In The End....
Man what the GG is up with my tummy. Tuesday I couldn't stop peeing because I never realize drinking so much water makes you do that. And to add that I have a small bladder. And now today, I have a tummy ache since early this morning and it's been killing me.
Well last night, was my fellowship time with Kin. We chilled at his house and continued to study John The Baptist. Man I can learn a lot about John's humility and his obedience. After our Bible Study, we just watched Ed. That show is pretty interesting, and that episode was a sad one too. It talked a lot about relationships at the end. It was kind of cool because we started discussing views on dating and all that other stuff.
And speaking of dating, what the GG am I noticing lately. Is that my high school friends well some of them that is, have been putting down there info on websites to find a date. Geeez after all these years, I see I am still one of the only ones from my crew just be single and waiting for the right girl. While the rest of my friends are all seeking many girls. I see some things don't change I guess. Like my friends always say about me, I'm not a lover, I'm a baller.
Thursday, February 28, 2002
Wednesday, February 27, 2002
Break it down...
Ok so I know Tuesday night v-ball is an outreach and I should be happy that people come to listen to the Gospel. But last night was so fricking boring at v-ball because of the lack of talent. Actually I've been having this prob lately in v-ball, b-ball, and football. I wanna say that I'm always giving 100% out there but when my teammates are giving some half crap effort, ya know is it wrong of me to get on their case. Like to me, being competitive is half the fun right there. I don't care if my team loses as long as everyone is giving it their all. Like last night you have so many people just slapping the crap out of the ball. People like Peter have been teaching these people for God knows how long now and they still choose to play like that as if it was fun to them. I wonder if they ever realize that some of us actually want to play a real game of v-ball, ya know bump, set, spike.
So there was a big case of this last night after sharing. There was a group of us who were warming up and ready to play some serious v-ball. Then a stampede of people who aren't that great came to join us in warming up. However by doing that, half of my group left seeing that their wasn't gonna be no serious game on this side. I chose to stay because I felt bad for these people. One of the lesser skilled guys asked "why are they leaving, do they not like us?" Part of me just wanted to yell "Because y'all suck" but that wouldn't be too editfying. But it's like these people don't have a clue why no one wanted to join them in passing or playing a game with them. I stayed because I would of felt guilty for choosing to leave too but I'm sure they wouldn't want my sympathy either. I was just so eager to post on the lunch tables one side A and the other B. Again, I don't mind if you suck but is willing to try and put in effort. But if just suck and wanna stay that way then that just irritates me.
Just like last Saturday too, you have certain guys who play cheap or dirty. Like part of me felt bad for one guy who got his nose busted pretty good. He was bleeding all over the place. However another part of me felt like he deserved it because he plays dirty and got what he deserved. Again certain people who think they are playing the right way but aren't. (Sigh) I don't know, like God gave us the spirit of competition. And I should be thankful of my athletic abilities. I just wish people would give it their all, is that too much to ask?
God help us all
Ok so I know Tuesday night v-ball is an outreach and I should be happy that people come to listen to the Gospel. But last night was so fricking boring at v-ball because of the lack of talent. Actually I've been having this prob lately in v-ball, b-ball, and football. I wanna say that I'm always giving 100% out there but when my teammates are giving some half crap effort, ya know is it wrong of me to get on their case. Like to me, being competitive is half the fun right there. I don't care if my team loses as long as everyone is giving it their all. Like last night you have so many people just slapping the crap out of the ball. People like Peter have been teaching these people for God knows how long now and they still choose to play like that as if it was fun to them. I wonder if they ever realize that some of us actually want to play a real game of v-ball, ya know bump, set, spike.
So there was a big case of this last night after sharing. There was a group of us who were warming up and ready to play some serious v-ball. Then a stampede of people who aren't that great came to join us in warming up. However by doing that, half of my group left seeing that their wasn't gonna be no serious game on this side. I chose to stay because I felt bad for these people. One of the lesser skilled guys asked "why are they leaving, do they not like us?" Part of me just wanted to yell "Because y'all suck" but that wouldn't be too editfying. But it's like these people don't have a clue why no one wanted to join them in passing or playing a game with them. I stayed because I would of felt guilty for choosing to leave too but I'm sure they wouldn't want my sympathy either. I was just so eager to post on the lunch tables one side A and the other B. Again, I don't mind if you suck but is willing to try and put in effort. But if just suck and wanna stay that way then that just irritates me.
Just like last Saturday too, you have certain guys who play cheap or dirty. Like part of me felt bad for one guy who got his nose busted pretty good. He was bleeding all over the place. However another part of me felt like he deserved it because he plays dirty and got what he deserved. Again certain people who think they are playing the right way but aren't. (Sigh) I don't know, like God gave us the spirit of competition. And I should be thankful of my athletic abilities. I just wish people would give it their all, is that too much to ask?
God help us all
Break it down...
Ok so I know Tuesday night v-ball is an outreach and I should be happy that people come to listen to the Gospel. But last night was so fricking boring at v-ball because of the lack of talent. Actually I've been having this prob lately in v-ball, b-ball, and football. I wanna say that I'm always giving 100% out there but when my teammates are giving some half crap effort, ya know is it wrong of me to get on their case. Like to me, being competitive is half the fun right there. I don't care if my team loses as long as everyone is giving it their all. Like last night you have so many people
Ok so I know Tuesday night v-ball is an outreach and I should be happy that people come to listen to the Gospel. But last night was so fricking boring at v-ball because of the lack of talent. Actually I've been having this prob lately in v-ball, b-ball, and football. I wanna say that I'm always giving 100% out there but when my teammates are giving some half crap effort, ya know is it wrong of me to get on their case. Like to me, being competitive is half the fun right there. I don't care if my team loses as long as everyone is giving it their all. Like last night you have so many people
Tuesday, February 26, 2002
I'm not a boy, not yet a man.....
Then what the GG am I? I'll you who I am, I am a child of Christ as for Britney, I have no G Squared of a clue where she is still going with that song. Of course I keep thinking something's gonna happen, then something else alters the course. I was somewhat disappointed yesterday that after all this time, I did not get to go to Toronto. I found out Sunday night that my relatives from NY came here to visit. So my family didn't want me to take off without eating and spending time with them. Gosh I haven't seem them in the longest time since they do live in the ghetto of Queens. And all I remembered was their fricking cat that bothered me everytime I tried to sleep. Gosh how I hated that dang cat. And my mommy was talking to me about how we will probably go to NY this summer to visit them. All I gotta say is if that cat is still alive, it better start counting its lives.
Actually it was blessing that I didn't go to Toronto yesterday as well. Because Sunday night I lost my pager, and I was so upset because ya know I'm a sentimental type of guy. I've had that thing since I was 16. So I went back to CBC yesterday to look for it and it was not there :( Then I walked around outside the parking lot and saw just sitting there in the middle of the parking lot. Praise The Lord that it works!!!!
Well tonight is v-ball night so gotta be pumped for that. Especially with this new guy there who killed me on 3 dinks. Dumb wuss don't wanna be a man and hit it. There's gonna be a war tonight and I need to get ready for battle. Just thinking about it, I think I'll put off my Lit reading for another day :) Don't you love it when you people do that too. Time 2 Play The Game
Then what the GG am I? I'll you who I am, I am a child of Christ as for Britney, I have no G Squared of a clue where she is still going with that song. Of course I keep thinking something's gonna happen, then something else alters the course. I was somewhat disappointed yesterday that after all this time, I did not get to go to Toronto. I found out Sunday night that my relatives from NY came here to visit. So my family didn't want me to take off without eating and spending time with them. Gosh I haven't seem them in the longest time since they do live in the ghetto of Queens. And all I remembered was their fricking cat that bothered me everytime I tried to sleep. Gosh how I hated that dang cat. And my mommy was talking to me about how we will probably go to NY this summer to visit them. All I gotta say is if that cat is still alive, it better start counting its lives.
Actually it was blessing that I didn't go to Toronto yesterday as well. Because Sunday night I lost my pager, and I was so upset because ya know I'm a sentimental type of guy. I've had that thing since I was 16. So I went back to CBC yesterday to look for it and it was not there :( Then I walked around outside the parking lot and saw just sitting there in the middle of the parking lot. Praise The Lord that it works!!!!
Well tonight is v-ball night so gotta be pumped for that. Especially with this new guy there who killed me on 3 dinks. Dumb wuss don't wanna be a man and hit it. There's gonna be a war tonight and I need to get ready for battle. Just thinking about it, I think I'll put off my Lit reading for another day :) Don't you love it when you people do that too. Time 2 Play The Game
Sunday, February 24, 2002
What Does It Take To Be # 1?
Well Praise Nite is finally, and I do mean finally over with.There were some ups and then their were some downs. I learned a lot from Peter and Fred of what I could of done to make it better and so forth. I felt bad too because at certain times I lost my patience with them because it just seems like they aren't committed in getting this thing done. But I was touched by all who shared. I was hoping for only Jen, B-12, J Ho, and Cay-Z but I'm glad the others followed suit.
Then today I thought it was funny, how God worked through 3 different people but yet all give the same message. It reminds me of how The Bible was put together and how He inspired them all. What sucks was like chilling at CBC for so long and for the first time ever not having anything to do it seemed like. Man how often do we have these moments? After balling the past couple of days my body feels like a wreck. Especially this one enormous looking fellowing, flicking me off of him like an insignificant little bug. Gosh this guy had to had at least a 100 pound advantage on me. My right calf is killing me too after getting tangled up in the corner of the wall while diving for a rebound. Now it looks like I gotta get myself ready for a couple of b-ball tournaments. But before going to that I need to summon the energy for tomorrow's trip to Toronto. Maybe I should call up my boy Howard and his sis Sher-Bear to see what's going on.
God Bless The Chinese
Well Praise Nite is finally, and I do mean finally over with.There were some ups and then their were some downs. I learned a lot from Peter and Fred of what I could of done to make it better and so forth. I felt bad too because at certain times I lost my patience with them because it just seems like they aren't committed in getting this thing done. But I was touched by all who shared. I was hoping for only Jen, B-12, J Ho, and Cay-Z but I'm glad the others followed suit.
Then today I thought it was funny, how God worked through 3 different people but yet all give the same message. It reminds me of how The Bible was put together and how He inspired them all. What sucks was like chilling at CBC for so long and for the first time ever not having anything to do it seemed like. Man how often do we have these moments? After balling the past couple of days my body feels like a wreck. Especially this one enormous looking fellowing, flicking me off of him like an insignificant little bug. Gosh this guy had to had at least a 100 pound advantage on me. My right calf is killing me too after getting tangled up in the corner of the wall while diving for a rebound. Now it looks like I gotta get myself ready for a couple of b-ball tournaments. But before going to that I need to summon the energy for tomorrow's trip to Toronto. Maybe I should call up my boy Howard and his sis Sher-Bear to see what's going on.
God Bless The Chinese
Thursday, February 21, 2002
Welcome 2 CBC
Well it's almost been a week since the last time I updated this Bad Boy production. And now I can see why so many of my friends don't update this thing like everyday. Let's see well this past week-end is done and over with. I had my ups and of course usually followed my downs. Lynnette's show was fantastic because I was always entertained. I thought I would be bored because it was jazz, which isn't my style. I did however want to beat the crap out of Steve Zegree because he don't know music like he thinks he does. After that was racing to Ann Arbor to catch Huaren. I'm really glad that I went to Huaren because I saw a lot of great acts and even someone sang Alex To. That was tight because he even did the microphone trick. Plus I ran into so many friends down in Ann Arbor which was a plus too. After the show, I walked around Ann Arbor alone for a while just to do some soul searching. Ya know because I haven't been feeling like myself lately and with that I almost got hit by a car. The guy pulled over and said that it was creepy, I just told him to hit me next time. I'm glad that I got to spend time with Cecilia and meet her roommates. It's been a while since I've talked to her and it's nice to see she is doing well. Then chilling wit my boyz at 5 a.m. at Ben's place was cool and he helped me reflect on how I was feeling.
A couple hours later of course, I wake up to go to Knox. Man 9 a.m. services how can someone wake up for that. Then come racing back to CBC to do Praise Nite rehersals wit the D-Ship crew. What really sucks is that I left my toothbrush and toothpaste at MSU so I had to brush my teeth with my finger on Sunday. Then I later find out that I left my cell phone charger in Ann Arbor, yikes I'm so forgetful. So I ended up sleeping on the couch from 7 p.m. all the way till 9 a.m. on Monday.
Monday was tight because I went to the Pontiac Outreach. It was a great experience and I learned a lot more from it. Then on Tuesday, my THA class selected me to be the director/leader of You Can't Take It With You. Heather said that I best exemplify the leadership qualities. Do I really? I always thought I was young and immature. And Tuesday night was great for some v-ball competition. Chrissy, Connie, and Howard came plus Chi finally comes back to v-ball. Connie's testimony really hit home to me and talking to Kin afterwards gave me a lot more to reflect upon. However me and Connie were dethroned by Howard and Chrissy as current 2's champs.
I'm really thankful in having a great Bible Study leader in Andy after we had lunch yesterday. He helped me more reflect upon what I've been going through in life. Then today, I feel like I'm a bad leader for my THA class since it was optional. My group only spent a half hour together while every other group were still together. Hopefully I can direct this team to a 4.0 on this project. And tonight is a big night because of a double-header in v-ball. Time to whoop some more candy pee goo's tonight.
Holla Back
Well it's almost been a week since the last time I updated this Bad Boy production. And now I can see why so many of my friends don't update this thing like everyday. Let's see well this past week-end is done and over with. I had my ups and of course usually followed my downs. Lynnette's show was fantastic because I was always entertained. I thought I would be bored because it was jazz, which isn't my style. I did however want to beat the crap out of Steve Zegree because he don't know music like he thinks he does. After that was racing to Ann Arbor to catch Huaren. I'm really glad that I went to Huaren because I saw a lot of great acts and even someone sang Alex To. That was tight because he even did the microphone trick. Plus I ran into so many friends down in Ann Arbor which was a plus too. After the show, I walked around Ann Arbor alone for a while just to do some soul searching. Ya know because I haven't been feeling like myself lately and with that I almost got hit by a car. The guy pulled over and said that it was creepy, I just told him to hit me next time. I'm glad that I got to spend time with Cecilia and meet her roommates. It's been a while since I've talked to her and it's nice to see she is doing well. Then chilling wit my boyz at 5 a.m. at Ben's place was cool and he helped me reflect on how I was feeling.
A couple hours later of course, I wake up to go to Knox. Man 9 a.m. services how can someone wake up for that. Then come racing back to CBC to do Praise Nite rehersals wit the D-Ship crew. What really sucks is that I left my toothbrush and toothpaste at MSU so I had to brush my teeth with my finger on Sunday. Then I later find out that I left my cell phone charger in Ann Arbor, yikes I'm so forgetful. So I ended up sleeping on the couch from 7 p.m. all the way till 9 a.m. on Monday.
Monday was tight because I went to the Pontiac Outreach. It was a great experience and I learned a lot more from it. Then on Tuesday, my THA class selected me to be the director/leader of You Can't Take It With You. Heather said that I best exemplify the leadership qualities. Do I really? I always thought I was young and immature. And Tuesday night was great for some v-ball competition. Chrissy, Connie, and Howard came plus Chi finally comes back to v-ball. Connie's testimony really hit home to me and talking to Kin afterwards gave me a lot more to reflect upon. However me and Connie were dethroned by Howard and Chrissy as current 2's champs.
I'm really thankful in having a great Bible Study leader in Andy after we had lunch yesterday. He helped me more reflect upon what I've been going through in life. Then today, I feel like I'm a bad leader for my THA class since it was optional. My group only spent a half hour together while every other group were still together. Hopefully I can direct this team to a 4.0 on this project. And tonight is a big night because of a double-header in v-ball. Time to whoop some more candy pee goo's tonight.
Holla Back
Saturday, February 16, 2002
Hola Back Young'N
It's like 4:35 a.m. right now and I'm just chilling in Arthur's room about to hit the sack. We played some pretty competitive b-ball tonight, it was all good. Why because I hit the Tracy McGrady play from the All Star Game. Also leading the team in score but eh that is expected of me so nothing special tonight. But man tomorrow is gonna be a long day. Wake up go to WMU then go to U of M, man I hope I have the energy to get through all that. It will be exciting to see Lynnette tomorrow as well and I am hoping everything goes well and that I can control my emotions better. Richard just said something funny though about b-ball tonight that I still can get over which is, "I got more passes on defense than on offense" Hopefully I can spend some time with my boy Ben tomorrow night in Ann Arbor too.
And the battles were drawn last night after a quick v-ball game. Man don't wanna sound cocky but my team is already in the finals unless these other scrub teams do some serious upgrading. Jane played aight but can't set. She reminds me of Wendy trying to set sometimes. But heck she did win Defensive Player of the Year at Stevenson baby! And Melissa had some sweet sets right off the net, now I see why she was the starting setter at Stevenson baby! Well everyone else is a sleep so I guess I should be too, God bless the Chinese!
Hola Back
It's like 4:35 a.m. right now and I'm just chilling in Arthur's room about to hit the sack. We played some pretty competitive b-ball tonight, it was all good. Why because I hit the Tracy McGrady play from the All Star Game. Also leading the team in score but eh that is expected of me so nothing special tonight. But man tomorrow is gonna be a long day. Wake up go to WMU then go to U of M, man I hope I have the energy to get through all that. It will be exciting to see Lynnette tomorrow as well and I am hoping everything goes well and that I can control my emotions better. Richard just said something funny though about b-ball tonight that I still can get over which is, "I got more passes on defense than on offense" Hopefully I can spend some time with my boy Ben tomorrow night in Ann Arbor too.
And the battles were drawn last night after a quick v-ball game. Man don't wanna sound cocky but my team is already in the finals unless these other scrub teams do some serious upgrading. Jane played aight but can't set. She reminds me of Wendy trying to set sometimes. But heck she did win Defensive Player of the Year at Stevenson baby! And Melissa had some sweet sets right off the net, now I see why she was the starting setter at Stevenson baby! Well everyone else is a sleep so I guess I should be too, God bless the Chinese!
Hola Back
Thursday, February 14, 2002
Happy Valentine's Day to everyone reading this Bad Boy production. And finally, and K dawg means finally am done with my exams. I hope I did aight on my THA class because he gave us 6 correct answers. And my Lit class, I never wrote so many essay form answers for one GG exam in my life before. So with all that said and done, I can relax a little more this weekend. I feel good right now, and tonight it is time for K Dawg to layeth the smackdownith on every single jabroni for the season opener of OU v-ball. With the upgrade of Jane and Melissa from our old high school team, their will be a can opened up tonight. Too bad my boy, Nick is out with his girl tonight for Valentine's Day. The countdown is on in less than 7 hours for Team Bring It to whoop some booty. It's time to get down tonight.
Wednesday, February 13, 2002
What Does It Take To Be # 1?
Ok just my fricking luck, I try to send something and this fricking GG thing resets. What the G is up with that! See what I mean by me losing patience on everything lately. With this past week gone by, just some things peeps been saying to me, that has got my confidence shaken and my frustration level rising. I have no idea why I am so bummed. At least v-ball last night was sort of enjoyable, seeing Ting was one thing. I haven't played with my little Ting-A-Ling in a while now or talked to her either. Singing Drowning to Sam was awesome just to embarrass her. But afterwards just driving home was upsetting, but yet I don't know why. All I can do is continue to ask God to restore my confidence. Lately, I feel my body is wearing down, mentally I feel rattled, and spiritually I missed a couple of devotion times. And now I'm just spacing myself from everyone else. Hopefully I can use this Saturday's drive to WMU to clear my thoughts, and search for peace with God. I need to snap out of this funk especially for tomorrow, if I'm to lead my team out for battle in v-ball. Since we play the defending champs from last semester, and I want to see how much farther I can take my team. I feel that it's my fault for losing last semester, so I've pushed myself harder as if it were CCUC all over again to come out a winner this semester. Oh fruity pebbles, gotta go home and call GrandPastor B now.
Ok just my fricking luck, I try to send something and this fricking GG thing resets. What the G is up with that! See what I mean by me losing patience on everything lately. With this past week gone by, just some things peeps been saying to me, that has got my confidence shaken and my frustration level rising. I have no idea why I am so bummed. At least v-ball last night was sort of enjoyable, seeing Ting was one thing. I haven't played with my little Ting-A-Ling in a while now or talked to her either. Singing Drowning to Sam was awesome just to embarrass her. But afterwards just driving home was upsetting, but yet I don't know why. All I can do is continue to ask God to restore my confidence. Lately, I feel my body is wearing down, mentally I feel rattled, and spiritually I missed a couple of devotion times. And now I'm just spacing myself from everyone else. Hopefully I can use this Saturday's drive to WMU to clear my thoughts, and search for peace with God. I need to snap out of this funk especially for tomorrow, if I'm to lead my team out for battle in v-ball. Since we play the defending champs from last semester, and I want to see how much farther I can take my team. I feel that it's my fault for losing last semester, so I've pushed myself harder as if it were CCUC all over again to come out a winner this semester. Oh fruity pebbles, gotta go home and call GrandPastor B now.
Tuesday, February 12, 2002
What Does It Take To Be # 1?
Well, I have just started to do this blog thing to see what the G squared is all the hype about this thing. I can't believe so many people I know are all down with this. So I guess, I'll go into my past because that's what I've been thinking about lately. My life revolved around b-ball and it still does next to God. I've been thinking about how much God has changed me to the person I am today. I remember in 2nd grade when my parents signed me up for b-ball camp and I cried because that meant no more cartoons for me especially Transformers. But I loved the camp and forced me to learn the game. As I grew older, I started playing b-ball with my cousins Damon, and Derrick. Back then I was just a scrub because the guys were older, bigger, and better than me. The crew would be Damon, Derrick, Gary, Jimmy, Ray, Way, Nikolai, Rob, Frank, and Russ. We would play ball 24-7 and at that time I was always humble because I couldn't match up to them. Once high school started my game went to a new level. As I developed my best weapon, the killer crossover. People started talking about me saying that I was disrespectful, selfish, arrogant, cocky, and trash talking to everyone. I was always this way because people never thought Chinese people could play ball, which is sort of true. I learned my game from playing with/against African Americans because they play good and look good doing it. While white folks just try to look good, and Asians just play as if the game was new to them. That's the way I was because in my eye, nobody gave me the respect I deserved. So I had to talk trash as well to get the attention, I would trash talk to my opponents, teammates, refs, coaches, and most of all the parents watching the game. I've had fans heckle me by chanting "Kobe" everytime I missed a shot because back then that was who I try to model my game after. I think people also judged me for how I acted and dressed because I chose not to dress up for game days or anything special.
Then He came into my life in 1999. God opened a door for me at Chinese Bible Church for Saturday morning b-ball. I was still a wild mouth kid but now I was seeking for direction in my life. God wiped out all those words said about me and changed it to other words that people saw in me. People who knew me back in the 90's see me on the court as fearless, courageous, loyal, competitive, and a leader. One person once said to me that he couldn't believe that I was only 21 and still I am getting better. And now instead of saying it is all me, I know it is God who has blessed me with the abilities that I can do. But He has a greater purpose for me, lately I've been shying away from responsibilities because I don't like that role of a leader. I don't like people following me because I was always scared of doing something wrong that would cause people to fall or make a group look bad. And since today is Chinese New Year, starting today I've decided to take on those responsibilities that I believe I can handle if God is calling me to be the leader of a group, fellowship, team, ministry or whatever He calls me to do. I've been looking back and see how my life has changed and I hope I can continue to strive towards being disciplined in godliness. Lord knows that I failed big time this past Saturday.
And one last thing, last night at Golden Harvest, I found out a stunner. Me, Chrissy, and Connie use to play with each other at least I think. I ran into their family at Golden Harvest and their dad said that we use to play with each other when my grandma was playing mah-jong with them. I kept wondering how old was I. And did they play nicely with me or did they abuse me because after all I was the youngest? Or did they leave me in the sandbox all alone :( Small world though and how the world of mah-jong can bring people together. Now wouldn't that be an outreach event for CBC, Mah-jong outreach. I bet that would bring in a lot of non-Christians and what a way to minister to them as well. Mah-jong gotta love it but I can't play worth a lick. Well my first blog and I see it is rather long, plus I am a hour late for my class. Time to get down tonight for v-ball though. Peace!
Well, I have just started to do this blog thing to see what the G squared is all the hype about this thing. I can't believe so many people I know are all down with this. So I guess, I'll go into my past because that's what I've been thinking about lately. My life revolved around b-ball and it still does next to God. I've been thinking about how much God has changed me to the person I am today. I remember in 2nd grade when my parents signed me up for b-ball camp and I cried because that meant no more cartoons for me especially Transformers. But I loved the camp and forced me to learn the game. As I grew older, I started playing b-ball with my cousins Damon, and Derrick. Back then I was just a scrub because the guys were older, bigger, and better than me. The crew would be Damon, Derrick, Gary, Jimmy, Ray, Way, Nikolai, Rob, Frank, and Russ. We would play ball 24-7 and at that time I was always humble because I couldn't match up to them. Once high school started my game went to a new level. As I developed my best weapon, the killer crossover. People started talking about me saying that I was disrespectful, selfish, arrogant, cocky, and trash talking to everyone. I was always this way because people never thought Chinese people could play ball, which is sort of true. I learned my game from playing with/against African Americans because they play good and look good doing it. While white folks just try to look good, and Asians just play as if the game was new to them. That's the way I was because in my eye, nobody gave me the respect I deserved. So I had to talk trash as well to get the attention, I would trash talk to my opponents, teammates, refs, coaches, and most of all the parents watching the game. I've had fans heckle me by chanting "Kobe" everytime I missed a shot because back then that was who I try to model my game after. I think people also judged me for how I acted and dressed because I chose not to dress up for game days or anything special.
Then He came into my life in 1999. God opened a door for me at Chinese Bible Church for Saturday morning b-ball. I was still a wild mouth kid but now I was seeking for direction in my life. God wiped out all those words said about me and changed it to other words that people saw in me. People who knew me back in the 90's see me on the court as fearless, courageous, loyal, competitive, and a leader. One person once said to me that he couldn't believe that I was only 21 and still I am getting better. And now instead of saying it is all me, I know it is God who has blessed me with the abilities that I can do. But He has a greater purpose for me, lately I've been shying away from responsibilities because I don't like that role of a leader. I don't like people following me because I was always scared of doing something wrong that would cause people to fall or make a group look bad. And since today is Chinese New Year, starting today I've decided to take on those responsibilities that I believe I can handle if God is calling me to be the leader of a group, fellowship, team, ministry or whatever He calls me to do. I've been looking back and see how my life has changed and I hope I can continue to strive towards being disciplined in godliness. Lord knows that I failed big time this past Saturday.
And one last thing, last night at Golden Harvest, I found out a stunner. Me, Chrissy, and Connie use to play with each other at least I think. I ran into their family at Golden Harvest and their dad said that we use to play with each other when my grandma was playing mah-jong with them. I kept wondering how old was I. And did they play nicely with me or did they abuse me because after all I was the youngest? Or did they leave me in the sandbox all alone :( Small world though and how the world of mah-jong can bring people together. Now wouldn't that be an outreach event for CBC, Mah-jong outreach. I bet that would bring in a lot of non-Christians and what a way to minister to them as well. Mah-jong gotta love it but I can't play worth a lick. Well my first blog and I see it is rather long, plus I am a hour late for my class. Time to get down tonight for v-ball though. Peace!