening, and I felt like I did all this camera work for nothing? Of course not, I will do a CD for The Peeps of Camp D! I will make it using my own cash, my time, my pics, and most importantly of all, from my heart. I told T-Lin bout this, and she said that I can even label it from me and not ACA to show the shadiness.
Last year, Stef. D, Reylan, Ayinde, and I all made a pack at Popeyes in downtown D, that we'd back each other up. I told T-Lin that I am happy that she supports me, because for awhile I felt alone doin this on my own these past weeks. She just asked me to come in on Monday with the same fire that no one could match which makes me The Great One, and if I can't then don't bother comin. I will feel recharged on Monday, because I had to say g-byes today to The Court Jester, and her lil bro Daniel. I will do my best to see them at Alliance on Sunday because I'm on a mission to set things right in Camp D, and maybe ACA.
Camp 313
Saturday, July 30, 2005
Friday, July 29, 2005
Tigers Stadium - Mike Ilitch owns the Detroit Red Wings and the Detroit Tigers. Everyone often complained about how he used his money. For every mil he spent on the Wings, is only a looney he'd drop for the Tigers. Well that's how I feel bout Camp Canton and Camp D. I mean, I feel like Camp D is on welfare or something? I mean both camps the kids pay the same amount of $, yet it's not balanced.
This morning, I was just a wreck as I kept thinkin bout it. I felt like, I gave all that I could and I was just flat worn out and drained. Tracy noticed my attitude, and talked to me alone again. I told her everything, and that it is not bout me being competitive with Camp Canton but both camps havin equal opportunities. Tears kept comin down my face, and everything that I shared with Tracy just left her in a state of shocked. I told her, that I just feel like I've been decieved and lied to.
Tracy kept tellin me, there is nothing I can do even if I am right. Why because she is The Boss and I cannot defeat that power. However, I know in my heart there has to be a way to do something. She warned me if I did confront this head on, that it will not solve anything and if I get fired, what are the kids gonna do without me. There is a way, to do something though and I will not give up because there is always hope.
It's funny because Tracy knows my attitude bout this. William Wallace was right, people do follow courage because as the day went on, Tracy started to change her mindset. I mean, being The Boss is just a title, now courage that is what people follow in this. Tracy started scrappin all the old ideas we were gonna do for the closing ceremony. Now she actually wants all of Camp D, to dress like me for tomorrow's performance. All The Peeps, will be bringin their shades, hats, bandanas, jerseys, and if you have long hair, then that will get braided up.
I'm still havin fun doin what we do over at Camp 313. The Peeps know my heart, because it even showed today. The Boss was suppose to drop Camp D's music for our dance performance in the morning. However, she left a message on my phone and decided that she will not come, and that Camp D will have to practice without the music. I squashed that idea, and on my lunch break, I 2 Fast 2 Furious my car over to Camp Canton from Camp D to just get the tape. Amazing comparison I did of both camps lunches. Camp D = Chicken w/ Broccoli and white rice while Camp Canton Honey BBQ Wings, Spaghetti, and Almond jello. Which sounds more appealing to you?
I realized, I still have more to give and Friday will be the biggest test. Last year wasn't as bad probably because I had help in Reylan and Yaya. This year, it's on my shoulders and there is only One who I can seek for wisdom, strength, and patience.
I Still Believe
This morning, I was just a wreck as I kept thinkin bout it. I felt like, I gave all that I could and I was just flat worn out and drained. Tracy noticed my attitude, and talked to me alone again. I told her everything, and that it is not bout me being competitive with Camp Canton but both camps havin equal opportunities. Tears kept comin down my face, and everything that I shared with Tracy just left her in a state of shocked. I told her, that I just feel like I've been decieved and lied to.
Tracy kept tellin me, there is nothing I can do even if I am right. Why because she is The Boss and I cannot defeat that power. However, I know in my heart there has to be a way to do something. She warned me if I did confront this head on, that it will not solve anything and if I get fired, what are the kids gonna do without me. There is a way, to do something though and I will not give up because there is always hope.
It's funny because Tracy knows my attitude bout this. William Wallace was right, people do follow courage because as the day went on, Tracy started to change her mindset. I mean, being The Boss is just a title, now courage that is what people follow in this. Tracy started scrappin all the old ideas we were gonna do for the closing ceremony. Now she actually wants all of Camp D, to dress like me for tomorrow's performance. All The Peeps, will be bringin their shades, hats, bandanas, jerseys, and if you have long hair, then that will get braided up.
I'm still havin fun doin what we do over at Camp 313. The Peeps know my heart, because it even showed today. The Boss was suppose to drop Camp D's music for our dance performance in the morning. However, she left a message on my phone and decided that she will not come, and that Camp D will have to practice without the music. I squashed that idea, and on my lunch break, I 2 Fast 2 Furious my car over to Camp Canton from Camp D to just get the tape. Amazing comparison I did of both camps lunches. Camp D = Chicken w/ Broccoli and white rice while Camp Canton Honey BBQ Wings, Spaghetti, and Almond jello. Which sounds more appealing to you?
I realized, I still have more to give and Friday will be the biggest test. Last year wasn't as bad probably because I had help in Reylan and Yaya. This year, it's on my shoulders and there is only One who I can seek for wisdom, strength, and patience.
I Still Believe
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Ping-Pong Piss Off - It's a done deal, Camp D will be going to Camp Canton on Friday to join them for their closing ceremony. Camp D will be leaving the ceremony early because of parents waitin back for them in the D. Camp D will only be performin 2 things as well, readin Chinese poetry, and dancing. I was cool with it until.........now.
I could sense something was up today even as The Boss was telling me the schedule. Gut feelin in my heart and the ability to read people's eyes. I spent most of the evening with Julie working on Camp Canton's cd. I was lookin at all the pics we added into this slideshow, and as each pic went by I only got more mad. I realized that Camp D got screwed and shafted in all these programs that Camp Canton has been doing for 2 weeks. While Camp D keeps doing the same old thing, the same projects, etc. I am thankful for the teachers we have that come to teach Camp D kids, bless their heart. I keep hearin how ACA only has so much budget to spend on, but where is the balance then in these programs?
Some have said, the main reason is because Camp D is in the D. Which I find it stupid, because the D is dangerous, it's ghetto, etc. I find it funny how, we hate it when the Caucasion peeps look down on us, while we do it to A-A's. Let's see the budget here, I see that Camp Canton seems to be using a heck of a whole lot of new material, while Camp D is still using dried up glue sticks, old markers, etc. Today, I even brought in my own material from home, my craft box, poster boards, etc. just so I can give the best opportunities for Camp D. The Dance Teacher charges Camp Canton $2 for a pair of dancin shoes, Camp D $5 for the same pair!
I even thought today, we finally had an advantage type of thing at Camp D by having pizza day. Julie told me that Camp Canton had McDonald's for lunch! What the flying frick is up with that? Some counselors ate 5 plus sandwiches for lunch while I was eating the cheese off the boxes just so Camp D kids can have an extra slice.
So I realized, that is why Camp D is leavin early from Camp Canton. They do not want Camp D to see the last portion of the ceremony, the slideshow that Julie and I worked on. It seems to me, like a let's spare their feelings by having them go back where we crawled from. Plus, Camp D is only doing 2 programs because I am to be kept away from any sort of antics to fire up Camp D. I was told not to give any shout out to T-onda because they don't feel she should get special recognition. Well, she is still by far the best counselor at ACA and I may not be able to give it out verbally, there are other ways. She is the key to helpin keep Camp Canton where it is at now.
I spoke with T-onda on my way home, and she reminded me what ACA is suppose to be about. She also gave props for Camp D's performance that I worked on last summer, how that is what ACA is about and not what Camp Canton has turned it into this year. Even MeiMei asked me last night, where does doing the dance moves to Usher's Yeah fit into Chinese culture? T-onda also reminded me, just because The Boss likes it does not mean it stands for ACA. I keep asking Him for advice and wisdom on this matter. I know one thing for sure is though, they say "don't cross The Boss." It's a shame, I'm not one of them because Friday Camp D will be off the hook, and know that we work hard to get there. They can question my heart for attention, motives, etc. but He knows, I do it for the love of Camp D and what is right.
I could sense something was up today even as The Boss was telling me the schedule. Gut feelin in my heart and the ability to read people's eyes. I spent most of the evening with Julie working on Camp Canton's cd. I was lookin at all the pics we added into this slideshow, and as each pic went by I only got more mad. I realized that Camp D got screwed and shafted in all these programs that Camp Canton has been doing for 2 weeks. While Camp D keeps doing the same old thing, the same projects, etc. I am thankful for the teachers we have that come to teach Camp D kids, bless their heart. I keep hearin how ACA only has so much budget to spend on, but where is the balance then in these programs?
Some have said, the main reason is because Camp D is in the D. Which I find it stupid, because the D is dangerous, it's ghetto, etc. I find it funny how, we hate it when the Caucasion peeps look down on us, while we do it to A-A's. Let's see the budget here, I see that Camp Canton seems to be using a heck of a whole lot of new material, while Camp D is still using dried up glue sticks, old markers, etc. Today, I even brought in my own material from home, my craft box, poster boards, etc. just so I can give the best opportunities for Camp D. The Dance Teacher charges Camp Canton $2 for a pair of dancin shoes, Camp D $5 for the same pair!
I even thought today, we finally had an advantage type of thing at Camp D by having pizza day. Julie told me that Camp Canton had McDonald's for lunch! What the flying frick is up with that? Some counselors ate 5 plus sandwiches for lunch while I was eating the cheese off the boxes just so Camp D kids can have an extra slice.
So I realized, that is why Camp D is leavin early from Camp Canton. They do not want Camp D to see the last portion of the ceremony, the slideshow that Julie and I worked on. It seems to me, like a let's spare their feelings by having them go back where we crawled from. Plus, Camp D is only doing 2 programs because I am to be kept away from any sort of antics to fire up Camp D. I was told not to give any shout out to T-onda because they don't feel she should get special recognition. Well, she is still by far the best counselor at ACA and I may not be able to give it out verbally, there are other ways. She is the key to helpin keep Camp Canton where it is at now.
I spoke with T-onda on my way home, and she reminded me what ACA is suppose to be about. She also gave props for Camp D's performance that I worked on last summer, how that is what ACA is about and not what Camp Canton has turned it into this year. Even MeiMei asked me last night, where does doing the dance moves to Usher's Yeah fit into Chinese culture? T-onda also reminded me, just because The Boss likes it does not mean it stands for ACA. I keep asking Him for advice and wisdom on this matter. I know one thing for sure is though, they say "don't cross The Boss." It's a shame, I'm not one of them because Friday Camp D will be off the hook, and know that we work hard to get there. They can question my heart for attention, motives, etc. but He knows, I do it for the love of Camp D and what is right.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Rayquaza - As of now, my emotions are still a bit jumbled. This morning, we began to work on Camp D's performance for this Friday at Camp Canton. Things looked alright compared to last year, probably because I had everything within my grasp. This year, Tracy is workin on it with me, and it hasn't gone the way that I was expecting. I was getting so frustrated that Tracy pulled me aside. I really appreciate Tracy's words of encouragement as I was breakin into tears. She kept tellin me to stop puttin all the pressure on myself, which I know I was doing. She knew that I wanted whats best for Camp D, and that I kept pushin myself harder to get that for them. Then she started tryin to do some hip-hop dancing in the hallway to get me to laugh. She kept remindin me how time is against us because we were just notified on Friday. I just had to apologize to her, for blowin up on her, and here she is tryin to comfort me the whole time. She even encouraged me to try to come up with some Jay Chou dance/music/video to do.
So I felt better for a while, and at one point all of Camp D surrounded my table. Everyone has voted so far as the most intense Pokemon battle yet, Yihan vs. me. Not to sound stupid, but I felt like Ash standing in the middle of a Pokemon Stadium. It came down to a flip of a coin, heads Yihan wins with another attack or tails I win, because his Pokemon would attack himself and knock itself out. Everyone was silent for the flip, and it was Tails! So now I am still standin on top at 14-1 baby!
After P.T. with Michelle, my emotions continued to run due to Friday's Camp Canton ceremony. I talked to my MeiMei for a while, and I'm thankful for her understanding and loyalty. I changed somethings up, but I did not get the approval I was lookin for. To me, the end result is that I want to see smiles on Camp D's faces that they know they worked hard, and had fun doing it. However, another disagrees with the process of how I want to get there. So which is correct, the process or the product? Someone blamed me for the reason why we can not be in the sanctuary at FBC. What's up with that? I was at Camp Canton for 1 out of 10 days last year, and they think it was because of my intro. Then, this person brought up how we need to be professional vs. doin things the church way. So now I'm under the impression that business is higher than church. When did that happen? It just irritates me even more now to have heard this and I still can't believe I heard it. Gosh do I submit to this type of response? I squash it for now, because I do what I do for Camp D. Thinkin bout this continues to fire me up, and I just need to cool off now and leave it into His Hands for tomorrow's decision now if Camp D is allowed to go.
3 Countries
So I felt better for a while, and at one point all of Camp D surrounded my table. Everyone has voted so far as the most intense Pokemon battle yet, Yihan vs. me. Not to sound stupid, but I felt like Ash standing in the middle of a Pokemon Stadium. It came down to a flip of a coin, heads Yihan wins with another attack or tails I win, because his Pokemon would attack himself and knock itself out. Everyone was silent for the flip, and it was Tails! So now I am still standin on top at 14-1 baby!
After P.T. with Michelle, my emotions continued to run due to Friday's Camp Canton ceremony. I talked to my MeiMei for a while, and I'm thankful for her understanding and loyalty. I changed somethings up, but I did not get the approval I was lookin for. To me, the end result is that I want to see smiles on Camp D's faces that they know they worked hard, and had fun doing it. However, another disagrees with the process of how I want to get there. So which is correct, the process or the product? Someone blamed me for the reason why we can not be in the sanctuary at FBC. What's up with that? I was at Camp Canton for 1 out of 10 days last year, and they think it was because of my intro. Then, this person brought up how we need to be professional vs. doin things the church way. So now I'm under the impression that business is higher than church. When did that happen? It just irritates me even more now to have heard this and I still can't believe I heard it. Gosh do I submit to this type of response? I squash it for now, because I do what I do for Camp D. Thinkin bout this continues to fire me up, and I just need to cool off now and leave it into His Hands for tomorrow's decision now if Camp D is allowed to go.
3 Countries
Monday, July 25, 2005
Scream - All that was on my mind today, was loyalty. I always try to watch out for The Peeps and everyone in general. What was funny was how The Rook, was tryin to get my Jenny against me by tellin secrets bout me. It's like come on now, we both counselors and you wanna play this way? Jenny of course, told me what The Rook said, and so I had some fun with it. Lillian, and Jenny both kept askin me what should they do, so I gave out the order "Attack The Rook." So they did, and harassed her to death. It was funny, how The Rook kept tellin them to stop and why do they listen to me and not her. They listed out the same points that I told The Rook before, counselor 1st, friend 2nd. The Rook got so upset and told Tracy on me, and I just smiled because hey you wanted to turn The Peeps against me, and this is what you get. My Peeps are always loyal to me, and a lot of counselors realized that last year. On the flipside, my apprentice is here now, Crystal! It was only 3 years ago, she was a camper and now she's a counselor with me! Already she has done better than The Rook, because she is my pad-wan as I said 3 years ago.
We also did this craft project from hell today, and I kept wonderin if the teacher was doin it for her or the kids. She kept yellin at me in mandarin because I wasn't helpin enough. I'm like dude, I have 14 kids to take care of and majority of them are munchkins. So I was comical throughout the craft, and I kept showin her loudly how I was helpin by glueing everyone's projects. However, we ran out of glue so you would see me constantly throw glue sticks at the wall. Oh well, I got the last laugh because The Boss said she ain't comin back next year for other reasons as well.
I love my P.T. Michelle! Although she is getting quite irritated of me because I always keep doin more than what she asks for on every single exercise. She got me standin on this cushin on 1 leg, while throwin a weighted ball at a trampoline. It is hard! She said I was the first of many to ever throw it so hard where the ball knocks a ceiling tile off and come back to me. I was also the first, to throw the ball and miss the whole trampoline completely, and still hit the ceiling with the ball comin back to me. Doing 50 of these was hard, but fun and I look forward to doing it again. I'm also thankful that I didn't get hurt tonight when I was playin v-ball at KUMC or I tried. It feels good to come back after a 2 month hiatus.
Tires
We also did this craft project from hell today, and I kept wonderin if the teacher was doin it for her or the kids. She kept yellin at me in mandarin because I wasn't helpin enough. I'm like dude, I have 14 kids to take care of and majority of them are munchkins. So I was comical throughout the craft, and I kept showin her loudly how I was helpin by glueing everyone's projects. However, we ran out of glue so you would see me constantly throw glue sticks at the wall. Oh well, I got the last laugh because The Boss said she ain't comin back next year for other reasons as well.
I love my P.T. Michelle! Although she is getting quite irritated of me because I always keep doin more than what she asks for on every single exercise. She got me standin on this cushin on 1 leg, while throwin a weighted ball at a trampoline. It is hard! She said I was the first of many to ever throw it so hard where the ball knocks a ceiling tile off and come back to me. I was also the first, to throw the ball and miss the whole trampoline completely, and still hit the ceiling with the ball comin back to me. Doing 50 of these was hard, but fun and I look forward to doing it again. I'm also thankful that I didn't get hurt tonight when I was playin v-ball at KUMC or I tried. It feels good to come back after a 2 month hiatus.
Tires