Bananas - So I had some time to reflect on a lot of things while cruising down 401. Yeah, my parents hate it when it I drive their Yukon as if it was my car. But hey they should be happy that we got there a whole lot faster too. I mean the Yukon can only reach 100 mph. Anyways, one of my thoughts were of what I saw this past Sunday. It reminded of me of what the B-Hater was blogging about a month ago. I witnessed a hit n run at CBC! I was standing outside, and watchin it from beginning to the end. Other people saw it too, which bugged me even more. I know who was the culprit, but I do not know the victim. What had happened was the culprit scratched the victim's car, pretty badly. The other witnesses checked out the damage then encouraged the culprit to just take off, like it was no big deal. I mean they were all like chuckling about it. Dude is it just me or is there something wrong with this picture? I don't know what to do because the culprit is also someone who has been very hospitable to me. So I feel like a backstabber if I report it or something. Then again, this only proves another point I've been trying to make in the past, CBC has some wreckless drivers.

Coming back from T-O, I sat at the border for nearly 2 hours! I even turned the engine off a few times, did some stretching and walking in the middle of 402. Although it gave me some time to listen to the cds I bought at Pac-Mall, Jay Chou's 2K4 Concert, and Yan Zi's recent cd. My auntie in T-O told me bout the wedding takin place in August and where everything was at. My fam, from HK and England will be there for this! I'm excited because I really want to see my Cuzzie Nora and meet her hubby. Plus I wanna see their 2 lil ones too! I built my first ever snowman with Nora when she came here back when I was a lil punk. Because of the date of the wedding, the bride and groom will have 2 reception dinners. The 2nd one is only for the immediate fam of the bride and groom, and the fam representin the D, yeah baby that's me. However, my student teachin schedule plays in conflict with this. But ya know, I'm done with Magahay and I'm not missin this chance to see some of my fam that I haven't seen since I was 4. That's why I decided, I'm leavin early again from Magahay. I wanna see my kids at Iroquois for one last time and see the teachers there. Last time I went, some of the teachers told me how I made an impact on a lot of them after I left.

Side note, ok so I am learning that I guess places do open on Memorial Day. Dude I thought this was a holiday type of thingy?

Wai Po

Memory Day - The goal on Sunday was not forget everything that I was doing. I started strong by ending my Sunday School class on time to welcome the So Sisters to CBC then bust out the Retreat promo. However, I weakened at the end because I lost my notes somewhere in transition of what I had prepared for the Children's message. Man, I had to give the message off everything that I remembered from preparing. I felt so unprepared, and I only pray the message stuck out to them.

Then I had a flashback moment at CBC, I ran into Way. He and my cuz used to always play ball back in the Canterbury dayz. He was a part of our 3 on 3 war tournaments, or 4 on 4. It's so wierd how, he knew Fred and Stephen back in the day. Way's favorite player was Allan Houston back then when the Pistons first drafted him. That's how far back we go, and he used to be one of the most physical players back then. The thing I remembered about him most, was after we'd all play ball. Most of us would jump right into video games, but not him. He was always and most of the times the only one who showered right after ball.

Then the rest of the day, I spent with Ona, and DenDen. I keep forgetting that DenDen is leaving so soon. It's like another long teammate of mine is gone, and I can only hope for the best for him. We went to Kensington for Abe's V-ball/BBQ Invitational and it was really fun. Ona heard peeps talkin bout DenDen and my ability, or how good we played. Gotta represent the Asians. I also went on the swings, man has it been awhile since I done that. I finally found a Jimmy John's on the Westside, in Novi!

Anyways, time to go to T-O soon and do the same old thing, eat, see fam/friends, shop, and train.

Battery

Wookies - Man was I like a loser today. I got out of PS early and I kept thinking yeah I'm gonna do some homework. However, I decided to take care of some wedding gifts first. Then temptation hit me hard, or obsession which ever one you want to call it. I wanted a lightsaber so bad, I liked shop all over the Lakeside area to find out. Man those things are freaking popular! Sold out everywhere for the cool ones. I spent over an hour at Media Play, Wal-Mart , Target, Meijer, Toys R Us, and lookin online for it. I went to Best Buy and I bought the soundtrack as a consolation prize. However, during my night class it just didn't feel the same. So, being the crazed idiot that I am, I decided to shop all over Rochester before stores were closing. To no avail, did I find my cool lightsaber :( Was I over it? Nope, I decided to look for one online and purchase one of these bad boys. At first, I was excited because it was actually cheaper then what they were selling for in the stores. Until I saw the shipping and handling cost, it doubled what I am paying for! Oh well, what I learned in ECON, demand vs supply and the fact that there is a sucker born every minute. Woohoo, I am getting my own lightsaber! Does this make me cool now?

R2

GE? - Wow, things just keep getting freakier as each day passes by. Something about those doors I am beginning to notice now.

So lately, my evening class RDG 414 there have been complaints about the loud, talkative, rude, and obnoxious peeps in the class. Amazingly, I am not one of them because I just sit in the back and handly my business. The class is broken into 3 long rows of 45 peeps. So our prof. opened up class today by talkin bout seating arrangements. The talkative side, were pissed that people were complaining bout them and attacked them during class. While the complainers were trying to prove their point to the prof. Me, I'm still chillin in the middle of the battlefield listening to both sides.

During break, the talkers were trying to seek out all the complaining suspects since they are not totally sure who they are. I, finally had enough and spoke to the talkers privately. So they understood where I was coming from. Peace was restored for now, I just don't know how long this will last. Hopefully, I can help our prof. continue to maintain that peace so I guess it does help I sit in the middle back making sure both sides are cool with one another.

Greyhound

Batista - The past few days, I feel like there have been a lot of doors placed in front of me. I kind of struggled with just pickin that one door. So I decided to kind of crack each door open to get a sneak peek. Each one that I cracked open reminded me of the past in which I want to leave behind. However, it has come back in a new form and for now I have sealed off those doors. I believe I sealed one door so hard that it is broken now and I feel bad. Crossroads?

Then everything seemed right, tonight at KUMC. Some of their big guns came out and now I got a chance to see what I'm up against this year. Tonight, I truly realized that Howie and Billy are playing with KUMC and how much harder I played to continue to improve. I think I finally mastered it too, the 1 hand set! After performin another one, Howie said that it was a sweet set. I know it's good when he says it, I've been workin on it ever since Mikey taught me a few months ago. Playin 4's tonight was fun and they were gunnin for me. As Howie said, that's respect when they got 2-3 blockers on you. Will YCF make a 4 peat?

Ain't Nothing Bout You

The Force - So opening night, a few of us did the unthinkable, caught the midnight opening show of Star Wars III. Mike, Fred, Larry, and I went to go see the birth of Darth Vader. Having such a long day today, because of the short night, I had a chance to really reflect about something that I am getting frustrated about. It's kind of funny how His timing works, because I just got a call from someone I haven't heard from in a while. I'm glad He has been looking after her in her time of recovery.

It's been tough as I am really driven this semester to not procrastinate in everything. I want to finish up everything so before I leave for HK, I have accomplished everything. However, outside of homework, everything is just fallen apart almost. Like I went down to ACA today, to plan ahead on things, and it pisses me off that the counselor I want to work has yet to turn in his application. And he keeps telling me that he wants to come back too. So I cannot get a start on ACA. Then there are His ministries that I am doing my best to put my best effort into it so His glory will shine. Even that is lagging, whether it be VBS or Retreat I mean I wish people would respond to email or the phone call. Any sort of acknowledgement at this point will do to show me that you are alive. I feel as if I am being ignored like I have the plague. Some peeps I expected this, but college on up I don't even know what to say.

People wonder why I like to do things alone. Well this is why, I hate depending or asking for help from others. Here I am sitting here wanting to push forward with anything but I can't. Because whatever I try to start with, I need to wait for someone's part to get back to me. Maybe I'll just give myself a deadline, because I am tired of chasing people around. Yes, deadline by this Sunday otherwise screw it I'll do it on my own. Service should be joyful........Yoda "patience, may the force be with you."

Forbidden Fruit

Heavyweight Champs - His timing works in miraculous ways. I've been playing with a couple of my teammates for the past few years now for v-ball. Sometimes I wonder if they will ever come to know Him. Today, I heard from another sister at KUMC how a couple of my teammates have been really committed to going to their worship! I can just feel His presence working in my teammates, and at the same time strengthening another teammate. I am just so happy for them and I ask that He continues to work in them.

However, I also found out they will not be my teammates this year in the tournaments. All I can do about that is continue to improve myself to carry the load. I am thinking bout doing what the Pistons did at their home opener this year. I plan on wearing my WWE Championship belt to remind peeps that we're defending champs. Cocky? En, everyone knows that I'm a jokster at KUMC anyways, plus gotta love Sheed.

In other news, I say yes to help out at VBS because my schedule is a little flexible. What do I find out now? I am in charge of the Field Day for VBS, how the G did that happen? The only positive to this is that this will be my chance to help out more with the Youth Ministry. As if the Retreat committee was not enough, yikes but I have faith that through His power He will give me the strength to serve.

Cinderella

Slurpee - Yes, a rare Saturday update but I thought this was significant to me. I took the day off today for Dre's BBQ Party. However, during class my heart did not really want to go anymore just because I can only imagine everyone be drinking and stuff. I went to my G-parents to visit and spend some more time with them. I was happy to see my cousin Victor there, although he was quite bored. Understandable, I mean I remember at his age I felt the same way, but he was there. The other knuckleheads that are my cousins have yet to visit giving lame excuses. Anyways, I kept thinkin what I was going to do with the rest of my day off?

As the day went on, I realized I was hungry. Hungry for food! I kept lookin at the date 5-14, kind of ironic. I needed to be spiritually fed, after all I haven't been gettin it at CBC with teaching Sunday School and leading Jr. Church. So I went to OCC because I had somethings to take care. I joined up with Dave, Lindsay, and Joey there. Little did I know that it was a special service that night, and I was excited to see so many peeps get baptised there. Just sitting, watching, listening, singing, and worshipping with others, wow that's an experience I haven't had in a while.

Afterwards, of course being some what new to most, I only talked to certain peeps that I remember. However, PTL for blessin a guy like Bo and we had a great time of fellowship and getting to know each other. Then, I met another sista, Niu and we had lots of fun together. We had our own Slam Dunk contest in the sanctasium :) I hung out with a lot of the Youth over here, and just like the best part is it's not like D-Ship/YTF type of thing. We're all created in our own unique way. But ya know we all went out to 7-11 at midnight to chill, and talked bout going to the movies. Just no Parental Care (PC) was the major part, we had some sport playa's in here too, so great time of interaction. I even got a chance to give some v-ball tips to the girls who were workin on their game, played some ball with the guys, and just kicked back. This was truly a night that I needed to recharge my batteries and I say Thank You.

The Franchise

SAIL - It has been pretty much about 2 weeks into Spring classes. This is the odds on favorite that this is my last semester at OU until the final big 12 credit full time student teaching in the Fall. The most credits I have taken was 18 credits in the Winter 2004 semester. While this Spring term, I am taking 12 which is over the max of what were allowed to take. Of course, being the defiant one, I got a petition to get past that. So a quick grade on what I think of each class:

Foreign Policy - Can I just get out of this class? Although it does inspire me to keep up with current events. Dude, there is this Chinese girl who sits across from me, and she fricking looks exactly like Mel Smell, but like an inch taller. Seriously, this girl is like a carbon copy of Mel!

Reading for Elementary Teachers - This class is suppose to hold only 25 students, but we got 45 in here. Sittin in the back, I just daydream. It's interesting to see where the true friendships are at in here. There is the goods, but then I kind of disappointed by others.

Outdoor Education for Elementary Teachers - First off this class is on Saturday which just sucks! However, I am learning a lot. The day before the 1st class, I had a dream that I was the only idiot in here or that I don't know anyone. But it has been fun since I got V, Kari, Angela, Kristen, and Sarah in here. So I am in good company, it's just funny that actual teachers are taking this class too. They must be thinkin how this kid is going to be a teach with my antics in class.

I guess if it weren't for these classes, I would just be a bum at home and producing no fruits. In the end, I just want out of the "World Famous" Magahay and I am counting down the days.

U Ain't Bone

BenGay - Is it wrong not to play hard against a team? Tonight, I was so fired up to play against Big Red's team. Then J-Ro told me that they were short their top 2 guns and had to play with 4. I was so bummed that I kept asking my team to let me sit this out. Winning these games did not seem right to me. Of course, my teammates yelled at me and I just told them to not set me and for the most part I just kept rolling my shots to them. We swept them to move on to the Conference Finals, against NorthPointe. J-Ro's team thanked me after the game for "taking it easy on them and not killing it down their throats." Just didn't seem right to me to win these games without Big Red.

An hour later, we played NorthPointe and the winner moves on to the Finals. Here we go again, S.S. 3 and it really wore out on me. I literally did suicides running back from the front row to save a pass, then shoot back up to the front row to make a block. It was different this time, S.S. 3 last week was easier because I played against the same opponent so I know they had to be tired. New opponent, same level and eventually I tired out in Game 3. So NorthPointe won 2-1 to move to the Finals. When we were shaking hands, I told them that I was just drained and they didn't believe me seeing how quick I kept moving from side to side. I take it as my fault for losing because I tired out and I did not pick up their strategy in Game 3. They told me afterwards what they said in their huddle "Well we waited for you to move to the backrow, then we could swing away. When you're in the front, we did our best to take away the line, but man you still had it." My fault for not picking up their plan of going soft when I was up front. It really irritates me that I failed and was not aware of this.

Now, it is done and over and at the beginning of the season everyone thought I was cocky. However, it's not how you start but how you finish and many believe I was the MVP of the league. It was nice to make some new friends too and so I guess I should be expecting some calls since a lot of them have my digits now. I'm really thankful for this experience and the new people I got to meet. So sore from S.S. 3, I wonder if P-Nutz's BenGay really works? Oh well, I'll pass on that stuff, smells good though. I could use one of those Asian nicotine looking patches though.

Shake That

Family Matters - Just like that, my sis has come and gone. The weekend with her home was like what it used to be, but leaving DTW reminds me of what it's going to be. During high school, everyone used to say that I put the word "fun" in disfunctional family. I know a lot of peeps don't agree with my philosophy, but to me it has always been just because we blood don't make us family.

I went to see my Grandparents a few days ago. At the time my G-Ma was still weak, and she was trying to put down some noodles. They finally said the thoughts that have been on my mind, they vented this anger about Alan and Wendy, my cuz's, their grandchildren. One has yet to bother to see them since last year's big 80th B-Day celebration, while the other recently sold out for her friends instead of going to see our G-Ma at Beaumont. As I left, I kept debating if I should talk to them about this. One reason is I am the oldest so I should continue to set the modeling tone in the fam. While on the hand, if I say something to them then they will feel all guilty and actually visit them. I want them to visit them because they WANT to not because they HAVE to. My mom kept urging me to talk to them because she did not want her parents to be mad.

I finally did a couple of nights ago, I pretty much told them how our Grandparents felt. I reminded them of how much they sacrificed for them when we were little. Lastly, I told them to visit them because they love them and not because I told them to. The thing that eats at me the most, is growing up I thought I did my best modeling/teaching/encouraging my younger cousins to always look out for fam. I thought they would see it through me and do the same. But everything has had an inverse effect, it just seems like they all care bout themselves for the most part. I think I understand why now, did I set the bar so high for them that they were discouraged by it? If ya know your Chinese culture, it's all bout bragging rights withing the adults about oh who is the best sibling. Although my parents don't promote me like that, my Grandparents, aunts/uncles always talk bout me and what I do for each one of them. Did those convo's discourage my cousins? Did I actually fail instead of succeed in leading the next generation of the fam? All I can do, is continue to support and help my G-Parents.

Sunday Morning

Jim Mora - "Playoffs? Playoffs? We're talkin bout playoffs?" Oi that's how I felt tonight as we played 6 games and all we needed was one to clinch a playoff spot. The other team needed to win all 6 to hold on to 1st. As each game kept going by, we kept losing, my team kept getting more negative with each other. J-Ro's team though is by far the best hitting team overall, they hit so smart and I told them that. Big Red, wow he roofed me on my 2nd hit. I tried dumping it past him a couple of times, and dude this guy just literally grabbed my dumps and threw it back at me! Big Red man his power level was amazing and I was loving it!

By the 2nd game, it was time to kick it into S.S. 3 in order to match Big Red. From that point on He just gave me the strength and energy to match J-Ro's team, I had at least a touch on every block, I led the team in digs. Big Red was not roofing me anymore, but still staying at S.S.3 was just not enough. The Ref even talked to me saying it looked like 6 on 1 out there and he said "too bad you can't take all 3 hits." The 6th game, last chance to win one, and we prevailed. Big Red, and J-Ro all talked to me after the game. They all gave me props and believe I am the best player in this league. That meant a lot to me because Big Red is one of the best thinkers in this game I have played against. J-Ro's team just admired my heart, jumping into the pole, the bleachers, trying to dive over the trash can just so we do not lose the point. Going S.S. 3 and to last through it for 5 games straight has taken a toll on me. I was just glad that I was able to wear out Big Red before I was completely drained.

The thing is though, we don't serve to be in the playoffs. This team that I am playing on, are just such sore losers and have bad attitudes. I do not even join them in the huddles anymore because all they do is point fingers at each other and get down on themselves. I just smile and try to encourage everyone, but there is just so much negativity on this team. I even called out one of them today and asked them "are you sure you go to church?" The only thing I look forward to is playing against LAGNAF one more time.

Fox

Apprentice (Long and Vulgar Remix) - First off, no I did not select high crime rate. Anyways, things just seem to be getting worst for me academically. First, is tanking that PS Final, then failing the Social Studies exam, and now another Magahay mishap. I have faith that in His Will I will on the first because there are many doors that have opened. I remain strong that I will eventually pass the Social Studies exam too. However, the next test site is July 9th the same day as the CBC Retreat :( I can't miss the test, but I don't want to miss out on any part of the Retreat either. Time will tell in what I do with that. Lastly, today at Magahay I was honestly shaken inside in what I believe in on how to teach. Mr. Lamchops pulled me aside before I left to speak with me in private. He informed me that he was going to pull the plug on what I started which is Lunch with the Teacher. Apparently, some of the other staff members do not like it as well as himself because of what they think goes on in there.

When I heard this, I felt like my heart was just ripped out. That was the only thing I had left that I started because I learned it from my previous student teachin place, at Edmonson. Julie used this as getting to know the students better outside of class and if they need an additional help on homework. I started it for the same reasons I was taught from there. I now realize that I am simply a slave at this school and I must do everything Mr. Lamchops does.

As I was leaving Magahay today, tears of pain, saddness, and discouragement was boiling inside of me. Mr. Lamchops is really pissing me off too because I now realize he is just there to collect the paycheck as his 60-70 year old butt just prepares his lessons on the day of school. I graded the Social Studies test today and he blamed the class for doing poorly. I mean the class average was around the 40% area with 1 girl scoring a 1% on her test. He flat out blamed them and I am thinking in my head that you are just as accountable was they are. By them doing so poorly is also a reflection on your poor, and lazy ass teaching style. He talked to me to make sure that respect is the # 1 thing to a teacher. I am thinkin yeah I know that but tell yourself that because they do not even respect you. How do I know? Well let's see everyday he has to remind the class to respect him when he is speaking. Some staff question my integrity when I am alone with the students, well then if you don't like it then tell the old bum Mr. Lamchops to stop leaving me in there.

Let's even look at today, he was teaching Math then the janitor came in to bring him his breakfast. He stopped in the middle of his lesson and gave me the lesson book. He told the class that I will finish the lesson so he could have his breakfast. Is it just me or is something wrong with this picture?

I have respectfully asked the OU Coordinator, Sherrill to get me out of here. I want to go to a place where I can apply what I have learned from OU. I have walked into her office and even wrote her a nice email as she had asked me to do. Nothing has happened and she has not even responded to my email that she asked me to write! If I was one of those old motherlovers that kiss her ass, then yeah she'd probably give me what I want. I have already started recently to challenge and call out Sherrill as I have no respect for her anymore. She can continue to threaten me with keepin me from graduating, but I will continue to challenge and defy her in everyway possible.

I keep getting closer to just takin a swing at Mr. Lamchops and I just want to challenge him too because to teach is to inspire. I admit he shook my confidence up earlier today and almost making me believe that maybe I am not cutout for this. However, I looked back at some of my pics of CBC/ACA kids and He has restored me. I keep asking You though, why am I at Magahay? If I cannot stay in peace for 1 day at this school, how am I suppose to keep this up if it is in Your Will for me to be here 5 days a week next semester? Am I not relying enough on You through this? What do I do?

SAU -

American Cities That Best Fit You:

55% Chicago

55% New York City

55% Washington, DC

50% Austin

50% Philadelphia

Which American Cities Best Fit You?

Nope, I took this quiz to prove Superfly and Mel Smell wrong that Honolulu does not always come up :) In the end, I'd still take the D over all these, but Windy City eh I that could suffice for me.

The words failure or loser summed up part of my weekend. However, I have hope that He will reveal His plan to me this week. Just when I thought the Retreat committee had been selected, and I thought I got my break, well I thought wrong. I sat in to observe the 1st CBC Retreat meeting for this summer. I was sadden at first to see that those whom I have served with are not there anymore outside of Stephen and Sonny. However, I am excited though to see new brothers and sisters who want to serve in this ministry. I realize I am the veteran in this group so I need to help the rook's out a lil more. It looks like for now I will be double duting in servin too with the Retreat Children's Program and Promo. However, I am way ahead of the game already since the theme is set, I already got the logo done. Hopefully, my new tag partner that I handpicked can help me this Wednesday night to make it look tight. I do need lots of prayer though as I must get promo done way ahead of time since I'll be gone for 2 Sundays to HK. Also the committee needs lots of prayer too because it is a new team and lastly everyone please go to the Retreat! I just don't like the new schedule format :( and I was outvoted for it.

Hold Me