As work was winding down, Viotta and I were watching an arrest being made right in front of our eyes. A cop car and a van came in to make the bust on this one guy selling drugs to the other. Drug dealing right in front of my work place, only in the D baby!
I'm sad that I didn't get to see Peter go as I had to go and get lunch for the kids. Peter has been with me for the past 3 years now, and I only ask that God look after him and his family as he goes to China till school starts.
Errr, Ling Ling's little tattoo she did on my arm is already coming off.
Yay, Nui Nui is coming back this weekend!Let's play 2's at Boulan today, plus I want to see what the competition is like over there now. I wonder if Rob will be there? Yes, sand v-ball for upper players and grass for lower, this should be exciting. I wonder who is on KUMC's team?
Today, Steph lead the activity using good ol' Dr. Suess. It made me think of the cross curriculum I learned this past semester. I was looking over her outline, and when we did small group, I tried to touch upon something that was brought up last year. Last year, a racist comment was made by one of my kids at my table. This year, Andrew brought up something similar with himself, and if only I could of stayed for the remaining 40 minutes instead of getting lunch.
I wonder if KUMC will do their shady scheduling again? I hope we play the strongest team first, that way both teams are fresh. Well KPC isn't as strong without Den Den, and 7th Day isn't playing due to their beliefs, so I wonder again is it even nessceary to take it up a notch. Ehhhh, better not let my guard down.
Take Away
Thursday, July 31, 2003
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
Ever since this past Sunday, I feel like I have done at least one retarded thing each day. It's like if I could, I would give myself the stupid look. Driving home from v-ball too, made me think of also, gosh some people are just like losers with their lives, well like mine is any better.
So I have this dilema right now at work. Next week our camp is moving to Canton and I am scheduled to work there. Today though, Joy and Rachel's mom talked to me about being a counselor at there VBS next week. It just happens that Joy and Rachel's dad is also the Pastor at Alliance too. Their mom told me that they would like me to assist in the VBS lessons since I know the material already because we went through it at CBC a month ago. After VBS, she wanted me to lead their after VBS program with some activities. I've talked to my boss already about this, and she wants me to make the decision. She would like me in Canton since I have the most experience, so she would feel more comfortable knowing that I was there. However, she also again is a believer, and understands if God is calling me to serve. I'm blessed for her understanding, but I will have to pray about this one.
I keep thinking about serving at Alliance, is this a sign of something. It is dangerous to be serving at 2 churches as well. My boss passed out surveys today, for the kids, and the last question was who were your top 2 counselors. My boss told me that I was voted the favorite/top counselor again for the 3rd year. However, I'm not really excited about it, if anything kind of sad. This year so far has been a really learning experience with my pre-knowledge of ED classes now.
The KUMC tournament is coming up, and fast. I've picked out my song, "One of a Kind" for this tournament's theme song. I was really looking forward to playing at CBC tonight hoping that the game intensity would be high, gosh I can't even remember when was the last time that happened. I left early to go to Lifetime to go play with Lisa. Hoping that the games would be better, well that didn't happen, I felt like I was playing in the D division here. I kept telling Lisa on the court that God placed me here for a reason and that was testing my patience.
As I was leaving Lifetime, I ran into 2 high school football buddies of mine, Roddy and Brian. Roddy was the starting fullback and Brian was our starting middle linebacker, and both made All-State. However, it turns out that they have quit playing college ball for their respective school and decided to play semi-pro football at Pontiac. Brian and I graduated in the same class, but look at him now, married, has a kid and living on his own. It makes me think of our Titans days, where around this time we would be doing our double practice sessions. At least I know now that I can get into Lifetime in Troy whenever I want too. I keep looking at our football pics, it's funny how 4 years later now, we've all chosen different paths. Pearl said it best in her xanga, about some things are just meant to be.
The KUMC countdown is on, gotta focus on v-ball, and take it back to another level.
Gossip Folk
So I have this dilema right now at work. Next week our camp is moving to Canton and I am scheduled to work there. Today though, Joy and Rachel's mom talked to me about being a counselor at there VBS next week. It just happens that Joy and Rachel's dad is also the Pastor at Alliance too. Their mom told me that they would like me to assist in the VBS lessons since I know the material already because we went through it at CBC a month ago. After VBS, she wanted me to lead their after VBS program with some activities. I've talked to my boss already about this, and she wants me to make the decision. She would like me in Canton since I have the most experience, so she would feel more comfortable knowing that I was there. However, she also again is a believer, and understands if God is calling me to serve. I'm blessed for her understanding, but I will have to pray about this one.
I keep thinking about serving at Alliance, is this a sign of something. It is dangerous to be serving at 2 churches as well. My boss passed out surveys today, for the kids, and the last question was who were your top 2 counselors. My boss told me that I was voted the favorite/top counselor again for the 3rd year. However, I'm not really excited about it, if anything kind of sad. This year so far has been a really learning experience with my pre-knowledge of ED classes now.
The KUMC tournament is coming up, and fast. I've picked out my song, "One of a Kind" for this tournament's theme song. I was really looking forward to playing at CBC tonight hoping that the game intensity would be high, gosh I can't even remember when was the last time that happened. I left early to go to Lifetime to go play with Lisa. Hoping that the games would be better, well that didn't happen, I felt like I was playing in the D division here. I kept telling Lisa on the court that God placed me here for a reason and that was testing my patience.
As I was leaving Lifetime, I ran into 2 high school football buddies of mine, Roddy and Brian. Roddy was the starting fullback and Brian was our starting middle linebacker, and both made All-State. However, it turns out that they have quit playing college ball for their respective school and decided to play semi-pro football at Pontiac. Brian and I graduated in the same class, but look at him now, married, has a kid and living on his own. It makes me think of our Titans days, where around this time we would be doing our double practice sessions. At least I know now that I can get into Lifetime in Troy whenever I want too. I keep looking at our football pics, it's funny how 4 years later now, we've all chosen different paths. Pearl said it best in her xanga, about some things are just meant to be.
The KUMC countdown is on, gotta focus on v-ball, and take it back to another level.
Gossip Folk
Sunday, July 27, 2003
Last night, we had a bachelor's party for Stan, only 6 more days till his freedom is gone. Finally no more GGDune at Saturday morning b-ball :) Dang girls had to come over and steal our sausages and ruin the bachelor's party! Oh well the real fun started when we busted out the poker game, well not fun for me because I lost $20.
Playing poker last night brought back memories of our O-Line parties for football. Every Wednesday nite after football practice, majority of us will go home and shower, then head off to usually Guy's or Johnny Mo's house. From there we ate pizza all nite long, and play craps, poker, euchre, or blackjack for money. The euchre table was the slowest way to win money. Craps and blackjack was the way to go with me. Craps was the most popular, we usually have 2 craps area going. One side was for minimum bet of $5 and max of $10. While the other side, was a minimum bet of $20 and a max of $100. Yeah the high rollers on the team were on that side. The most memorable O-Line Party was when Jay Rodgers cleaned us all out in craps. That night he won $756, and left the rest of us broke. The next day in school, we chased him around and after practice, we tried to pants him. Craps for cash baby!
Dang it, I was late for worship again though! Errr that's the second time in a row. However, today's message was a very humbling one for my prideful butt. It was soooooo good that I actually bought a tape of the message. Yeah I'm a loser, but just trying to grow spiritually even more.
Goodbye to you
Playing poker last night brought back memories of our O-Line parties for football. Every Wednesday nite after football practice, majority of us will go home and shower, then head off to usually Guy's or Johnny Mo's house. From there we ate pizza all nite long, and play craps, poker, euchre, or blackjack for money. The euchre table was the slowest way to win money. Craps and blackjack was the way to go with me. Craps was the most popular, we usually have 2 craps area going. One side was for minimum bet of $5 and max of $10. While the other side, was a minimum bet of $20 and a max of $100. Yeah the high rollers on the team were on that side. The most memorable O-Line Party was when Jay Rodgers cleaned us all out in craps. That night he won $756, and left the rest of us broke. The next day in school, we chased him around and after practice, we tried to pants him. Craps for cash baby!
Dang it, I was late for worship again though! Errr that's the second time in a row. However, today's message was a very humbling one for my prideful butt. It was soooooo good that I actually bought a tape of the message. Yeah I'm a loser, but just trying to grow spiritually even more.
Goodbye to you
Saturday, July 26, 2003
I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that You'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a dang cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont You take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I think know who You are
but I... I'm with You
This morning I walked into work, just mellowing it out. I walked out for a little bit to get a drink of water. I was watching these 2 African-Americans bickering at one another. They were swearing, cussing, flicking each other off, chest to chest, throwing water bottles at each other, and shouting. I just stood there the whole time watching. My first thought was, dang y'all need Jesus in your life. Then I held back, and said wait, Matt 7:13-14 talks about how following Jesus is the harder path. So now I'm thinking how can these they even follow Jesus, if they struggling already without Him. Then I thought well I have Jesus and yet I'm struggling right now too. So then I'm thinking just exactly where's the love? After that thought, was hey I better get my butt back into work.
I almost had deja vu again, from last year as Sophia was starting to cry as camp was counting down for her. Last year, as she cried, I cried with her because over now what is now a 3 year friendship we have over camp, we are unseparable. Much like I thought that of other friendships, but this one is built on love for one another. Stef D told me today that last week when I came in later, Sophia was crying. She was crying because she had harder homework, and some of the counselor's tried to help her, but she kept saying that she wanted me.
It made me think of my possibility of leaving ACA due to the Canton Clique, but is my love for the kids stronger than my dislike of working with them? It hit me that I felt like I let my Sophia down because I came to work later that day. I don't like that feeling. I'm glad to know that Sophia will be coming to camp on Friday. However, I'm down that I won't see Peter, David, Lillian, and Lixiang, since they've been with me the past couple of years now, and we've grown tight. I felt even worst when I slide tackled Peter and made him cry today when we played soccer. Yay, I get to play with my Wei Wei next week when we play soccer. Yes I need someone who can play goalie while I rack up the goals.
My boss told me today how she noticed the division even greater amongst myself and the other yuckle counselors at ACA. She told me to try and fit in with them. But eh, I work alone because I don't need them.
Nuthin's Gonna Stand In My Way
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that You'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a dang cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont You take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I think know who You are
but I... I'm with You
This morning I walked into work, just mellowing it out. I walked out for a little bit to get a drink of water. I was watching these 2 African-Americans bickering at one another. They were swearing, cussing, flicking each other off, chest to chest, throwing water bottles at each other, and shouting. I just stood there the whole time watching. My first thought was, dang y'all need Jesus in your life. Then I held back, and said wait, Matt 7:13-14 talks about how following Jesus is the harder path. So now I'm thinking how can these they even follow Jesus, if they struggling already without Him. Then I thought well I have Jesus and yet I'm struggling right now too. So then I'm thinking just exactly where's the love? After that thought, was hey I better get my butt back into work.
I almost had deja vu again, from last year as Sophia was starting to cry as camp was counting down for her. Last year, as she cried, I cried with her because over now what is now a 3 year friendship we have over camp, we are unseparable. Much like I thought that of other friendships, but this one is built on love for one another. Stef D told me today that last week when I came in later, Sophia was crying. She was crying because she had harder homework, and some of the counselor's tried to help her, but she kept saying that she wanted me.
It made me think of my possibility of leaving ACA due to the Canton Clique, but is my love for the kids stronger than my dislike of working with them? It hit me that I felt like I let my Sophia down because I came to work later that day. I don't like that feeling. I'm glad to know that Sophia will be coming to camp on Friday. However, I'm down that I won't see Peter, David, Lillian, and Lixiang, since they've been with me the past couple of years now, and we've grown tight. I felt even worst when I slide tackled Peter and made him cry today when we played soccer. Yay, I get to play with my Wei Wei next week when we play soccer. Yes I need someone who can play goalie while I rack up the goals.
My boss told me today how she noticed the division even greater amongst myself and the other yuckle counselors at ACA. She told me to try and fit in with them. But eh, I work alone because I don't need them.
Nuthin's Gonna Stand In My Way
Friday, July 25, 2003
Hm, it's funny how dreams do come true.
What's a good song, is The Power of Good-Bye by Madonna.
Steph D and I think alike in terms of DTA.
I got warned today for coming to work late.
I understand what E. Kou shared with me last night.
What to do after work tomorrow? Work out alone it looks like.
It's only 2:30 a.m., probs trying to sleep so listening to a song that has my chinese name in it. It's all instrumental and gives me that extra push to try to get over one of my biggest hurdles yet.
I now understand the question I had during the 5-1-4 leaders meeting a few weeks ago.
Hope, Faith, and Love do I understand what this means?
Alex made me some yucky experimental BubbleTea today.
The saying remains true about me since my Titans days, I wish Dan were still here.
U Remind Me by Usher makes me laugh now.
May everyone's hopes and dreams come true because this kid is outtie.
RollOut
What's a good song, is The Power of Good-Bye by Madonna.
Steph D and I think alike in terms of DTA.
I got warned today for coming to work late.
I understand what E. Kou shared with me last night.
What to do after work tomorrow? Work out alone it looks like.
It's only 2:30 a.m., probs trying to sleep so listening to a song that has my chinese name in it. It's all instrumental and gives me that extra push to try to get over one of my biggest hurdles yet.
I now understand the question I had during the 5-1-4 leaders meeting a few weeks ago.
Hope, Faith, and Love do I understand what this means?
Alex made me some yucky experimental BubbleTea today.
The saying remains true about me since my Titans days, I wish Dan were still here.
U Remind Me by Usher makes me laugh now.
May everyone's hopes and dreams come true because this kid is outtie.
RollOut
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
So I lay my head back down,
And I lift my hands and pray,
To be Only Your's,
I know now You're my,
Only Hope
I walked into the Children's Hospital today after work and I was happy. Happy to see Emily sitting and watching tv. All praises go to God for just making her release from the hospital one a graceful one. I stayed with Emily till Joyce's parents came and picked her and her mom up to go home. I'm thankful that everything is ok so far and all I can do is continue to pray for her recovery.
Today at work, I laid some serious smackdown on majority of the kids. I've had it with the rest of the counselors just keep playing with them and spoiling them. I made Shuang cry because she wouldn't do her homework and next thing you know of course all the counselors started babying her. I've had it with Tonda and Litong, playing with Kevin and David. It made me sick today that Stefanie and Litong didn't say anything to Cindy when she was running around then boom. Cindy runs and crashes into Jenny and she dropped her lunch, so of course I laid the smack on Cindy while Litong and Stefanie kept playing with their favorite kids. It ticked me off when Allen came to my table to take a nap. It irritated me when Stephanie came over to play with Shuang and Jenny. Now I'm thinking God put me in this situation for a reason, to test me. Just like Martin Lawrence said then, woosaah.
The other thing at work that has been fun for me is chess. I just learned how to play this game called Chess, about 2 weeks ago. Now I feel like I am one of the best and I have made a list of all the kids and counselors that I have beaten. When I started I was at the bottom in our Chess ranking, but now I am in the middle of the pack and moving up on first. Yesterday I kept talking trash to one of my kids, Stephany because she kept bragging how good she is. I kept talking trash to her that it scared Christy off to play against me. But I beat the both of them and took out a couple more today.
I love the game of Chess because it requires thinking and a lot of it. I love to think about my every move as it is in life, to know when to sacrifice and when to be on the offensive, or when to look for back up plans. Now that I know how to play, my goal is to be the best Chess player there is in ACA right now. Yup I'm that dang competitive. It was fun today as all the kids were chanting my name when I was playing against Stephanie.
Stupid Cupid
And I lift my hands and pray,
To be Only Your's,
I know now You're my,
Only Hope
I walked into the Children's Hospital today after work and I was happy. Happy to see Emily sitting and watching tv. All praises go to God for just making her release from the hospital one a graceful one. I stayed with Emily till Joyce's parents came and picked her and her mom up to go home. I'm thankful that everything is ok so far and all I can do is continue to pray for her recovery.
Today at work, I laid some serious smackdown on majority of the kids. I've had it with the rest of the counselors just keep playing with them and spoiling them. I made Shuang cry because she wouldn't do her homework and next thing you know of course all the counselors started babying her. I've had it with Tonda and Litong, playing with Kevin and David. It made me sick today that Stefanie and Litong didn't say anything to Cindy when she was running around then boom. Cindy runs and crashes into Jenny and she dropped her lunch, so of course I laid the smack on Cindy while Litong and Stefanie kept playing with their favorite kids. It ticked me off when Allen came to my table to take a nap. It irritated me when Stephanie came over to play with Shuang and Jenny. Now I'm thinking God put me in this situation for a reason, to test me. Just like Martin Lawrence said then, woosaah.
The other thing at work that has been fun for me is chess. I just learned how to play this game called Chess, about 2 weeks ago. Now I feel like I am one of the best and I have made a list of all the kids and counselors that I have beaten. When I started I was at the bottom in our Chess ranking, but now I am in the middle of the pack and moving up on first. Yesterday I kept talking trash to one of my kids, Stephany because she kept bragging how good she is. I kept talking trash to her that it scared Christy off to play against me. But I beat the both of them and took out a couple more today.
I love the game of Chess because it requires thinking and a lot of it. I love to think about my every move as it is in life, to know when to sacrifice and when to be on the offensive, or when to look for back up plans. Now that I know how to play, my goal is to be the best Chess player there is in ACA right now. Yup I'm that dang competitive. It was fun today as all the kids were chanting my name when I was playing against Stephanie.
Stupid Cupid
Sunday, July 20, 2003
Today was the first time that I've ever been to a wedding. I'm honored to be a part of Kelly and Andy's beautiful wedding. At one point tears were close to rushing down on me but I was able to contain myself. I learned a few things from this wedding or what I got out of it.
The main thing that I thought about was, I trully don't think I'm the type of person to get married. I live life in the fast lane and eh just don't see a happy happy joy joy wedding. Plus after taking care of Elizabeth for the whole day yesterday, that just wore me out completely. I don't think I'm cut out for this fatherhood responsibility, because I just kept spoiling and sheltering her.
Which lead me to this, just like the movie we saw last night, I'm just a bad boy. Woosah! After doing some more reading, boy I gotta say people are very funny. I'd rather focus on something that I've been reading for the past 48 hours now. To the comical ones, talk is cheap.
To all y'all my final ending is this:
Some of you say I'm cocky
I say what?
It ain't bragging motherlovers
Because I can back it up
Cherish
The main thing that I thought about was, I trully don't think I'm the type of person to get married. I live life in the fast lane and eh just don't see a happy happy joy joy wedding. Plus after taking care of Elizabeth for the whole day yesterday, that just wore me out completely. I don't think I'm cut out for this fatherhood responsibility, because I just kept spoiling and sheltering her.
Which lead me to this, just like the movie we saw last night, I'm just a bad boy. Woosah! After doing some more reading, boy I gotta say people are very funny. I'd rather focus on something that I've been reading for the past 48 hours now. To the comical ones, talk is cheap.
To all y'all my final ending is this:
Some of you say I'm cocky
I say what?
It ain't bragging motherlovers
Because I can back it up
Cherish
Friday, July 18, 2003
Oh boy people just crack me, especially on their blogs/xangas. I would say that I have a lot to say now but after reading some comical things, I'll make a pass. All I gotta say is, let the games begin and gosh I love the hostile crowds from the bench, this just makes it more fun. Bulls vs. Pistons to be continued to a gym near you, ;)
It's amazing how God heals people. I went and visited Emily again, and she was more awake, and she actually talked to me. So praise God for her continous recovery. It was cool, to see Damien's family, Annie and Stephy come to visit along with Elizabeth. Tomorrow will be a wierd experience for me, as it will be my first time spending time and taking care of Elizabeth. I feel like Adam Sandler in Big Daddy or something. Hopefully she has fun with me tomorrow otherwise I just suck.
I walked into work today, not expecting too much reaction from the kids because it felt like they were Cody magnitized. However, after Yaya teaching them a special dance, the millions and millions of kids were chanting my name to lead the dance. The counselors all danced with me, but I was voted by the kids as the best one on the floor. It still got me thinking about favortism and I talked to my boss about it today too. She asked me if I wanted to take a group of kids to this baseball festival for one day instead of working in Canton. This is how the convo went:
S: Would you be interested in taking kids who are willing to sign up for this baseball fesitival for one day?
K: Sure, I don't want them to miss out.
S: Maybe I will assign another counselor to help you if their are a lot of kids.
K: No, I work alone, I don't need any of them to help me.
S: Are you sure, not even Yaya?
K: Yup I'm sure, it's either I work alone or I bring in my own team to this thing.
S: Ok, that's fine just let me know who.
K: No prob, but let's see how many kids go too before I see if I need help.
Yup, I think maybe I am hard to work with because I like to work alone. What bugged me today was that for today's Field Trip, I have to help Tonda's table. I kept trying to push for, yeah I can take my own group of kids without assistance. So yeah that didn't work out too well, but we'll have to see about that one. Well at least her current table are excited because they get The Great One as their counselor next week. Well except for Kevin, probably because he knows that I'm not gonna be giving him no sitting on the laps and the extra friendly touches. I told my boss today that God is testing me in some sort of way to be able to work with the Canton Clique. I wish I had the heart to check in and check out on the dot.
Oh man, it's 2:20, dang it I forgot I gotta pick up Elizabeth in the early morning. But hey, I love my Yu 2 girls, it's all about Agape baby!
All My Life
It's amazing how God heals people. I went and visited Emily again, and she was more awake, and she actually talked to me. So praise God for her continous recovery. It was cool, to see Damien's family, Annie and Stephy come to visit along with Elizabeth. Tomorrow will be a wierd experience for me, as it will be my first time spending time and taking care of Elizabeth. I feel like Adam Sandler in Big Daddy or something. Hopefully she has fun with me tomorrow otherwise I just suck.
I walked into work today, not expecting too much reaction from the kids because it felt like they were Cody magnitized. However, after Yaya teaching them a special dance, the millions and millions of kids were chanting my name to lead the dance. The counselors all danced with me, but I was voted by the kids as the best one on the floor. It still got me thinking about favortism and I talked to my boss about it today too. She asked me if I wanted to take a group of kids to this baseball festival for one day instead of working in Canton. This is how the convo went:
S: Would you be interested in taking kids who are willing to sign up for this baseball fesitival for one day?
K: Sure, I don't want them to miss out.
S: Maybe I will assign another counselor to help you if their are a lot of kids.
K: No, I work alone, I don't need any of them to help me.
S: Are you sure, not even Yaya?
K: Yup I'm sure, it's either I work alone or I bring in my own team to this thing.
S: Ok, that's fine just let me know who.
K: No prob, but let's see how many kids go too before I see if I need help.
Yup, I think maybe I am hard to work with because I like to work alone. What bugged me today was that for today's Field Trip, I have to help Tonda's table. I kept trying to push for, yeah I can take my own group of kids without assistance. So yeah that didn't work out too well, but we'll have to see about that one. Well at least her current table are excited because they get The Great One as their counselor next week. Well except for Kevin, probably because he knows that I'm not gonna be giving him no sitting on the laps and the extra friendly touches. I told my boss today that God is testing me in some sort of way to be able to work with the Canton Clique. I wish I had the heart to check in and check out on the dot.
Oh man, it's 2:20, dang it I forgot I gotta pick up Elizabeth in the early morning. But hey, I love my Yu 2 girls, it's all about Agape baby!
All My Life
Thursday, July 17, 2003
I went back to the Children's Hospital not once but twice to check on Emily and her mom. I'm thankful to You for seeing how Emily is recovering from surgery now. Just seeing her lay in bed now with all those tubes running through her, just brings back too many bad memories. Watching her mom sit in the chair, hoping her daughter will be ok, man just too many flashbacks. I was happy though, when I walked in and Emily opened her eyes to me. She did her best to wave hi to me, but I told her to just rest. May God continue to heal her and the family, and hopefully she'll be better tomorrow when I see her.
Now I will turn your attention to today's 5-1-4 Bible Study. I totally felt God's Word speaking through Big Nasty. On my way to fellowship, I actually did go to work. I walked in, and I noticed my crowd was a little softer. So I looked up and saw this jabroni playing with me kids, and I'm wondering who in the blue hell is he? I find out that he is part of the Canton Clique, oh yay. I figured out that Tonda has brought in her boy to try to overthrow The Children's Champ. She even allowed the kids to do somethings that I have told them not to because it was dangerous. The kids were all excited for me to meet the new jabroni, Cody. So I met him, stared him down, and if they kids knew already, yeah you could sense the tension. He tried to show off to the kids with his muscles, I laughed and chuckled because I don't need those things to have kids be amazed at me. Plus he may be built for show but I'm built to go.
Then during the lantern building project, I noticed another thing that pissed me off. What got to me now was how Tonda was all over one of the kids, Kevin. She had him between her legs, on top of her, during this project. Then another kid, Stephanie was asking Tonda to help her with her lantern, and Tonda shrugged her off and directed her to me. Now, the thing is you keep playing with Kevin but can't help Stephanie with her lantern project when it is project time. As some of the steps towards making the project got harder, all the kids ran to Cody and Tonda for help. Umm yup, no help at all because during the teacher's instructions they were playing with the kids. So it's bad enough when the kids don't get it but when the counselor's don't understand either then geee what does that show to the kids. So what did the Jabroni Duo do? Yup they sent all the kids who needed help to come to me.
So what does this have to do with the 5-1-4 Bible Study? 2 things that I can think of in terms of favortism, is how myself and possibly other counselors want kids to be their number 1 counselor. The other is how we as counselors favor kids. This year, I can't really say that I have a particular favorite compared to last year in terms of kids. I love them all this year, the ones that stick out the most, are Christy, Ling Ling, Yutong, Andrew, Phillip, Emily, Angela, Sophia, Andi, Amanda, Michael, and Jenny.
Then the other is, I was sick to my stomach that this punk has arrived to the show. At first, I was thinking of ways to get all my kids back on the same page with me. Their was a big part of me of how I wanted to share with them all of just how much I sacrifice for them. Instead after Bible Study tonite, I think I'll pass and if the kids love me for who I am in terms of faith then that's all I can ask for. I hope the things that I taught them in the past, that they remember and in the end know who to count on. Man I just wish Elaine was here, but God put me here for a reason.
Amazing Grace
Now I will turn your attention to today's 5-1-4 Bible Study. I totally felt God's Word speaking through Big Nasty. On my way to fellowship, I actually did go to work. I walked in, and I noticed my crowd was a little softer. So I looked up and saw this jabroni playing with me kids, and I'm wondering who in the blue hell is he? I find out that he is part of the Canton Clique, oh yay. I figured out that Tonda has brought in her boy to try to overthrow The Children's Champ. She even allowed the kids to do somethings that I have told them not to because it was dangerous. The kids were all excited for me to meet the new jabroni, Cody. So I met him, stared him down, and if they kids knew already, yeah you could sense the tension. He tried to show off to the kids with his muscles, I laughed and chuckled because I don't need those things to have kids be amazed at me. Plus he may be built for show but I'm built to go.
Then during the lantern building project, I noticed another thing that pissed me off. What got to me now was how Tonda was all over one of the kids, Kevin. She had him between her legs, on top of her, during this project. Then another kid, Stephanie was asking Tonda to help her with her lantern, and Tonda shrugged her off and directed her to me. Now, the thing is you keep playing with Kevin but can't help Stephanie with her lantern project when it is project time. As some of the steps towards making the project got harder, all the kids ran to Cody and Tonda for help. Umm yup, no help at all because during the teacher's instructions they were playing with the kids. So it's bad enough when the kids don't get it but when the counselor's don't understand either then geee what does that show to the kids. So what did the Jabroni Duo do? Yup they sent all the kids who needed help to come to me.
So what does this have to do with the 5-1-4 Bible Study? 2 things that I can think of in terms of favortism, is how myself and possibly other counselors want kids to be their number 1 counselor. The other is how we as counselors favor kids. This year, I can't really say that I have a particular favorite compared to last year in terms of kids. I love them all this year, the ones that stick out the most, are Christy, Ling Ling, Yutong, Andrew, Phillip, Emily, Angela, Sophia, Andi, Amanda, Michael, and Jenny.
Then the other is, I was sick to my stomach that this punk has arrived to the show. At first, I was thinking of ways to get all my kids back on the same page with me. Their was a big part of me of how I wanted to share with them all of just how much I sacrifice for them. Instead after Bible Study tonite, I think I'll pass and if the kids love me for who I am in terms of faith then that's all I can ask for. I hope the things that I taught them in the past, that they remember and in the end know who to count on. Man I just wish Elaine was here, but God put me here for a reason.
Amazing Grace
Wednesday, July 16, 2003
When it comes neck full of glow
And a check full of 000000's
You know
I've got it to have it
Yesterday, I felt like I had a small, tiny glimpse of fatherhood. I went to the hospital to go see Emily. I decided to take Elizabeth with me since the surgery was about 10-12 hours long. It felt wierd at first because we ain't at CBC, so I constantly kept checking on her to make sure she is ok. I took her out to eat at Wendy's since the last time she ate was at 5:00 a.m. I held her hand and as we walked down the streets of the D. We went back to the hospital later on, and it was nice to see Bernard's family and Elder Wayne and Auntie Betty there as well, just trying to help Emily's parents pass the time.
I was really considering asking Elizabeth's parents to see if she wanted to stay over my place. Her mom is planning to stay at the hospital over night for the next 48 hours. Her dad has to go back to work. I remember when my mom was in the hospital and I was cleared to leave, my sis and I were shipped around for people to babysit us. So I know what it is like, and I wouldn't mind spending time with Elizabeth. But then reality settled in for me, am I ready to take care of Elizabeth with having practices and fellowship everynite?
Yesterday at work my boss had a convo with me after all the counselors left, and here is how it went:
T: Errr the counselors were really getting to me today!
K: Why, what happened?
T: I believe I scared Stefanie, and all the other counselors are too playful with the kids even when I am giving instructions.
K: Oooooooo
T: I can't wait till you get a table back next week so I can take out my frustrations on you.
K: Oh yay!
You know what's wierd is that I ran into a old high school pal. Well not really a pal, and I can't ever remember talking to her in high school. I know that she was in band or something like that, that was one reason I didn't talk to her. But she was cool and all because she had to be, because I didn't pick on her in french class. If I didn't like you then yeah you would be picked on. I didn't realize that she wrote about me when I ran into her a few weeks ago at ACA. So if you like to know what another person thinks of me in high school, then check this out. Scroll down to June 25th, Stevenson High School.
Ok gonna head back to work and the Children's Hospital. Gosh I hate hospitals, too many bad memories.
Top Gun
And a check full of 000000's
You know
I've got it to have it
Yesterday, I felt like I had a small, tiny glimpse of fatherhood. I went to the hospital to go see Emily. I decided to take Elizabeth with me since the surgery was about 10-12 hours long. It felt wierd at first because we ain't at CBC, so I constantly kept checking on her to make sure she is ok. I took her out to eat at Wendy's since the last time she ate was at 5:00 a.m. I held her hand and as we walked down the streets of the D. We went back to the hospital later on, and it was nice to see Bernard's family and Elder Wayne and Auntie Betty there as well, just trying to help Emily's parents pass the time.
I was really considering asking Elizabeth's parents to see if she wanted to stay over my place. Her mom is planning to stay at the hospital over night for the next 48 hours. Her dad has to go back to work. I remember when my mom was in the hospital and I was cleared to leave, my sis and I were shipped around for people to babysit us. So I know what it is like, and I wouldn't mind spending time with Elizabeth. But then reality settled in for me, am I ready to take care of Elizabeth with having practices and fellowship everynite?
Yesterday at work my boss had a convo with me after all the counselors left, and here is how it went:
T: Errr the counselors were really getting to me today!
K: Why, what happened?
T: I believe I scared Stefanie, and all the other counselors are too playful with the kids even when I am giving instructions.
K: Oooooooo
T: I can't wait till you get a table back next week so I can take out my frustrations on you.
K: Oh yay!
You know what's wierd is that I ran into a old high school pal. Well not really a pal, and I can't ever remember talking to her in high school. I know that she was in band or something like that, that was one reason I didn't talk to her. But she was cool and all because she had to be, because I didn't pick on her in french class. If I didn't like you then yeah you would be picked on. I didn't realize that she wrote about me when I ran into her a few weeks ago at ACA. So if you like to know what another person thinks of me in high school, then check this out. Scroll down to June 25th, Stevenson High School.
Ok gonna head back to work and the Children's Hospital. Gosh I hate hospitals, too many bad memories.
Top Gun
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
Today on my way to work, and it was a long one in deed (dumb 75 construction), I had a thought. The thought was just how sinful and how ungreatful we are sometimes. I like to think of myself of the type of person that isn't picky about things. But when I thought about it, I do complain about other things that people don't necessarily complain about. I guess we in general just complain too damn much to appreciate the things that God has blessed us with. It's like no wonder we are such selfish people and don't deserve salvation and simply put, we deserve hell.
I've noticed another thing that has gotten to me for a while now. It is in terms of those cliques, and now we have the Canton clique at ACA now. This is just simply annoying the heck out of me, it's like today for instance. I'm not even scheduled to work, but yet I feel like I had to do the bulk of the work. So since it is the halfway point of the summer, I have come up with my grading system for the other counselors:
Ayinde - C+, grade is down because of lack of committment and sleeps on the job.
Tonda - C- Too lazy this year, and just cares about teaching the kids those dumb clapping games.
Stephy - C+ not bad because the kids like her, but no authority.
Allen - N/A because it will be his second day today.
Yaya - B, I actually like working with her because she is good with kids, and she is slowly getting along with me.
Natalie - B- She is doing good in terms of taking some responsibility and shows authority, but kids don't like her due to too much yelling. Oh and too much tension between us now.
Litong - D but just because she is the youngest, and as I figured just here to play with kids.
Matt - C no authority but does whatever he is told.
Stefanie - A...........WOL, where the G did she go?
What an exciting nite of b-ball practice! Eh, I'm still pissed about getting the fricking crane kick into the ribs. But you gotta love the intensity, the physicalness, aggressiveness, and all that good stuff. Boy this stuff just makes me want to play my heart out. Khalid El-Amin is all mine next time too. It seems like he likes to push players down who are smaller than him. Well I'm smaller than him, let's see him push me around. This type of intensity and the fuel of some good rivalries or bad blood is what was missing everytime their were v-ball practices. I can't wait till Thursday practice!
I ask tonight as well Lord that you may look over Emily and her family as she undergoes surgery. Gotta wake up in a few hours to visit my Yu 2 girls. God please give the doctors the wisdom to perform the surgery as well.
Waiting For Tonight
I've noticed another thing that has gotten to me for a while now. It is in terms of those cliques, and now we have the Canton clique at ACA now. This is just simply annoying the heck out of me, it's like today for instance. I'm not even scheduled to work, but yet I feel like I had to do the bulk of the work. So since it is the halfway point of the summer, I have come up with my grading system for the other counselors:
Ayinde - C+, grade is down because of lack of committment and sleeps on the job.
Tonda - C- Too lazy this year, and just cares about teaching the kids those dumb clapping games.
Stephy - C+ not bad because the kids like her, but no authority.
Allen - N/A because it will be his second day today.
Yaya - B, I actually like working with her because she is good with kids, and she is slowly getting along with me.
Natalie - B- She is doing good in terms of taking some responsibility and shows authority, but kids don't like her due to too much yelling. Oh and too much tension between us now.
Litong - D but just because she is the youngest, and as I figured just here to play with kids.
Matt - C no authority but does whatever he is told.
Stefanie - A...........WOL, where the G did she go?
What an exciting nite of b-ball practice! Eh, I'm still pissed about getting the fricking crane kick into the ribs. But you gotta love the intensity, the physicalness, aggressiveness, and all that good stuff. Boy this stuff just makes me want to play my heart out. Khalid El-Amin is all mine next time too. It seems like he likes to push players down who are smaller than him. Well I'm smaller than him, let's see him push me around. This type of intensity and the fuel of some good rivalries or bad blood is what was missing everytime their were v-ball practices. I can't wait till Thursday practice!
I ask tonight as well Lord that you may look over Emily and her family as she undergoes surgery. Gotta wake up in a few hours to visit my Yu 2 girls. God please give the doctors the wisdom to perform the surgery as well.
Waiting For Tonight
Monday, July 14, 2003
What a weekend it was out in Spring Arbor University. It was a weekend filled with all sorts of feelings. At first, I wish this retreat was a weekend later because it's like I just got back from NY and I wish I had time to still reflect on that trip. One thing about Spring Arbor University is that it just means so much to me personally. It was only in the summer of 99 where I went to my first CBC function as a non-believer. I still remember to this day what I did and majority of the things that happened. It was also the very first time I got a chance to know God from an outside perspective.
Friday, I picked up my OCC girls and it was a nice to just talk in the car along the way there. It really encouraged me to hear and discuss different Biblical issues with them and just to hear how spiritually sound they are. The shocker to me on Friday nite, was walking around campus at 12:30 a.m. to only see that people have gone back to their rooms already.
I was really hung up over just how fast everyone went to bed this past weekend. It sucked in a way because it seemed like this could be the end of all those all niters some of us pull during the retreat. However, seeing everyone go to bed early wasn't bad either because it is also a sign of maturity and shows how some of us are actually getting older.
Now, for me personally, my times of going to bed were at 3 and 4 a.m. Someone was asking me how do I do it, to be the last one to sleep yet still function the next day without a nap either. My question for myself is how much longer can I keep up with a 4 hour sleep schedule.
Saturday I was really in a roller coaster of feelings for the day. First, I was down to see the amount of participation for the CBC Amazing Race, after some of us spent hours putting this game together. But it was encouraging to see those who did participate really get into it. Seeing a lot of the adults running to each station showed just how eager they were to play.
Then came the evening, where something happened and I took it as a reflection on my own part. It was tough because I kept wondering did our fellowship really fellowship? Yeah we had great times of playing cards, hanging out, and serving Him. I just kept thinking about Ecc. 3 that their is a time for everything.
So I walked around campus for a little bit just trying to see what God is trying to say to me. Then it felt like it was my lowest point of how I felt at the retreat. Then like a beacon of light, God sent Kim to talk to me. Within a minute, I was at my highest point of the retreat and I was just speechless. Kim was sharing with me just how God totally used me to play a big part in how someone accepted Christ today because of how God used me. At first, I thought Kim was just saying something to encourage me, but she named a few things. She said that because of the things of how God used me, another person is going to heaven. I was just speechless to think of how God could of used me. Just by serving Him was a light for someone to accept Christ. I often place big expectations on myself, but God continues to show that His expectations are bigger than mine. Did that make sense? Again, it is still a speechless moment for me and my highlight personally of the retreat.
I also can't believe I understood the Friday evening message without english translation. I totally felt the Holy Spirit just speaking to me in cantonese and understanding what Rev. Johnny was saying. God blessed us with a great speaker in things that I never thought about.
All in all, I did have a great time in meeting new people as well. I met Jackie, and I was inspired by her love for kids and just how much she loves serving God through CEF. It was fun racing back with all the OCC girls sleeping. Well Liz was awake after seeing the speedometer reach my newest high in this car, at 108 mph. It was fun though in getting to know the OCC peeps better and I appreciate their service for the Lord.
Rhythm Nation
Friday, I picked up my OCC girls and it was a nice to just talk in the car along the way there. It really encouraged me to hear and discuss different Biblical issues with them and just to hear how spiritually sound they are. The shocker to me on Friday nite, was walking around campus at 12:30 a.m. to only see that people have gone back to their rooms already.
I was really hung up over just how fast everyone went to bed this past weekend. It sucked in a way because it seemed like this could be the end of all those all niters some of us pull during the retreat. However, seeing everyone go to bed early wasn't bad either because it is also a sign of maturity and shows how some of us are actually getting older.
Now, for me personally, my times of going to bed were at 3 and 4 a.m. Someone was asking me how do I do it, to be the last one to sleep yet still function the next day without a nap either. My question for myself is how much longer can I keep up with a 4 hour sleep schedule.
Saturday I was really in a roller coaster of feelings for the day. First, I was down to see the amount of participation for the CBC Amazing Race, after some of us spent hours putting this game together. But it was encouraging to see those who did participate really get into it. Seeing a lot of the adults running to each station showed just how eager they were to play.
Then came the evening, where something happened and I took it as a reflection on my own part. It was tough because I kept wondering did our fellowship really fellowship? Yeah we had great times of playing cards, hanging out, and serving Him. I just kept thinking about Ecc. 3 that their is a time for everything.
So I walked around campus for a little bit just trying to see what God is trying to say to me. Then it felt like it was my lowest point of how I felt at the retreat. Then like a beacon of light, God sent Kim to talk to me. Within a minute, I was at my highest point of the retreat and I was just speechless. Kim was sharing with me just how God totally used me to play a big part in how someone accepted Christ today because of how God used me. At first, I thought Kim was just saying something to encourage me, but she named a few things. She said that because of the things of how God used me, another person is going to heaven. I was just speechless to think of how God could of used me. Just by serving Him was a light for someone to accept Christ. I often place big expectations on myself, but God continues to show that His expectations are bigger than mine. Did that make sense? Again, it is still a speechless moment for me and my highlight personally of the retreat.
I also can't believe I understood the Friday evening message without english translation. I totally felt the Holy Spirit just speaking to me in cantonese and understanding what Rev. Johnny was saying. God blessed us with a great speaker in things that I never thought about.
All in all, I did have a great time in meeting new people as well. I met Jackie, and I was inspired by her love for kids and just how much she loves serving God through CEF. It was fun racing back with all the OCC girls sleeping. Well Liz was awake after seeing the speedometer reach my newest high in this car, at 108 mph. It was fun though in getting to know the OCC peeps better and I appreciate their service for the Lord.
Rhythm Nation
Friday, July 11, 2003
I took my kids yesterday to Lansing to see the Capital building and the Museum. Gosh that brought back memories of my senior year. I had to go up here to do extra credit because I flunked Governement class the first time and had to retake it my second semester in order to graduate. It was the first time I flunked a class in high school. I believed I used the "Oh I'm one of the football players/jocks of the school so I should get a free pass." But that wasn't the case with this class and I was even put on academic probation for 1 game. I remember Coach Bye and Coach Marnon talking to me to get my grades straight first.
So that brings me to last night's first ever b-ball practice with the CBC Pistons. First off it's funny how this year, I made a decision of where I want to play at this time of year. Some of the plays that were running now just brings back memories of A team practices when Andy had plays for us to run. Even at this year's Retreat, all I can think about is balling during free time, in the morning or when everyone's in bed. I keep thinking about if I should sleep at a good time this year so that I can wake up and practice, do some running before everyone else gets up. Or should I pull all niters and stay up with everyone else?
Let's Do It Again
So that brings me to last night's first ever b-ball practice with the CBC Pistons. First off it's funny how this year, I made a decision of where I want to play at this time of year. Some of the plays that were running now just brings back memories of A team practices when Andy had plays for us to run. Even at this year's Retreat, all I can think about is balling during free time, in the morning or when everyone's in bed. I keep thinking about if I should sleep at a good time this year so that I can wake up and practice, do some running before everyone else gets up. Or should I pull all niters and stay up with everyone else?
Let's Do It Again
Thursday, July 10, 2003
I walked into work today at about 1:00 again. Again I hear the millions and millions of chants going on as I walk into the room. However, I did something stupid today at work. I kind of mocked one of my counselors, figuring that she knew I was joking around with her, but it didn't turn out that way. It seemed like I hurt her feelings and I felt bad. So I decided to call her later on tonight and apologize because I stepped a little too far in terms of joking with her. I asked if she was busy when she answered and she said no. So I apologized to her and then she just kind of ignored me and told me she had to go.
So I'm thinking ya know I sincerely apologized to you and yet ya blew it in my face. Personally it was frustrating, but yet I know that I must rise about this with God's love. The funny thing was getting ignored, like I'm not used to that one anymore.
Today marks the day of b-ball practice for the road to CCUC. I'm very excited to see where God truly guides this team. I'm ready to work my butt off to do my best to dominate at both ends of the court. During today's leaders meeting, someone mentioned my emotions and personal feelings into particular things. I know I have a lot of that too, and I gotta do my best to play with a cool, calm, and collectiveness.
I'm actually gonna go to work early today!
Sweet Child O Mine
So I'm thinking ya know I sincerely apologized to you and yet ya blew it in my face. Personally it was frustrating, but yet I know that I must rise about this with God's love. The funny thing was getting ignored, like I'm not used to that one anymore.
Today marks the day of b-ball practice for the road to CCUC. I'm very excited to see where God truly guides this team. I'm ready to work my butt off to do my best to dominate at both ends of the court. During today's leaders meeting, someone mentioned my emotions and personal feelings into particular things. I know I have a lot of that too, and I gotta do my best to play with a cool, calm, and collectiveness.
I'm actually gonna go to work early today!
Sweet Child O Mine
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
The most memorable things that I did this past weekend at NYC was driving back and forth constantly from Summit, NJ to Queens, NY. Compared to last year I hit up every city in NYC, Queens, Manhattan, Bronx, Brooklyn, Long Island, but I missed out on Staten Island (I was there 10 years ago though). Driving back and forth was possibly not worth it, because of the fact that I had to pay $6 for crossing whatever bridge or tunnel.
See I'm like that though, the first night I stayed in the Mariott in Times Square. I honestly didn't like it too much so I decided to stay close to where I stayed last year. So I switched over to the Holiday Inn over in Summit-Springfield, NJ. It's nice to go back to where I am comfortable with and be able to cruise around at night on my own.
I never knew till this past weekend that I have family in NJ too now! It's cool because they live in the New Brunswick area and it was nice seeing them. I went to spend time with my relatives over in Queens, which was great because I haven't seen them for 10 plus years. When we went, it was because we started off with 3 full packed vans, with my family in one car, my mom's side in another van, and my dad's side in the other. That year those 3 vans took off first to Toronto, then to Niagara Falls, where my dad's side quit. After there was then off to Boston for a couple of days, then down south on I-95, to head to NYC to visit our relatives, from there my mom's side gave up. We stayed in Queens for a few days, then it was off to go home but this time we stayed south and on to I-80. That trip right there last 2 weeks, but it was fun to be the last van standing. If there is anything that I love to do is travelling, and I guess that's why I love to drive so much.
With that I've been doing a lot of thinking, about where God is calling me. I've been thinking about what it would be like for me to live in Minnesota or possibly NJ-NY. I know all the things I have here, but I also feel like maybe's time for me to start over somewhere on my own and it's a thought that I've been pondering about for the last 24 hours.
Anyways today at work, I decided to go late, like way late, like I showed up at 1 today. I must of missed out on something this morning. When I walked in, the kids were of course chanting my name but they chanted something else after it. They were chanting out rumors of Stephy and I hooking up. I had Angela singing the K-I-S-S-I-N-G song to the class. So I announced to the class that I work and stay alone, that's the way I operate. Well at least the kids respected that but man what gave them that idea, is what I keep wondering. Did I miss something this morning?
Then there's finally a new challenge in v-ball! It's time to finally defend our championship and claim the other one we missed out last summer. It's time for the Korean tournaments and this year it is back to back weekends. I look forward to pushing myself to gear up for this sucker as I felt like I have regressed the past couple of weeks. Any YCF teammates interested in to defend and win another championship? Oh and stuff ourselves silly with bulgogi!
I Stand Alone
See I'm like that though, the first night I stayed in the Mariott in Times Square. I honestly didn't like it too much so I decided to stay close to where I stayed last year. So I switched over to the Holiday Inn over in Summit-Springfield, NJ. It's nice to go back to where I am comfortable with and be able to cruise around at night on my own.
I never knew till this past weekend that I have family in NJ too now! It's cool because they live in the New Brunswick area and it was nice seeing them. I went to spend time with my relatives over in Queens, which was great because I haven't seen them for 10 plus years. When we went, it was because we started off with 3 full packed vans, with my family in one car, my mom's side in another van, and my dad's side in the other. That year those 3 vans took off first to Toronto, then to Niagara Falls, where my dad's side quit. After there was then off to Boston for a couple of days, then down south on I-95, to head to NYC to visit our relatives, from there my mom's side gave up. We stayed in Queens for a few days, then it was off to go home but this time we stayed south and on to I-80. That trip right there last 2 weeks, but it was fun to be the last van standing. If there is anything that I love to do is travelling, and I guess that's why I love to drive so much.
With that I've been doing a lot of thinking, about where God is calling me. I've been thinking about what it would be like for me to live in Minnesota or possibly NJ-NY. I know all the things I have here, but I also feel like maybe's time for me to start over somewhere on my own and it's a thought that I've been pondering about for the last 24 hours.
Anyways today at work, I decided to go late, like way late, like I showed up at 1 today. I must of missed out on something this morning. When I walked in, the kids were of course chanting my name but they chanted something else after it. They were chanting out rumors of Stephy and I hooking up. I had Angela singing the K-I-S-S-I-N-G song to the class. So I announced to the class that I work and stay alone, that's the way I operate. Well at least the kids respected that but man what gave them that idea, is what I keep wondering. Did I miss something this morning?
Then there's finally a new challenge in v-ball! It's time to finally defend our championship and claim the other one we missed out last summer. It's time for the Korean tournaments and this year it is back to back weekends. I look forward to pushing myself to gear up for this sucker as I felt like I have regressed the past couple of weeks. Any YCF teammates interested in to defend and win another championship? Oh and stuff ourselves silly with bulgogi!
I Stand Alone
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
Finally, The Great One has come back to Michigan. Last year I went to NYC and it was a lot of fun because I got to do a lot of things on my own. This year, at the last moment I decided to allow my parents to go with me. I weighed out the pro's and con's of travelling with my parents to NYC. What sucked was not everything I had planned to do went through. However, their were highlights of this trip:
Performing 2 Fast 2 Furious along I-80, boy that Penn State drive never seemed so long after pushing the Yukon to it's limits.
Seeing family in NJ, and other family in the Queens area.
Driving past the Jehovah Witnesses HQ.
Walking around Queens's Chinatown.
Paying mad money, each time I drove through a tunnel or bridge.
Well their's more but I don't want to bore anyone with it.
However, I did come back last night right in time to take a couple hour nap then heading off to work. I really wanted to sleep in, but the thought of not being there, made me think of what if the kids forget about me and label someone else as their favorite counselor.
So I went to work, then in the middle of the day I decided to take a chance. That chance was that I leftwork in the middle of the day to drive around Detroit. I came back an hour later thinking, eh the kids most of chosen one of the other counselor's to lead them. When I got back though it was different, I guess the other counselors were trying to be the kid's number 1 counselor. But all the kids rebelled, and were chanting my name as I came back. Some of the counselor's are trying cheap gimmicks and pops to try to be that number 1 counselor.
The fun part, had to be when camp was about over. Ayinde was about to leave and he was trying to get the kids sympathy because he was leaving. Except the thing was everyone was cheering that he was leaving, and the kids were chanting out "We want The Great One to be our counselor." The millions and millions of my peeps were telling me how they love me as their counselor. I asked some of them why is that? They had various answers, but a funny one was from some of them was how I look. They like how I do my hair, and how I come in with my shades on. So today I decided to come in later to work knowing that I am and will forever be The Great One, in addition to a bad boy 4 life.
Dream
Performing 2 Fast 2 Furious along I-80, boy that Penn State drive never seemed so long after pushing the Yukon to it's limits.
Seeing family in NJ, and other family in the Queens area.
Driving past the Jehovah Witnesses HQ.
Walking around Queens's Chinatown.
Paying mad money, each time I drove through a tunnel or bridge.
Well their's more but I don't want to bore anyone with it.
However, I did come back last night right in time to take a couple hour nap then heading off to work. I really wanted to sleep in, but the thought of not being there, made me think of what if the kids forget about me and label someone else as their favorite counselor.
So I went to work, then in the middle of the day I decided to take a chance. That chance was that I leftwork in the middle of the day to drive around Detroit. I came back an hour later thinking, eh the kids most of chosen one of the other counselor's to lead them. When I got back though it was different, I guess the other counselors were trying to be the kid's number 1 counselor. But all the kids rebelled, and were chanting my name as I came back. Some of the counselor's are trying cheap gimmicks and pops to try to be that number 1 counselor.
The fun part, had to be when camp was about over. Ayinde was about to leave and he was trying to get the kids sympathy because he was leaving. Except the thing was everyone was cheering that he was leaving, and the kids were chanting out "We want The Great One to be our counselor." The millions and millions of my peeps were telling me how they love me as their counselor. I asked some of them why is that? They had various answers, but a funny one was from some of them was how I look. They like how I do my hair, and how I come in with my shades on. So today I decided to come in later to work knowing that I am and will forever be The Great One, in addition to a bad boy 4 life.
Dream
Friday, July 04, 2003
Well I remember right about this time I was sitting at the rest area and chilling. I think I was bored and needed a break from the neverending state. What's sad is that I have yet to pack and I plan on leaving in a couple of hours. This year, I plan on flying through Niagara Falls, just to revisit that place, plus see if there is any place that I can pull a 2 Fast 2 Furious with anyone on the 401 or 403.
Today, I took my kids to the Detroit Zoo. I now remember why I hate the Detroit Zoo. It's because we have no exhibits what so ever. The best part about today was that it was 95 degrees Fahrenheit and I got to stay outside all day with my kids. Because of all this, I got more a reddish darkish tan going on. Oh well, I just like staying outside when the heat is on. I felt bad for my kids though because they couldn't stand it.
And now it is time to watch my Pokemon fest, I am thinking about watching Pokemon 1,2, and 4 before I leave.
Don't Want To Try
Today, I took my kids to the Detroit Zoo. I now remember why I hate the Detroit Zoo. It's because we have no exhibits what so ever. The best part about today was that it was 95 degrees Fahrenheit and I got to stay outside all day with my kids. Because of all this, I got more a reddish darkish tan going on. Oh well, I just like staying outside when the heat is on. I felt bad for my kids though because they couldn't stand it.
And now it is time to watch my Pokemon fest, I am thinking about watching Pokemon 1,2, and 4 before I leave.
Don't Want To Try
Well I remember right about this time I was sitting at the rest area and chilling. I think I was bored and needed a break from the neverending state. What's sad is that I have yet to pack and I plan on leaving in a couple of hours. This year, I plan on flying through Niagara Falls, just to revisit that place, plus see if there is any place that I can pull a 2 Fast 2 Furious with anyone on the 401 or 403.
Today, I took my kids to the Detroit Zoo. I now remember why I hate the Detroit Zoo. It's because we have no exhibits what so ever. The best part about today was that it was 95 degrees Fahrenheit and I got to stay outside all day with my kids. Because of all this, I got more a reddish darkish tan going on. Oh well, I just like staying outside when the heat is on. I felt bad for my kids though because they couldn't stand it.
And now it is time to watch my Pokemon fest, I am thinking about watching Pokemon 1,2, and 4 before I leave.
Don't Want To Try
Today, I took my kids to the Detroit Zoo. I now remember why I hate the Detroit Zoo. It's because we have no exhibits what so ever. The best part about today was that it was 95 degrees Fahrenheit and I got to stay outside all day with my kids. Because of all this, I got more a reddish darkish tan going on. Oh well, I just like staying outside when the heat is on. I felt bad for my kids though because they couldn't stand it.
And now it is time to watch my Pokemon fest, I am thinking about watching Pokemon 1,2, and 4 before I leave.
Don't Want To Try
Thursday, July 03, 2003
Last year, at this time I was packing like crazy and making sure I have everything to go to NY. This year, I'm just kind of blah, I'll pack and leave whenever I want to. Actually I can't do that anymore since my hotel is in Times Square, just booked that sucker today.
Just got done watching T3, where I was hoping it would be a little better than that. One thing about that movie that got me thinking was, destiny. I used to think things happen because of mere coincidence. Later I realized that it is all in God's planning about how things work out. As I fly down I-80, no doubt this will be on my mind with just how certain things will work out. It's kind of like a fork in a road, you wonder which fork you take. If anything you would like to find out the result of both, but can only choose one.
Oh well, time to go to bed. I'm excited to get to take my kids to the Detroit Zoo today! Also I was talking to the Natalie today because she was wondering how come each table has 2 counselors while my table is just me. I showed her why with this convo we had today:
K: What's with your kids being out of control?
N: Like your's are any better?
K: Well let's see what you're gonna do about it.
N: Ok, my table can you please bequiet and I'll give you each a sticker.
K: Please, cheap gimmicks ain't gonna buy my kids.
N: Prove it!
K: My table, sit down, heads down, eyes closed, and mouth shut!
N:........
K: I don't need cheap rewards to buy my kids to behave.
It's all about being The Children's Champ. Oh one last thing, dude why do people keep putting sick images on their websites? Gosh some of these things make me want to hurl.
Hero
Just got done watching T3, where I was hoping it would be a little better than that. One thing about that movie that got me thinking was, destiny. I used to think things happen because of mere coincidence. Later I realized that it is all in God's planning about how things work out. As I fly down I-80, no doubt this will be on my mind with just how certain things will work out. It's kind of like a fork in a road, you wonder which fork you take. If anything you would like to find out the result of both, but can only choose one.
Oh well, time to go to bed. I'm excited to get to take my kids to the Detroit Zoo today! Also I was talking to the Natalie today because she was wondering how come each table has 2 counselors while my table is just me. I showed her why with this convo we had today:
K: What's with your kids being out of control?
N: Like your's are any better?
K: Well let's see what you're gonna do about it.
N: Ok, my table can you please bequiet and I'll give you each a sticker.
K: Please, cheap gimmicks ain't gonna buy my kids.
N: Prove it!
K: My table, sit down, heads down, eyes closed, and mouth shut!
N:........
K: I don't need cheap rewards to buy my kids to behave.
It's all about being The Children's Champ. Oh one last thing, dude why do people keep putting sick images on their websites? Gosh some of these things make me want to hurl.
Hero
Wednesday, July 02, 2003
I don't know what has gotten into me lately. For the past 3 days now, I have yelled or snapped at someone. I've noticed my fuse with people have gotten a lot shorter. Today, I felt like my boss was giving me some lip, so I went right back at her in front of the kids. My boss asked me to step outside with her to discuss the matter. All the kids were chanting my name, like I was gonna lay the smackdown or something. Everything's all cool with me and my boss, but after thinking about it, I couldn't believe I blew up at her even when we were outside. I guess it continues to show my weakness, is my problem with authority figures.
I also had to put up with Yaya's lip as well. I'm about an inch away laying the smack on her as well. I'm tired of her thinking she's like so much better than me. However, she finally broke down with a smile towards me as Day Camp came to an end. I guess my charm is starting to wear on her or something.
Here's another thing that is starting to really annoy me, are construction workers. It's like I have to put up with so much construction traffic in the morning that it is causing me to just having thoughts of running them down with my car. I'm thinking that they must be the most hated people on the road or something.
With my short fuse, it just comes at the right time that I go on my own to NYC. I think the time away from here will be nice. Walking around the streets and riding the subs on my own will give me a chance to calm down. My goal is to go to Rucker Park to play some ball, just to see how well I match with the greatest street ballers in the world. Then I plan on going back to Central Park to play some 2's. Man last year watching those players play was unbelievable and I want to test my skills. Too many distractions, and too many people irritating me, has lead me to just leave for a little bit. When do I come back, well I plan on doing the unthinkable like last year. Which was leaving NYC, Sunday afternoon and drive to return straight to work on Monday morning. Or should I come back early, and come back in time for Sunday worship?
Sandstorm
I also had to put up with Yaya's lip as well. I'm about an inch away laying the smack on her as well. I'm tired of her thinking she's like so much better than me. However, she finally broke down with a smile towards me as Day Camp came to an end. I guess my charm is starting to wear on her or something.
Here's another thing that is starting to really annoy me, are construction workers. It's like I have to put up with so much construction traffic in the morning that it is causing me to just having thoughts of running them down with my car. I'm thinking that they must be the most hated people on the road or something.
With my short fuse, it just comes at the right time that I go on my own to NYC. I think the time away from here will be nice. Walking around the streets and riding the subs on my own will give me a chance to calm down. My goal is to go to Rucker Park to play some ball, just to see how well I match with the greatest street ballers in the world. Then I plan on going back to Central Park to play some 2's. Man last year watching those players play was unbelievable and I want to test my skills. Too many distractions, and too many people irritating me, has lead me to just leave for a little bit. When do I come back, well I plan on doing the unthinkable like last year. Which was leaving NYC, Sunday afternoon and drive to return straight to work on Monday morning. Or should I come back early, and come back in time for Sunday worship?
Sandstorm