It's been a rough, frustrating, and reflective time the last 48 hours now. The first playing at the CBC tournament, I got to know a few more faces. It was frustrating to see Ying go down in the first game with an injury. Yeah I wanted to play against her team when they were at full strength. But you just don't want to see any player go down with an injury. It was fun though to play against her team because I just want to keep testing my limits. I was told, that if we had another hitter on our team then we would of pulled out on top. For a while I believed that too, but now I still believe that with our team, we could of taken them. I haven't played against a team as skilled as Ying's team in a while. Even during our regular game, I kept trying to attack them in different ways, but man it was hard to find a weak point on their team, but I know that our team still has chance to win. Congrats to their team though, because they just played better than we did. Man that bring an army strategy has worked for them twice now. Just bring an army of players, go to the finals, and let the other team run out of gas.

After the tournament, it was on to Andy's bachelor party. It was just a true guys nite out type of thing. I mean we had steaks, potatoes, corn, king crab, video games, b-ball, videos, farting, burbing, all sorts of other gases, #2's, and the list just goes on. I'm blessed to be around such great friends, and a sense of brotherhood with each other.

After worship, I kept thinking about Kevin's message, well not about Fudge, but his message yesterday at the tournament. I was thinking just in fact how strong prayer is. Granted I feel like I've been slacking in that department lately. It got me thinking about some of my current struggles, what if I prayed or enhanced my prayer life even more, just to see what God will unfold in my life. God has truly blessed Kevin the gift of speaking and being knowledgable of God's Word.

It's frustrating to me, to be like yeah some of put in a great deal of time and effort to put together the video. Only to be critized for not incorporating more chinese into it. It's frustrating to me, that the reason why we didn't is because someone from that congregation signed up for chinese promo. It's frustrating to me, that I now have to babysit or "hold his hand" to help him with the chinese promo. It's frustrating to me, that he has not shown up to any of the retreat meetings. It's frustrating to me, that he is twice as old as I am, and can't even be responsible for at least trying to getting informed of what's going on as a whole.

What else is frustrating, is not being able to possibly be with your friends and play with them. It's frustrating that people only see the game part of it, and perhaps missing our overall picture, which is to build each other up in Christ and to be godly men. I keep thinking about Abraham's situation right now.

It's frustrating to come home and to find out that your basement window has been busted by the neighborhood kids. Although it was an accident, and I'm thankful for the parents to own up to it and is willing to pay for it. But of course, waiting for the window people to come and fix it, is like something I don't have time for.

It's sad that in less than 24 hours I will have to give up my old car. It sucks that I am running low on cash as well now. It's frustrating not being able to serve in this year's VBS. I'm sore, but yet it's kind of a good soreness, if their is such a thing. Tomorrow is a new day, and I guess it is time to start working out again now that the knee has healed (hopefully). I love going to the Rec Center, at times I feel so alone there, yet I can take out all my aggression through every single machine. The Rec Center is almost like my happy place, it's a place where I can just go and push myself to the limits, and not be bothered by distractions.

Last frustration, is to see the Spurs win the championship. Kudos to Tim Duncan though, I just love how he masters all the fundamentals of the game.

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