So today was the official start of my winter break, but again I ask it is really a break for me? Break from school, yes but from God's Will never. I had a great time of fellowship of lunch with David D. It was just amazing that we could just spend time and pray together over CBC's needs. It's funny how the Spirit is giving me the same thoughts along with other CBC leaders as well. I pretty much spent the rest of the day shopping for the first time, better late than never right. As I was walking through Somerset, I still can't get over the fact that it's been about 3 years now since my incidents with some of my supposed closest high school friends. As I kept walking around, I just decided to leave because of some of the painful memories there. Honestly, I felt kind of alone today and these incidents made me in the past unable to trust people. I bought some things for myself to kind of cheer me up so to say, but ya know it's just material things that come and go. I finally bought this book at FCS, and it talks about how to deal with contemporary issues using the Bible. So I can't wait to dive in that, purchasing that lifted my spirit up a little.
And I came home in time to watch the Survivor finale, which I predicted right that Brian was gonna win. But it is something that Ken said about integrity. And I still remember the lesson about integrity I learned last year in BSF. And a couple of things that hit me of what Maragret taught this past Sunday. One of them was how she had a particular weakness and she kept working on it so that it doesn't appear as much. Now I know I have my weaknesses but I continue to do my best to work on them. What really bothered me today is how some people have certain weaknesses but it's like they use it as an excuse sometimes now because it's been their habit or it's like you gotta expect that from them. I dunno where I'm going with this, but as for integrity, I just hope like Ken said, all I can hope for is when I leave is to have my integrity.
I guess I've been letting my frustrations get the better of me. I think a nice read, would be to dive into Hosea because it's just amazing what he does. Anyways, I guess I just need to focus on this Saturday's tournament as the 5-1-4 will be looking to rocking the house. if only I knew where we are playing still? And now, I've been put back on the grill for b-ball from my cousin. As he's got me in some sort of 3 on 3 game for $$$$, just another day in the office I guess.
Take Me Back To Heaven
Friday, December 20, 2002
Tuesday, December 17, 2002
Finally this semester has come to an end and where the GG is Melissa she was suppose to meet me at the KL as soon as she finished. I had a nice time of finishing the 97 question exam in less than 45 minutes. I woke up early to study as well but gosh it was like soooo boring that I just layed on the couch. Now I can relax over my break right? Wrong, their is still soooo much of God's ministries to be done and I can't believe to even imagine that He is using me in all these ways. What the chicken, now Melissa finally gets here. Wow it took her 2 hours to finish that exam compared to my world record time. Anyways going back to what I was saying, I mean it's like the sports ministries are pretty much up to me to be the one who keeps things going while the outreach committee is gone on vaction/work. Then their's trying to lead the 5-1-4, along with serving at the Chrismas Eve Service. These are just to name a few things but man may I be remind of 2 Cor. 4:5? I think it was about relying on God's power and not of my own. It's too bad that I didn't get the vacation that everyone else is getting, but hey I get to serve, learn, and grow in Him even more.
Last night I finally figured out which team I was playing for, the team name was Altair. The first thing I walked and noticed at Boulan was wow I'm the shortest and youngest player in this league now, the net is at men's height, and is that Rob D standing over there? This league is pretty fun, I like the fact that we play 5 games up to 25 points rally scoring. So how did I do, well my first thought about this team was, wow these guys stink but how in the world are they in first. So the first game I played like crap because it's been a while since I had to hit on a men's net, I kept hitting it into the net. As the game progressed, I played at my usual level but I didn't have to play any higher than just being normal as in my opinion I didn't need to go S.S. It was funny because one of my teammates Charlie kept getting pissed at me for running a couple of quicks. Why was he mad, because he said the team is not use to my flashiness on offense and let's stick to the game plan of running a simple 4-2. Later, the captain Phil came up to me and apologized to me for them not being world class players. Later Charlie got even madder at me when I called a timeout because we were up by 12 and our lead was cut to 3. He was mad and told the team not to get into the huddle with me, but hahah even his own teammates didn't want to listen to him and they listened to what I had to say in the huddle while Charlie just isolated himself on the court. Then Charlie got mad again at me when I didn't take the 2nd ball, and I was like uhh hey stupid am I the setter? However I decided to yell at the setter for not calling help and that it's not my fault that he is slow and unable to get the pass, plus it wasn't even me who shanked that pass. Phil and Kevin had to pull me back as I just chewed out Charlie. Gosh I wish I was playing against him, so I can go S.S. and make him eat my Air Force Ones. Anyways so after the 5 games, Rob asked me in a sarcastic way of how were my setters? Kevin thought when I did set, that I was the best setter on the team, wow imagine that? But it's too bad that I was the best hitter on the team as well. The team we were playing against, had this one guy I'd called greenie because he had all green on was getting pissed at his own teammates for their mistakes like he was Mr. Perfect or something. So you had to love this, when he tried to kill it over me and I just stuffed him and the ball came straight down on his side. My reaction, stare down baby as he should shut his mouth too and that he isn't the best player on his team, plus I thought it was mean especially when he was kept yelling at their oldest player on the team, that was uncalled for, hence my stare down block was for them.
Well that's it for today, if you're reading this please take a minute to pray that the Holy Spirit will work within me tonight during v-ball sharing. I need to jet because I got this thing called a hair cut, so I look slick this Saturday for the v-ball tournament, and then lunch with Lindsay! Yay I haven't hung out with her in sooooo long it seems like.
California Dreamin'
Last night I finally figured out which team I was playing for, the team name was Altair. The first thing I walked and noticed at Boulan was wow I'm the shortest and youngest player in this league now, the net is at men's height, and is that Rob D standing over there? This league is pretty fun, I like the fact that we play 5 games up to 25 points rally scoring. So how did I do, well my first thought about this team was, wow these guys stink but how in the world are they in first. So the first game I played like crap because it's been a while since I had to hit on a men's net, I kept hitting it into the net. As the game progressed, I played at my usual level but I didn't have to play any higher than just being normal as in my opinion I didn't need to go S.S. It was funny because one of my teammates Charlie kept getting pissed at me for running a couple of quicks. Why was he mad, because he said the team is not use to my flashiness on offense and let's stick to the game plan of running a simple 4-2. Later, the captain Phil came up to me and apologized to me for them not being world class players. Later Charlie got even madder at me when I called a timeout because we were up by 12 and our lead was cut to 3. He was mad and told the team not to get into the huddle with me, but hahah even his own teammates didn't want to listen to him and they listened to what I had to say in the huddle while Charlie just isolated himself on the court. Then Charlie got mad again at me when I didn't take the 2nd ball, and I was like uhh hey stupid am I the setter? However I decided to yell at the setter for not calling help and that it's not my fault that he is slow and unable to get the pass, plus it wasn't even me who shanked that pass. Phil and Kevin had to pull me back as I just chewed out Charlie. Gosh I wish I was playing against him, so I can go S.S. and make him eat my Air Force Ones. Anyways so after the 5 games, Rob asked me in a sarcastic way of how were my setters? Kevin thought when I did set, that I was the best setter on the team, wow imagine that? But it's too bad that I was the best hitter on the team as well. The team we were playing against, had this one guy I'd called greenie because he had all green on was getting pissed at his own teammates for their mistakes like he was Mr. Perfect or something. So you had to love this, when he tried to kill it over me and I just stuffed him and the ball came straight down on his side. My reaction, stare down baby as he should shut his mouth too and that he isn't the best player on his team, plus I thought it was mean especially when he was kept yelling at their oldest player on the team, that was uncalled for, hence my stare down block was for them.
Well that's it for today, if you're reading this please take a minute to pray that the Holy Spirit will work within me tonight during v-ball sharing. I need to jet because I got this thing called a hair cut, so I look slick this Saturday for the v-ball tournament, and then lunch with Lindsay! Yay I haven't hung out with her in sooooo long it seems like.
California Dreamin'
Monday, December 16, 2002
Ya know considering I still have 1 exam left tomorrow morning, I've been treating this past weekend like I was out of school already. This weekend was draining as I woke up butt early to go see Ting play at her high school tournament for v-ball. Last night, I had fellowship over at Fred and Kim's because Margaret was sharing about how God's been working in her life lately or over the year. I remember last summer I attended Maragaret's sharing as well, but I didn't get to stay as long. I think it was because I had to go to the D-Ship/College Dinner last summer after it. But this time I'm just sooo thankful that I stayed and really got to know her more. Her words of wisdom was just an encouragement to me to continue to serve in the 5-1-4. It's just too bad that she's always bouncing around but hey that's how God is using her so I can't complain. Hopefully I get to spend more time to talk to Margaret before she leaves, but she's just so funny telling us stories about her and Freddy :)
Finally there's tonight, where I'll be playing in this new v-ball league I guess you can call it that. Honestly I'm quite nervous because I have no idea who I am playing with, never met them in my life before. Gosh what if my level isn't as high as these guys? I'm starting to get that feeling of yup the lone CBC person type of thing, oh God be with me tonight. And afterwards I gotta make yet another trip to CBC for music practice for tomorrow night. I just can't explain the feelings I got when Fred was talking to me about how this sharing is the first time ever in the sanctuary and that this could be the springboard for something bigger for God's glory. If only Charles was here to see how much sharing has changed since his days when he first started it.
The Boys Of Summer
Finally there's tonight, where I'll be playing in this new v-ball league I guess you can call it that. Honestly I'm quite nervous because I have no idea who I am playing with, never met them in my life before. Gosh what if my level isn't as high as these guys? I'm starting to get that feeling of yup the lone CBC person type of thing, oh God be with me tonight. And afterwards I gotta make yet another trip to CBC for music practice for tomorrow night. I just can't explain the feelings I got when Fred was talking to me about how this sharing is the first time ever in the sanctuary and that this could be the springboard for something bigger for God's glory. If only Charles was here to see how much sharing has changed since his days when he first started it.
The Boys Of Summer
Thursday, December 12, 2002
Woooooo I have surpassed the 1 day of hell tonight with back to back exams, took care of the term paper, and going strong on my all nighter. What really got me going last night was just a great time of sharing from the 5-1-4 crew. I came home and pretty much just hit the books all night long. My diet last night consisted of that ice coffee with 2 hots expresso and over 20 packets of sugar, a large ice cappucino, and a couple cans of coke. I think that messed up my eating habit because my stomach kept growling, so I tried eating pizza but as I put it in my mouth I just wanted to spit it out. So yup I'm pretty much going on no food today either except for a couple of Flipz I had earlier. I finished my review sheets earlier than expected so I treated myself to a nap at around 10 and woke back up and hour later. It wasn't too much of a nap as I had trouble trying to sleep. I got up and it felt like I had a caffine hangover or a buzz, whatever that feels like, but I'm sure that's what I got. All that sugar just rushed to my head so I just kept drinking water all day to clean out my system now.
So I showered and went to go to the KL to study with Jenny for PS 241. Dude we studied for a little bit but like with an hour to spare we started talking about random things. Well actually she thought the caffine I had in my system started taking over as this what I randomly did as everyone was trying to study in our PS classroom.
1) I started singing Britney Spear songs, any song, name it and I sang it
2) Oh then I started rapping to Nelly, and moved down to J. Lo
3) Then I started giving a lecture about how big J. Lo's booty is
4) Then I started to tell the class how A Walk To The Remember was the best movie I've seen and that I cried as well
5) I started busting out some Mandy Moore songs
6) Then I moved on to Charles In Charge and Saved By The Bell and how I've been watching that recently, and 5 minutes later I started singing the theme song to that
7) Then I started doing my Chuey (sp?) imitation in front of the class
8) Then I told peeps how played out the Power Rangers are now these days
9) Then I got into a debate with Jenny in front of the class about how Pokemon can take out Harry Potter anyday
10) Finally I started hitting up Harry Potter hard by bringing in Goku, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, and X-Men
Yup I got all that in, in a one hour time span, well with the class either laughing at/with me and the rest of the class must of been annoyed by my obnoxiousness. Man that was a sugar rush or what?
After my PS exam, I quickly went to the KL again, this time to study for HST 115 with Paula, Beth, and Monica. Man I was about to pass out in the KL but dang it I gotta know this crap as I was disappointed in my grade on my paper I just recieved from Zellers. I got a 2.7, dude I worked on that thing like no other with the help of Beth. I spent like only 2 hours doing my PS paper and I got a 3.4, there's gotta be something wrong here. Oh well what can I do now but study for my last crackhead exam in ENV 306. I can sense freedom will be upon me soon enough. It's amazing how I ain't even tired yet either, I might as well bounce around campus because I'm in the OU paper for winning the IM V-ball championships.
Bad Guy
So I showered and went to go to the KL to study with Jenny for PS 241. Dude we studied for a little bit but like with an hour to spare we started talking about random things. Well actually she thought the caffine I had in my system started taking over as this what I randomly did as everyone was trying to study in our PS classroom.
1) I started singing Britney Spear songs, any song, name it and I sang it
2) Oh then I started rapping to Nelly, and moved down to J. Lo
3) Then I started giving a lecture about how big J. Lo's booty is
4) Then I started to tell the class how A Walk To The Remember was the best movie I've seen and that I cried as well
5) I started busting out some Mandy Moore songs
6) Then I moved on to Charles In Charge and Saved By The Bell and how I've been watching that recently, and 5 minutes later I started singing the theme song to that
7) Then I started doing my Chuey (sp?) imitation in front of the class
8) Then I told peeps how played out the Power Rangers are now these days
9) Then I got into a debate with Jenny in front of the class about how Pokemon can take out Harry Potter anyday
10) Finally I started hitting up Harry Potter hard by bringing in Goku, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, and X-Men
Yup I got all that in, in a one hour time span, well with the class either laughing at/with me and the rest of the class must of been annoyed by my obnoxiousness. Man that was a sugar rush or what?
After my PS exam, I quickly went to the KL again, this time to study for HST 115 with Paula, Beth, and Monica. Man I was about to pass out in the KL but dang it I gotta know this crap as I was disappointed in my grade on my paper I just recieved from Zellers. I got a 2.7, dude I worked on that thing like no other with the help of Beth. I spent like only 2 hours doing my PS paper and I got a 3.4, there's gotta be something wrong here. Oh well what can I do now but study for my last crackhead exam in ENV 306. I can sense freedom will be upon me soon enough. It's amazing how I ain't even tired yet either, I might as well bounce around campus because I'm in the OU paper for winning the IM V-ball championships.
Bad Guy
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
I said, yeah we need troopers
Cause I need troopers
So I can get da stomping
In my
Air Force Ones
Man I'm so pumped to play in this v-ball league this Monday night. I have an exam the day after, my last one then it's freedom! Well last night I was disappointed that the challenge from that one guy was merely a challenge. Sometimes when they're talking, I wonder if they're trashing talking to me in mandarin? Oh well that's why I felt the urge to show them my Air Force Ones after one kill. What really sucked was on one play, I followed through my hit so hard that swung and hit myself in the chicken. Man that killed, but worst of all that was embarassing oh well Phil did it to himself too. Man I can't wait to make my return back to Boulan.
Ya know one thing that's been really encouraging me lately is seeing the females of CBC just really striving for spiritual growth. I remember I had this conversation with Lindsay a couple of years ago about the females at CBC. I just feel bad that they're aren't any ladies that have the burden or maybe the time to disciple someone like Lindsay. But now it's frustrating to see that they're are girls like Chrissy, Connie, and Cecilia who are growing or have that desire to serve The Lord, but no women around to lead these group of women to another level of accountability and discipleship. I mean you look at discipleship with the women and how easily it could work on it's way down. If you start with the adult women, and then they move down to the 5-1-4 ladies, then they pass it on to the eLLe generation of girls, and they pass it down to like Grace and Stephie's gang of girls so forth. This is one of those times I wish I was a female to take on this ministry. May The Lord send someone who will help the ladies of CBC continue to grow in Him. I guess it's time for me to stop procrastinating and get my butt down to Barnes or was it Borders to hit the books? Oh well I'm gonna go be a nerd.
Work It
Cause I need troopers
So I can get da stomping
In my
Air Force Ones
Man I'm so pumped to play in this v-ball league this Monday night. I have an exam the day after, my last one then it's freedom! Well last night I was disappointed that the challenge from that one guy was merely a challenge. Sometimes when they're talking, I wonder if they're trashing talking to me in mandarin? Oh well that's why I felt the urge to show them my Air Force Ones after one kill. What really sucked was on one play, I followed through my hit so hard that swung and hit myself in the chicken. Man that killed, but worst of all that was embarassing oh well Phil did it to himself too. Man I can't wait to make my return back to Boulan.
Ya know one thing that's been really encouraging me lately is seeing the females of CBC just really striving for spiritual growth. I remember I had this conversation with Lindsay a couple of years ago about the females at CBC. I just feel bad that they're aren't any ladies that have the burden or maybe the time to disciple someone like Lindsay. But now it's frustrating to see that they're are girls like Chrissy, Connie, and Cecilia who are growing or have that desire to serve The Lord, but no women around to lead these group of women to another level of accountability and discipleship. I mean you look at discipleship with the women and how easily it could work on it's way down. If you start with the adult women, and then they move down to the 5-1-4 ladies, then they pass it on to the eLLe generation of girls, and they pass it down to like Grace and Stephie's gang of girls so forth. This is one of those times I wish I was a female to take on this ministry. May The Lord send someone who will help the ladies of CBC continue to grow in Him. I guess it's time for me to stop procrastinating and get my butt down to Barnes or was it Borders to hit the books? Oh well I'm gonna go be a nerd.
Work It
Tuesday, December 10, 2002
Because I believe there's a magic way
Slipping into your mind
Brightening up your day
Everything's gonna be ok
Well I just got through my first stage of hell, as I stayed up till 4 this morning working on my term paper for PoliSci. It wasn't due till Thursday but I got it done this morning and I just sent it up to my prof to let him read it and tell me what grade is it worth. Dude, I did such a crap job on this paper and by God's grace I got a 3.4 on this paper so I took it. Now I still have 2 stages of hell to go through this Thursday and their is no way I can speed that up since it is back to back exams. So I'm gonna try to go on the 2 hours of nap time I had this morning for the next 48 hours and push myself to the limit. And to feel better, I think I'm gonna go to the Rec. Center in like 10 minutes to work out as well.
Last night we had our victory team dinner at BW3's and it was my first time there. Man now I see why Vickie loves that place, I played this virtual football game where it lined up with the Dolphins and Bears. How you play is that you gotta guess the play depending on whoever is on offense, the more detailed you get the more points you get but the more points you lose as well. I was soooo into it that I didn't talk to anyone on the team, Maegan and Cindy kept trying to get my attention but I was too focused on football. Stan couldn't believe how into sports I was and didn't bother talking to any of the girls there. Then there was a Chicken Wing eating contest, where anyone could join and the first one to down 20 wings as fast as they can win $100 worth of food there. I was actually gonna compete but it was for the championship from the previous weeks. So I was studying it, and this is what I would do, since I am pretty much the slowest eater on Earth, I would just eat one wing and then I would take the rest home. Why? Because the 20 wings are free, hahahaha so I would get to eat for free there and enjoy my food, hahahaha. I don't care about stuffing my face, I get free food where I can enjoy it, hahahaha. There was almost a 2 way tie for first place between these big boys, and man their faces were sooo red because they were about to puke it all out. Again I say, take my 20 wings for free and eat at my own pace, hahahaha.
So what's the topic on my mind since this past weekend. Well it is dry skin, dude I never had a problem with dry skin in my whole life till last year where my hands flet like the Rocky Mountains. This year it got even worst on Saturday, because it was soooo dry, that every time I spread out my hand, my hand would just start squirting out blood. That's how dry it was, gosh this is getting annoying to me. And this past Sunday, someone came up to me and said that he is bringing some sort of team to go up against me tonight at v-ball? I wasn't quite sure as his english isn't the greatest but I look forward to seeing this challenge. And now I'm playing in yet another v-ball league that goes yeear around I think, and I start this Monday night.
Another blessing that has been brought to my attention is my new bond with David D. at CBC. He's just an amazing godly man, and he is just so on fire right now to serve God. I love his kids, they are so well-mannered and for some they know why they accepted Christ into their lives while the others are still learning. We even talked after Sunday School and it was all in french, man I haven't spoken in frech mode in a couple of years now. Gosh I was sooo rusty, it took me like forever to respond, but I'm thankful for our fellowship that God has provided.
Sky
Slipping into your mind
Brightening up your day
Everything's gonna be ok
Well I just got through my first stage of hell, as I stayed up till 4 this morning working on my term paper for PoliSci. It wasn't due till Thursday but I got it done this morning and I just sent it up to my prof to let him read it and tell me what grade is it worth. Dude, I did such a crap job on this paper and by God's grace I got a 3.4 on this paper so I took it. Now I still have 2 stages of hell to go through this Thursday and their is no way I can speed that up since it is back to back exams. So I'm gonna try to go on the 2 hours of nap time I had this morning for the next 48 hours and push myself to the limit. And to feel better, I think I'm gonna go to the Rec. Center in like 10 minutes to work out as well.
Last night we had our victory team dinner at BW3's and it was my first time there. Man now I see why Vickie loves that place, I played this virtual football game where it lined up with the Dolphins and Bears. How you play is that you gotta guess the play depending on whoever is on offense, the more detailed you get the more points you get but the more points you lose as well. I was soooo into it that I didn't talk to anyone on the team, Maegan and Cindy kept trying to get my attention but I was too focused on football. Stan couldn't believe how into sports I was and didn't bother talking to any of the girls there. Then there was a Chicken Wing eating contest, where anyone could join and the first one to down 20 wings as fast as they can win $100 worth of food there. I was actually gonna compete but it was for the championship from the previous weeks. So I was studying it, and this is what I would do, since I am pretty much the slowest eater on Earth, I would just eat one wing and then I would take the rest home. Why? Because the 20 wings are free, hahahaha so I would get to eat for free there and enjoy my food, hahahaha. I don't care about stuffing my face, I get free food where I can enjoy it, hahahaha. There was almost a 2 way tie for first place between these big boys, and man their faces were sooo red because they were about to puke it all out. Again I say, take my 20 wings for free and eat at my own pace, hahahaha.
So what's the topic on my mind since this past weekend. Well it is dry skin, dude I never had a problem with dry skin in my whole life till last year where my hands flet like the Rocky Mountains. This year it got even worst on Saturday, because it was soooo dry, that every time I spread out my hand, my hand would just start squirting out blood. That's how dry it was, gosh this is getting annoying to me. And this past Sunday, someone came up to me and said that he is bringing some sort of team to go up against me tonight at v-ball? I wasn't quite sure as his english isn't the greatest but I look forward to seeing this challenge. And now I'm playing in yet another v-ball league that goes yeear around I think, and I start this Monday night.
Another blessing that has been brought to my attention is my new bond with David D. at CBC. He's just an amazing godly man, and he is just so on fire right now to serve God. I love his kids, they are so well-mannered and for some they know why they accepted Christ into their lives while the others are still learning. We even talked after Sunday School and it was all in french, man I haven't spoken in frech mode in a couple of years now. Gosh I was sooo rusty, it took me like forever to respond, but I'm thankful for our fellowship that God has provided.
Sky
Monday, December 09, 2002
This weekend has been a week of frustrations and a time of growing as well. Saturday morning b-ball was our last time to practice as a team before Stan leaves for Hong Kong. I'm starting to understand how Rick Carlise feels now, how the team keeps winning but yet their are still soooo many mistakes. It's like when you win the mistakes are overshadowed because of the victory but when you lose the mistakes become very evident. I'm glad that Rich was there for me Saturday night to just listen to me because it's just frustrating to see that we as a team don't even have the fundamentals down yet. It was only like a month ago that we were all geared up to practice as a team and win this tournament. And now it's like yeah we're blowing every single team at Saturday morning so we'll be ok at the tournament. I mean do people not realize that the talent is totally different from that of the MSU tournament. It pisses me off when I'm getting blind sided by picks because it shows my teammates don't even talk. The last tournament I kept getting blind sided and one time I was knocked to the floor, I remember after the game, Sam was nice enough to wrap my ribs with a bag of ice. We need a coach to mold us together, and I wouldn't mind if someone got in my face to push me harder. Because I made a lot of stupid mistakes by going to fancy and again I'm glad that Rich and Rich (that sounds funny) always pull me aside to talk to me if they thought I could of done something different to run the offense.
Then there was yesterday, another great day of worship. Ya know one thing that sucks about us as in human kind, is that we all carry that sense of pride or that sense of we know it all type of mentality. One thing that trully humbles me, is being in Chris's Sunday School because it talks about discipline. Now you would figure this would be a class full of teenagers because the younger you are majority of the time you are more immature. However this class is full of middle aged adults and it's just amazing how even at that age, they all want to grow and develop a stronger committment to Christ, it's just trully amazing. I had to pray hard the week before the new Sunday School quarter started because I didn't know where to go. I wanted to go to Fred's class because I love how he teaches and I love the book of Phil. However then there's dicipline taught by Chris, and I could just feel the Holy Spirit speaking to me saying that I've lost control of my spiritual walk and I need to regain it. I've been faced with many types of temptations especially at OU and it's tough, and sometimes I've let those temptations get the better of me while the other time I get the better of it. So hopefully with this new Sunday School, I can develop a stronger walk with God again to go up against those temptations. Gosh I can't remember where it is in Paul's letters, but I want people to follow Christ like I do.
Also I'm thankful for the time I spent with Cecilia yesterday. Actually as I was pulling into her place, I had flashbacks of when I first came to CBC, and she helped me out around this time of year by helping me going Christmas shopping. And she was there for me my freshman year at SVSU to help me with my paper, and just like last night she was there for me again helping me with my B.S. paper I mean P.S. paper :) I'm glad that God has called her back to CBC and to serve Him once again.
Gosh it's amazing how many great songs are on this Ekin cd.
Live For The Moment
Then there was yesterday, another great day of worship. Ya know one thing that sucks about us as in human kind, is that we all carry that sense of pride or that sense of we know it all type of mentality. One thing that trully humbles me, is being in Chris's Sunday School because it talks about discipline. Now you would figure this would be a class full of teenagers because the younger you are majority of the time you are more immature. However this class is full of middle aged adults and it's just amazing how even at that age, they all want to grow and develop a stronger committment to Christ, it's just trully amazing. I had to pray hard the week before the new Sunday School quarter started because I didn't know where to go. I wanted to go to Fred's class because I love how he teaches and I love the book of Phil. However then there's dicipline taught by Chris, and I could just feel the Holy Spirit speaking to me saying that I've lost control of my spiritual walk and I need to regain it. I've been faced with many types of temptations especially at OU and it's tough, and sometimes I've let those temptations get the better of me while the other time I get the better of it. So hopefully with this new Sunday School, I can develop a stronger walk with God again to go up against those temptations. Gosh I can't remember where it is in Paul's letters, but I want people to follow Christ like I do.
Also I'm thankful for the time I spent with Cecilia yesterday. Actually as I was pulling into her place, I had flashbacks of when I first came to CBC, and she helped me out around this time of year by helping me going Christmas shopping. And she was there for me my freshman year at SVSU to help me with my paper, and just like last night she was there for me again helping me with my B.S. paper I mean P.S. paper :) I'm glad that God has called her back to CBC and to serve Him once again.
Gosh it's amazing how many great songs are on this Ekin cd.
Live For The Moment
Thursday, December 05, 2002
Ok so the last 24 hours I have been sooo unproductive, let's see everything that I did yesterday? Eat, play PS2, watched tv, and went to the Pistons game. Hmm not exactly producing any fruit here. And I got finals next week and on Dec. 12th, I have officially named it, The Day of Hell as I have 2 exams and a term paper all due. Worst of all the exams are back to back so I have no time to cram in between. I have the option of doing another paper for extra credit which I am considering but do I really have enough time to put in a good amount of effort to do this paper? I've been such a slug lately that I have decided to stay on campus till 10 p.m. tonight, just studying and working out a little if I even get a chance to do that. What's funny is that I know my grades are down a little bit this semester but yet I don't seem to care as much around. I agree with Breadstick on this because I know last year I was studying (not hardcore as others) but hardcore for my poor habits.
Woohoo Melissa's gonna go out to lunch with me after our next class. Dang it she wants chop suey and asked if I wanted any, I was like are you on crack sister? And last night at the Pistons game, we lost, but I got to see Jordan play live one last time. It was amazing to see all the flashing bulbs going off as he was just shooting a free throw. A free throw!!!! Nothing spectacular just a simple free throw, that's shows you how much people respect his game if they can take a picture of you when you're shooting a free throw. Anyways I'm bout to bust on outta here because Melissa keeps making fun of my aroma therapy hi-liter. Plus, she's got integrity, why? She sent this email to her prof complaining about her grade and so I'm thinking yeah it must be to low for her standards since she's one of those peeps who's gotta study like 24-7. However as I'm reading it, the complaint was about her getting a grade higher than what she should of gotten due to a calculation error by the prof. So she went down from a 3.9 to a 3.8 after it was recorrected. Dude what's wrong with that girl, I would of took the higher grade and kept my mouth shut. Since I have this prof next semester, I'm trying to get that extra .1 added to my grade for next year.
Magic
Woohoo Melissa's gonna go out to lunch with me after our next class. Dang it she wants chop suey and asked if I wanted any, I was like are you on crack sister? And last night at the Pistons game, we lost, but I got to see Jordan play live one last time. It was amazing to see all the flashing bulbs going off as he was just shooting a free throw. A free throw!!!! Nothing spectacular just a simple free throw, that's shows you how much people respect his game if they can take a picture of you when you're shooting a free throw. Anyways I'm bout to bust on outta here because Melissa keeps making fun of my aroma therapy hi-liter. Plus, she's got integrity, why? She sent this email to her prof complaining about her grade and so I'm thinking yeah it must be to low for her standards since she's one of those peeps who's gotta study like 24-7. However as I'm reading it, the complaint was about her getting a grade higher than what she should of gotten due to a calculation error by the prof. So she went down from a 3.9 to a 3.8 after it was recorrected. Dude what's wrong with that girl, I would of took the higher grade and kept my mouth shut. Since I have this prof next semester, I'm trying to get that extra .1 added to my grade for next year.
Magic
Wednesday, December 04, 2002
Last night as I came home from v-ball I spent some time of reflection/prayer of just staring outside my window and looking at the snow. One memory I had back at my old house was the days of the Ice Wars, that the neighbors and I had, where all of us on the street all had our own snow forts loaded with snowballs and some of us who were smart made pure iceballs. There would be a certain time of day we would all just go out and launch an attack on each other. And even when it wasn't time to attack, you had to guard your forts even when you're inside the house. Because some of us went around sabotaging each other's base or stealing ammo. See the dumb ones were the ones who did in broad daylight, while I did my sneak attacks at night and robbed people of their ammo. I remember one time I was caught going outside my house to grab the mail without my shirt. Boy that was a bad idea, because the neighborhood kids saw that and chased me up and down the street as I looked like an idiot running around with just my b-ball shorts on. I remember that to dodge the attack all at once, I just jumped into a big pile of snow, boy was that dumb as I came out with redness all over my chest and arms. Man those were the days.
Woohoo get to go to the Pistons game tonight, and see Jordan make on of his last apperances at The Palace. And finally last night we played some meaningful games of v-ball, ya know it's gonna be a great time of v-ball when you leave CBC at midnight. It's too bad we couldn't keep going because I know I was getting an adrenaline rush. Gosh I wish the v-ball tournament was now so the 5-1-4 can take it to the house!
Eye Of The Hurricane
Woohoo get to go to the Pistons game tonight, and see Jordan make on of his last apperances at The Palace. And finally last night we played some meaningful games of v-ball, ya know it's gonna be a great time of v-ball when you leave CBC at midnight. It's too bad we couldn't keep going because I know I was getting an adrenaline rush. Gosh I wish the v-ball tournament was now so the 5-1-4 can take it to the house!
Eye Of The Hurricane
Tuesday, December 03, 2002
I know why you wanna hate me
Cause hate is what the world sees lately
There's just something around this time of year that I love. I woke up super late this morning and missed class but Melissa's got my back. However I saw the snow and then I noticed that my house is the only one who hasn't shoveled a lick yet. I love snow, it's the whole point of winter, while some people hate it but I just love looking at the snow covering the trees up. Or how bout as I'm driving to different places, I love looking at people's houses who really go out of their way to decorate. Then their's Christmas, and it's like I can remember every single childhood memory I had with my sister. My favorite thing to do back then was always putting all my Transformers underneath the tree and build a base with all the presents underneath. Then there was this one year that my sister and I were wrestling and I accidently body slammed her into the tree and the tree collasped. Gosh I really want to put up my tree this week, but it's not the same because my mommy and sister aren't there to help me. Then there was the first time I build a snowman with my Aunt Nora from Seattle. The only bad part about snow is just driving on it, but the great part back then was when school was cancelled :) I'll probably reflect more as the days count down to Christmas.
So last night was the OU Finals, and it was a pretty grueling game. However, the Titans came out victorious once again as we are now back to back champs. Brandon kept calling us the Lakers and if I was gonna keep the team around for a 3-peat. We took the series last night 2-1, and my goal the whole night was just to keep putting the ball to the Rump Shaker or Big Momma's House because the Rump Shaker just got a lot of booty and thinks that this is Soul Train or something and Big Momma was just slow but dang she can hit. I gotta say I love this team's unity coming from Cindy and Maegan as they wanna do a team dinner plus they even promised me that they would come up to MSU to cheer for Stan and I at our b-ball tournament. We got our championship t-shirts and they were so big on Melissa, Jane, and Maegan that it seemed like they weren't wearing any shorts. I tried to get a pic of Melissa because I kept lifting up her shirt as if i was looking at her legs. Then Jane and Maegan started showing some, then came the team picture that will be in the OU Paper, dang it Steve took a pic of me when I was goofing off because I put my finger in my nose. Stupid digital cameras don't have flashes so how am I suppose to know when it is taking a pic or not. Then after that, Maegan showed us her tattoo and I have a lot of respect for it because it has the intials of a close friend who passed away last year in a car accident. The tattoo was right in the middle and right above her butt crack, it was funny because I kept telling her to pull her shorts lower because I couldn't see it then I took a quick picture of it, then she chased me around the court trying to beat me up :Þ I look forward to next semester for yet another title defense.
Chocolate Starfish & The Hotdog Flavored Water
Cause hate is what the world sees lately
There's just something around this time of year that I love. I woke up super late this morning and missed class but Melissa's got my back. However I saw the snow and then I noticed that my house is the only one who hasn't shoveled a lick yet. I love snow, it's the whole point of winter, while some people hate it but I just love looking at the snow covering the trees up. Or how bout as I'm driving to different places, I love looking at people's houses who really go out of their way to decorate. Then their's Christmas, and it's like I can remember every single childhood memory I had with my sister. My favorite thing to do back then was always putting all my Transformers underneath the tree and build a base with all the presents underneath. Then there was this one year that my sister and I were wrestling and I accidently body slammed her into the tree and the tree collasped. Gosh I really want to put up my tree this week, but it's not the same because my mommy and sister aren't there to help me. Then there was the first time I build a snowman with my Aunt Nora from Seattle. The only bad part about snow is just driving on it, but the great part back then was when school was cancelled :) I'll probably reflect more as the days count down to Christmas.
So last night was the OU Finals, and it was a pretty grueling game. However, the Titans came out victorious once again as we are now back to back champs. Brandon kept calling us the Lakers and if I was gonna keep the team around for a 3-peat. We took the series last night 2-1, and my goal the whole night was just to keep putting the ball to the Rump Shaker or Big Momma's House because the Rump Shaker just got a lot of booty and thinks that this is Soul Train or something and Big Momma was just slow but dang she can hit. I gotta say I love this team's unity coming from Cindy and Maegan as they wanna do a team dinner plus they even promised me that they would come up to MSU to cheer for Stan and I at our b-ball tournament. We got our championship t-shirts and they were so big on Melissa, Jane, and Maegan that it seemed like they weren't wearing any shorts. I tried to get a pic of Melissa because I kept lifting up her shirt as if i was looking at her legs. Then Jane and Maegan started showing some, then came the team picture that will be in the OU Paper, dang it Steve took a pic of me when I was goofing off because I put my finger in my nose. Stupid digital cameras don't have flashes so how am I suppose to know when it is taking a pic or not. Then after that, Maegan showed us her tattoo and I have a lot of respect for it because it has the intials of a close friend who passed away last year in a car accident. The tattoo was right in the middle and right above her butt crack, it was funny because I kept telling her to pull her shorts lower because I couldn't see it then I took a quick picture of it, then she chased me around the court trying to beat me up :Þ I look forward to next semester for yet another title defense.
Chocolate Starfish & The Hotdog Flavored Water
Monday, December 02, 2002
Well it's been a while since I got on this thing, hmm I wonder if I gained any weight? I don't think I did because I was very controlled in what I ate well except for the all guys hot pot. So what happened these past 5 days that made things memorable? Well last Wednesday was the CBC Dinner, but a lot of us skipped it because it's just hard to tell these days what kind of program it really is. I'm glad that I made it back in time from shopping with JW and V to see and hear eLLe praise God. And afterwards, I got to hang out with Jason and it was just great to see him because the last time I saw him was at CCUC. Also it was great to hang out with Gary, and Jimmy along with some other peeps from A2 on Wednesday night. It was cool that Cassie and Laura came along to the Eastside for this. We all went to see Die Another Day, and for Cassie it was her 2nd time. Ya know I have to agree with Jason, Gary and Jimmy that this had to be one of the worst Bond movies. I don't know what Joyce was thinking when she told me that she thought it was the best one. Anyways, I wish I just got a chance to hang out with Jason a little bit longer.
So then came Thanksgiving Day, and the big Turkey Bowl. I can't believe we lost. I had a rare case of the drops because of the cold air that made my fingers freeze and couldn't hold on to the ball. Man I really need one of those hand warmers to keep my fingers warm. Also I give a lot of credit to Dan because he played some great coverage on me. Afterwards, I came home to see the Lions lose yet another game. Then finally the whole family came over for turkey. And I was sooooo excited to see that my Aunt Lisa made kalbi, however I never even got to touch it as it was all taken by the rest of family in the matter of minutes! I'm like what the freak, how is it possible that I asked for it but yet I didn't even get a chance to touch a bone.
Then came Friday, JW's Prime Rib party, I thank God that I was very self-controlled there as I didn't eat anything due to the overload of turkey and dim sum the previous days. And dang it I was too stupid and too cocky as I had the chance to win in Settlers but I chose to let it go to make the game more interesting and I got greedy. So I ended up losing to V. And Saturday we had our all guys night hot pot and it was great to hang out with Emoy. All I gotta say is that we were like T-Rexes all over the meat. Then it was time to lay the smackdown when we were playing Smackdown. All I gotta say to the fellas is go Stacy, Torrie, and Trish go and dance for Triple H.
And that leaves us to tonight, and what a snowy day has it been already. The OU v-ball finals are tonight as it will the Titans vs. Haters R Us. We'll be playing without Lisa (flu) tonight probably our best girl, and so I'm hoping that Maegan, Jane, Cindy, and Melissa really pick up their games. I think I should start off as a S.S. because it looks like this year's MVP winner is Mike from their team which totally gives them a more powerful offense. Well less than 2 hours to go so it's time to get down.
Need A Little Time
So then came Thanksgiving Day, and the big Turkey Bowl. I can't believe we lost. I had a rare case of the drops because of the cold air that made my fingers freeze and couldn't hold on to the ball. Man I really need one of those hand warmers to keep my fingers warm. Also I give a lot of credit to Dan because he played some great coverage on me. Afterwards, I came home to see the Lions lose yet another game. Then finally the whole family came over for turkey. And I was sooooo excited to see that my Aunt Lisa made kalbi, however I never even got to touch it as it was all taken by the rest of family in the matter of minutes! I'm like what the freak, how is it possible that I asked for it but yet I didn't even get a chance to touch a bone.
Then came Friday, JW's Prime Rib party, I thank God that I was very self-controlled there as I didn't eat anything due to the overload of turkey and dim sum the previous days. And dang it I was too stupid and too cocky as I had the chance to win in Settlers but I chose to let it go to make the game more interesting and I got greedy. So I ended up losing to V. And Saturday we had our all guys night hot pot and it was great to hang out with Emoy. All I gotta say is that we were like T-Rexes all over the meat. Then it was time to lay the smackdown when we were playing Smackdown. All I gotta say to the fellas is go Stacy, Torrie, and Trish go and dance for Triple H.
And that leaves us to tonight, and what a snowy day has it been already. The OU v-ball finals are tonight as it will the Titans vs. Haters R Us. We'll be playing without Lisa (flu) tonight probably our best girl, and so I'm hoping that Maegan, Jane, Cindy, and Melissa really pick up their games. I think I should start off as a S.S. because it looks like this year's MVP winner is Mike from their team which totally gives them a more powerful offense. Well less than 2 hours to go so it's time to get down.
Need A Little Time