Ahhhh, errrrr dang it! Just thinking about it, I hate it when I don't own up to my word either! Man, I gotta get that plank out of my eye and mouth too!

Well my sinuses seem to be clearing up now. I wonder if I have to keep taking Claritin at the very least? Anyways, what's been on my mind lately has been promises, guarantees, committment, loyalty, etc. I mean all these words I've been hearing a lot lately and I haven't seen any follow through on it. Which kind of bums me sometimes, but I always remain hopeful that these people will honor their word. However, yesterday after class I was upset because this person just lied to my face. How could I tell? If there is one thing I am pretty good at, is the reading of someone's eyes. I gave this person the benefit of the doubt though, but later that evening I found out it was a "white lie" as I heard a different story from another person. I was just so disappointed that over the years that their was some sort of level of trust, but this only illustrates a couple of points. First, only His promise is true, and why I keep on going DTA sometime.

I guess that's why I love v-ball because sometimes it's like anger management for me. Yes, there is prayer at nite, but nothing like a good kill feels so refreshing. Now that my schedule is finally set, I am now signed up for 1 flag football league, and 5 v-ball leagues for the year. What can I say, I love a challenge in this area. Speaking of which, something else that we've been discussing about in our FE 210 class, is do things happen by coincidence or is God in control of things? Well amazingly some people think it is both. However, today to me at least proves that He is in control of things. I met one of the girls, Jayne on Z's WB league team. We played together at F-Hills then went to Troy together to play some more. We talked a lot about how He has been using us individually. It was funny because it was some what similar too. Then it was even funnier when peeps from Ski Niks asked the both of us to play on their team now. We're the same age, so we're being dubbed as the dynamic duo now. It's all good, because she was on the Rochester College team. Man I didn't even realize they had sports there. Anyways, it's a blessing to play with Jayne in 2 leagues now. It's nice to know that you have another believer on a team once in a while. What can I say, I love v-ball so much that I even wrote a crappy poem about it today. I'll have to post it another time, yup it looks like it is Claritin time!

Out To Get Me

Yes, I am a drug addict now! So for the past 48 hours now I've been taking a good combination of Vitamin pills, Sudafed, Benadryl, Tylenol, Nyquil, and Claritin. Taking all these within an hour time span of it, woooo really makes you feel tipsy. However, the whole time I thought I had the flu or something. I learned today that I have like a sinus infection or something? I don't know, I'm not no doc, but I have something to that effect. So if you know how this stuff works, then please educate me so I can figure out how to heal faster.

What a beautiful wedding this past weekend too! PTL for this whole weekend! Now to do some copy and paste on table # 12. It's amazing how a game of Starcraft can bring the guys closer :) It was great to see Benito back in the D this weekend. I also met someone who actually has the same taste in music and gear as I do too!

I had some other thoughts too, but it's time to take ummm Nyquil now or is it Claritin? Eh, I'm taking so many that I've lost track now. Might as well play it safe and take both for good measure then call it a nite.

Fishin In The Dark

To Sista Cat, do not read the bottom half of this as it will discuss my disappointment with Survivor tonight. Although you gotta watch next week's because there will be 2 peeps voted off in 1 nite! Also I still have the first 2 episodes that you missed on tape too. Yes, as announced today in my nite class that I am a Survivor dork along with D.E. You know when you're fanatic when you try to set the channel on the projection screen to Survivor during the Prof's lecture.

Yesterday, I got a chance to go to my new student teachin school. My co-operating teacher seems very helpful and cool. I already know how to speak the Special Ed lingo because it deals with acronyms. It was cool as I was walking down the hallways with my shades on, and all you could hear were whispers if I was a new teacher :) I love middle school because of the chitter chatter during bell hours. I also got a chance to work with a few of my new students on an individual basis because that is what they need. I already love a couple of my middle schoolers, Mario because he just cracks me up and Sara, she's such a cutie.

Finally Survivor, nooooooooooo Dolly is gone already! I can't believe Eliza turned on her :( although I understand her reasons. Strategically, it was a bad play on Eliza's part so I don't see her going to far anymore. Man she could of went farther had they voted off Leanne! Anyways, I decided tonight on who my 4th player that I believe will make it to the final 2, and that is Julie. She's a youth mentor, and works with children as well so you gotta love that. Just so bummed that Dolly is gone :( Although she said it best at the end as she was voted off that this game wasn't meant for her which I believe they cut off, but due to her faith.

How did my Booty week go? Well I got stuff done, but not as much as I wanted so I gotta kick it into a higher gear next week.

14 Years

What a weekend it was as we celebrated our Brother Kin's last days of true singleness :) Actually, I was surprised that some of the guys were able to stay up later than I expected too. Then tonight, we had the CBC Mongolian Buffet dinner. Although I was late to worship this morning, errr! However, I got a chance to talk to Jack for some catching up to do. I'm glad that He looked after him while he served in Iraq. I'm also thankful for the time to chat with Mommy Moy and as she reminded me the words that I needed to hear "stay strong."

With that, I knew it was time to make it official as I've now declared this week as "Get My Booty In Gear Week." As now my class load has manifested itself, it's time to try to get ahead of everyone in the workload. I got my student teaching assignment for this week and praise the Lord as I'm actually close to my house this time! I'll be teaching at Iriqouis Middle School, which I was looking forward to doing in terms of jr. high. Hahahaha only, 15 minutes away from this place! However, I'll be teaching Special Ed and at first I was bummed because I believe one of my teaching weaknesses is to the special ed. However, I look forward to this chance as I believe it will only make me a more versatile educator in the future. OU football is starting soon and it was nice to bring our team to the Super Bowl last year, but I want to carry the team to win it this year.

So I feel that I needed to get a new look to go with the Winter attitude. Thanks to Papa Wong, I gotta admit dang I look pretty good with creating this new hair. However, I had to cry as my bangs are gone, so I don't get to wear any more hairbands for now. So who's ready to kick it into another level higher?

Feelin Way Too Dang Good

The tongue, as we are taught that it is the one of the strongest weapons we have. It can be used to build up or tear down. Tonight, I witnessed it in action once again at v-ball. I sensed tonight that something was wrong with Z. Throughout the night, he was in the tank with his head down. We talked afterwards, and it turned out that Tao dissed him to shorten it up. It just festered inside of Z because you can now see who are accepted to play at the court and who aren't. I wish I could of encouraged him more, but at the same time it's easy for me to say stuff. As Z has noticed that they've been more openly inviting me to play with them at other places. Also, as they refer to me as The Kid, because I am the youngest one there. I don't want to come off to anyone as the young cocky although I'll do it to those who are flat out jerks there ;) Z wants to challenge Tao next week which is great, but I want to make sure that he's cool, calm, and collective.

Also, my cuz called me today to tell me that one of my closest friends from high school, Cujo was on the front page of the Free Press. After reading his short blurb, I'm glad that it seems like his life is back on the straight and narrow. I still remember that day, everyone telling me to talk him out of marriage with this German girl. I figured to let him run his life his way, but they divorced. Sometimes I wonder if I should of said anything to save him from that pain. But I'm glad to see he is doing what I know he loves doing the most, playing hockey again.

Finally watched Survivor just now and I have nailed 3 of my 4 picks to win this season's Survivor. Here they are Eliza because she a cutie but also minors in Chinese. Chad because he is a teacher and an inspiration with his cancer story. Finally, Dolly another cutie is it just me or are all the Survivor cuties from Pa? Anyways, I'm interested to see how she carries herself through her faith. Man all I need is a 4th now, whom shall it be?

Hopped Up On The Q

Errr, how peeved am I still about what I just posted? Well I'm still irritated by it as I just got done taking my ice pack off my shoulder. How bad did some of those people get treated? As some players kept shanking passes, some people would just walk right off the court and either go home or sub on a better team. Yeah that makes people feel really good about themselves. I wish I got a chance to see how these superstars started off the game of v-ball when they learned how to play. A guy's wife was there to watch her husband play for crying out loud. She had to feel really good as her husband was kicked off our court. I tell ya, it's guys like Mike, and company I look forward to playing against them and not with them the next time.

It happened again today, the class's attention turn to me. I love FE 215 with Prof. Pipan! I mean we have class outside, and there is no homework. All we do is discuss about whatever topic we feel like talkin bout. Today's topic was about what makes us sad, and what makes us happy. We had to write it down and share about it to the whole class. We finished the 2nd half of class talking bout what makes us happy/joy. Danielle read mine to the class because I just didn't feel like reading :) Prof. Pipan noticed how expressive I was about my faith. Then we got in a really good discussion about God, does He exist, do things really happen for a reason, or why do bad things happen? For the most part, I kept my mouth shut because everyone was so dang opinionated I wanted to hear where each person was coming from. I heard some Catholic, Jewish, and Buddhist views as others shared their faith. One girl, pretty much stated that she has no hope on anything. Now whether you believe in God or not, I kept thinking sheesh you're gonna be the future educator of tomorrow? As class was ending, everyone turned their heads back to me because everyone wanted to hear what I had to say in terms of faith and my perspective. I flat out told peeps that I had a lot to say but first I need to speak with a couple of individuals to completely understand what they were saying. And I agreed with Josh that either you believe that things happen for a reason or you don't as others tend that it was a gray area. I look forward to next class, as we continue this discussion!

Ok, so tonight I feel like my shoulder is hanging by a thread. I was really peeved today at v-ball! Our net is labeled the "competitive" level or top flight and some lower level players came on. I can understand if they didn't know, or if some of the higher level people get upset due to their lack of fundamentals. However, I questioned some of them when they asked them to leave depending on the tone. What pissed me off even more were those that I felt don't even belong at the top flight net, telling the lower level players to leave.

Which leads me to this, I played with a new guy today named Mike. He is by far the best player there and one of the strongest that I've seen around this area. I can't wait to see this guy at his true power form. However, this guy was just so fricking condescending on our team to specific teammates. His comments to some of the guys on our team, only dug them deeper in the tank. Then there's Michelle, I'll say it flat out in this manner, his hoe. She's a pretty decent player, but I've played with better females than her. She only adds to the discouragement to half of our teammates. I mean, some of them had their heads down and you're gonna kick a guy even lower? Mike comes off as if he is the god of v-ball by ripping off his shirt. I just hope the next week when we meet again that I'm playing against him. I wanna get the first crack at him before Tao or Z even think about it. Mike is such a strong player as I've gone up against, but I know I can't fail because it burns inside me the feelings of those people he has hurt.

My Time

Let's see hat tilted to the right, check.
Shades on, check.
Cellie on vibrate, check.
Pencil, check.
CD Player, check.

Yup, today was the first day of my Monday class. I was shocked to see the size of the class. They switched prof's on us, so pretty much everybody bought the wrong book! However, all eyez on me because most of the peeps know this is why I don't buy books until a month after we're into the semester. Because OU policy bout refunds is like 14 days and most of them have had their books for 3 weeks. At the same time, I saw a lot of familiar faces from Spring classes. So when it came down to getting into our groups for presentations. To save the drama from last semester, I went my own route and formed a new group. Best of luck to that group, but I look forward to the challenge in pushing my new group to scoring a higher grade than them.

Errr, my computer has been bombarded with pop-ups! What the G, did I do? So now I'm using FireFox, and it's taking me some time to get use to now. Please send me your screen name too peeps so I can update my newly naked buddy list. Finally, too much v-ball tonight for my own good. My right shoulder hurts like no other and doing my best to stay away from the pain killers. I look forward to trying to play with Z on Tuesday to see what I can muster up. It leaves me to drop this on everyone.

I'm a soldier
These shoulders hold up so much
They won't budge
I'll never fall or fold up
Even if my collar bones crush or crumble
I will never slip or stumble

Till I Collapse

Are you ready for some football? Woohoo the Lions won on the road! Although Charles Rogers is hurt and probably out for the year again :( Anyways, today was the first day that I got to serve as TeacherJoe. Man that was rough and boy do I have a lot to learn about getting Jr. Church together. I also got a preview of who I'll be teaching for 3rd-4th Grade, I love my class! Let's see my additions, my BooBoo, Belicia, Ashley, Lulu, Jessica, Jenny, Jonathon, and Amanda. However, I lost those that I've grown close to as well such as Claire, Phillip, Joseph, Abby, and Anna. I was upstairs making sure all the kids knew where they had to go and I saw one of the cutest things. I peeked in the window of the door of the 2-4 year olds. I saw Christopher and Audrey watching the video and dancing to the songs. I tell ya, it's all them that keeps me going when I feel down.

Sunny Days

Last night I had this dream, that I was standing at the on deck circle @ Wrigley Field. The Cubbies? Hey I like them too, but anyways about this dream I'm standing there in the middle of a game. I'm watching Sosa just slam one right out of the park and everybody that I've ever cared about is all seating all over the field. However, I'm not looking at the ball anymore as it hit's its peak. Instead, I'm lookin at this one single star that stands out in the middle of the night. So now I wake up, and I have this feeling inside of me. It's a feeling that I've never experienced so strongly before. I don't like this feeling, and I went outside not to long ago trying to simulate the dream on my driveway. Well, minus Sosa and the Cubbies, but I wonder what it is that star is telling me.

Once again, I can't seem to sleep or get back to a normal sleeping mode. I've also kicked myself to another level at OU by taking 18 credits now for this semester. Still only a couple more weeks till I see what else falls on this kid's plate.

Still just thinking bout the dream, makes me want to go somewhere like now. But I can't just pick up and go. That's why I guess I'll be sportin the braids and rockin the bandana at the Teacher's Meeting tomorrow. After that, I get to see Ashley at work as she's laid out a challenge for me. The challenge is 2's v-ball against her and her bro, and of course I gladly accept. She's different from all the other girls that worked at our place before. I can sense she is definitely better than the Kim's and Andrea's. She's very cocky about her skillz and has some spunk when talking to me. As soon as I can put the dream and my feelings aside, I look forward to playing against her. I really hope she pushes me to another level because in the end, this is what I got.

SunShine

CCUC, yes I'm back from Chicago yet I feel empty handed with a 2nd place trophy. The past couple of days, I've received a lot of congrats on our 2nd place finish. However, is it just me but man I'm disappointed with 2nd place. I mean nobody remembers 2nd place. In the end, CCUC deserved it more because I believed they outplayed us and they made their shots when it counted. Hats off to them, and to their fallen team member.

It was nice to talk to Congo and the rest of his team afterwards. They each came up to me individually, to say that they admire the heart that I play this game with. Their strategy was to knock me around, but I kept coming back at them. Boy did I feel like I was in the WWE Royal Rumble game with them. It was nice to chat with them and earn their respect as well, and I look forward to the next time I face them.

Let's see what else happened in Chicago? Well I got to see Joyce and Ben's new place, two totally different extremes of living space. I made a lot of new friends at CCMC with Jarter at their BBQ. I even got a chance to meet Tiff, Jarter's girl and his lil sis, Jenny. Jenny is so cute and I praise God for the fellowship that Jarter and I have. I spent some time going back to CCUC on Sunday talking to Bing and others, while looking forward to next year. I can't believe I spent $40 at Bennigans! Congrats to Bao as well, I look forward to seeing it in 2 years. What's cool was seeing a CBC Finals and that all the teams CBC sent all placed too! You gotta love that Red Rover Defense :) What was disappointing was seeing how weak the A Co-Ed division was this year, although thank goodness the B division provided some entertaining games. Gotta love our hotel rooms too!

It's the company though, that makes me miss the city of Chicago already. I feel like making a road trip back very soon just to visit everybody. Come to think of it, it seems like we're trading people Chicago to Detroit and vice versa.

C.C.U.C. Horse # 18

Let's get it started as it is only like 24 hours away till CCUC! Eh, I decided to go with Britney as this year's dedication. I was suppose to leave and be in Chicago by now. However, God's plan was not for me to go until tomorrow morning. So, I must stay content with His decision and understand why I'm still here in the Twp. I'm looking forward to this weekend, and I just finished packing too. Errr, I still feel as if I forgot something? May the crowd get rowdy this weekend! Only like 4 more hours till I leave for Chicago :)

Life of a Soldier

Man it is only 2 days away from the CCUC Tournament, yet I still have so much to do around here. I'm really looking forward to going this year because it's a chance for me to see many believers from the MidWest region. I love meeting new people from different places and I love seeing old peeps in new places. I'm really hoping that both b-ball teams and Juice's v-ball team can all pull out a championship. You can bet that I'll be at either of the C teams or Juice's games and rallying them on. So much to do, yet I am looking forward to this weekend. Plus I get to see my NY relatives when I come back from Chicago. I look forward to showing them around in Niagara Falls and Toronto. Anyways back to class, but I love this class especially with Margo in there. It's great because I have D, and Monica in there too the more serious ones amongst us. I wonder what night class is gonna be like? I have Erin in there along with Kari and D, so it can't be that bad.

OU Pride ;)