Now, I know I can always say no but I feel bad to turn people down. So it's about 2:15 a.m. and now I get to wake up in a couple of hours to head down to Ann Arbor to pick up Elaine then head to Detroit together for work. So looks like K Dawg will be in A2 for the next couple of days just chilling like a villain. I hope I have the energy to finish off this week strong because even after a day of rest, and tonight playing v-ball, boy does my body still have a lot of sores, bumps, and bruises. I take a licking but I still keep ticking. The only thing is how long can I keep up this schedule of 5 days of practice and 6 days of work all on only at least 4-5 hours of sleep? And how did this splinter get in my finger?

Live For The Moment

Thank God for my spiritual gift in my sense of driving and knowing my streets around Detroit. Today, I left pretty early for work, but dang that construction on 75 that slowed me down incredibly. And since I'm in charge for the week it would look bad if I was late. So where did I go? I exited onto Caniff, and zig zagged my way through Caniff, Oakland, Grand Blvd. and Woodward to make it to work with 15 minutes to spare. Kind of ironic that I had to use this way, the day after Chrissy and I were discussing about the crappy road of Mack now.

And again more driving, we took the kids to WCCC to see the NASA Weather Center out in western campus of Wayne Community College. Elaine was upset that she had to lead everyone to WCCC while I took off without them. So coming back to ACA, she decided to take off without us and to get the lead and be the first one back. Again, when it comes to driving mess wit the best die wit the rest. So she had her little head start, but now probably one of the dumbest things I could ever do. Elaine and I decided to race all the way back on 94, and boy she talks about my driving. Dude, she was cutting people off, and not even paying attention to what's in front of her, ahem because there are things called brakes that she needs to use when she sees other car's red lights light up. Mean while on my part yeah I was going 100 mph, with 4 kids inside but I would like to think that I was more aware of my speed and surroundings. The funny part was Ayinde started laughing when we got back after he heard what happened. He just kept saying no contest in a race with a Grand Prix GT vs. a Taurus.

And I think today is truly my day of rest well at least after work. With so much soccer, v-ball, and b-ball going on now, it's been hard to get my downtime to rest and relax. But again it was nice to get off of work visit my grandparents, then head on over to Troy Sports Center, to just relax and watch Crystal, and Wei do their ice skating lessons. And finally one kid actually likes me this session since this session Elaine and I are viewed as the bad counselors since we need to regulate all the kids. But I'm so happy that Jenny wanted me as her couselor and she is so cute with her smirk and little pink tails. But I'm bummed that Amy is going to China tomorrow because she has her own set tails. And thank God we did not watch Jimmy Neutron today for the first time ever it seems like. I am thinking about exposing the kids to Transformers The Movie tomorrow. Hopefully they'll be into that since it is a little before there time.

Autobots!!!!!!!!!
Live For The Moment

It's like I'm paranoid lookin over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

What a day, first going to KUMC for their v-ball tournament. It was nice to play in a tournament that was like only a 10 minute drive for me. I first heard about this tournament 2 years ago, when KUMC saw Phil and I play, and they wanted us to play for their team. They told us to meet them on Thursday night at there place to practice with them. What happens, is that they left us hanging, hence my seeking revenge on them for that. Ooooh yeah I remember that day like it was yesterday. And last year Joyce played in it and was able to come into second place. So today, thanks to my great teammates, I was able to put everything to bed. What sucked was that they kept wanting us to play KPC in the finals and always fixed the tournament for that to happen. I mean yeah it should be the final, but it is not fair for the other teams. Another thing was that due to the lack of competition, I didn't have to go into my S.S. 2 mode and barely had to go only to S.S. Which sucks because I always just stand there and sometimes have my mental lapses because I get bored. And the trash talking wars have already begun for the Korean Independence Day tournament. Don't these people know, this only gets me going to lay the smackdown on them even more.

Woof Woof Woof

And after the tournament, I went to the CBC Family Fun Day to see if I can catch the OCC kids in time. Of course I just missed them and it was true that I did know one of the kids. Lindsay, told me that a kid named Zhao was looking for me. I totally praise God for this because he was one of my favorite kids from last year's camp. Zhao, Andrew, and Jason were known as the 3 bad boys of our camp to all the counselors, but they would always listen to what I had to say to them. Again, praise God that he goes to the OCC Youth Group, so I skipped the rest of the CBC Family Fun Day with Lindsay to go to OCC. It was my first time ever going to the Youth Group, and it was a true blessing for me. Not only did I see Zhao, I made a couple of new friends. And it was cool that my boy Jimmy was there so I had another person to talk to as well. First off Zhao is still the same kid and I'm glad that he remembers that I am still Slim Shady, but he still listens to me and I hope we can keep in contact through email. Dave and Joey let me work with a small group of high schoolers for there class and it was a lot of fun. A kid named Andy is only 15 and yet he has his own cell phone and palm pilot! But the person that I came really close too is a girl named Kylene (16). She shared with me her faith or lack of right now, as she is seeking what is right for her. She told me that she's been a mormon for quite some time now and has decided to stop and head into a new direction. I'm glad that we hit it off right away because I went to go play some football with Zhao and the other kids, she sat on the bleachers and wanted to hold my keys and shades. After that, we were able to talk between us, and I continued to try to get to know her better to see where she is coming from.

My plan now is to go back to their youth group next week. I know we have the English Praise Nite and maybe I'll stick around for it just for a little then head back to OCC. And I got the ACA picnic to take care of in the afternoon, so next Saturday should be a long day. But I look forward to going back to OCC's Youth Group and getting to know some of the kids better. For those of you reading this, please do this for me:

Please pray for Kylene, to come back to the Youth Group next Saturday. It was only her 2nd time being there so I hope to get a chance to talk to her. And just pray for her journey on knowing God more. And pray for that one day she will accept Jesus as her Lord and Savior.

You are my all in all

Lately there's been this beverage competition going on between coke and pepsi again. Pepsi comes out with that Lemon Twist and Coke counters with Vanilla Coke, and now Pepsi comes out with Pepsi Blue. I finally tasted it the other day and boy does that stuff taste kind of funky. I mean whatever happened to Crystal Clear Pepsi? Now there's some good stuff.

Woohoo KUMC tournament is only a few hours away. Time to lay the smackdown on every single jabroni that gets in Young Christian Fellowship's way! Here comes the pain because I am The Game and it's time to play The Game!

In The End

It's amazing how last week I was watching an episode on Boy Meets World and it talked about racism. Why? Because today at work, Elaine tried to talk to the kids about racism and culture. She asked all the kids if any of them tried making friends the day before when we were planting flowers with another youth group in Detroit. And one of the kids responded by saying no, and we asked why not? The kid replies back "I hate black people" and he is only going into kindergarten. I was shocked and upset that a kid his age would say such a thing. Like did he understand how powerful those words are? Did he know any better or did he get it from his parents? Worst of all, my boy Ayinday was sitting next to me, and although he said he was cool, I think in the inside he was hurt because I know he loves these kids a lot too. James 3 talks all about the destruction of the tongue, so small but yet so powerful.

And what a rush after work, drive to Ann Arbor to drop Elaine off, then head back to soccer practice, then to have a CBC meeting which went as long as to 3:00 a.m.! Boy what a long week this was indeed. I'm glad that I got the chance though to get to know Elaine better, and it was nice of her to treat me to dinner. Although I hate it when a girl pays for me, call it my sexist pride or whatev's. And I finally saw my pic's at Bubble Island, and I saw the G force and Jimmy's too. Then off to soccer practice and we finally got our jerseys! However on my jersey, it was suppose to be 21 but they messed it up and made it a 12. And someone else already has 12, so they made my jersey into 112. Geee how many players have 3 digits on the back of their jersey! Everyone was saying that I could mean that I am a special player, but I look at it as that I am a retarded player that can't even pick a jersey number right. However, God does provide, and there were a couple of extras left, a number 20 and 6. So I picked # 6 because Erick picked it but I don't think he'll be playing since he is leaving this week. So in respect to him, I'll wear his number so in some sort of way he is still with us on the field. I'm gonna miss him.

And I can't wait till work next week at ACA. My supervisor will be gone for the week on vacation so I am left in charge. Mwahahaha, is she crazy for giving me this power? Well like Uncle Ben said in Spiderman, with great power comes great responsibility. So now I got a week's worth of lessons to prepare for the kids, in order for me to enjoy my power :) As Cartman would say "Respect my authoritaaaaay"

Time 2 Go 2 The Xtreme & Live For The Moment

Today, I went to the Hands On Museum in Ann Arbor with my kids. I was glad that I could handle 10 kids all by myself. While all the other counselors handled about 6-7 amongst them. I miss all the kids from last session that came today, Aoxue, Shuang, Nancy, Jessie, Jamie, Crystal, Henry, Jimmy, Phillip, and Wei. I'm disappointed that I missed Crystal's call as I was playing v-ball tonight. Now it won't be till another week I won't see these guys and for some others maybe a year :(

So tonight it was time to play The Game. And I bought Trust Company's new cd today which only cost $6 at Best Buy. So what does this song say? Here ya go,

Am I breaking
Can I break away
Push me away
Make me fall
Just to see
Another side of me
Push me away
You can't see
What I see
The other side of me
Fall back on me
I'll be the strength I need
To save me now
Just come face to face with me
Stay in place you'll be
The first to see
Me heal from these wounds
Step down

I feel that I'm gonna need to kick it up a notch this year for v-ball. And I am looking forward to it, while helping others elevate there games as well. Someone told me tonight that they felt the court I was playing on, seemed like "we were out for blood", hehehe that's the way I like it. However I wished I played better such as better passing would of been nice. It was great to play with Lindsay again tonight. It's been like 2 months now since we've last played v-ball together. Well now that I feel my body has gotten enough rest, time to go to bed so I can wake up in a couple of hours for worky work and then more v-ball. What more can a guy ask for?

Running from me

Their is no holding me back
I'm not driven by fear
Whatever you need
Whatever you got
Whatever you want
I'll take back again

For the past couple of days, it's been taking me a lot longer to get to work such as an hour to drive down to Detroit. However the other day it took me an hour and 20 minutes to work compared to today's 35 minute drive. And looking at the schedule, I noticed that my work load at ACA is gonna start picking up after this week as many counselors/supervisiors will be in and out. I'm excited because a lot more is expected out of me to keep everything and everyone in check. Tomorrow, my African-American Brotha, Ayinday is coming back to help out for a couple of days. Like we told everyone at camp last week, we just 2 brotha's born from 2 different mutha's and we can't be separated.

I'm excited as I finally got the ok from CBC to start CCUC practice on Wednesday nights. Tick, tock, tick, tock, the countdown is on for The Rattlesnake to be coming back to Chi-Town. I'm pumped, I'm pissed, and I'm ready to go to lay the smackdown on every team that's gets in Team Bring It way. Last year, my theme song was Linkin Park's "In The End" to get me going throughout the tournament. I think I might of found my song for this year and it comes out tomorrow, Trust Company's "Downfall". Well hopefully my team doesn't going into a downfall but the lyrics is what's gonna get me going. I heard from WWE's Vengenace last night and so how appropriate that I'll play it this Saturday at KUMC's tournament. Because I still remember a couple years ago they left Phil and I hanging one day at there church for v-ball. i was more pissed than Phil because I took a day off to play v-ball with them. And when we got there no one was there and we waited for a more than an hour for them. Ever since then I've been itching to get some crack at those who left us hanging. Yeah it sounds bad on my part, and I know it's something I gotta work on. But I doubt I can do much against them because this will be my first outdoor grass tournament that I've ever played on. So if I kept to pumped up, this Saturday could be a humbling experience for me. Man I need to play on grass this week to see what adjustments I need to make!

Live For The Moment

Ok, finally and The Rattlesnake means finally I am able to do something with this thing again. One thing that happened last week that I wanted to point out was Wednesday night. It was great, to go out to Olive Garden for a great big dinner one last time with Lynnette and Erick. Achi left for China already and I heard that she is ok so praise the Lord for that. Erick is leaving this Saturday, and I think back about the first time I met him. The one thing I'll miss most about Emoy is our passion for WWE. Now I got no one to talk about that with at CBC. Good luck to him though as he departs to Beantown, I'm sure gonna miss him as well.

So today it was pouring rain, and I'm walking out thinking dang it I forgot to close my moonroof. So I'm walking out, close it and I come back in. Next thing you know people are pointing at all these different cars with there windows down. So what did I do? I decided to break into all those peoples' cars and roll there windows up for them. I come back in, and people saw what I have been doing so, for those with power windows, gave me the keys to there cars to do their windows. By the time I was done, I looked as if I rode Snake River Falls a couple of times.

So tonight all my pals, went to go see Lilo & Stitch. Yeah I wanted to go see it with them and chill with them. But a couple of my cousin's friends wanted to play b-ball. And we played for money 2 on 2 b-ball at Basketball Zone, and one my opponents was All State. So I didn't want to go to high on how much we are playing for not till I scouted him first. After one game up to 21, it was 23 - 2 my cousin and I just laid the smackdown on them. The funny thing was that I scored all 23 points. So I'm thinking either they are just messing with me to hustle me for $$$ or this guy couldn't make the All Neighborhood team. So a couple of more games which actually got closer, but my cousin and I remained undefeated and we made a nice little profit. Here's the worst part though, I scored more points in that first game (23 pts.) than my opposition combining there first 2 games.

Another thing is that, some people say that this is gambling. I tend to disagree with that playing b-ball for money. I used to do this as a kid, because it was the only way to make some $$ for myself. I look at today as a side job which I worked hard for and made some cash. Gambling is going to the casino, playing b-ball for money is just a job. It was a nice feeling to be victorious and to take my shirt off with like a pound of sweat all over it. Yes today was a wet day for me.

Finally, praise God for bringing Team Alaska home!

Midwest Swing

Woohoo finally I am able to submit my entry in. It took me like a week to figure this thing out. So my last entry that reads July 13th should actually be July 7th. Dumb blogger!

Anyways, yeah a lot has happened to me this past week with my ACA kids. I've built a closer relationship with Crystal and Wei's family. You'll hear about it more this week because I need to get my booty to bed in order to wake up in time to worship Our God. And I tomorrow I got an interesting b-ball game at Metro Hoops. My cousin Damon needs me to be his partner to play against these 2 guys he knows from work. One of them is supposedly All State a couple years ago from Lanse Cruese. Ummm can you say the Butt Pilots from what we used to call them. Anyways yeah 2 on 2 seems harmless right? Oh but no, there is money involved in these games. So hopefully I can make some quick cash against these guys. Time for bed!

Rhythm Of My Heart

This is probably my most emotional blog ever, ok so I said the day before that yesterday was gonna be an emotional day for me at ACA. Never did I imagine how emotional I got as the first half of camp just ended. Throughout the day, Sophia kept crying because it was her last day and her family is moving to Windsor this Saturday. Let me tell you something about Sophia, she is still one of my fav's even from last year. Because she was my first pokemon of the camp last year, I named her Pikachu respectively. She is my little buddy too, and she always tells everyone about how much I make her happy and that I'm her best friend. She wrote me a letter to the best of her ability and I will keep it with me forever. As her dad came to pick her up, she was crying so loud and so I decided to walk her to their car. As I put her in the back seat, my eyes started to water but I kept my tears in because I knew between the two of us I had to be the stronger one. Then I got one last wave from her as her dad drove off then I just sat at the corner of the street, and finally let my tears just all come out. Crystal came out to see if I was ok and she tried to comfort me by giving me a big hug. But I told her to just go back in and just let me be alone. I walked back in after my tears were gone, and yeah Elaine and my supervisors were giving me a hard time about my crying. But it's different for them, because I built a strong bond with Sophia from last year. I wish her the best of luck as her family crosses the border. She is my little buddy and will always be my little buddy. I pray that God will guide us to crossing paths in the future.

The whole crying incident reminded me of that episode of Full House, when Uncle Jessie told Michelle that he and Becky were moving out. Uncle J cried after he walked out of Michelle's room. Anyways, so as I was just talking to Crystal, her mom comes to pick her up. And my mood suddenly changed, because her mom talked to me about maybe babysitting Crystal and Henry in the near future. She also gave me there info to keep in touch just like Sophia did. Her mom told me to come over whenever I feel like it. Crystal invited me to see her and Wei at ice skating practice, so I think I will do that after work this Monday. After she left, my supervisor wanted me to go to a group dinner with her and a bunch of other clubs of Detroit. As I drove to the dinner thing, I drove right by Nancy riding her bike on Forest, and dang it for that one way street. So of course I was late for the dinner thing, because I tried so hard driving all around WSU looking for Nancy. Then I was upset again because I couldn't find her and I just sat at dinner bummed and left out because these people seemed pretty high up on the club heiarchy, while me is still at the bottom.

So after dinner, I was still kind of bummed and I couldn't see myself going to soccer practice. So I called, Jamie and Jessie's mom (other fav's of mine from this past session) to let me know that Jamie left his pencil pouch at ACA and that I can drop it off sometime next week. Her mom was ok with it, but I could hear Jessie's voice in the background saying "tell him to come now" repeatedly. So her mom told me to come over because Jessie really misses me already. I never realized that I made such an impact to Jessie to saying that because she was always so shy during camp. When I got to her house, as usual she was shy, and her mom was telling me before I came that she kept telling her "I miss Kenny". Their parents invited me in and the longer I stayed, Jessie told me that she misses me 100%, and I told her the same because she is my little brain. One thing about Jamie and Jessie is that, Jamie is unbelievably smart for his age. However his little sister Jessie, is the type of kid you see and say awww how cute, but she can cause chaos and get away with it. I can't believe her parents talked to me till almost midnight, and they let me say good night to the kids. I was also excited to hear that their parents would call me if they ever needed someone to look after Jamie and Jessie.

I'm still kind of choked up because of the fact that I might not see some of them ever again. And right now it's been hard for me to focus on anything but the kids, well God first then the kids. I'm not even sure if I can keep focus for b-ball tomorrow. When I first started this job I looked at all the rewards from meeting these kids. Now I see the painful side of this job. Again, I love these kids and I miss them already, and I doubt the next session will be the same as this past one.

Lord may You look after all of us and continue to protect us. Please lift up my little pal, Sophia, so young but yet going through adult like feelings already. Will I see them again? Only You know and I hope that I get that chance.

Amazing Grace

Thick and thin
From beginning to the end
Never do I lose
All I do is win

It's wierd how exactly at this time last week, I was driving through that never ending state. One thing that I was thinking about is that I'm glad that I'm really flexible with a lot of things in life. Like I can see myself totally living in NYC, because I love all the walking around and riding the subways. Another thing that was cool was enjoying some real bubble tea after all this suffering over here. Also Saturday night, we went out to dinner at Planet Hollywood and it was both our first time being there. So we tried to be sophisticated with the rest of the people eating around us, and we just went crazy ordering different type of drinks. Not your typical coke drink but like cocktail type drinks, and it's great that we were able to get them without the alcohol. It was even sweeter that we enjoyed every drink that we ordered.

Working at ACA today gave me a headache because a lot of these kids are spoiled. In a perfect world, yeah I would love to treat them all equally but some need different types of treatment. One of the kids, Phillip has now cried 3 times these last 2 out of 3 days. Like dude you're going into 4th grade, suck it up because all he keeps complaining about is how something is unfair. The first time was when we were playing a game, to teach the kids about prejudice and discrimination basing the game on income status. The kids who had a triangle are the poor peeps and the ones with the star are the wealthiest. So Phillip is crying because he had a triangle and that he wasn't getting as much money as others, which is the point of the game to show how people get treated differently because of income.

The 2nd time was today when we went back to our garden, and I was playing with these little fuzzy balls that came off this plant and it sticks to your shirt like velcro. So I was throwing them at everyone, but by the time we left, I threw them all away. However Phillip wanted to bring them back to ACA and I told him to get rid of it because dude I can totally see him throwing this stuff in the room. What happens, he cries because he said it's not fair that other kids get to bring back some plants while he can't bring back these little fuzz balls. Then I had to deal with his little sister, Emily who was complaining because Crystal wouldn't play with her and would play with Jessie instead. And she kept complaining about how it's not fair, that Crystal likes Jessie more.

And now the 3rd time of Phillip's crying was at the end of camp. Elaine, Crystal, and I were playing Scooby Doo Monopoly, and so Phillip tried to get his own game of regular monopoly going. He really wanted to play but yet he was complaining that he wanted to play but did not want to set it up. So Elaine made a comment and told him to stop whining, and I followed by asking him why does he like to whine so much. Again he starts to cry because we made those comments, and this time he went to the corner and had his little temper tantrum. And his little sis keeps asking me to tie her shoe, umm hello you can tie it yourself. And she keeps saying like "I'm waiting" or "Come on move it" like who the GG does she think she is, Princess D?

To me obviously is that these two are spoiled like crazy. And I don't know how they are treated at home but when you're in my camp, dude if you act like that then you're gonna get some tough love. To me is that they gotta start realzing that they can't get everything they want. My supervisor talked to me suggesting that maybe I should go a little bit easier on some of them. It's not like I'm trying to run a boot camp, but they have to start realzing this otherwise they are gonna continue to act like this. I'm glad that Elaine and I are on the same page with this. Plus I'm glad that she has as much passion as I do to really teach these kids and not be like just come in and play with them. Tomorrow will be an emotional day for me at work as well because it will be the last time I see my old fav's from last year, Sophia, Wei, and Jennifer with this year's fav's Crystal, Nancy, and Jessie. I'm gonna start praying that I can get some sort of chance to connect to them after tomorrow, to see how they are doing over this summer and build friendships as a counselor/student even deeper and get to know there parents because I really pray that one day they can attend CBC considering most of them are believers.

Are you still down?

What a rough day at work this morning, because I finally it happened. I was late to work by 10 minutes because I overslept. Actually I would of still made it there on time if it wasn't for these two GG heads who can't drive on 696 that had to hold all the cars up from the 75 exit all the way to Van Dyke. Then by the time I made it out to 75, dude what the GG is with all the traffic? It's because of bonehead drivers that made me late today otherwise I would of made it to work at a new record time.

I took my kids out to the International Institute today and I saw someone who really disliked me from last year. She is one of the peeps who run the II and I remembered last year she reported me to my supervisor because of my inappropriate behavior and my unwillingness to cooperate with her and instead took my kids to do other activities. But dude considering this is an international place and all this talk about unity amongst minorities, this lady today I felt like isolated my kids. And to make sure that it was just me, I asked my fellow counselors and they all said they felt offended by how she treated our kids. She was kind of like singling them out because they are the "chinese kids". Yes they are chinese, but dude you don't see me calling her kids, the african-american kids, I call them by there group's name such as Global Journey.She lucky we were only there for today otherwise I would of layed the same smackdown I did last year. However today after work I got to spend some time with one of my fellow counselors. And she asked me about my faith, and if I was a "hardcore Christian" or more of a Sunday Christian. I'm thankful that I got a chance to share with her my faith and where I stand, and it was cool to listen to what's going on in her spiritual walk. Somethings I was shocked about and hopefully I can be a good witness to her as well. You can bet I'm gonna pray for her too now.

After work I went to my grandparents place, and I stayed there till v-ball. Boy did it bring back memories because my grandparents are now babysitting my cousins Victor and Sonny. I feel bad for Sonny because for his age, he still can't really talk well. I think it is because he hears all sort of languages at home, my aunt would talk to him in Korean, my uncle would hit him up with Cantonese, and my cousin Vic would talk to him in English. Anyways staying at my g-parents place reminded me of how much I was raised in that same place while my parents were working. I'd remember going there early in the morning and seeing my cousins Alan, Wendy, and Fred and we'd all be playing outside. Then I'd bring my SNES and we would all play games. Now a days I always get annoyed with my grandparents because they do a lot of snobbish things sometimes. But I should be thankful that they helped my parents raise me and my sis. Staying there today made me realize how much toy-san (sp?) I forgot and I wish I can remember everything they have taught me. Whoa it's 3 a.m. I guess I better hit the sack if I wanna be at work on time at least.

Hmm let's end it with my saying from this past weekend,
All for you ;Þ

Well what a rough first day home already, I got home from NJ at 4:30 a.m. today. Did some cleaning and then took a nap for an hour and a half then bam wake up for work. By the time I get to work, I find out that we have a field trip today, and that it is all the way by Ann Arbor. Dang it more driving!!! The sad part is that I only got like an hour worth of sleep, yet the other counselors are yawning and just look drained. Ya know I warned them during our first meeting to always get rest, and that is what I learned from last year. Yet they don't listen to me, sheesh.

It was wierd actually driving to work today, after a weekend's worth of riding trains and subways. Yeah, we did a lot of fine dining over there but I know for a fact that we lost a lot of weight since we walked like at least 10 miles a day when we were in NYC. And now I'm looking more forward to CCUC as we both will probably be sporting some new kicks at this year's tournament. Maybe I'll give everyone a sneak peek at v-ball tomorrow as I unveil the Jordan 17's, his most recent shoe. What a deal too, I got them for only $150 and it came with little footie protectors. Thank You Lord for a fun filled, yet draining and nonetheless unforgettable 4th of July weekend. I'll probably say a little more about NYC in little tidbits this week as now I need to hit to what I have to come home to.

Ya know, I sign online to just check some mail, do my blog, and now I need to put up with someone from the Board to give me a 3rd degree about something in which I asked for authorization to do. Everyone excuse me for my language, but ya know one board member will tell me this and yet the other tells me something else on how to handle a situation. Like who do I listen to, and like these peeps make up our CBC leadership and yet they aren't even on the same page. Like they need to get there shit together because as usual it looks like I take the blame because one of them is so fricking old and can't recall what he said to me. It's either a cop out so he don't get blamed or he just too old to remember. Everyone keeps talking to me about there complaints of how CBC is like a democracy or how legalistic they are. And I defend the leaders of CBC, but totally sometimes I just gotta go with the otherside as much as I try to stay neutral. Sometimes they just go a little too far with there power of authority and it just makes me wanna serve and worship elsewhere. Like right now, again I say I wanna sign online and just relax, yet instead I get the 20/20 show to a whole another level. Well now I get this nice little report that's gonna go to the rest of the leadership, in which after reviewing it, of course it seems like I get the blame or that I am the scape goat. Gosh CBC politics gotta love it right? Yeah right I'm sick of this bullshit, but what can I do, maintain my bad boy image, heheh? Like if I made a mistake or that I'm wrong, yeah I can own up to it, because that is how we learn, through our mistakes. But dude some members have like expectations on us that we are all fricking perfect. I still wonder which fricking book we go by, The Bible or CBC's Red Handbook.

One last thing, I'm reading this thing and this person is from HK ya know. And so this person says they are proud of there FOB heritage, yet they can not stand FOB's. So I'm left to scratching my head, does that mean you can not stand yourself? It's like saying that I'm proud to be born here yet I hate the USA. And then it goes on to say, this person wished they spoke english in Canada. Uh yeah, the preferred language in Canada is not english nor chinese, it is french. Now doesn't that make this person a true FOB for not knowing that and can't stand themself? It's wierd how this person wants to speak english and yet contradicts themselves in there little I can't stand FOB campaign. Man peeps just need to correct there grammar.

I Stand Alone
Live For The Moment

Last night as dead tired as I was......sitting in my hotel room, I had some time to reflect upon the past couple of days. And of course, God's power is so awesome that the message I heard today really helped complete my train of thought. The message was about Who will deliver us from Judges 2:6-18. My last few minutes here are counting down as we speak. Yeah I'm kind of bummed about leaving because it just seemed like I got here not to long ago. And I kept staring at this picture of a mermaid that a student of mine, Crystal drew for me. I kept thinking about this is what I'll be going back home to. Work, practice, and driving day in and day out, is that what I really want? The past few days have been like a fantasy to me just chilling like a villain, relaxing, enjoying the sights and sounds, and eating good food! Well the message this morning hit home to me, and it's not about what I want, which is yeah kind of stay out here a little more. It's about what God wants from me and the message was about who will reach out to the next generation of kids who do not know who God is or what He has done. So I keep thinking about all the kids that I teach and all the kids at CBC, and I really miss them. I love them all so much that it's getting me a little teary eyed right now. Do I want to stay out here for a little bit and ride subways and trains? Yeah I do, but it's selfish of me to think that way. I love the kids too much to leave them hanging. So I guess I'm gonna take off now, see y'all reading this back on the flipside.

I'm coming home
Recharged physically, mentally, and spiritually
And it's time to get down and dirty
Why?
Because I live for the moment

I just had an interesting thought after watching this movie. Yeah call me a loser for blogging after I thought it would be awhile from now. The movie was about this chef who is a mute. He is a great cook but more importantly he has the passion to help people out of there probs. The sad part is that he has this condition where he has an air bubble in his brain and that it might burst. And if it bursts then boom his life is over. He believes that he has an expiration date on his life now. So he chooses to live out his remaining days to helping everyone to the best of his abilities. Towards the end of the movie, it looked like he was about to die but little do you know he survives. And all the people he helped now had a different look on life. The people all had some sort of risk they were afraid to take and seemed complacent (sp?) at where they were at. All of a sudden they all changed and took each other's own risk all because of one man.

I love helping people, there is nothing better than to see the joy of others being happy. I always wondered what if I knew my expiration date of my life. Who would I change how I live or how I did things? What if everyone knew they there were gonna pass away? How would we all live then? Death comes to us all, well physically at least. What if like my expiration date was to be tomorrow or now? Did I ever leave some sort of legacy here for others to follow? Did I help people overcome there fears or maybe change how someone lives there lives now? Ultimately, no one knows when they will die, only God knows. if everyone knew when they would die, would they take on more challenges? Would I do the same thing? I guess I've been thinking about this for the past 24 hours after listening to this wanna be Cher singing "If I Could Turn Back time" and being asked if I could do things differently, would I change how I did things? I wish I knew that answer, parts of me wanna say yes because of what You have taught me now Lord. Then again parts of me wanna say no because I am a bit ignorant and stubborn as well.

Like I said before, live for the moment
Team Xtreme

Well this will probably be my last entry for the weekend as I head on out that lonely road of faith. 4th of July is tomorrow and it's usually a great time for me because I love blowing stuff up. But dude I'll be pissed if some crazy bomber is like running loose around NYC or some other place since the U.S. is on a heighten alert for the weekend. The past couple of days, the weather has been great upper 90's. Oh man I wonder if Michigan can push past 100 this year? Working out in this weather now and not really turning on the AC at home or in the car, I am so used to this sunshine and heat index.

And speaking of the heat, yesterday I took my kids to a field trip around Detroit. Yeah lot's to see right? But I feel so bad for Aoxue because she got sun burnt and we weren't even outside for that long and she had sun screen on. And her skin has a very nice golden tone so I don't know what happened. And I learned that little Jessie gets motion sickness when we were riding the people mover. And I was playing Monopoly with Elaine, Jimmy, Nancy, and Wei, and I learned one thing, I really miss this game. Dude they blew me out of the game as well, the only freaking property that I owned was the cheap little purple properties. At one point I only had a $500 bill left lucklily Nancy loves me so much that she kept hooking me up with cash to stay in the game. Well it's almost time to go to work, then off to Rucker Park baby! I wonder if they will let me play ball with them?

And speaking of ball, people have been throwing there last minute pitches of v-ball or b-ball this year. So many questions to answer, it will all come down to the final conclusion soon enough. I guess I really should hold a press conference at CBC this year. Oh well, yay Wings we got Cujo baby!

Oh and one last thing, I don't know if this is a knock on me but just checking out someone's xanga site. And yeah this person used the same lines as me, and I can't tell if it is some rip on me. But anyways, I'll be better and not say anything and here's a clue for everyone else. Always remember I am an originator, never a duplicator. Aight peace, I'm out this joint!

Today I live for the moment
Not to live and let die

God bless everyone else who are leaving for vacation, may He protect everyone of us from the evil one.

Praise the Lord most high as something incredible happened at Day Camp again. Last year, I remembered as Joyce and I were leaving work, the secretary Tracy asked us about our faith. She was curious about our church and we invited her to come, but at the time she pointed to something else that she believes in. However today after work, I stayed again and put in some overtime, and we talked about church. She was talking to me that lately she's been feeling like going to a church but she doesn't know why she is getting that feeling. Lord, I know it's gotta be You who is knocking on her heart. I just wanna pray that You can use me as a vessel to do Your Will. I love Tracy, she is only like 26 but funny and she always treats me the best. She always warns the other counselors about me because of how I can get all the kids to turn against them and all that. Anyways, I pray that she will come check out CBC and that I can be there to make her feel welcomed.

Another incredible thing today was during lunch, I got the usual Crystal and Wei praying. However, Nancy and Jessie prayed today too. And the funny thing is, I know Nancy goes to church but I don't think Jessie does and she just followed the rest of the girls. Today I built a closer relationship with Nancy as well, I'm trying to teach her about when and how to rebuke people. Yeah of all people me teaching that, but I think she gets the idea now. I'm glad that Crystal and Wei were happy too now that I am there counselor. Just seeing them happy and excited to learn and be with me is just an unbelievable experience. Ya know I use to call it work now at Day Camp, but from now I think I'm gonna start calling this a ministry to me. My mission is to just reach out to these kids even more without crossing that boundary of preaching and teaching.

Can You Feel It