Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Transformers - Driving back from Charlotte, I had some time to think about Easter Sunday. I had all mixed up emotions at lunch on Sunday. It was great seeing everyone come back home because it just automatically brings back the old times when I first came to CBC. However, it is not the same either because the conversations are different, friendships have changed, and relationships are everywhere. Not to say that I can judge on this one, but some have matured in Christ while some have fallen away. It should be a happy time for me seeing everyone back because it is like a big reunion. At the same time, I feel like an old fart then and I just don't want any part of that either.

I mean even leaving Charlotte it was great to be able to actually see my sis. I mean it has been about 2 months now that I've last saw her. I mean it's not like when she was at MSU where she was only an hour and a half away. Yeah, I wish she was still living with me in a sense because then I knew she would always clean up after me. But more importantly, doing some of the sentimental things we did ever since we were little ankle biters is what I miss the most. This process of change has hit me as a struggle lately.

Even at OU, this semester as each week passes by I become more and more introverted. I mean it is not the same because majority of my peeps are done this semester. I wish I could just freeze time back to when I was 16 or 18. Changes hmmm, and the next big reunion is probably Jenny's wedding. At least the boyz will be back in town, Ben and Emoy.

Sidenote, half of my nail has ripped off on my middle finger. Man I am just a baby because wow that sucker hurt!

Guns
Smokey Mountains - Well I am back from Charlotte, N.C. First impressions are everything to me about visiting a city. Charlotte, well I had high hopes for this place to be the bomb, but I left very disappointed. Granted I spent 2 hours putting together my sis's bed, so I lost a lot of time there. However, I went to there best mall they had available and it was a combo of Somerset and Schaumberg. So like my sis said, too much class for me which is why I didn't like it too much. I went to the Charlotte Colisieum, to get my Bobcats gear yet I had to turn back because a game was in progress. So I left Charlotte disappointed, and tired because the drive took a lot longer than I expected. Although I got to drive from Ohio, to West Va., to Va. to N.C., and coming back I looped over to Tennessee, Kentucky, back to Ohio, and home. Woohoo and went straight to class.

It's over, or is it? I was exhausted and layin on the court because I felt like I gave it my all. However, I could not power up anything past S.S. 1. Kristyn had to help me up after our Conference Finals lost. 1st time ever I will not make it to the Finals which ends the streak at 9 appearances and 5 Championships. The quest for another chance to 3 peat is over and a new Finals will begin. I could take the lost, but the way we lost pissed me and everyone else off. The reason is during the last game, Joe was upset that a call was not made. So for the remainder of the game, he gave up. It was 14-12 prior to then, and the game ended at 25-15 because Joe chose to give up. The Joe effect, hurt because it effected Krysten, Ashley, and Andi because they tanked and had their heads down much of the night.

However, I made a new friend who remembered me from playin at W.Bloomfield. Craig is powerful, but has not been able to control it. We talked and he knows his weakness, so I look forward to playin with him in the summer to see if he can get powerful. I am already excited, and I've made up my mind pretty much. I am coming back next semester, there is always a new foe. And it is Demetrius, big gorilla guy thinks he is a superstar now. I am already looking for next semester.

Eurotrip is really a funny movie, hehehe it's really cool. Although I don't suggest it for many to see it.

Move

Friday, March 25, 2005

Wally World -

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Man, it took me forever to find this from Papa Wong's website. As of this Monday, I will have gone driven through a few more states I've never been to. I will go through West Virginia, Virginia, North and South Carolina. I plan on driving down to S.C. to cross the border then come back around just so I can say I've been to S.C. I am really looking forward to this new family trip for the day. I get to see my sis, and check out Charlotte. I couldn't help but get all excited when I went to AAA lookin at all the different maps.

He answered my prayer by setting the v-ball playoffs to Tuesday night. So I plan on driving straight to the games from Charlotte.

However, I think I torn or pulled something in my left shoulder after last night's game. Oi, should of stopped hitting so much with the left and gone back with the right. Gotta heal so I can play down in Charlotte. If only the Hornets were still down there instead of the Bobcats. I ask for safe travel for all the peeps going out on Spring Break this week.

Speaking of which, maybe I am anal about it. However, so many people kept telling me to have a "good Easter." I guess it irritated me because they don't even know the reason for Easter. I mean they all looked at it in the Bunny coming around layin eggs or whatever. So yeah that bugged me.

Wow, it has been a year now since these road trips started with NYC after my G-Pa's 80th b-day bash.

My Place

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Buu - I've been thinking about this since last night. When is it time to call it an end for the OU V-ball league? 9 straight Finals appearances, 5 championships that have come along with it. When I first started, it was for the thrill of playing and trying to establish myself as one of the best players on campus. Then once that was accomplished, then it was to be sure Joey's team does not win because of their arrogance. Now it has transformed to making sure Mike and Joel do not win it because of their cockiness, and humilating other players. However, I have learned that their team is suspended from this year's playoffs.

So is that a easy cruise for us into the playoffs for our 6th championship? Nope, because this is the first time ever at OU that my team is not the 1st or 2nd seed. We are in the battle of our lives, and playoffs start next week. Stan is right, our team is overall slower than usual. The tough part is that I am suppose to be going to Charlotte to visit my sis, so I would miss the 1st round. Stan is worried bout me leaving the 1st round, so now do I stay then? There is a part of me that I feel I can rest because Mike and Joel cannot win this year. Plus, even if my team does not win, I feel at ease if Jeff's team wins. Jeff is the next stud for this league, he can do it all and he is humble about it. However, I won't be around this league forever so I have decided to take on an understudy to train over the summer. I believe in Tim and I trust him to be able to protect others from the likes of Mike and Joel. I am curious to see who does make it to the Finals this semester. Joe thinks the girls need to step it up, but I think they have done all that they can. Deep down, it is up to Stan and I to push ourselves to a higher level if we are to win again.

Tonight was fun too because I played against the OU Women's V-ball team. However, I wish they kept up with their training too. Overall it was fun, because they ran plays and they play with some spunk. On the otherside, it's funny now seeing Rawle Marshall, Courtney Scott, and Brandon Cassise playin pick-up with us in the Rec because the OU Men's B-ball season is sadly over.

Uub

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Detour - Ever since Sunday night, everything has gone wrong for me. First it started small, Sunday night was my fantasy baseball draft. I was so psyched for it, but I totally forgotta bout it because I was too busy watchin Eurotrip. Then came this morning, at Magahay Elementary gosh everything went wrong. Mr. Lamchops asked me to teach Social Studies, which I was all excited about because I spent an hour looking over everything and preparing it. As I was teaching it, he cut short my lesson and I did not get to go through anything I had prepared! I was so upset, but I tried to stay positive.

Then came the afternoon recess, I took them out. I brought them in at 2:22 so I was like 2 minutes late bringing them in. I mean it is hard watchin 60 kids by yourself at recess over the entire schoolyard. Mr. Lamchops started gettin on my case bout the time, and he's frantically passing back the Social Studies tests. I'm like ok, you decide to do that now when you could of done that while I took them out for recess. So I lost another 10 minutes there to teach my 2nd Social Studies lesson of the day. Then all the LC kids come back and all hell breaks loose and Mr. Lamchops is wondering what is going on? So another 5 minutes lost. Then I don't even get a chance to teach the lesson because Lamchops decides to do it himself. I just through my lesson into the garbage at that point. Then Lamchops blames me for passing out tape for the kids to make tape balls. Um ok, like I will do that freaking eh come on man I am a pro at this teachin gig.

Finally, the mother of all blows at Magahay. The principal comes in to talk to me bout my Homework Help sessions after school. She has now decided to go back to her original decision and not allow me to do it. She told me it would be ineffective due to the Spring season and that kids want to play and not stay in school any longer then they have to. I felt like she just stabbed me right in the heart, and I thought this was a place that I was trying to create so that all kids can succeed.

Tipsy - The lowest blow to end my day was at tonight's v-ball game. It was Tim's team vs. Mike and Joel's team. Tim wasn't there due to a funeral, but his teammate Linda was glad I came to watch. Linda was so pissed tonight along with the rest of her team because Mike and Joel purposely messed up so they humiliate them on the court. I mean they purposedly served to the wall, spiked it on the ground, grabbed the ball, etc. Linda and company just wanted to get the games over with. But Mike and Joel kept allowing them to get to 24 before rushing for a comeback to slaughter them. I was upset because Linda's team was not having any fun tonight. This is suppose to be a fun league, but Mike and Joel continue to embarass everyone. I was upset because all I could do was watch. Yeah they have yet to do that against us, and everyone knows that those 2 have yet to win a championship without Stan and myself. There time will come again.

The positives today, not many. However, I developed a close bond with Brianna as I stayed 2 hours after Magahay to help her with homework. Lastly, thanks Chinchie those little words you said mean a lot to me.

Sunday, March 20, 2005

The Core - So a lot of things have been eating at me as of late, and it is people. I am starting to notice a lot of superficiality everywhere I spend my time at, CBC, OU, etc. It's kind of funny because Boozer actually updated and mentioned it too. This could be for the first time in a long time that I want this semester at OU to end. I really can't stand a lot of the people in my class, and it is like killing me. I really miss those who are a semester ahead of me like Carl, Sonya, Mandi, Randy, SpongeBob, etc. We had an OU IM Staff meeting on Thursday too, for the Fall semester. Our boss, whom I really can't stand because I just don't like his integrity at work. I mean he reminds me of a lot of other rednecks I've seen in Lapeer, who think they are cool because they drink 24/7. He is right that this is the greatest job on campus because it is something you get paid to do and love doing it. At the same time, I tend to isolate myself from the rest because of all the drinking that takes place.

Then there is CBC, I had a long talk with GP B last night. I say, words are cheap because of no matter what I say it won't change the hater's out there. Even if I did what they want me to do, are they gonna love me then? I'm still the same person. But GP B is right, the haters will always be there, which hurts because hey I thought we in His house ya know. It was not until this morning I was able to stay more focused and pressing on toward the goal. Seeing Chris doing what he told me months back, about getting baptised was truly awesome!

I am really glad that his heart was so focused on doing what He commands us all to do. Abby and Amy kept calling me on Saturday asking if they could watch the baptism service. So, what the heck, I decided to make a field trip out of it. I believe my 5th-6th grade class really got a lot out of today's service. At the same time they showed their support to those getting baptised. It's these moments, that reminds me how much fun I have doing what I love. I am thankful that Irene has given me the ok to take Chris out for lunch. He's my boy ya know.

Baby It's You

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Dream Weaver - Since, Saturday it has been one learning curve after another. I guess it all started with Praise Nite, most like Pastor G's message bout internal changes. It really got me thinking and thanks to a sister for pointing out to me, of my own changes. That night, I had a couple of bad dreams. One of them was becoming what I do not wanted to turn out, but because of the path I was going, I was there quicker than I thought. The dream made me how much of a hypocrite I was, and how I was letting my weakness magnify more without even recognizing it. Again, Praise Him for sending a loving sister to bring me back to my senses. As for the other dream, well I will get to that another entry.

Sunday, I went to the DIA with Shauna, Amanda, and Annette. I think the dream I had really sparked me to have that fire bout my faith once again. I mean I haven't been this fired up in awhile. We were discussing in the car ride about the topics of murder, alcoholics, gays etc.....if it is a learned behavior vs. genetics. I feel bad, because I think I was very defensive and passionate bout this. However, we're called to speak of the truth at the same time.

Finally, today it has happened to me as a student teacher. Prior to our field trip to see the Phantom of the Opera, the other 6th grade teacher comes in, Miss S. to talk to me. It was regarding one of the parents who were chaperoning. Well, Miss S gave me the heads up that she is a lesbian, and I almost spit out my coke. Miss S added, that her "partner" was coming along with trip too. I was just like, as long as they ain't doing anything shady, and they already on the other bus, I could careless. But man, first time I ever experienced that which worries me. During the play, the 2 lesbians insisted on putting their child in between them. Which means, man she is just surrounded my freakiness. Like my teacher told me, I need to get scouting reports of the parents as well as my students.

So with all this continued learning, I can only ask of Him to help me lower myself so He can be higher than I, ya know.

OU all the way!!!!! Channel 7, sportscaster talked to me on campus :) So many festivities on campus.

Welcome Back

Friday, March 11, 2005

Battle Creek - Well my Spring Break has pretty much come to an immediate end, and yet it was very mundane. I did so much work outside of the house that I had barely energy to do any homework. Now all that is left, is this Sunday's trip to the DIA. After I finish teaching Sunday School, I'm jetting over to Amanda's to meet up with her, Shauna, and Annette so we can take care of our business down at the DIA. Although, actually I have an idea! Maybe I will do some homework at CBC, while I am waiting for Praise Nite to start. Hmmm isn't that a good idea.

Today I was a Science Fair judge @ Brewster Elementary School. Laura, Rebecca, and Veronica thought I was getting a little carried away with it :) I couldn't help it, I kept thinking like I was a judge from American Idol. I kept using so many of their stupid quotes, but I did my best not to send any 1st graders back to their classroom crying. I had fun though, because man a lot of them had a lot of great ideas.

Finally, I also went grocery shopping today. I blame it all on the little talk about cereal at last week's lock in. I went on some impulse buying all sorts of cereal for my house now. So now I have huge boxes of my personal favorite cereals, Total, Frosted Flakes, Frosted Chex, and Honeycomb. However, I just realized I totally forgot about Rice Krispies! Snap, Crackle, and Pop!

Fox

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Ultimate Warrior - Whoop, 3-12 to end this week of v-ball leagues. Ewww what an awful win %, however I am reminded that through our trials we grow stronger. Tonight, was the first time I played in the Dumar's league with Jane and Sam. Dude, this league is all about couples in all sorts of forms. But the thing is, they all play on different teams because they are all so competitive. Last week, I ran my mouth off so I have a target on my back now. Today, I kept it shut because the time for talk has ended. Throughout the night I noticed in the stands that, all eyes were on me as we played the #1 team. Now, I have got everyone's respect and that I can back up my talk. I also told the other team they couldn't stop me, which was true but as Sam said our own team stops us. Which is freaking frustrating, but I was able to smile throughout the night because I silenced the haters. The ref even talked to me about the load I have to carry to keep our team close.

However, it I am to push myself to another level I believe Howard is right. I have to do 2 things in order for me to go higher. First off, is I gotta stop playing in all these popsickle stand leagues whether it is Dumars, Social Club, Troy, B-Woods, etc, and move on to pick-up on the Westside. The 2nd thing is, I gotta start getting contacts to wear during game time. Oi, my eyesight isn't getting any better seeing the ball from far away. I can barely see the fingers Howard holds up so I know what I am hitting. Man it scares the crap out of me just thinking of touching my eyeball.

Finally, I am such an idiot today as I went to student teach with Katie at her school, Ottawa Elementary School. I was making slime, for the kids to play with. The directions said, add 4 cups of water. Katie's measuring cup, marked off 4 cups exactly at the top. However, I had a brain fart, and I accidentally added in 4 literal cups of water! Katie kept making fun of me because now I had 16 cups of water instead of just 4 cups. Oi, was I dumb in front of her class or what?

Been Away

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Are You Still Standing? - In 2 nights, I have played 9 games of v-ball leagues. Yet I've only won 3 of them, which stinks. I have a target on my back in the Dumars league as I've been told for running my mouth. This should be a good challenge, hooking up with Jane and Sam on this team. 3 Titans on a team, and I wonder how good Sam is? After all she was voted Most Athletic for females when we were seniors. We also had our battle of the sexes in b-ball, so this should be fun I hope.

I feel as if either my image, integrity, or reputation has been killed within a particular group of people. Over the years, it has been like home to me almost and now I don't know if I can say the same. Have I laid quiet long enough to continue to let others do wrong? I am ok if the hatin is on me because there is nothing I can do about that. However, when you teach others to do it or accept it then I have a problem. I have come back to try to put the wrong things right, one person especially after all these years I have served with him in all of God's ministries. I thought I've been patient enough to wait this out and hope He will mold other's hearts. I still have hope that it can happen, but not if people stay in their comfy boat and not look out of it. I just ask the other toy soldiers to do what's right and stay in the back line. Rumors and gossip, I wonder how CBC would be held up in that light as described in Revelations? I just ask Him to continue to provide me with facts and wisdom so that I may not go on assumptions.

Time to try and sleep on it for a couple of hours before going to Katie's.

Free To Decide

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Spoilers - Another v-ball league down, and only 4 to go in this semester. Congrats to Chisholm for knocking us out, 3-2 playoff series. Man, I feel like it's all my fault for losing, I mean only 1 more win to get back into the Troy Finals. I just put my shirt over my head after shaking hands, man I blew some easy ones. Just couldn't carry the team tonight :(

Today, at Magahay I met Kristin Glasgow! Well I didn't even know who she was, but I know she is famous for something because she came to speak to my class and all the kids asked for her autograph. I spoke with her afterwards, because she is the same age as me, graduated from Magahay, and OU. I gotta admit as my teacher said "She is hot", because she was. All the kids were teasing Kristin and I when we were talkin because they thought we were flirting with each other. However, I told the kids that she is too good for me. But imagine that, going out with a future celeb. She is holding a concert at Magahay and I wish I could go too! Although Larry Brown is coming to Magahay next week :)

So this has been on my mind for awhile now. What I don't like bout some CBC kids, is that they are taught wrong. Granted I am not a parent or anything, but it really irritates me when parents come into Jr. Church to get their kid out for Chinese School. Then some parents tell their kids how to act with others when it ain't even Biblical. So good parenting I guess does not come from The Bible. I mean, for example this mother asked me if her child can jump ahead of everyone else for hot chocolate since he had to go early for Chinese School. At first, I said no because I told her flat out this is for kids who earned in my class. Hmm let me check how many times your kid came to class, uhh bout 4 times in 3 months. She kept insisting that her son gets hot chocolate. So I gave in, only to offer him my test sample which tasted like butt and P Nutz can attest to that. Man that mother needs to stop trippin bout her son getting what he wants, and that is why he misbehaves in Jr. Church cuz he is a spoiled lil booger.

Which leads me to this, parents who give their kids non-Biblical advice. They know who they are, and I am thankful that my integrity is held strongly within the Mandarin side. So until I get all the facts, I may rock the boat in this direction. Yes, He calls us to obey our parents however and I mean HOWEVER, I am pretty sure there is a verse like in Psalms where it says do not follow your parents if it causes you to sin. It is just irritating and I tell ya how do they expect their kids to be godly young adults when they themselves are gossiping, and spreading rumors. Please, I ain't the only one who needs to do the checkin.

Someone

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Rabies - So things have been heating up with me and this guy Andy in my ED classes. I just can't stand the guy, because he tries so freaking hard to get attention. I think we're at the point where deep down we just can't stand each other. I mean here you have a guy who is bout a year older than me, wears his bottle cap glasses sometimes, has this balding spot in his head, and just is a flat out gump trying to act like he is all hard. The other day I reminded him that he grew up in G-Pointe. Last week, I found out that he went to our boss at Cranbrook to tell him that his group were the best teachers at Cranbrook. I was just like pshhh when I heard all dat. So this whole week, I've been humbling him in all sorts of ways and reminding him who is the real People's Champ. Here are the plays of the week:

1) EED 305 - We all had to draw posters of certain things to talk bout Science safety in a classroom. Well I drew this guy, with a bald spot, and glasses having no clue how to pump gas illustrating the point of why we don't smoke at gas stations. Peeps started to crack up because some figured out that it was Andy whom I drew looking so stupid, since all the other characters represented someone in class.

2) Cranbrook - B-Ham Holy Name Elementary School had a field trip today. As the day went on, both 6th grade classes just started chanting my name. At one point, Andy told them to boo me when I walked in to teach and cheer for Julie and Monica. Well, they got louder for me, and I just did the Sheed so Andy could see and hear the chants. I also made Andy aware of which one of us actually got invited to go to their school to visit. In addition, I was selected as favorite teacher, and class that I taught there. So many kids kept saying they were inspired by what I used to teach that they went to the gift shop to buy the same things. Plus the kids wrote letters to their teachers to ask me to come visit too. Big piece of humble pie to Andy, who declared himself as the best teacher at Cranbrook.

3) EED 302 - When I do things in this class, I do it because I don't agree with our prof. Peeps find it funny because I will challenge my prof's authority. At the same time, Andy just tries to be funny so he can get the attention from everyone. Well, I got a laugh from his crew, and he kept telling them that it wasn't funny what I did. However, they told him that it was.

4) EED 302 - How much I dislike Andy? Well we were suppose to be in the same groups for our Math project. We already know that we do not like this other girl because she seemed wacked to us. However, I switched out of that group to hook on to Kim's because if I was in that group any longer, I'd probably knock Andy out eventually. However, his face of shock was so funny because now he has to do more of the work. Which eventually means he is screwed.

After all that went on this week, by today he has been more than transparent bout how much he dislikes me. Which is fine by me, because I just brush it off cuz I can do that now with a smile :)

My Jr. Church kids are soooo sweet too, Jessica, Anna, Emily, Daniel, and Andrew all wrote me a letter to my house.

What's Your Fantasy?

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Reloaded - I am back again, finally on the internet. Most peeps know why I haven't been on for a week now. But I figure I'll fill peeps in for those who don't know. Pretty much my computer had a corrupted file which caused my computer to crash. Thanks to Stan, and his 4 hours plus working on my computer tonight, he brought it back to life. However, I still need to finish installing a few more things.

As I do that, I am also in the process of trying to get caught up with blogs, xangas, email, fantasy sports, etc.... This past week, I never realized how much I depend on the internet. I felt so out of the loop when I could not contact peeps via email or read peeps blogs to find out how they are doing. At the same time, it really is sad though that because of this technology sometimes friendships are more superficial through it. Some peeps just don't feel they have "time" to drop a dime or pick up their line.

I honestly think the week of isolation has really given me a chance to cool off. There is a certain number of peeps pissing me off, I'm thankful for Monica for listening the other night. Woohoo she has cable now and a new laptop! Anyways, I still gotta take care of some business. Oh wait one last thing, man this is why I like it now when JJ or PapaWong cut my hair cuz they know what they are doing. Should of never let this senior touch my hair too much, oh well at least I can sports the rags and visors now.

Revolution