Lately, I've been feeling drained and worn out. Physically, since Saturday it's been b-ball tournament, Sunday was 2 soccer games, and Monday & Tuesday were both v-ball game nights. Again physically, it just has taking it's toll on me. The tendonitis in my knees are killing me, my shoulder seems as it weighs a ton, and that blister on my shoulder just split wide open on Tuesday night at Beech Woods. Despite all that though, I had to deal with 5 days of school, and student teaching. In addition, there is 5:14 Fellowship along with worship at CBC. Many of my peeps at OU been wondering how do I hold up and still be on top of the game in class. I've shared with some of them that it's all God, and it helps for me to have that attitude of what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. I look at next week's schedule for school and I see that I am studying with Sonya on Monday, studying with Carl on Tuesday, 4 papers due, an Astro project, and 2 exams all for this upcoming week.

At school, I just kind of go on my own happy way. I mean in EED 354 and 420, all the old folks think I am annoying and obnoxous (sp?) while everyone my age believe that I am the funny one but also the leader of the classroom. In Japan, Alisha and Beth joined with Sarah and I now to run it up in class. Astro's been fun because I see Sonya 4 times a week but Alisha and Beth are in there too with me. Then there is Blythe in my Astro class, we studied together last night. I met her mom, and she is by far one of the most funniest parents I've ever met. She shared with me a story about Blythe which had to do with me. She was telling me how Blythe was happy that she made a friend at OU that she liked and was comfortable talking to. I just thank God that I could make an impact on someone's life at school because often times I just goof off in class. What was funny at tonight's class was Blythe could not partner up with Sonya and I. She had to partner up with this other dude across the lecture hall from me. So during lecture and lab, we called and talked to each other on the phone during class. However I did not like the number 1 finger she gave me when I kept looking at her. It's all good though we got much love for each other, however she went to the Poop school! It's funny because she can not remember this one person whom I have probs with at CBC because this person thinks he's all hard and all that. In reality this person is just a joke to me, but then again where's my love for this person. Yes this is something I struggle with everytime I have to see this person. At times, it has come down to me just decking this person because someone needs to humble his punk____! I'm glad Daddy Moy gave me some advice and Blythe just cracks me up when I looked through the Poop School yearbooks.

What else that's been bugging me lately too, is my image or rep at school sometimes. It's frustrating that all the prof's I have this semester know who I am after the first day of class. It's like I always get called on to answer some question that is like trying to figure out how to cure HIV. That is how the prof's here do attendance so this means I will not be skipping any classes this semester. On the bright side though, I did buy my computer yesterday for $1200. I can't wait till that gets to my crib and I can finally connect to the rest of the world.

After 3 weeks of student teaching, I love my kids at Edmonson Elementary School. I love Kayla, because she seems to really care about me and she is so cute, and small for a 4th grader. I love Monica with her little rabbit teeth, but yet she is also the brain in the class. I love both Lauren's because they are so helpful when I am teaching. Thomas reminds me of Frodo with his eyes. Ahhhh so many cutie kids in my classroom that I'm gonna take pics of them next week when I am there for a while since my teacher has jury duty. However, none of those kids beat out Boo Boo, as I took her to school this week she is the cutest 2nd grader out there at Wattles Elementary. Uh oh ED building is closing, Go Pats!

Grace and Peace to my peeps!

What a disappointment it was to only come in 3rd place this year at the CSC tournament. Yeah I'm trying to stay positive because we did better than last year's unexpected early round knockout. However, it pisses me off when people say well it was fun. I mean what fun was there, fun is not taking 3rd place. Fun is winning first and holding up $200 bones! Bobby and I rode back down together discussing the game. We wanted to get back asap so we can watch our game tapes to see what went wrong in our Final Four game, the conference finals. Again, this lost I feel is a reflection of how I played because of 2 things. First is that I am the PG, which means I run the offense. I felt I did not do a good job at the end quaterbacking the post plays. 2nd thing is though it would be nice if everyone knew their dang role on this team. I mean it's hard to pass it downlow when 3 people are all posting up next to each other. Again it's on me because I should of known better to tell 2 people to get out of the way. I never knew my unselfishness could cost us the game as well. Because someone kept nagging me if they could sub for me. It was 10-10 so I let this person sub for me because they felt as if I needed a break. However, it's like Mama Iverson said about her son at the time which goes for me, "Man the kid is 23 years old, he don't need know rest." 3 possessions later after that sub, yeah I was back in because the game had now been 12-10 and the bench was pissed that this person even subbed for me. Yeah we lost from that point on, why because I sat out and this person can't play defense. Which brings me to my next point, I personally felt that their were some people who were dogging it on defense. I mean this team was smaller than us and some people did not know how to get through a back screen. That just baffles me, and if you tired then sit down. I have no probs telling it to some of my teammates right now that I felt they were dogging it on D.

I wanted the chance to play against Baron Davis's team because that guy was good. Bobby said it best when someone asked us during dinner time if we were afraid of those 2 American dunking teams. "We aint scared of anybody on the court." Seriously though, people need to know their roles and some need to stop hot dogging it out there.

It was nice to spend time with Daddy Moy and the family last night. I'm glad God has blessed me with a godly man with whom I can seek for spiritual wisdom. It just gets tough when it seems like you are out there serving and it looks as if you are serving alone. I just needed to be reminded again that I can't be discouraged by those around me and to keep the hope and faith. Anyhootie, I guess I better get started on my school work now.

Be

So you think you're untouchable?
Word life
This is basic thuganomics
I'm untouchable but I'm forcing you to feel me

So right now I'm chilling in Stixie's room while listening to the ladies singing it up on K Revolution. I just found out that one of my aunt's has passed away out in SF. So it's been kind of hard trying to focus on the tournament while thinking about the funeral preparations. My dad's gonna fly out on Sunday night for the funeral and come back early Tuesday morning. I've been searching like mad crazy trying to find a cheaper flight so I can go. But to no avail because that was the only way that I could is if I found a cheaper flight than my dad did. If I only I knew how to do instant transmission.

Anyhow, it's almost game time!

Blow It Out

So it is officially Chinese New Year, year of me, the monkey. To this date, I still have all my red envelopes full of money which have never been opened. Why? Eh, I don't care about the money part of this New Year anymore. One of these days I will open them and do something with it. Anyhoot I've been watching more X-Men cartoons last night after fellowship. It's been my substitute for no internet and tired of my PS2.

I was reminded of Kevin's analogy from last year's 5:14 Retreat sermon of having different gifts and forming our own X-Men at CBC. I was lost, confused, out of control, and had no direction before I came to CBC. God took me into His family, and used those around me to help me find purpose in my life. I thank You for helping me and I know as well as He knows that there will be times that I will stray but it's His love that brings me back. I can not be discouraged by things surrounding me but I must be a light for Him.

On a side note, I still have this blister from my heating pad accident. I was playing with it this morning, and it looks like a third nipple now. Just thought I'd share that with everyone.

We Are The Monkeys

Well it's official I believe that I do not have internet service at home anymore. I believe my modem finally died and I am out to replace my 9 year old computer. However, I just had lunch with Sarah at Tokyo Sushi and I had to order sushi because it was for our Japan class. I ate it for the second time only, and to my surprise I actually liked it. I'm game now to try more sushi.

Anyhoot, last night P.Diddy and I got a chance to play v-ball together. We both wanted to go up against Rob's protege, the so called next female high school superstar. For a sophmore at Athens, she has a lot of potential to go with her jump serve. For only 15 she is one the better female players I've ever come across. It's too bad we couldn't play 2's so I can see what she really has. Although P.Diddy has this fricking huge blister on his hand and I popped my shoulder while attempting a pancake. So last night I put the heating pad on my shoulder, only to wake up that I have this fricking huge blister on my shoulder too! Dang it, I really gotta stop putting this heating pad directly on my skin.

Only 3 more days, till the CSC tournament. Despite the Pistons losing last night, I feel like we are the Pistons with our core team. Bobby as Big Ben, Stan as Rip Hamilton, and myself as Chauncey. I just bought Ludacris's cd Chicken & Beer because I love Stand Up, which will be rocking in my headphones this weekend. I'm hoping that we can get a crowd so that can move when our team moves if ya know what I mean.

I love Emoy, I just got done read his xanga. Gosh I miss having him around to watch wrestling and talk to him about it. Whoooooooooooo!

Word Life

Heads up people, Wizards of the Coast are going out of business. Everything is 20-40% off, so if you wanna go buy something now is the time. There was nothing like fresh snow, to bring me back to my childhood dayz last night. I kept goofing around last night after I had finished to my driveway and sidewalk. I noticed last night though, that my hands are getting number faster and drier too. I guess I should start wearing some gloves or something before I get frostbite or have a higher possibility of getting it.

Only 20 minutes left before my next class and it sucks because something is wrong with my computer at home now. Sarah's been telling me ever since I kept using the word Metro in ECN last semester, it is something that she uses now too. We just label all the Metro' in our Japan class now. I even got hand signals for it too now.

Speaking of new words, I learned another word yesterday while reading the paper. It's called quirkyalone, I'm not sure if it is even a word. But, I guess the definition of it is that, a person who is single and likes to be single, but would not mind getting in a relationship if there is one. I think I'm quirky but eh I'd rather be alone more times than none. Alright time to bounce to Niphon (I think that's Japan in Japanese).

Actually before I go, in this class we've been getting into religion. Some guy was sharing about his buddhist beliefs and hacking at Christianity. So of course I decided to raise up and defend God. I guess I'd laid some smack on the great ol' Buddha. Gosh I'm just so excited to see who practices Shintoism to try and raise up against Christianity. Besides that, man I'm sick of my prof already because I feel like she keeps knocking on China. She better check herself because I question her knowledge of Japan.

Ya Heard Me

So Sonya and I just got done with our Astronomy project. Yes, school is closed now but yet I've decided to chill in the ERL to do more homework. Yup, I'm a dork, but hey I want to get ahead of everything this semester. It was funny last night in Astro class because I just fell asleep. Sonya noticed and fricking started poking me until I woke up. Man this is fun weather to drive in, it really tests people's driving skills. Oh well, by the time I get home I'll probably go for a jog/walk around. Man I'm hoping classes will be cancelled tomorrow too!

Basic Thuganomics

More procrastination, yay! Actually I just got back from my student teaching for this semester and boy do I love the kids or what. The girls are like absolute angels and well the boys will be boys. However, it looks like I spoke too soon about my travel time will be less which in terms means I get more sleep. It turns out that some idiot truck driver decides to crash into the 22 Mile Road exit, forcing the freeway to be shutdown. So of course it took me an hour to get to 12 Mile and John R, when it should only take me 25 minutes. I wonder how hard is it to drive on M-53, I mean the freeway is a straight line with no potholes. This hurts even more because now I have to think of an alternate route to worship as well, which means waking up earlier to leave sooner. This just bites the big one.

Now, I'm just having food coma and don't want to do my term paper which is due tomorrow. All I want to do is wait for Sarah to get here so we can chill. The cool part about my class schedule is that Sonya and I have classes together for 4 days. I think I'm gonna pass out in Astronomy class tonight.

2 notes about b-ball too, I believe Kedrick Brown should be suspended for injuring Kobe. I wanted to watch Kobe just crush LeBron and put him in his place last night. Second thing, is I believe the worst Pistons player we have this year, is Bob Sura. Gosh we need to get rid of him and get a 2nd round draft pick or something.

Alright work or I mean nap time, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....................

Ok, I wasn't gonna blog today but I need to continue to be unproductive. I had a nice lunch today with Carl, as we sat and chatted about classes and b-ball. Other than that, I am starting to realize that taking 17 credits, which is 5 classes, for 5 days, and on top of that 1 student teaching all for this semester. You do the math and it's called gotta get my act together before I drown in my own sorrow of school. I've had about 5 hours now to collect my things and actually do work. However, people including myself are freaking out with this Friday's meeting at school. Now that I'm cool, calm, and collected I feel as if I got everything together now. I start my 2nd student assignment for tomorrow at Edmonsun Elementary School teaching 4th graders. The good part is that it is closer to home, and close to Pho for lunch. The bad part is I still have to go to classes afterwards and I gotta wake up butt early. Man I'm hungry now, and when are Shawn and Sarah getting out of their night classes? Oh one cool part about one of my projects is that I get to follow and study Boo Boo for the rest of the school year. She's so funny and cute, if I was some what intelligent then I would post a pic of the 2 of us together celebrating the Feb b-days. Ok, time to get to work now. Plus I've noticed Carmen has decided to stop harassing me online too. Man I need some sort of AIM body guard from the YTF PowderPuff Girl Gang.

Show Me Love

Well my sis is back at school now. It kind of sucks because I miss her already. I miss having her around the house, and making dumb comments. What was great having her home too, was this was the first break in a while where we didn't bicker about anything. I just didn't want to see that go.

Also tonight, I had a long talk with a great friend that God has blessed me with. He is my boy E.Kou and I'm glad that we have now started to keep each other in check with our daily/spiritual lives. Over the past 2 years where I've gotten to know him, he's been one of those guys who is really open and sincere. It sucks because he ain't at school this semester but instead at the Blue Grass State. On the other hand I'm thankful that God has blessed him with an internship, so it's all good.

We talked about b-ball, and it sucks he won't be there at this year's tournament. I made a promise that I will play my hardest and try to win this bad boy for him. I feel more confident then ever with this year's team by adding P. Wong, Cougie and if Big Nasty and JW will be joining us to the old school A team. It feels like the playing for the Lakers, Wes (can't think of who he plays like), Andy (K. Malone), Bobs (Shaq), Stan (T-Mac), and myself (Kobe). Yup T-Mac on the Lakers, well he hates Kobe so it's all good. I'm gonna try to rock the rows, and have E. Kou tatted on my arm.

However, we need fans, I think some of our players play better with fan support. I personally like getting the boos, I like being that public enemy # 1. Thank you to Snoozer, Breadstick, and Erin, last year for lunch and your support. Less than 2 weeks now, and the last time we won this thing was 2 years ago. It sucks having tendonitis, or jumper's knee, I believe Vince Carter had this a year ago. Hopefully I can overcome this thing by the 24th.

Sunchild

There's nothing better than doing grocery shopping after midnight. I mean I always get a good parking spot, and the lines are shorter. However, today I just don't know what was wrong with my stomach system. So I'm in line right, and I just let this silent fart out. I mean it was quiet but boy was this gas deadly. So I look back and I'm like good no one is behind me to bare this smell. Next thing you know, as I move up in line, this lady comes behind me. I listened and I could hear her sniffing something stankin in the air. Now on the outside, I'm trying to make it look like this big dude in front of me let it rip. But on the inside, I'm like cracking up because she's probably like what the G times 2 is this smell. Next thing you know, I heard her say excuse me. I pretended not to hear it because I would feel rather embarassed if she asked me, if I was the culprit. Then she tapped me and said excuse me again. So I looked at her, and she asked me about a PS2 controller that she was considering on purchasing. After I explained to her, she got out of line, and I'm like dude the smell is gone now.

So with my gas attack tonight, I decided to use it to my advantage. My sis decided to watch all her stupid tv shows so I couldn't watch the b-ball games. So I decided to sit on her and just let one rip. Yeah it was silent and my sis thought I was just sitting on her. 10 seconds later, she could smell what The Great One was cooking, and she just booked upstairs to her room. As for me, yeah it was nice to finish watching the Rockets game.

Dare To Be Stupid

I carry the weight of the world as the past is unfurled, but I won't stop to wonder
Going through life on my own made me as cold as a stone
I'm a ship going under
And I'd tell You this, but I don't know how
I'm caving in and I'm falling out and I can't resist
And I can't rebound with the weight of the world as the world falls down

This was how I felt for a good portion of 2K3, I look forward to turning that around by going to God even more. It's true that you can not do things on your own strength but only through God's.

I decided to turn off all the lights in the house, but only this candle that I have lit to remind me that as long as I can keep that flame going for God then I can see through the darkness of my own sin.

I thank You for putting Alex and Michael's Grandma at Golden Harvest this past Monday.

I thank You for bringing my sista's home safely from T-O.

I thank You for teaching me the equation of Hope + Faith = Love.

I thank You for helping me close a part of my life, but look for the best in what's to come.

I thank You for being You most of all.

Man I really like these aroma candles, it really just soothes my mind to continue to just focus on God while listening to some tunes. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger, as the clock winds down to the MSU tournament. I look for direction to God, because I wonder where other parts of my life is going to and how do I become a better leader?

My parents were talking about going out to Vegas this summer, Sin City baby. My sis is going if they go, as tempted as I am to go I plan on turning this trip down too. I believe just right now it is just too much temptation for me to go. I really want to drive to Minnesota on my own and visit my family there, I miss them much. I miss my little cousin Bridget, I wonder if she has grown up now too. Anyone interested in going to see Mall of America with me?

Back Into Your System

Ok, this sucks my first blog of the new year and it just got wiped off the face of the earth. So again what I was trying to say is what a short break it was, although I spent some quality time with my cousins. Christmas Eve night, I went to my Uncle Simon and Aunt Lisa's annual Christmas party. I was glad to spend more time with my baby cuz, Wendy. I saw some of my Korean relatives although I can't remember anything my Aunt Lisa taught me back in the days of how to speak it. Here's a sound byte of the party from a friend of the family:

Friend: Hey K, my son is taller than you now and he is only 16 years old.
Wendy: He's not taller than him!
K (staring him down): It ain't the size of the man, it's the size of the heart is what I measure. Your son doesn't measure up to me on that one, partna.

Actually, I was thrilled that here is my baby cuz trying to defend me showing that she still cares. She reminded me that night of how when we were little we used to fight over our grandma's bed because she smelled better than our grandpa. I was thrilled that she came to worship with me a couple of Sunday's ago. Now I need to pray and follow up on her. She always listened to me when were little, and I never made her do anything stupid because frankly that was what her brother Alan was for.

Christmas I was blessed to be invited to the Leong/Liu/Ng Christmas gathering. I passed it up, to spend some time with my cousins for dim sum and dinner. I went over to my Aunt Aso's house, and I was flipping through old pictures. I'm thankful that she is still alive because I remember growing up in the streets of Memphis, when she took that bullet to you don't even want to know. I had an engaging convo about Christianity with my Aunt Lisa because she is the only other believer in the family. I made a promise to her that I will attend at least one worship service at KBC this year.

I don't make a lot of resolutions, but I do feel refocused, refreshed and determined to be a better leader where ever God puts me in. It starts tonight as game time is coming closer and I'm able to see if I got better or worst over break. It's almost time for me to leave the Twp.'s library so I can do some running in this lovely weather.

Tomorrow I start school, and I'm taking 17 credits with the possible addition of just one more adding on there. My grades for last semester were 3.9, 3.9, 3.0, and 2.1, yeah take a guess where the last one came from. I also bought Karoke Revolution the other day because I failed Crawling in the Dark at Ro's place. Yeah, I don't take failure to kindly, plus my sis wants to play it too. Finally, that Hey Ya song is actually growing on me, and I don't know why I actually like it now.

We've Got It Going On