Well here's a rare Sunday edition of blogging. I've been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting lately, now that school is over with. Today, I was on my way to work from b-ball. I was stuck in traffic along with half of the Metro Detroiters on 696. In my head, I kept complaining because it's like dude, this fricking accident has made me an hour and a half late to work. Thoughts of, what kind of idiot gets into an accident in this kind of weather, ran through in my head or this has better be a good reason for me to be late for work. I got home from work and watched the news to see exactly what had happened. I felt like a complete jackass, because it turned out that some trucker jackknifed into a Taurus, killing one 49 year old woman. It got me thinking how, earlier I was complaining for myself, and I didn't have a single thought of those who were involved in the accident. I believe that's why Paul wrote it in Phil 2:14, because that's all we do is think about ourselves. It's like the more we complain, it is just a reflection of just exactly how selfish we are. I was looking back at some of my entries, and I realized that I've lost site of that. It's like I can't even go 24 hours without a single complaint. As the new year rolls around, I'm thinking I need to work on this for myself. Anyone wanna join and keep each other accountable for 2K4?

I was also thinking about one of my Christmas gifts that I received back in the day. I got the Power Rangers board game from my cousin. I still can recall the day he gave it to me. He paid for it with his hard earn money when he was working at Toys R Us during the holiday season. I remember when he handed it to, my first reaction was something that he probably was not expecting. My initial reaction was like uh thanks, and in my head I'm thinking I wonder what he wants from me, or is this a trick? It was just so strange at the time because my cousins and I never exchange gifts and this was a first from him.

My point is that I doubted or question his gift at the time. I mean we are tight as can be in our family, but it's like I had to doubt his gift of love to me. Like I couldn't recieve the gift myself 100% and whole heartedly thank him. Because of that I overlooked his thought through the gift because he knew that I love Power Rangers. Or even the gift of salvation, I even had to question God! I mean God is God, but yet my ignorant self had to question Him, the purest of pures!

I had a dilema today too, as I found out my parents will keep the restaurant open on Christmas Day. I was just kind of and still kind of bummed, as I like to do my best and spend each holiday with them as much as possible since that is usually their only day off. My prayers tonight go out to those who lost their lives in the 3 car accidents across Metro Detroit.

We Will Get There

Wow, I finally saw all 3 LOTR in the last 3 days! I was never into it when it first came out nor Potter. I mean I see Frodo or Harry on the fricking cover and my first thought is, ok nerd boy movie. On the bright side I have to admit I like LOTR. I thought all 3 were beautifully done and the stories were excellent. Now I know what other movie Orlando Bloom is in besides Pirates! However, my thought about LOTR is, ok I know there is some sort of debate between Potter and LOTR, like one's ok for the Christian soul while the other is not. Now that I've seen LOTR, I'm wondering what the GG is the difference between LOTR and MTG? MTG is the exact same thing as LOTR, I mean when I was watching LOTR and I see big trees walking around, I'm thinking Thicket Elemental. Or I see Gollum and I'm thinking goblins or how bout the dwarf? Or is Legalis the same fricking thing as a Llanwar Elf? I love how back then when I played this game like mad crazy, people were knocking on it because of it's wizardy and socercy. But after watching LOTR and some of these other people watching it, I'm like thinking hello, what is the difference? Peeps need to live it up and they wanna try to make others live it up, ya know what I'm saying?

And finally, I played some serious v-ball! Da B-Hillz is most def the place to play, I mean you got MVPA players, open players, Top Flight, etc. I got to see Sarah! I'm glad that we got to talk and know each other. Sarah plays on SVSU's team, and I felt she was the best player in that WSU Tournament that I played a while ago. Ya know, the cute, short lefty killer, hitter. i wish I came in 100% healthy because my shoulder has been hurting so it was tough to kick it to SS 3. My arm feels as if it's about to come off, I mean going SS 2 was like nothing to some of these guys. I jammed my pinky on a block, but hey war wounds baby. Despite only being able to go at SS 2, they all invited me back to play with them. I noticed others weren't treated as well, and I mean if you shanked one pass, then you're pretty much left out in BFE. But this is what real v-ball should be, man only if we got that type of comp at CBC.

I was talking to the one who first started to teach me about the game of v-ball, Howard. I was telling him about how upset I was about how I played tonight because I felt like I played like crap despite what others thought. I wish he was still around on Tuesday nites, so we could stay after and he could team me more because I feel like I have so much more to learn. I was frustrated with the fact that I can't remain in SS 3 mode yet. However, his words of encouragement to me, and told me what other things that I still need to work on, which translated to me as to become and go higher at SS 4. No slacking around this break, Monday is when I start to lift and go to pick-up areas to continue to push myself to the limit and meeting the challenge.

Let's Dance

I wasn't gonna blog today, but after reading everyone else's I had to. Yup, I'm chilling in the Shelby Twp. Library because my server is down at home. I was putting back my cd's today, because I selected my own tunes to listen to. I believe my Braveheart and Gladiator soundtrack helped get me through my all niter. I tried listening to Madonna's Who's That Girl soundtrack, but eh I couldn't focus. Then I didn't get a chance to read everyone's blogs/xangas. But people are talking about lists, so the only list I do is grocery list. I used to have some sort of list for females, but then I was thinking about it as who am I to deserve someone that I put down on my list. Or why should I limit myself to this person if I may have found someone not on that list. Eh, just some thoughts for peeps with their list. Finally most important of all for those who have lists, especially the females for their "perfect" guy, no such thing for those who believe in their perfect mate. I do have some sort of list, and my number 1 thing for that list, is that she knows she is a sinner just as I am too.

Wow, I never realized this but how did I get this contusion on my toe?

Hope

So I pulled my last all niter in terms of studying for the remainder of the year. My heart last night was shaking as this exam will make or break me, to see if I have to retake it again. However, as I was studying I was fricking confident that I was gonna lay some wood on this exam. I studied everything that Prof. Shelley would be on the exam and the format. I get the exam this morning, and I'm like uhhh yeah, this isn't the same format that you worded it. So out of 3 essays, I know I rocked on 2 of them while the other probably sunk me because she changed the format. It fricking sucks because she tells us one thing and now she switches the whole exam.

Anyhoot, I'm gonna do my best to not freak out over my grade. At least I can say I am free at last from school! Although I gotta hit the weight room next week, to maintain and go higher for the 2nd half of the seasons.

Last night, I also never realize how much my actions really affect my team. Yesterday, we got to play against Shield's, the team that I had a good trash talking with as they screwed us over when they reffed. For the past couple of weeks, I kept telling everyone that this the game where we week vengance! Everyone on the team was all the way with me. Instead last night, I didn't say much, I wasn't looking for retribution, I just played my game. What's funny to me was that no one else made any comment about playing Shield's after for the past month, we've all been talking about it. Just a food for thought to myself of being aware of my own actions.

Yay, I finally get to play with a competent female tonight on my team! Good thing some of the females on my team are on vacation or whatever. I got my tag team partna back to play just one more game together, like the good ol' dayz. I hope she's excited to play back at her alma mater. I'm excited just to play with her because it's been awhile. Look out for the combo of # 21 and # 13 tonight! It's time to get down ;)

Tourniquet

I believe in You
I'll give up everything just to find You
I have to be with You to live to breathe
You're taking over me

Man, if only I could do that on a minute to minute basis.

Today I decided not to go with Erica to go talk to our HST professor. I feel as if it is pointless to try to plea for our grade. I mean I'm averaging a high 3.5-8 in every class but HST. I mean HST, Erica and I are like 1.0 students in that class. And it's like we study like no other for this class.

I went to Spargo's with Sarah to meet up with the rest of our ECN crew. Man that place was pretty good, because I was about to have a food coma right before our final. As I was taking the final, I could not believe how easy it was. Well hopefully my grade will reflect on that one. But it just felt so easy that I feel so guilty. I mean Prof. Johnson was a pretty nice teacher. But I know it bothered him when no one showed up for class, when a class of 70 turns into a class of 15. I mean the guy gave everyone 50 points on our grade just for attendance this past Tuesday. When he announced that, everyone left knowing they got a curve now on their grade. I mean the 50 was for everyone, even if you never came to class. I attended class faithfully, although I had my moments of coming in an hour after class started just to make class go by faster. Or when I do go to class, I usually sleep for the first part of class. I was glad actually to be the class leader on my side, because I convinced my peeps to stay for the duration of the last class and don't be rude.

Let me tell everyone the new term that I've learned a couple of weeks ago now. It is metrosexual, if you know the meaning then yeah, but my definition of it is, metrosexual - nicer way of saying a person is gay, not straight, fag, homo, well you get the pic. Courtney, Jen, Sarah, Steph, and I were scanning the room today to point out the metro's before we had to take our final. We all agreed the one C and I selected, whom I call, Fobio, was king metro of the class.

DX Wire Tap of the Day:
K: Hey, he's metro most def!
C: No, he's not no metro, he's just a dork.

Man this sucks though I have 2 finals left. With HST looming around, it is my last final, where I need a 4.0 to get what I need to get out of that class. Also, if you haven't taken your pic at CBC yet, then don't be a sucka like me. Although I felt I thugged it up for my pic pretty well. Man I haven't worn that clubbing shirt underneath in so long now.

Going Under

Yay, 55 hours and counting without sleep. I wonder what the record is? Anyways, I've been shplunking around the house after I got home from my game. My thoughts were about tatoos. Honestly, there are still days where I think about getting one. However, at tonight's game, I was giving them. Nothing more refreshing than tatooing the word Tachikara on someone. I gave 2 out today, and looking to supply more. I also drilled one straight down with so much top spin that as it came up, it hurt the closest player there. I guess the ball came back up so hard off the ground, that it jammed this girl's wrist when she went to attempt a dig.

We had to play 4 on 6 today, which actually played to my advantage. The game plan, was that I stand in the back, take the pass, then quickly rotate out to make the kill. Fun part about 4's, no set rotation! Again though we had a chance tonight to tie with someone to be in the cellar. But it didn't happen as we only took 2 out of 3.

How frustrating has it been? Only one week left till our break time from all the leagues. I've heard everyone talk to me from each league and telling me about their plans for the holidays. I figure while they are doing all that, I plan on working out at the Rec Center. I need to continue to try to stay ahead of the pack in terms of conditioning. What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Speaking of which, as the year of 2K3 is about to end. I look at my Bible in a year, and it was more like 1/4 of the Bible and quit. Errr I hate quiting, so I guess my goal is to still try to finish the Bible.

Rock Out Altered

Ok so I'm a little drained right now as now I've done the unthinkable. I've just pulled off 2 straight all nighters, which means I have not slept for the past 48 hours and counting. Everyone in EED 316 were all laughing at me yesterday, and y'all know who you are. Because I came to class late because I guess there was a bet that I pulled an all niter just to finish my portfolio. Our final in EED 316 is a 3 part final, a binder, portfolio, and a paper. Well 2 down and 1 to go in that class. So far I got a 4.0 and a 3.8 so all y'all snitches can get off this!

Now the suck part was trying to play through the first all niter last night. I know we are to speak in the truth with love, but I'm tired of pampering my Troy team. I've been the co-capt for a while now and I've done my thing in terms of encouraging the team. But last night was awful, I called out the team not once but twice. After the first game, I challenged each of them to start serving underhand if you can't get a regular serve over. After the 3rd game, I asked everyone what time our game started. Everyone said 7:00 and I just flat out told everyone, then let's play like it because it seems like y'all came here to watch. I ruffled more feathers but me pampering them wasn't getting things done, so let's see how they play when I light a fire under their butts.

To my EED 316 crew, it was fun this semester, Good luck to Shawn on his yearlong student teaching. Kim, I'll see you in Astronomy next semester. Carl we'll continue to carry the Friday's tradition! Everyone else, Melissa, Amanda, Kristin, Lisa, and Margo, I'll see y'all around the ERL so we can continue to chillin like villains.

To my Retarded ECN crew, hahah I have more notes in terms of us writing to each other in my notebook than actual ECN notes. Danielle, I'll see you in EED 354 and 420 next semester with Carl, and Kari. Courtney, I'll still kill it in your face, but yeah let's play v-ball over break! My Shorty Sarah, we'll go to Friday's too when we have Japan class next semester. Also Sarah, remember the question "Will you ever make love to a baby mountain goat?" Jen, Ross, Steph, Tina, and Amy I'll see y'all in the ERL too! Remember Sparga's everyone this Thursday @ 1:00 then off to lay the smackdown on Johnson's final!

Numb

It's been a rough week and a tough one at that. Let's start with Thanksgiving Day, where I woke up and got there early for Turkey Bowl. A good brother reminded everyone on our team that hey this is a fellowship game, played by CBC people, which means church goers. I was hoping this game would be a light on that hill, because of our surroundings that their is a hill on the field. However, it turned into bickering, words and actions that I wish I did not hear or see. Yeah 5:14 won the game, but on that morning their was a part of me that I wish I was just not a part of this game.

Then I went to my Aunt and Uncle's new place, and wow this place is like a mansion. I'm glad they moved closer so that they can be closer to their church, Korean Baptist Church I think it is. I saw all my cousins except for Alan, but what surprised me was seeing my baby cuz, Wendy. I mean dude she can drive now! She is my baby cuz because ever since we were little, she reminded me of Michelle Tanner from Full House. She looked just like her and was always so quiet. Now looking at her, she can drive, and she turned into a hottie. I had to give her lectures about the clothes that she was wearing and the amount of makeup. I plan on checking up on her now because she is like a little sis to me still. Lord only knows what her brother does now. I am also curious to who she hangs out with and the influences they have on her. Again she is my baby cuz, and I gotta look out for her.

Friday I lost at the casino, end of story.

Saturday, I went down to U of M Dearborn to play in Rick's b-ball tournament. First time ever I got ejected in a game. I got a couple of technicals, and a fight on top of that. Bobby said it best, is that we don't like to play dirty. However, to me ever since our last MSU tourny, when one team kept pushing us around we just let them. Someone at the tourney reminded me after my ejection, that we should be a light on the court. Yes I agree but we ain't called to play like sissy's either. In the finals, we played against Steve Nash, he was a pretty good player. As the game went on, all of us started cramping up. It's hard not to when Bobby, Stan, and I all are playing about 36-37 minutes a game and it's only a 40 minute game. It would be nice to have depth with talent and more role players to compliment us better. With 3 minutes left though, I had my cramp and I was on the ground for a while. However, unlike everyone else, I decided to stay in the game rather than sit out. Why? Because with the game tied, this is where you have to suck it up, plus I was guarding their best player, when we played a box and 1. All praises go to God for giving me the strength to stay in the whole game on one leg. Also the ability to shut Steve Nash down, and hit the game winner. That first game though, like everyone said, it was more of a WWE match then a game. The MSU team was fun to play against because they had a big crowd with noisemakers and everything. I love to play against hostile crowds.

It sucked to have missed the Jambalaya War Zone Action.

Finally last night, playing a triple header with flu like symptoms now. I don't think ever since high school, I have dropped so many f-bombs on the court or in my mind. We lost to Joey's team again in the finals. I mean now my team has been to the finals 7 straight times and have only won 3 times. It was frustrating, and I think my frustration carried over to my Troy game. Everyone in this league continues to recognize my individual play, but I keep telling them that it ain't getting me no W's. I mean we're still in the basement of the league. I feel like T-Mac, and I know what he's going through whenever they show his face on the court because I give the same face. Mark talked to me last night after the game, seeing that I was pissed. My thought is, is it possible for me to play with some competent girls? This is the most frustrating times right now that I am going through for v-ball.

Finally, to add to my sucky day, I just got pulled over for the 11th straight time. If you are travelling down Van Dyke, do not speed between 12 and 11 mile as they have that area ambushed. There were cop cars and motorcycles at each entrance pulling people left and right. Now I can say that I finally got pulled over in my new car, and first time being a motorcycle. Gosh I need my Valentine more than ever!

So Far Away

What sucks is the feeling of doing poorly on the ECN exam after I studied pretty hard for that. This morning sucked because I think I bombed another HST exam after feeling I knew the material pretty well. Yeah I wonder if I will score below a 1.0 on this since scoring a 3.0 on my first exam, I've been dropping.

I drove my mommy up to MSU yesterday to take my sis out to lunch. Finally my sis is not going to Myrtle Beach next summer! My mommy was talking to us about going to HK together next summer. I never thought my sis would ever go but she actually wants to go. I was surprised then I just saw a glow in my mom's eyes because she wanted her to go with them back to HK. That made my mom's day was hearing my sis saying that she is willing to go back to HK, well as long as she gets first class. My mom wanted to hear from me, but for now I have to decline. My work at ACA is more important to me unless something happens. My mom really wants me to go, so I can take care of my sis in HK. Yeah it was hard for me to say no to her because I love our family vacations. However, I still have our condo reserved in Daytona Beach around that time so maybe I can do something with that. Depending how things are in my life, I might go down there by myself to soak up the sun and get away. Or maybe I can plan a guys trip down there, but who knows for now.

I had a nice time talking to my mom in the long car ride too. She sensed just how much I've been frustrated financially speaking, when I get upset that everyone I know gets to go out of MI and the only way I can do it is if I pay for everything myself. By the end of the night, I felt like I just complained too much to her and was just an ungreatful son to her. I felt so stupid for being so ungreatful that she offered me to free mileage if I wanted to go somewhere because she has enough to get me anywhere. I was thinking of going back to Cali right away, but yet I like to think I can earn my way there. My mommy ended the night with me by bringing Outback to my house for me. It makes me think just of totally skipping the CBC Thanksgiving Service to spend more quality time with her.

I got a chance to talk to a good friend yesterday too. I'm thankful for getting a chance to know him the past few years. What I love about him is his caring for people. However, he's been down because people don't take the time to follow up or make that effort to check up on him. That's what I've been worried about with some people the past 3 years now. It's like people saying "I'll pray for you" well that's great. However, there is the follow up part, like do we still need to pray or has it turned into a praise? That's one thing right now that I love about Daddy Moy's Sunday School because their is follow up on people's prayer request. I mean the following up part is the caring aspect too. Anyways I will pray for you my friend because I know what you're going through, if anything it sucks even more. However, I will do my best to be a caring brother because no one should be fellowshiping on an island alone.

Nobody's Fool

Hold on to me Love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love You and I'm not afraid
Can You hear me?
Can You feel me in Your arms?
Holding my last breath
Safe Inside myself
Are all my thoughts of You
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight

The other day, I've been thinking about the word communication. I look at it in terms of a 2 way street. Communication, is recipricative (sp?) where drop a bomb and get one back. I learned the other night, that it does depend on the other end's perspective. I've heard things about people being busy, so I guess you just get passed by on the freeway. Literally speaking, I always drive in the fast lane to pass people up. However, in life I tend to drive in the slow lane, wanting to greet those I care for. I noticed though as I'm driving in this slow lane, I'm getting passed up. I've been wondering, should I start signaling over to the left lane and pass everyone trying to understand other's perspective?

Thanks Sansan for taking me to the Pistons game, too bad Billups choked. But hey you got some extra bobble-heads out of it.

Now it's time for the stretch run this week as EED is cancelled. So I'm gonna head up to Sparty land. I'm excited that Small G and No G are back in the area, so I can hang out with them too. It just seems like so many things are coming at me these next 2 weeks. Turkey Bowl, Mommy's b-day, Wedding Reception, and b-ball tournament. I'm still trying to pick a song out to listen to for that tournament. Anyhoot, more on that this week because I hate our team name. I also found out yesterday that Bonnie's family is coming over here for a week. I wonder if I'll have time to even entertain her in the D and if I have enough Canton vocab left in my box to create convo's with her.

Everyone's living in the fast lane, I want to understand the perspective aspect. Drop a dime, get a penny, gotta love it eh.

Everybody's Fool

I'm happy yet it sucked last night after a night of a double header for v-ball. First at the Ford game, we swept all 3 games, but it sucked because Mike put himself on IR and is done for the season. Rich will be in and out, which leaves me to be the sole hitter. I like the pressure and the challenge, but I know I don't have to do it alone as I have great support.

Now I go over to Boulan, and despite everyone loving my stats of like 10 kills per game or whatever it was. It didn't get the job done, we lost all 5 games which sucked butt. Yeah I played great, but it wasn't enough to get the Dub. The theme at both places was lust I guess. At Ford, I was so focused on the game, next thing you know, the guys on my team are like wow look at that blonde bombshell on the other court. Then at Troy, you got one guy on my team letting the Kelly, and Melissa taking passes so he can stare at their booty from behind. Man it's like can we all just concentrate on the game together here.

I talked to my booty grabbing Melissa last night. It's cool now because after each kill I get, we have this little celebration hand thing going down. I don't know what to call it yet. Anyhoot, she told me that she is going out with Pepe! Yes, Pepe Sanchez who played with the Pistons last year and got traded to G.S. this year and is now out of the NBA. She told me she's gonna try to hook me up with some AND 1 stuff since that is Pepe's sponsors. In addition she is now good friends with Memo, so she's gonna try to introduce me to him, plus try to get me backstage passes for some games. Man I'm psyched if all this happens. From this day forward, I ain't knocking on Pepe anymore either.

My Last Breath

The last past Saturday b-ball sharings have been on my mind a lot lately. This morning I was driving to school, and I feel the same way as my girl, Steph D does too. I'm late for ECN right now, however I did do a good job on my Art presentation yesterday. Prof. Tyson thought that Shawn, Carl, Jeff, and I were the best group by far in class, so that looks like a 4.0. Erica and I got our exam back for HST, yeah we both score low, with me getting a 1.0. Gosh I hate this class, anyways EED 316 is cancelled next week. Shawn and I are seeing who wants to go to the casino next week since we have no class. However, as I continue think about Steph's entry, I'm probably gonna pass on it now, despite coming up with the idea.

Friday, I had to go to a student teacher meeting. As I sat there, I felt like that I'm getting closer to graduate, yet do I want to though? It's like I'm having so much fun, that I don't want to think about waking early to get to work on time. I mean how bad would it be if I overslept on my first day of teaching?

I went to ACA on Saturday before b-ball and as I walked in, all the kids were getting excited that I have finally decided to come back to visit. Yeah I miss them as much as they miss me too. I talked to Jessie, and dang it I was right I knew that was her picture on the Big Boy's menu. Her mom was talking to me about it and I'm proud of Jessie's accomplishments.

After Sunday's football day, I went back to my cousin's house with Frank. As we were eating dinner, waiting for Prime Time, we busted out a game of Double Dribble on my Nintendo. Gosh it was just like the old days, from Jr. High to the end of High School. As soon as I get home from practice, I would go straight to Damon's. From there, everyone would come over, and I mean everyone. We'd have like 20 people over, just to play b-ball on his driveway. We've hosted 3 on 3 tournaments amongst all of us. Summer time, that's all we did, play b-ball. I'd sometimes spend a night over there and wake up at 7:00 a.m. just to start working on my game as they were all older and bigger than me. In the winter, we'd all go over there to play football. Friday winter nights, all we did was form a squad to go up to Dumar's. We'd play video games on the side when we weren't playing football or b-ball. Those were the days, and now where I am at? Steph's entry reminds me of the convo I used to have with Gonads. I predicted it to her that once off to college, that she's gonna do the same as others have. My prediction is so far is dead on, it makes you wonder who your real dawgz are?

Double-header tonight, time to get down. Actually time to go to ECN now!

Whisper

Thank you to my 5:14 bro's and sis's for their celebration of my b-day. After fellowship, I come home to find out that my recycling bin has blown off to the wilderness. Now I'm just a little drained still trying to run off this all nighter. The only thing that keeps me going is listening to my Evanscence cd. As I got ready for school this morning I was really hoping for no school, but to no avail. Oh well when I get home, I will go and search for my recycling bin. Well now time to go to ECN to lead my peeps into another wonderful day of note passing.

Procratination, man I came into the ERL hoping to get my Art Project and ECN term paper done. I've been here for about 2 hours now and have not done anything. All I have done so far is play fantasy games. So a quick blog then I'm gonna bust some work out.

Yesterday, my old friend Dave came looking for me on campus. Dave was my very first friend that I made when I transferred into Plumbrook Elementary. We've been friends since 2nd grade and we were tight till about SHS dayz. As I continued the venue in football, b-ball, and tennis at SHS while he went to the bar/drinking road. Yet I still love him because he was my first friend. He lived down the street from me when we both lived in the Heights. We hung out like everyday, playing board games or some backyard football. My sis loved hanging out with us too when we were younger. Dave's mom, always loved my sis because she was the only girl when we hung out. Dave was the one who got me into wrestling, and I'll never forget that night that I went over to watch my very first pay-per-view event, SummerSlam. My mommy and his mom would always take turns driving us place to place. My daddy always loved talking to him because he was smarter than me, and he would come out to dinner with us in Windsor. We don't keep in contact that much because he's either busy with school, working at Lids, or drinking. But it meant a lot to me that yesterday he still looked for me to wish me a belated b-day, because I didn't think he'd still remember. I'm happy to see him graduating in April too, and I wish him the best when he gets out.

Last night, Melissa kept telling everyone in the huddle that it was the first time she has seen me smile since the season started in Troy. I think it was because I got to the gym early, Rob had the Limp that I asked for bumping over the speakers of the gym. I also spent some time alone during warm ups to just ask God for guidance and how to lead our team to victory. So everyone started laughing when I jumped into the hitting line. First time this has ever happened to me. I made my usual approach as I jumped, my right hand got caught in my tear-aways. As I was in the air, I got my hand out, and I landed with my tear-aways coming off of me. Man that was embarrassing, the suck part too is that Rob has it on tape. All in all, though I was very pumped, I'm starting to get back to my old ways of playing before coming to CBC. I was talking, hyping everyone up, throwing chest bumps to Mark, high-fiving Kelly and Erin during warm-ups. As Melissa said, "this is the most animated I've ever seen you been." It was great because we took 2 of 3 games, and everyone had a good time. I felt good, as personally I'm done with this being silent on the court thing. Before I came to CBC, one of my favorite players to study was GP, because I love how he talks to anyone and everyone to psyche people up. I felt like Ray Lewis last night, just getting the huddle pumped before the game started.

Oh Boy

Good ol high school humor cracked me up yesterday in EED. So Shawn, Carl, and I were doing this art project which was hammering out a piece of metal into a piece of art. Margo was walking around to make sure that we all could do it. So here's the convo:

Us 3: Hey Margo come over here.
M: What's up guys!
S: Yeah, we were wondering where did you get access to all this wood?
C and K: hahahah
M: Very funny, guys.
K: Wait, my wrist kind of hurts, is there a better way to hold your wood?
S and C: hahah
M:Why don't you tell me?

Eh, it was funny and Margo and Melissa were cracking up afterwards.

Now my thought of the day, is leadership after sitting through the English Leaders Meeting. Are you born with it or is it developed? Today, I'm sitting in ECON with the rest of the class. Some of us had gotten word that Prof. Johnson was not here today. So I held my 10 minute rule for myself only. Danielle and Karen kept telling me to make the decision for the class, whether to bounce or stay. The other half of the class all kept looking at me too, waiting for me to make a move. Here I am just counting the minutes away just so I can leave. With 3 minutes left, I stood up in front of the whole lecture class. It was wierd with all eyez on me, when I'm not the teacher. I told everyone that the teach has 3 minutes left, otherwise we bounce. As it nears, I decided to get the class to do a countdown with me just to build suspense. After the whole class got to 1, I said "Aight, we bounce and I'll see y'all on Thursday." I couldn't believe people were willing to follow me because I don't even know half the class. Yet they are so willing to leave with me. It made me think, man I hope I made the right call in cancelling class myself. But back to the thought, leadership, are you born with it or is it developed?

Note to myself, next entry gotta talk about my first friend ever, at Plumbrook, Dave.

Glasco

Yesterday I went to Toronto, some where I haven't been this whole year. First it was the case with SARS, then it was ACA, and now finally a chance to go. My mommy called me Tuesday night after my v-ball game and made sure that I promised her that I would not do any 2 Fast 2 Furious driving to give any of my SF relatives heart attacks. As we were getting closer to there, I had all these goals that I wanted to get down there. Of course none of it was really accomplished. I didn't buy any VCD's because the movies didn't look too good, I only bought a couple of cd's. I gotta say Mel Smell's girl Yan Zi is pretty good. I didn't get a chance to hang with my boy, Howie, and my Shortay, as in his sis Sherrie. Gosh I missed them both but it was nice to chat up on the phone before they had class.

My aunt kept telling me in the car, oh yeah you gotta meet her relative's daughter. Because my aunt, is into all that hooking each other stuff, so of I course I gave the usual answer of yeah, you should hook up your sons before me. Plus, I kept telling myself, that this girl was probably everything I don't want in a girl.

My aunt asked me to take her to this Buddhist temple. I actually wanted to go in to see what it was like and to cause mischef. However, I just decided to take a nap in the car so I don't get into trouble. Then all the grown ups were playing mah jong, so instead of doing what they wanted me to do which was wait to meet their daughter, I decided to bounce. I went to cruise around and do my thing at Pacific Mall.

I come back to see what's up, and their daughter answered the door, and I was like wow, she's a cutie. I didn't talk to her, and she did the same. She was the rather shy type. We all went out to dinner, and I noticed wow she is like one the most well mannered girls I know. It wasn't till after dinner, things started rolling. The grown ups told us to go so they could play some more mah jong. Yeah, I should be miked up when she was in the car with me. It was dead silent because she's shy, and I didn't know which language I should hit her up with. I had to ask her, in canto if she speaks english. She said it's not that good and it is limited. So now I'm like great, what the G do I talk to her about. However, things started rolling along, and I spoke cantonese like I've never done before. I was like so fricking amazed with myself, that we carried a conversation for like an hour or more long, where I had to go all out cantonese. We got to know each other, and got carried some in depth convo's.

So before I left Toronto to head home, she gave me her digits. At first, I was like wow she could understand everything I say, and she could respond. However, now that I think about it, I don't think I'll call her because I feel like I've exhausted my canto vocab. She told me though that she would very much like to visit the U.S. and come to the D, so we can chill. I told her that I might actually come back in 2 weeks then to hang, and she wanted to show me this Pho place. Plus I wanna see Howie and Sherrie too.

As I left Toronto, I gave my SF relatives a hug because I probably won't see them in a while. I got a chance to say bye to Bonnie and pull her hat down :) Getting on to 401 on my own now, made me realize that this was one of the first times I didn't want to leave Toronto. Usually, I'm just like in and out of T-O because I can't think of much to do there that I actually would enjoy. Sitting at the rest area in Ingersoll though, I know that God still has a lot more in store for me in the D.

Now I sit in the ERL staring at the clock. Waiting for the season opener at OU for the pay per view matchup right away, 4-Play vs. Sets N' Violence. The Toronto trip took a lot out of me, more than I thought it would in terms of physically and emotionally. I honestly kind of feel v-balled out now, and I'm looking more towards b-ball and football. Well still have 3 hours left before the game so I guess I'm gonna go try to pump myself up for this.

Lay Your Love On Me

I was doing a lot of reflecting today, and after reading Big Nasty's entry, how appropriate that I've been reflecting well now my past 23 years of my life. What my childhood was like? I remember bouncing around from St. Louie, to Memphis, and back to the D what seemed like everyday. I remember a lot of the good times that I had when I was a lil lad. However, with the good comes the bad and it bothers me that a lot of those tragic events still kind of overshadow the good. On one hand those events made me a stronger person today. However, at times I wish I could drive the Back to the Future car and alter my past. Man, that one night still plays out in my mind over and over now.......hmmm I'm thankful to You for what you've provided me and it means the world to me.

Now it leaves me with today, this has been one of the most frustrating v-ball season ever in my life. I'm struggling with trying to stay positive in the Co-Ed league for Troy. It was a tough pill to swallow walking in and looking at the standings to see that where dead last. It was frustrating as yet more teams each week, keep asking me when I'm gonna start hitting. I told a lot of them that it's hard when can get the A part which is passing, so I'm not worried about my hitting stats which is the C part. Everybody sees Bill and I as the most competitive guys out there, but where the line is drawn is that he has been titled as a sore loser. Team morale was at a low point today. Some of my teammates gave up during the first game. What can I say? What can I do? This isn't my team officially but many teams have labeled it as my team. This losing thing is a new experience for me and I'm doing my best to stay positive despite it all.

Maegan and I went to the OU V-ball captain's meeting together last night. Thanks Mae for going with me. It's the first time that we are now playing 4's this semester. 5 of the last 6 semesters, the Finals have always been Joey's team vs. Titans. Now that his team, 4-Play is in the same division as we are, Sets N' Violence. However, we are not even the best team anymore. There's a new sheriff in town, in the other division. Despite being Co-Ed, Andre has allowed the Men's 4's champs over the summer play in the East Conference. When all the teams heard that, they all dropped their jaws. Everyone looked at me as if I was on crack when I asked if they could switch them into the West Conference, just so I could get a crack at them to see what they have to offer. Andre said no, so odds are that Men's team will be in the finals, while Joey and I duke it out to see who is the best in the West.

I talked to Mae already, and it still sticks out to me. I want to upgrade the team in talent. We didn't make any significant free agent signings and SpongeBob and Jane haven't played in a while. I believe Mae will have a breakout year. So what bothers me, is that we didn't get worst from last year, but did we get better? Only if I could get Courtney to play then I'd be fine. Mae's right though, "you'll have to use with what you have." Steve was surprised that I cut Lisa, because he thought was pretty good. My answer, "you're only good if you are consistent." Plus Lisa's emotions were affecting the team as well. I don't have Cindy either as she has moved on to MSU now. We came in 2nd in the winter semester, which isn't good enough for me. So with no signings, did we get better or worst? Erin gave a little pep rally tonight and she said to have fun. Fun to me is winning, I don't know how much fun it can be to lose.

Anyways only a couple of hours before I bounce out to Toronto.

Stronger

Miked up, that was what happened to Chris Hovan this past Sunday night. Boy I need to get miked up for my Troy games now. Here are the sound bytes of my trash talking, and it wasn't even to my opponent but towards the ref:

1) K: Hey you wanna signal and blow the whistle louder when we can actually serve!

2) K: Hey out of all the calls you called, you called too many guys on the court when he was walking off the court? There was so much other garbage you could of called on both....(cut off by ref)
Ref: Hey do you wanna call a time out to discuss this?
K: No way, it's not worth taking a time out to talk to you right now.

3) K: Hey what's this, (I put my hands in my pocket, mocking the ref), come on, how many times do I have to tell you, to blow the whistle and signal with your hand to serve!
Ref: Are you gonna keep watching me?
K: Hell yeah, I'm waiting for you to get it right!

4) On a call which was out, seen by both teams
Ref: That was out! (Both teams surprised by the call)
K (I run up to the face of the ref): You gotta be kidding me, ummm can I challenge that call, where's my red flag!
Ref: I called it out, now go back to your team.
K: That's a bullshit call, if I've ever seen one.
Ref: Hey do you wanna yellow card?
K: Yellow, red, green, just give them all to me, like I care.

5) Taunting the ref
I grabbed the ball, stood next to the ref, and whistled and signaled point for our team.
K: (whistling and signaling) Point to that team, that's how it's done ref. You blow the whistle to signal the end of a play.
Ref: Do you think you can do a better job?
K: Of course, and don't forget who is reffing your game next week.
Ref: Ok then why don't you show me.
K: Show you, I'm gonna educate you in my Reffing 101 class next week, so come on by!

6) The finisher, last game cap at 17, with the score at 16-16. Jehu set me a beauty, and I killed it right inside the 10 ft. line. My closing statement as soon as the kill was down-
K: OOOOOOOOOOOOOO (grabbing my chicken) AND ALL THE REFS HERE CAN SUCK MY COCK! As I walked off the court.

Am I sorry? Yes to God for being a poor witness, no doubt about it. Love me neighbor, yeah that didn't happen tonight. Was it fun, yes it was. Our team was encouraged from it because it motivated them even more to want to win. If there is anything that I've carried with me since my Jr. High days, is my heart. I might not be the biggest, nor fastest or whatever, but I do play with my heart and that it's bigger than a lot of others on the court. I was encouraged to see my teammates support after the initial game I blew up at them. They continued to pick me up off the court, as I continued to fly into walls, floors, and even going through/over bleachers. They even let me stay in the whole game while the rest of the team rotated around me because I wanted to just carry this team to a win. Plus, I gave both teams and the crowd a show as well with my antics with the refs. A lot of people were amazed at just how much the refs were willing to take without ejecting me from the game or at least carding me. However, I should start praying before I play each game, hmmm that might be better.

After the game, I had dinner with my relatives from San Francisco. Gosh I haven't seen them since I was like 5 or something. Can't really remember when was the last time I went to Cali. Wednesday, I get to drive them to Toronto to see our relatives over there. Plus there flight back to Cali is from Toronto. First Toledo last week, now Toronto, man I'm excited, but at the same time, I'm bummed because I'm missing out on 5:14 when it's the first time in a while that fellowship is closest to my house. Oh well, I can use the drive home from Toronto to just be alone with God.

Remix

Wow, what a 4 days it was, with the exciting twist on Survivor. I've been comtemplating if I should save this one for Sister Cat when she comes back. This by far was one of the best episodes, plus I get to see my girls Nicole and Michelle back possibly raising back my percentage of my top 4 of whom I've selected to win. I can't wait to see who gets voted off in my live version of Survivor this week.

Then their was the Passion concert. Of all the concerts I've ever been to at North Ridge, this one by far had the most Asians there. It was a nice concert because it was something different that I haven't seen yet.

Yes, U of M beat MSU so I could shut my sister up. I actually finished all my ECN work which was amazing. I also finished one of my ten projects I have for EED. So it was a productive weekend in the homework department.

Had a nice day of football today. I don't know what it was that got me more fired up today. Gosh I was just so pumped to play, maybe it was because Benito finally got to play with us. I was really hoping he and I would be on the same team so we could finally hook up. It didn't work out that way, but Jimmy did a good job today as well. He did a really great job in checking with his progressions, and just throwing it where only the receivers can get to the ball. However, I gotta say though, the Fungster is by far one of the best 3rd down recievers to throw to. Why, because she just gets first downs after first down, very clutch.

Finally the final thing on my mind is legalism. Daddy Moy taught this lesson last week and reviewed it again today. I thought today, it raised a lot of good points. This past week, I've been thinking about all my legalistic ways and how I try to push my own personal convictions on to others. Daddy Moy wanted me to share with the class about where I see legalism, my first thought was right inside at CBC. I love CBC as much as the next person, but personally I feel hated on sometimes ya know.

Off the top of my head, first example that sticks out to me the past 2 weeks ago when I had to go to the DIA with SpongeBob with the rest of the class for our project. I walk into CBC, and right away a particular deacon who shall remain nameless, just looks at me in disgust or disappointment. My first thought was ok, you don't know where I've been and you look at me that way because you're disappointed at what I wore which was my D-Ship shirt and shorts. Plus I bring in a close friend of mine from school, and could of possibly saw that but didn't. But yeah pure deacon skills there.

Another one I could of named, was a couple of years ago at the CBC Retreat, Achi and I were both wearing bandanas during the refreshment time. Another higher up at CBC, asked me to take my banadana off, and I said "Sure as long as you can show in the Bible where it says that." Yeah he walked away after I said that.

Or how bout one of my Baptism night classes, now only B-12 was with me go back at it with an Elder. Again, his principles was you need to dress your best on Sundays for God, and I kept telling him that it's all in the heart of worship and that you can't judge a book by it's cover of how someone walks into worship. His answer "well sometimes you can", my rebuttle "I don't think so because only God can judge and you ain't God." Yeah baptism class was dismissed after the hammer was dropped.

My last example is, Sunday School, now I love Sunday School because I feel spiritually challenged when other brothers and sisters participate. I get a chance to listen to what other people feel about issues. It's a nice time to fellowship and get interaction with who ever is teaching it. However, I do not feel that people should be herded along like cattle or slaves into a classroom to attend Sunday School. A friendly reminder is fine, but when you feel like a hurricane forces you into it is another thing. Yeah, we should set an example for others to go to Sunday School, but I just think their should be some sort of tweaking of the approach here.

One of my biggest weaknesses, and peeps at school know this too, is that I don't like authority. Yes it's something I try to work on as well. I just wanna apologize to those in the past where I've come off legalistic or where I've tried to force down my personal convictions. I'm in the process now of filtering out those who've pushed their personal convictions on to me and I actually took some of it because I thought it was good without thinking about it. I wanna hear God's voice speaking to me about what He knows is good and bad for me, and where my boundaries are. I am though kind of glad, because now I feel like I can actually go to worship and dress more comfortably, instead of trying to please those of the church. However, at the same time I will be considerate to others as well. Why? Gotta keep the commandments baby!

How much do I love Survivor? I love it so much that I decided today to start my own really live game of it. Now that I'm in the ED Program, I have to register for certain classes. So all out of whole crew here at OU, I've compliled a list of all my peeps that I keep in contact with. So out of like 20 of my closer friends at school, I talked to a good portion today to see who will be moving on with me in the winter semester and who'll be left behind. Dang SpongeBob along with you Tina! are like 2 semesters ahead of me. So who got voted out today? Stephanie, Ross, Amy, Sarah, and Karen along with the other 2 mentioned. I'm just gonna have to cherish the remainder of the semester with them this year.

Speaking of Survivor, their are only 2 people that I like to see win it all, Ryan O. and Darrah. Man, Darrah is a cutie with a freaky occupation. Dang it, Nicole had to be the first voted off then Michelle just a couple of weeks later.

Mmmmm football Sunday, to play football, Xtreme Stamp Camp, or homework? Hmmm this is a tough choice here. Ok, time to walk Tina to class then off to Passion.

Wookie

Man, I just left the ED Advising office and I feel like I just signed my life over. First off I must be like the most unorganized student in the program now. Anyhoot, I just signed a contract now and I'm excited that I recieved a letter saying that I am now officially in the ED Program. This letter definitly is going up on my fridge baby! The suck part is that now I actually have to attend all these meetings and next winter I actually have to start student teaching again. Man that is one less day for me to sleep in possibly :( Signing this contract also means another step closer to dare we say graduation. On the bright side though, it means more goofing around in the ED courses as it seems that's all I ever do.

Last night at Beech Woods, we played against the team that won B last year and had to move up to A. The sadly quote of the night by Howard "Man I can't believed that guy blocked you" referring to some fat guy. Anyhoot Howard and I kept talking during the time out because we were pumped to play that team since they kept talking. The thing was though, we didn't know if they were talking to us or not because they all spoke Spanish. Nonetheless, it was a first time ever for me to trash talk to the other team in my limited Spanish skills.

Then it was like a tale of 2 cities, going from Beech Woods to Boulan. The fun part was that I roofed Blake and Jason, more fun to roof Blake to shut him up for once. The sad part is I keep wondering how much longer God keeps testing my patience with this team. I got my warning and close to a yellow card with arguing back with the ref. The quote of this game "You should tell your team to start underhand serving" as one of the females from Jason's team was talking to me at the net. I of course didn't take any offense to that because hey she's right. I met our newest teammate, another Melissa that I know now. Gosh she was a cutie, and for the first time ever, I experienced something new on the court. As I was going to get the ball to serve, cutie Melissa came up and slapped me in the booty. I have never had a girl slap me in the butt during a game. My first thought was of JW, thinking "yeah do it again", then my next thought was of Viv thinking back of her booty slapping story. Then my last thought was, wow I feel violated, then oh crap I better serve the ball before time runs out.

Anyhoot, I'm gonna head on down to Toledo now. 5:14 Hot Pot Tonight at llz's place baby, and the Pistons home opener. Have fun Carl and Shaun, sorry I couldn't join y'all at the game.

Resonate

Wow, it's funny reading or listening to everyone talking about their soreness from Sunday's Football Madness. Another great job by the Fungster of setting it up. One thing that I wanna start working back on is my QB skills. I never got to play QB much growing up because my cousins always wanted to play QB. But I think I can be a darn good QB. What I've been thinking about lately, is vision. Do I have vision for CBC? Do I have it for 5:14? In sports, playing PG in b-ball, I feel like I see a lot of things that people don't see. The same thing with v-ball in terms of hitting, not often do I get roofed. When I line up as a WR, to me it's like I see the coverage and the blitzes coming. So if I was lined up at QB, I know who were gonna be my check downs before I even snap the ball. I guess I'm just thankful for God giving me the gift of vision in a lot of ways.

Speaking of vision, I've been thinking about my future a lot lately. Eh, maybe because I'm still one of the youngest in 5:14 and peeps always talk about their jobs and moving. I often think about moving out to Minnesota, to be with some of my extended family out there. It's just so beautiful over there with all the lakes, and walking around St. Paul. Then my mind shifts over to the likes of NYC. After driving there the past 2 years now, I love the action out there, it's never dull. Plus I got family out there too, so it would be nice to spend time with them. I even thought of Florida, going down to our condo and living it up in Daytona, where it's always warm, along the beach, and the roads are smooth. Then again this past Sunday got me thinking, nah I'm here at CBC in MI. I don't think I could leave my parents as they get older because I want to take care of them as much as they have taken care of me, plus I don't think my sis will stick around to help them either. Then their was getting my teaching stuff for my term when I teach Jr. Church. I was looking over everything and I was excited to use a lot of different methods that I learned this semester into my teaching skillz. Then just playing with Christopher and Audrey, makes me think that yeah I wanna be around to see their generation be strong Christians.

Now I keep thinking about my sis, yes my actual one. She's been sick now for 2 weeks, and she puked the other day. It makes me think that I wish she was home so I could take care of her because she ain't really good at that on her own. Or if I could, just pass the gift God has given me with, of quick healing abilities. I hope she is feeling better up there otherwise I'll have to take some time off to make a trip to Sparty land.

Quote of the day from Amanda "Those 3 should not be sitting next to each other."

Hahahah, referring to Carl, Shaun, and myself as we were laughing it up in EED yesterday. Melissa now wants to break us 3 up because all we do is crack jokes at each other. What was fun was trying to shoot hoops with these beans that we got from Kristin's group. Kristin we hooked your group up with 1's on the evals!

Dang it, just got done taking my HST exam too. Man it looks like playing football on Sunday was a bad idea, but oh well, grades aren't everything. 1 class left for today before I get the exciting back to back v-ball games at Beech Woods, and Troy. I get to take on the Super Powers today in Jason and Blake, man I need to kick it up a notch and not waste too much energy at the Ford game.

Reality

Frustration, pisstation, furiated, etc. is how I felt after yesterday's Conference Finals lost 20-6. Normally, I would say yeah it's my fault for losing but there is nothing that I could of think of for this one. A lot of teams in this league always kept challenging our QB's arm. Even our own teammates question his QB skills. I was one of the few who always stood up for him. The past few games I haven't seen the ball thrown my way as much. I kept my mouth shut, instead of "Throw me the damn ball" attitude I had in the regular season. Why? Because we were winning when I didn't see the ball thrown as much. But come on, in the Conference Finals, I kept looking around at who exactly on the team wanted a play. The sad part was, it wasn't even the defense that shut me down, but our conservative offense that kept me in check. I mean I had to line up at RB just to catch screen passes because we're afraid to throw deep or anything pass 10 yards.

On defense, it was set me vs. Mike that was the showdown. However, someone wanted me to take John because he was the fastest guy. But my opinion Mike is the more complete WR. 5 plays after the coin toss, yup Mike scores a 40 yard bomb over the CB who wanted to switch. After that play, for the rest of the game, Peter made me cover Mike. Oh yeah and let's see Mike stats after the switch, 2 receptions for 15 yards. The other CB who switched with me got burned again for what would be the last TD of the game. How much do I study games? I studied Mike's first 2 receptions against me. I noticed him and his QB go by the same thing I do, a number system on routes. For them, 1 was drag, 2 was an out pattern. Simple as that, I told everyone at halftime to anticipate it when you see a finger signal or a mouth signal. Of course people still got burned especially again the same CB. This was pissing me off, it's like who the G am I suppose to cover here?

Now we move on to special teams. As we were lining up to punt, it was decided that I would return this sucker. So of course the ball is in the air, and I'm running under it to get ready to catch it. However, my blockers are all looking up at the fricking ball too and one of them decides to catch it instead of blocking. My first thought was going back to last Sunday's game. I get the chance to return a kick, and all my blockers are looking up at the fricking ball with me instead of looking horizontal to block, and boom I get the clothesline from hell by JW because of course everyone is still staring at the ball. I mean geeez it's simple either you're a returner or a blocker, you can't be both here. QB's picking up blitzes, is it really that hard too? I mean for me I feel it's easy as reading a full court press in b-ball. There are a lot of people out there that think they can play this game but it's like if we played tackle, then people are gonna get hurt, no doubt about it.

The other sucked part in the Conference game was on one play, I was covering Mike. I saw him mouth the number 2, so I anticipated, and tweaked the same knee on the play. I heard a minor pop, but I was able to walk it off and not miss a play. Man now my knee feels like a rubber band though. I guess I gotta test this bad boy out on Sunday.

Someday

Hello everybody I want you to meet my best friend for the night, Naproxen. It is my lovely prescribed pain killers I keep with me in case I run out of Motrin or in my case somebody lost them. Boy what a day, first we go off again to more playoff drama. Dickman vs. URAPK, both offenses were awful. Let's cap down to the last play of the game where we opted to punt on 4th down with 5 seconds left when we had the lead 20-13. However, Ray fumbled the punt and with 1 second left at their 30 yard line had a chance. However, their dumb QB decides to run and actually got sacked again by Ray to end the game. The stars of the game, first has to be Steve. He is the least athletic person on our team, but what I love about him is that he knows his role and does a good job with it. His role is being the center and protecting Stan. He had a big catch and a big pass deflection.

The other stars had to be our newest addition Matt, Ray's friend. Those 2 just tormented the QB in the backfield. It was like Simeon Rice and Warren Sapp lined up on the line. Now as for me, let's see Dickman's QB completed more passes to me than Stan did. I mean does the word "lockdown" mean anything yet? I finished the game with 2 interceptions and plenty of return yards. That makes 5 interceptions for me in the last 6 games, almost averaging 1 a game.

So this Thursday, is the conference final game 5 West vs. URAPK. Man only one more win and we are off to the OU SuperBowl. Who would of thought that our team would make it this far? My assignment this Thursday, is to dog Mike all day. I have a great deal of respect for him because he was and still is on my v-ball team, and he is a great football player too. He is one of the league's big play recievers too. So I look forward to the challenge of 2 of the best players in the conference locking it down.

After the game though, I drove down to Beech Woods and as soon as the game started, it started to hurt. My back was like acting up, like if it had some dent in it or something. It hurt just to bend down to recieve a pass hence majority of my passes sucked. Hitting line was hard because I had to torque my body more. I ate my friend Mr. Naproxen which helped me finished the 3 games. It hurt when Bill went to put his hand on my back to go around me. I'm squirming right now just to keep it loose because it's stiff now. My shoulder feels like it's gonna fall off from hitting the past few nights now. Tomorrow, gotta make sure I sit in the hot tub to relax my muscles and keep loose for Thursday's game. This sucks though because can't even sleep with this pain in the back. What sucked even more was I tried to pull out everything I had in my energy, even on this one sweet back 1 set from Bill, and it just wasn't enough. On the bright side, Vertically Challenge is 6-0 now, gosh I can't stand our team name. This pain feeling is some what a good feeling too because at least I know I've been giving it my all, and as Howie said "he's still the youngster, he'll heal by tomorrow." Amen to that, in the mean time, time to look for that heating pad. Would be nice to let Brother Steve or Doc Kim take a looksy though. Oh well, I'm sure it's just a spasm.

Come Into My World

I finally saw Underworld this past Friday and despite the poor reviews the News gave it. I thought it was pretty cool, it sure got me thinking a lot. The best thing I guess was the "double-gun action" as I was told :) What I liked about the movie though was probably it's darkness. There was also another theme in the movie that never got mentioned or at least in the spotlight unless you picked it out. Anyways I can relate to this movie a lot in terms of the darkness mood, and the hidden theme because hey I've asked people about my characteristcs before.

Sunday, we played some good ol' 2 Hand Touch Football. Man each play I had to keep praying to myself or let God hear, to hold my frustrations in. However, I slipped at the end but man I can only take so much. Anyways, good job Fungster on getting this game going despite the crap you had to put up with. It's hard to satisfy everyone.

My sis came back for a little this past weekend. She wants to grow her hair out long again. I guess she must be sick of me calling her boy by now. Speaking of hair, since mine is getting a little long, what should I do to mine?

I've been thinking about one of my biggest sins at OU lately, or it's just a common thing for me as I try to work on it. It's my sin of getting attention at school. I really do feel like I'm back in the SHS days where I love being known. My first day in EED, the only friend I had in there was Melissa, not SpongeBob because we had class before then together. Now I sit in EED and it's like I lead half the class. I mean before class Melissa and I chill in the ERL just doing whatev's. My chinese bro, Carl joins in after the first week, then Shawn, then Kristin, then Lisa, and Amanda. I mean the rest of the class are like as old as my parents and view me as an obnoxious kid, while the rest of the class finds me funny and adorable at the things I do and say.

Then there's ECON, where as Alex has said "Wow K, your force grows stronger each week. Or he'll say "Man you own like half the class." It's amazing how much he knows when he doesn't come that often. Even in ECON, all I do is sleep and when I do wake up I'm just passing notes to everyone, some funny and some serious.

There's MTD, where it's like the only class where I got to freak some of the girls in the class because they were in my group for our Dance midterm. Yeah, I named our Dance presentation "Booty Cake (The Freak Remix). The dance was off the hook considering we put together a lot of various dances together. Unlike other groups where they just did one they knew already.

There's HST, I come in late and then sleep because dude it's a morning class. I now know history + morning class = zzzzzzz. So what I'm trying to tell myself is that I do need to set a better example. I often do share my love for God to my peeps at school, but at the same time do I act it. Just another weakness in me that I need to continue to pray to God to keep molding me away.

Finally, tomorrow is a big day for flag football. URAPK vs. Dickman, man this was the team where I exploded for my offensive numbers. However, they are a good DB blitzing team. Good thing, Stan, Matt, and I talked it over and got a few new plays worked up. Time to put the lockdown on my next opponent. Man after football, then v-ball game at Troy, then v-ball game at Beech Woods. The things I do to challenge myself.

In A Galaxy

Yesterday's playoff drama - URAPK vs. There Can Only Be 1 at halftime was 20-7 as we were down 2 scores and I looked everyone's heads just hanging as our season was only 20 minutes away from being over. Before the game started as we were grabbing our jerseys, Peter came up to me and asked "Do you feel like being David Terrell or Braylon Edwards?" I didn't know what he was talking about. Then he handed me the # 1 jersey and said "Here you deserve to wear this." So as halftime was over I just knew I had to do something to make the team believe we can win.

On There Can Only Be 1's 5th play on the drive, it happened. I anticipated and jumped up for our first interception of the game and brought it back it to their 30 yard line. A few plays later, boom Stan connects to Peter for the touchdown and converted the extra point to bring the score 20-13.

There Can Only Be 1 now has lead a long drive and are in the red zone. 3 plays they kept going to their dubbed Randy Moss, and 3 plays I deflected the ball away from him. The last one I was waving my finger to the QB and whispered to their Moss "tell them to keep throwing to you." On 4th and goal, Ray might of not had a sack throughout the game but his pressure on this play made the difference. As the QB kept scrambling backwards, Ray's pressure made him slp and fall which lead to a turnover on downs.

With only 1:30 left in the game now and the score at 20-13, we all knew in the huddle that we controlled our destiny now. With 30 seconds left in the game, and we're at their 10 yard line it seemed inevitable that we were gonna score. However, 3 plays later, we haven't moved an inch. Now their was only 7 seconds left, and it was 4th and goal, with no more timeouts. This was it, we ran our bootleg play, Stan rolls around close to the line of scrimmage, and just fires it to the corner of the endzone. It was a low throw, and I just dove for it, and touchdown as the ref signals in the air. We converted the extra point which ended the game at 20-20.

First overtime, both teams score to make it 26-26. Now they had the ball first for the start of 2nd overtime. We stopped them and again our turn to be on offense in which we knew again that we control our fate. However, 3 plays later nothing had happened again with a crucial 4th and goal now. The same bootleg play, Stan rolls around and finds Matt wide open for the TD to end the game. URAPK 32 and There Can Only Be 1 26. The chips were stacked against us to win because this was the OU Rec team as well.

As we were all celebrating our victory, which was our first, I kept telling everyone that we win when it matters. I was wearing #1 and I knew I had to step up my play even more on both sides of the ball. The OU Post our school newspaper came over to interview Stan and myself. Stan couldn't say much so I did most of the talking, which parts of it were cocky towards that other team because they kept looking down on us as we had the worst record. We have moved on to the semi-finals now and I have a nice 48 hours of rest before we hit practice again.

URAPK all the way, because you gotta believe in this team. Watch out for # 1 :) as the team has now made sure I wear that for the next game.

Errr, I wrote one last night and it never got published. Oh well, first off I think it's ridiculous how that fan is getting blamed for the Cubs failure to make it to the World Series. Any one of us would of made the same effort to try and catch the ball. I was so disgusted of how he was treated. I mean this guy paid good money to enjoy the game and he had to leave with security, he had to sit slouching down for the rest of the game with beer being thrown at him. His boss had to call him today to tell him not to come to work today. The governor of Chicago even spoke about it, and said this "if he ever gets convicted of anything in this city, then as long as I'm governor, he'll never get pardoned." I would feel embarassed to live in a city with that type of governor. Now this guy probably has to move out of this city. Like this one lady said, "10 other guys reached for it, but he was the one who got caught with it." I mean what's done is done, the Marlins won, and the Cubs choked. Yeah I wanted the Cubs to make it, but the better team won. I'm gonna pray for the fan and I hope God blesses him elsewhere, kind of like a Job thing.

Sorry brother Steve about the Cubbies, hopefully Sista Cat has better luck with her Red Sox.

Cuz sometimes if feels like the world's on my shoulders
Everyone's leaning on me
Cuz sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
But then it comes back to me

After tonight's 5:14 Bible study, I've been thinking about Eminem's song, Hailie's Song. I think what's been frustrating me is my lack of dependence on God and more of myself lately. Yesterday, the regular season ended for URAPK. Yeah it still cracks me up when the officials say it. We find a new way to lose, it's so unbelievable. I'm the team leader in receptions, yards, and touchdowns. Yet I keep complaining to the team, because I feel that no one wants to step up or is pulling their weight. Instead though, I should praise God for blessing me with the athletic gifts he has given me. It was a fun game yesterday because it was a total mud bowl, especially for me when i was covered with mud from head to toe. I also continued to show everyone that I'm one of the best shut down corners in the league by shutting down their dubbed Randy Moss. It was sweet when 4 defenders followed me on the fake WR reversal which set up a TD toss to Peter. All in all, tomorrow could be our last game of the season because of the playoffs. I'm gonna pray tonight and all through tomorrow before the game to really help me trust in my teammates and also give them confidence that we can pull out with a victory.

I've also been blessed to be able to play in the Ford V-ball league now too. I was so excited to play my first game being reunited with the Jung bro's and Bill. This makes 4 v-ball leagues and 1 football league for this semester. My body is sore and stiff in some areas, and this is just another area where I've been lacking being dependent on God. I'm a soldier, a child of Christ, and need to strengthen my vertical relationship with God to be even stronger. Speaking of vertical, what's up with our team name, Vertically Challenged? Anyways, going back, I need to be like Elijah and pray whole heartedly and earnestly.

Irony of the day after 5:14 Bible Study. Andy mentioned about drivers testing his patience. On my way home from V's, 696 was closed and I had to sit in traffic, which made it longer for me to get home. Gosh was this a test of patience for me, as I wanted to just drive through the cones. Man I should of taken Pontiac Trail home, good thing though for that Bible Study.

Man what a strong Bible study though to end our series in James. It kind of makes me wanna do James all over again after re-reading things on my own. I personally feel like their are still more things I can extract from it and apply it to my own life.

Finally on a last note, what GP B said about being a peacekeeper and a peacekeeper. As we discussed it today, I know their are still some things in my life that needs to be confronted. Hmm just another thing for me to pray for.

Alright time to get a lil shut eye, then off to class and back into battle as URAPK vs. There Can Only Be 1, kind of a fitting name, hopefully that 1 is us.

Sing For The Moment

First off I just wanna say that I feel bad for that fan in Chi-town. It's a shame that the Cubs fans threw beer at him and wanted to more to him. I would say any one of us would probably do the same. It really hurt me to see him for the rest of the game slumping in his seat and you can tell all the wetness from the beer. And he had this one long sad face, because he paid his hard earned money and can't even enjoy the ball game now for being a fan. It's a shame and it disgusted me to see how he was treated.

Miami vs. FSU part 2, wow it was fun today to play our last game in all that mud with the rain just pouring down. Again we find a new way to lose and I honestly think now that we have lost everyway possible, so now it's time for the W's. The sad part is my team continues to show up mentally weak. Today some of them kept whining about the weather and didn't want to play. By the end of the game, my orange cut-ff and shorts along with my arms was just covered in mud. It amazes me how no one on the team wants to step up when I draw consistent double coverage and still be able to lead the team in receptions, yards, and TD's. Today I was exhausted don't know if it was because I covered their version of Randy Moss or the all niter, but still continued to show that I am one of the best shut down corners here.

After that it was a race to Beech Woods for the Ford league. it was nice to reunite with the Jung bro's and Bill on a team together to sweep our series today. I met the other big guns on our team so this league should be fun.

With the addition of this league that makes 4 v-ball leagues and 1 flag football league for this semester. As I sit here, gosh is my body really sore. Now I think I'm gonna go off to bed for the first time in 48 hours with a nice ice pack and heating pad to get the soreness out.

Watch Yourself

So it's Monday, and I'm chilling with Melissa and my chinese bro, Carl in the ED building. The thing on my mind right now is bugs. It's one thing these Asian ladybugs are outside and all over the place. But sitting in the ERL, these things are all over the ground and the ceiling. Every now then a few would drop on our table, and I just flick them all at Melissa. Hahahaha, be scared of these things! Thru is slang Melis, haha we chinese we know when we are wong.

Quote of the day from Carl: "I'm paranoid with these fucking bugs."

I'm suppose to be doing my ECON or my HST term paper from my all niter but instead I'm doing nothing. Man looks like all niter tonight, good thing God blessed me over the weekend with free coupons to Caribou Coffee. Yup, I'll be hitting up that joint after the v-ball game.

Another thing with bugs, on Thursday, this large flying bug came into MTD. All these girls started staring at the sucker and the whole time I wondered what exactly are they staring at. So one of them tossed me a water bottle to kill it, and instead I decided to capture it. I tossed the water bottle back to the girls and they all freaked and all you could hear was a dead silence in the room then Prof. Lucas shouting "K what are you doing those poor girls?" The girls blamed me for threatening them with a bug, and so Prof. Lucas decides to make me act out a chimp in front of the whole class for my dance presentation.

Hahahah it's funny watching, Melissa getting paranoid about these bugs too now.

Man when will the new parts come out for my car? Woohoo I bought 2 Fast 2 Furious over the weekend!

Hahahah now Carl's scratching his whole body because he thinks a couple of them are crawling on him. Man these bugs are cracking me up.

Monday yay!

Yesterday was a day of frustration whether it was on the court or on the field. Actually it was funny first, for our football game because the head official was looking for all the teams. He kept asking different people if they are on U.R.A.P.K. All of us on the team busted out laughing because the ref kept shouting it out loud. Back to the game though, you would think leading in offensive yards that a team would win? But nope, we're the OU version of the Lions. I established myself as one of the best recievers in the league now with a 100 yard game and 2 TD's. The game was fun for me because as the game got closer to the end, I had triple coverage on me, with the CB taking the outside route away, the LB taking the inside route, and the safety taking anything deep. I just had to do a Randy Moss flexing TD dance with my 2nd one because it was just a 40 yard bomb by Stan, and I just outran the CB, and jumped over the safety for it. Our defense was pretty stellar too, with Ray now among the league leaders in sacks, after having a 6 sack day. I did what I said I would do and shut down my half of the field, where the QB didn't even bother throwing my way. So with all that, said you would think we won?

However that wasn't the case, because again we shot ourselves in the head with stupid penalties and turnovers. Down 13-12 with 2 minutes to go. I run a quick slant for a 10 yard gain only to get it wiped out for an offsides penalty which moves us back. Repeat down, Stan throws another bomb to me where I got us down to their 10 yard line for a gain of 50 yards. Nope, got that wiped out too with another penalty but this time for illegal blocking. Next couple of plays incomplete pass, and 4th and what seemed like eternity for me, interception of course to end the game.

Throughout the game I kept giving my own little version of T.O. in the huddles. I kept challenging my players to be more pumped and to step it up especially when their's 3 guys covering me. I'm glad that Ray responded to my speech with his Jevon Kearse performance. So if it weren't for the stupid penalties I could of had 150 yard day with 2 possibly 3rd TD. Don't know what else I have to do, to get a W. However, gotta take the good from this game, such as Ray's pass rushing ability, the new offensive scheme, and Stan and I's new Peyton/Marvin chemistry.

I rushed off to Boulan, for the season opener for Spiked Punch. We lost the first game and as we huddled, all eyes turned to me, and Rob and Melissa let me have the keys to the team to turn it around. So we won the next game, but dropped the 3rd. I crushed Mark and Bill's ego on our team when they kept asking me why I want to drop the 6-2 offense and told them straight up that "our passing sucks." However, the Ski Niks did a good job of taking me out of the game as well. With the stupid rule of 1 female has to touch the ball, and with Rob setting, they kept serving to me the 3rd game, so my passes actually get to Rob but he would have to set to Melissa who isn't a strong hitter. That was frustrating right there because it was a smart move by them and their was no way I could take myself out of passing.

So off to a 1-2 start, Rob and I already believe it will be a long season. We both agreed we also don't like playing with Bill either because not to offend anyone but what a cock he is. Erin noticed he didn't bother shaking the other team's hand after each game. Also I feel bad for Melissa for dating such a jerk. Watching him during warm ups he kept belittling her as if he was that much superior than her in v-ball. Gosh I just wanted to play against him and shut him up.

During the game too, Melissa thought I was upset and seemed a little more pissed to play. Which I was because I don't like playing against with cheaters which this one guy did. As I kept arguing back, the ref could card me, eject me for all I care, but Melissa had to restrain me from talking back with the ref too. So it felt no better when I killed one straight down on that guy's face and did a little dance in front of him. Then roofed him and stared him down, because like the ref said, I don't like dishonest players.

I keep wondering what else do I have to do to help these teams win? Which leads me to this too, I have lost 2 bottles of my Motrin because I'm letting people take some for their pain. So since this stuff isn't cheap, my new rule is on that is get your own.

The Moment

What a Monday night football game, I feel bad for Simion Rice for a stupid penalty called on him. Anyways, it's late of course and the past few days, I've been struggling with many different types of sin. Then everything just like revealed itself on Sunday as GP B spoke during worship. Bali spoke to me the day before as well and both of them mentioned the same thing. Satan knows us too and will use anything he can do doubt God or break us up from the church. Man that really got me thinking and reflecting a lot. Well now I feel or at least hope that I am back on right track.

What else has happened to me lately? Well in the sporting news, URAPK lost our season opener. I was disappointed because it was my fault that we lost. I got too greedy when balls were thrown to me, and lost concentration by looking up field before catching the ball. When I did, it gave the defense a chance to intercept the ball which they did. Granted a lot of the catches I had to make were either in the air or I was squatting trying to grab another, my rule of thumb is, if I touch it, then I should catch it. I still lead the team in receptions and yards but wasn't good enough to get a W. I'm really glad Peter's on our team because he's been doing most of the coaching part. I hate doing that because I'd rather focus on my own game vs. the whole team. Stan, Peter, and I were talking making the offense easier for the QB's by going with a base offense vs. a spread offense. Now Peter's got me playing CB to shut down one half of the field. I'm excited because now I can go back to my motto "Water covers 75% of the earth, I cover the rest." I gotta shorten my routes too, now that teams are playing a cloud defense over me, with a corner taking the inside away and the free safety over top of me. I want to say thanks to Kim for coming out to support us! Sorry for not getting the TD that I promised you, then again like Stan said, it's hard to win a game when we had 4 turnovers and the other team had none.

Tonight I played my first game with Powerspike. It was wierd watching my old team playing on the other court. I congratulated them after their game as they are now 5-0 in first in the league. One thing I've been thinking about lately, is that I have done a lot of talking on the court and field lately. However, it's like I felt like I haven't been backing it up to my expectations. So today I kept my mouth shut, and encouraged my new teammates instead. We lost our first game, and it irritated me, then it happened. Everyone in the huddle looked towards me for leadership, Larry told me to postion everyone. Chris and Dave after each game supported my moves and went along with everything I said. By the time we finished our games, some of the other people watching the games believe that it might be Larry's team on paper, but also believe that I am the heart and soul of the team. I'm the new kid on this team, and it's wierd to have the keys to the team already, but I do need to do a better job in terms of leadership on this team. I'm excited though we're off to a 4-1 start now.

Another thing that has happened to me, was that I ran into an old friend at OU. 2 weeks ago this girl was waving hi to me at the OC, but I blew her off because I didn't think it was to me. Last week she stopped me and asked if I went to SHS. Just as I thought, it was Lindsey who looked as beautiful as ever. I remember when I first met her my junior year at SHS and she was a sophmore, I had a huge crush on her. I was the assistant coach for the JV tennis team at the time, and she thought of me as her personal coach. Yeah I liked coaching her, sometimes it was flirting, but she really improved as a tennis player. We were talking on Thursday, and I was happy to hear that she finished in the top 15 in the Miss Michigan pageant. Anyways, I'm glad she's a GG now and I look forward to hanging out with her in the future now.

Now what really pissed me off today was when I walked out of the ED building. I could see it from a mile away, some fat person I'm assuming had to open the door so fricking wide that it took a piece of paint off my car. Errrr, now I am trying to think of what is the best way to take care of this. I tell you though fricking fat people and cars, slow drivers on the road, it all adds up. I have 2 words for these people "public transportation." If anyone knows of a good body shop guy, please give me a call because this thing is frustrating me.

Which brings about another subject, this is for you Shawn. Dang it for our EED group project, Carl and I should of kept it to an Asian only group. Now you had to ask the one guy that I totally disapprove in the class, the Britany loving (not in that way either), cheerleading Big Red, gay guy of the class. Well what's done is done, and I guess this is a good chance for Carl, Shawn, and I to truly figure out if this guy is really gay. Which the rest of the class seems to agree with me.

Plans for tomorrow, one goal only now, concentrate on the game and let it come to me.

Dilema

Terrell Owens, in my view is one of the best WR in the NFL. I've been listening to ESPN and hearing what others think of his tirades as of late. I am for one who is all for it and supports his actions. Their is a guy who wants to win a game and play his heart out. He even chewed out his offensive coordinator! Like Michael Irvin said their are players who come in to collect the money or don't care about the wins or losses, but T.O. plays for the love of the game.

So with that in mind, now that I've been settled and got to be acquainted with my new teammates on Monday and Tuesday nights. After a few practices and exhibition games, I'm glad I signed on with PowerSpike and Spiked Punch. At least they have players who give it their all and if they don't then I'll be on their cases. Here's a short convo of another team trying to recruit me to play, from team Shield's.

C: Hey do you wanna have some fun and play on our team this year?
K: Hmmm, well fun for me is winning and being/staying competitive.
C: Oh then, I guess you don't want to play on our team.
K: Yeah I guess not.

What's amazing is how people think they are good just cause they play an X amount of years? My new friend Jason, who is just an amazing v-ball player, were talking last night as Melissa (my new team capt.) wanted to see if we should recruit Tammy as a player. Jay and I kept telling Rob that she can not be the setter in a 6-2 offense because she has her own probs setting when we are doing hitting drills.

Oh yay to this too, looks like I'll be playing opposite of Melissa on this team. Yup, I'm the setter in the 6-2 offense, gotta admit my hands have gotten better. But not nearly as good as where I want them to be. It also looks like I have underestimated the talent of this Co-Ed league too. TJ's team has made some major upgrades last night. They were pissed because Chris ditched them the night before, although I knew ahead of time. But they picked up Jason, and the new stud on the court Blake.

Jason like I said is a great player, his size reminds of Connie's friend Ray but Jason is a more solid all around. I thought though I would be the cockiest kid in this league, but I believe Blake has me beat on this one. At age 18, this kid was just barking out orders to his team. Even Jason was getting annoyed and making faces. Blake reminds of Den Den, but a lot taller and longer arms, with the same windup and kill approach. I'll admit this kid can fly above the new and I like the our stare downs yesterday to see who will be the best in this league. I wonder if he was jump serving because I kept doing it? It felt good though to roof him and shut his mouth up for at least one play. It was fun last night, playing against TJ's team to go up against both Jason and Blake. Considering we're the 3 youngest and best in the league, now it's time to see who'll emerge to be the best. It's time for me to finally go S.S. in this league and see where that gets me, enough playing around now that the season starts next week.

We had our first football practice yesterday too! Team U.R.A.P.K. had some pretty good battles in terms of who will be the starting QB, Stan or Phil. Peter has the playbook for us as I've already memorized my routes on each formation. It was nice to see my Asian brotha, Eddie from our Titans days. It also helps for me that Peter played football at Troy High, so I can call the coverages and he'll know what I'm talking about. We watched as a team the exhibition opener last night too. Gosh if those teams are in our conference then we should be ok. With Ali's team in the MW Conference, then it should be a wide open race for first in our's. Tomorrow's our season opener, Coach Bye always made us write down 3 goals on our playbooks before each game so we have something to shoot for. So here are mine:

1) Lead the team to our first win.
2) Get 100 yards recieving and a TD.
3) Return a kickoff for a TD or get an INT.

I also had a nice long talk with GP B, it was nice because he made me realize a key aspect that I've forgotten lately. I should worry only about how God wants me to be. I'm glad he was there today to give me some spiritual guidance as well.

Hmmm, I am having neck spasms, a pulled shoulder, a thigh bruise, a bone bruise on my elbow, and a juicy knee. Yeah baby, pracitices and games, this is what you live for to be a soldier on the field/court.

Double Blade

Well I got done talking to Carl and Melissa since they were waiting for the next class and I'm here for just chilling for now. All 3 of us have the same MTD class but I have it at a different time then they do. I told them that I don't really like the people in my class because they're all too dang clique-y. They thought it was funny how even the married peeps have their own crew. But just when Carl brought it up about the clique part of it, it got me thinking of where else I see this. After hearing it from someone else who feels this way, it made me think how sad it happens at CBC a lot too. This person had mention how they see a particular group of peeps who are new believers and could use some guidance from other believers. But it doesn't happen because we all stay in a little norm shell.

Which got me thinking about Darwinism, although I believe in creation, I see the aspect of Darwin's theory alive today. Natural selection, how often do we pick someone to talk to vs. anotheer? I know I do it myself, by why do we pick that person over another? Is it because of interests, past experiences, etc....? Survival of the fittest, some people notice how other people do they think they are stronger than others, and can't talk or relate type of thing. I'm starting to get that deja vu feeling again from 4 years ago. It often makes me wonder if the same result will happen? I mean I have God this time, but what will He do in this situation?

I feel almost stupid sometimes too now because I remember talking to Kathleen about this. We were talking about what's the definition of a friend. Her and Kristen used to have somethings going at their place, but wouldn't invite her closest friends to it because of distance. I told her that friends don't care about distance as long as they are together. Now, I realize their was another element I was missing to that. As far as they lived though, I do often wonder now how much they enjoyed driving over to Erica's or Dan's place to hangout? Well it was easier for them though because they were sisters and could rotate. But it's just that element now I feel peeps overlook.

And let's see exactly what my weekend action was? The only good part was actually getting off of work early on both days. Other than that I want to start mine on Sunday as it was fun in terms of doing my project which was observing Jonathan and Benji do their Zoom Club. It was nice to spend time with my discipler and mommy Moy. It was nice because of the genunine care I got from them, which I needed. I look at Jon Jon and just see how mature he is already for a 7 year old. He was always concerned for everyone at the table and even the waitresses. Most of all, I'm thankful for the amount of time that they took after putting the kids to bed, to just talk to me, give advice through the trials I've been dealt with, and to listen to some of my struggles. The funny part was when Kel called me and I let Christopher answer my phone. Kel kept asking "Who is this" and Christopher kept replying back "It's me". Hahah that was funny, and Benji was so cute being the "judge" during Zoom Club. I love them all so much and yes I miss Anna too.

It was fun playing football yesterday, but it pissed me off that I didn't lay out on that one pass, and also that I couldn't pull off that 1 hand grab all the way, or my mental mistake of not being aware of where the sideline markers were. It got to me where I ALMOST took a return to the house but couldn't because I was a half sec slow to cut a little quicker. I didn't realize we lost to them either, oh well their were a lot of things that I did wrong in that game. I should of gave Benito better reads of what I saw in the coverage. Man I wish we played tackle though, their would of been some good hits out there.

Now I stare at the clock to only see I have only an hour left before the football meeting starts then v-ball practice at Boulan. What I love about v-ball lately is that I can take out my frustrations out on the court by killing the ball. Some people (the opponents) were upset last week with me because they felt I took each exhibtion game too seriously. To me it's like if you don't like it or my sometimes stare down then hey stop me. I'm just frustrated lately, and this is the best way for me to get it out. I wonder if I should pull a sharpie taunt on the other team tonight?

I also wanted to give a shout out to you, for praying for me. As you can tell I still need a lot as in we all need prayer too. Thanks though for listening and your continous prayers.

Breathe

K One Three season has returned
It's been a long time
It's been a long time coming
It's life or death for me
But you know
There is no turning back now
This is what makes me
This is what I am

It's been a while since I did this, and looking at my schedule, it looks like I won't be doing this again for a while. What I'm still hung up on is this driving issue. I'm still amazed by the stupidity that we have on the road. This past weekend, I had 2 separate incidents where I am really getting irritated. First was Thursday, when I was cruising down 17 Mile on my way to my Grandma's. At Van Dyke there are 3 lanes at the intersection, 2 right turn lanes and an eastbound lane. So I in the eastbound lane, and this BMW which I was observing before the intersection zip in out of each lane. He decides to try to speed up after the intersection and get in the eastbound lane. Since I didn't like how he was driving, I did not my best for a little bit to not let him in and he was driving on the shoulder till he forced his was in between me and this SAAB. So that pissed me off, so I decided to make this out into a race on 17 Mile since it is only one lane. Obviously he is in front of me, however, I decided to drive on the Center lane and pass him and then the SAAB and squeezed back into traffic before oncoming traffic tried to use the Center lane to turn. So then he decides to attempt the same thing, and he got on the Center but by then I'm down 17 Mile going 70 mph, and no way can he catch up to me. Next red light, I just looked over at him and gave him a smirk.

Saturday morning going to b-ball, the same thing. Well actually this was more because I can't believe idiots go down 10 Mile at the speed of 35 mph. So I decided to pass this guy in the Center lane, using the Beech Rd. intersection as my passing lane. Boy this passing on Center lane stuff speeds up the driving length and it's kind of fun, but I don't recommend anyone try this on their own.

Lately I've been playing a lot of v-ball just because I want a challenge, I want to be a better play than I was yesterday. So I went to Boulan to see what offers I get to see if I can hook onto a different team instead of playing with Altair, the team I helped win a championship with last year. Yesterday was Men's Middle Division v-ball, and tonight I got a chance to play at Larson to check out the Upper Flight Co-ed league and see if anyone wanted to pick me up as a free agent. So after listening to all the offers I broke them down to this:

Mens Division-

Team name: I don't really know, but I'll just say hey they need to go in the D Division or something. The good thing about this team, is uhhh I don't know their team name. That shows how fast I went into talking to them about it.

Altair - They looked pretty good in a few exhibition games so far. Phil is already trying to restructure his team to fit me back in after seeing the talent around. They have a good chance in getting back into the finals.

7-11 & Dunkin Donuts - Eh I don't know what their team names are but, yeah Rob and I just looked over and we saw literally 14 of Saddam's cousins or something. The 7-11 team does have this one big Dhalsim looking dude who is 6'4. Man I would like to fly up over him to see what it would take to kill it against him.

Team PowerSpike: Now this team intrigued me as Larry talked to me tonight about their team. I remember talking to who I thought was their best play last year, Chris. I talked to Chris after they got bounced out of the playoffs because I felt sorry for how his team was using him. You gotta go to your bread and butter baby.

Co-ed

Team Skeenic - Gary and his whole team were very friendly in trying to recruit me for his team. I was actually kind of interested and I offered what I call my incentive package to play for his team. The incentive was, I call the shots in terms of who play's what position. Gary was cool with it, but I need to still about it.

TJ's team - TJ seemed really cool, and she was friendly as well. But the only way that I would play with them is if Chris stayed on that team. More about Chris later.

Rob's team - He talked to me afterwards saying that he would like me to play for his team and take his place once he has surgery. I'd be honored to play in his spot but if he's gone, the next best set of hands is me. Ooooo pretty scary.

So yeah, the Upper Flight is weak because I think my OU team could win first in this division. The best thing today was when Chris walked in because the last time I played with him was at the Korean Tournament. I'm glad Howard's bro came in because after that it was an Asian Invaision of jump serves and kills from us. However, I don't blame him for leaving this league to play in the Ford league with his bro. Dang it, I need to work for Ford!

So now my dilema is, to play in both these v-ball leagues or not? Hmm it's not very challenging to me in terms of talent, it's a challenge in terms of trying to make both teams a winner. Then there's U.R.A.P.K. our team name for Flag Football. Gosh before any of this, I couldn't even keep up with simple homework, what are the odds of me managing my time better with a few more activities? Exams, homework, projects, yup this is the part of school you're glad that you're missing.

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